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I'm so happy this made sense and you can relate! I was worried it made less sense written out than it did in my head

Me being a werewolf and alterhuman is really weird. Because I AM a werewolf. One who can’t really shift, but still, a werewolf. I am a human who can turn into a wolf. But that human part of me isn’t human. My therianthropy, otherkinity, alterhumanity, etc. is what makes up that human side for me. Those identities may not be physical but they do make me even less human. I am an animal to my core. Is this relatable to anyone?? I’m bad at explaining things so sorry if this doesn’t make sense

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Fellow werewolf here to throw my thoughts in.

For me, there isn't a cut and dry answer.

I AM human. And i'm also not human. Fully human and fully other. I feel these things in different amounts on different days, but neither side is lesser. Just less active.

Even when I'm completely out of touch with my humanity, i'm human. And even when i'm out of touch with my kin self, i'm still a werewolf.

Some of it is my body, sure. But even when I feel that animality in my bones- it doesn't eradicate the human side.

I think what this means is that being human isn't something measurable or tangible to me. It's more of an essence- something that endures even in the absence of recognisable traits. And being a werewolf is the same.

I'm not a human that BECOMES a werewolf.

I'm a human that IS a werewolf. Expressing differently at different times, but never anything less.

Never not me.

Me being a werewolf and alterhuman is really weird. Because I AM a werewolf. One who can’t really shift, but still, a werewolf. I am a human who can turn into a wolf. But that human part of me isn’t human. My therianthropy, otherkinity, alterhumanity, etc. is what makes up that human side for me. Those identities may not be physical but they do make me even less human. I am an animal to my core. Is this relatable to anyone?? I’m bad at explaining things so sorry if this doesn’t make sense

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Have A Safe and Happy Full Moon!

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God As Otherkin

I want to talk to you about how being otherkin, and growing up (distantly) religious, has influenced my understanding of God. If that interests you, then buckle in.

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My family wasn't religious growing up. My parents weren't, neither were my siblings. My grandma however, was. I did the prayers she told me to do before bed, and sat quietly while she read and explained various parables and passages from her text.

To me, religion was a thing that I was told to do. Not a belief that I had.

Eventually, that changed somewhat. I began "making up" my own prayers. Treating God as something to talk to, even if I wasn't getting any answers.

Over time however, that faded. I began to proudly proclaim myself an atheist at first. Then an agnostic.

In terms of conventional beliefs regarding God, I'm still agnostic. I don't believe in any of the Gods outlined by any religions I'm currently aware of.

Yet now that I'm an adult I find myself seeing nature in a very similar way to how I experienced God and religion.

A distant force, vast and on some level incomprehensible. Capable of being spoken to, but not likely to answer you. A thing to which you belong, without ever really understanding what it is.

People talk in reverence about being in the presence of their deity. In a sense, I feel similarly about nature. It isn't a reverence exactly, but a sense of awe and even smallness.

My kintype isn't quite human, nor is it an animal exactly. But it belongs to that world anyway. Made in the image of this complex web that I don't fully understand.

As a werewolf, I see myself as a product of nature. Even though my kind may have never existed in the wild, in a way we did. The myth of the werewolf is in many ways, a fear of the natural world. I am every predator that mankind has ever been afraid of. And yet I am also none of them.

When I'm out there in the wilderness, there's the feeling of connecting to my kintype. But there's also another feeling. The feeling of being surrounded by something ancient, indisputable, and in a way powerful.

That's my God. Not a definable figure, or a thinking being from another world. Instead, a vast force comprising every living and inanimate thing. The organic and inorganic history that shaped my bones.

An invisible shepherd.

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currently obsessed with making these moodboards idk why

(feeling very wolfy, dunno why)

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Its me, your feral godmother

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Crescent moon dance 4 the win!!

GUESS WHAT DAY IT IS!!! WOOO!!! 22 WOLF IN THE DEN!!! YOURE ALL INVITED TO MY CRESCENT MOON DANCE TONIGHT!!! 🌘🌑🌒

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Sound Walking

I wanna share an experience I think you guys would find interesting!

I recently got the opportunity to do something called a "sound walk"

Essentially they take a group of volunteers and give them each a pair of headphones that are connected to a high power microphone. Then everyone gets taken on a guided tour of different locations and they get to hear the world in a vastly different way.

This is a whole step beyond my "otherkin training" idea if you've seen that post. Rather than pushing the body to take on more attributes of my kintype, I got a chance to use technology to capture an attribute of my kin in a way I could never recreate naturally.

Furthermore- it felt like I had been primed for this my whole life. I've always considered myseld to have good hearing- not incredible but good enough to hear things like people approaching from outside a house.

At the end of the tour, when they asked us to share any insights we had, I was the only person to put up my hand and give a detailed breakdown of what I had heard and what that meant. I talked about how spaces were defined by the sound they contained, how sounds transform over time in ways that are normally imperceptible, and how the same sound behaves differently in different places.

All in all, 10/10 experience. Would reccomend to all of you.

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do me a solid and just reblog this saying what time it is where you are and what you’re thinking about in the tags.

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Shuffle your favorite playlist and post the first five songs that come up. Then copy/paste this ask to your favorite mutuals. 💌🩷

These asks always make my day. I'm gonna cheat a little by listing the top 6 from my current playlist, rather than the top 5

• PVP - Ken Ashcorp

• Quiet Please! - Dan Bull

• Anywhere but Here - Easton

• You'll Understand When You're Older - Lovejoy

• The Wolf - SIAMES

• Verbatim - Mother Mother

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This is crazy impressive!! Its like 3x the size of my collection! Maybe I'll treat myself to a new collar soon 🤔

my collar collection

📷 by me

(I’m aware some are technically chokers and two are chains but idc )

petplay and other kink dni im a minor<3

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Self Portrait In Red

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Do you belive a person could be a wolf therian and a werewolf otherkin cause I been toke no before

If people can have multiple kintypes, then perhaps therians can also have a kintype. Identity isn't exactly a science, it's a personal experience.

I'd say that if it makes sense to you, then that's good enough.

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A world without relationship uncertainty? Sign me up. In all seriousness, I second the whole "being able to smell my friends scents on my clothes" as a comfort.

I think soft omegaverse fanfiction is such a comfort to me because it portrays a much more instinctual society. Nobody can completely hide their emotions, or pretend they don’t have instincts, and everyone in their world has to cope with the vulnerability this creates. You carry the scent of your loved ones with you. You don’t have to worry as much that someone doesn’t like you in the same way, or that they’re planning to betray, or that they don’t know how much you love them when everyone’s emotions are in the air. You can sense and influence their emotions in a way that neurodivergent people in particular often struggle with. It means the world to me when I go home after being with a friend and being able to smell them on my clothes.

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If you ever want to chat about yourself, I'm more than happy to listen. No pressure either. Oh and if you find a more active server let me know! Both of the one's I'm in are silent as the grave

I really really wanna talk about my personal lycanthropy but I've been sitting on it like an egg bc I don't know what to talk about and I'm to anxious to talk to anyone else about it

I really really really wanna socialize with other 'thropes but Jesus God Fuck everytime I try to I feel like im going I to cardiac arrest or like my heart is gonna explode and bruh it is killing me

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reblog if you're a fucked up creature 👍🏾

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I'm glad I was able to express things in a way you can relate to. I actually made this post because I didn't see anyone talking about the experience. Wishing you the best <3

Normality as Otherkin

Being otherkin for me right now is, I suppose calm. It isn't all gnashing teeth and rushing blood. It isn't all quadrobics and vocals.

When I discovered myself about two years ago, there was a period of intense self expression. Suddenly, after years of burying this side of myself- I remembered who I was. And I had a community to share that with (you guys).

It was constant quadrobics, vocal practice, buying gear, and moodboards galore.

Things are different now.

I still know who I am, but it's not an adventure anymore. I've reclaimed what I am. And while I have a lot to figure out, my identity is more hollistic now. My kinself is just part of my everyday life.

I growl and bark around friends, I climb the stairs on all fours, I wear my collars in public, I dress in ways that remind me of myself, I chose an academic subject where I can bring my experiences to the table in a meaningful way.

I've normalized my identity as an otherkin. I've become more whole, the way I was as a kid.

And in the process, things are more calm.

In some ways it feels like a loss, but I think its more of a transformation. Fitting for me as a shapeshifter.

I still get those periods of intensity where the tension between my two sides reemerges. But now those periods are the outliers.

This is where I am in my journey. Thank you for reading.