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A visitor dropped it.

How did that happened? I'm great.

I just found a really cool watch

Where did you find it?

I’m..okay. Jake..and I are together. How are you?

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Not exactly

How are you hun?

I just found a really cool watch

Did you find it..in someone’s room?

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Journal entry

Face it.

You're always falling because you're not paying attention, if you're not paying attention then how am I suppose to get better when the only person who, and you're not even doing it for free. Why do you think I'm always pushing and pushing and hurting and trying so hard to get people to see how fucked up they really are? I just need them to see as much as I see so then they will tell me too. But they don't. Few people do.

Whatever, I need my god damned pills. No wonder why everyone is so fucking depressed, you're creating zombies.

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I just found a really cool watch

I'm keeping it.

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She's always the strong one. She never saw this but she was always the strong one of the family. Pretty messed up but at least she's still here. It's like... it's like I don't know who I am anymore, and I've been so stupid that I forgot about her, about how important she really is, and I fucking hate that becuase it could've been too late to know that if Tobias wasn't there to save her.

"Austin Hayes needs to be sedated."

Well, if she’s still alive, there’s still hope that she can be happy and healthy, right?

It always is. Especially when they don’t expect to be saved.

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I've always felt sorry for them.

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No one believes I will get better. So... why should I?

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Like wolfs.

Yeah, she isn't dead if that's what you're asking. Tobias found her in time. She's been sleeping all day. I found the letter she wrote. Pretty fucked up.

"Austin Hayes needs to be sedated."

And they usually come back in packs.

Wow, Lisa. Dahlia? I’m sorry. Is she okay?

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At least they shut up and walk away with shame. Until they come back.

Fine... I've missed you too. My pretty little liar tried to... kill herself last night.

"Austin Hayes needs to be sedated."

I’ll remember that one next time.

How have you been, Lisa? I’ve missed you.

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And she wanted to sedate you for that?! Bitches be crazy, Austin.

Got myself in solitary for spitting at one.

"Austin Hayes needs to be sedated."

Just threatened a nurse that I’d kill her if she came anywhere near me.

I just don’t like needles.

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What did you do to be considered shot worthy, Austin?

"Austin Hayes needs to be sedated."

Bite me. I do not.

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You think that's me? You think I'm crazy?

How did you do it? Come back here everyday? Why did you? W-why do you?

Anyone need a Doctor?

You have to be willing to try to get better and do anything to get better…but unfortunately for some people all the therapy and meds in the world won’t do anything. I can not do anything about anyone’s mental state, I take care of bodies. As far as what’s going on with the therapists, I wouldn’t know. I know when I was a patient I didn’t give a rats ass…and if it wasn’t for my mentor that really helped me through it…I’d probably be dead right now.

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I'm. so. tired. of that FUCKING SENTENCE! Don't you get it?! It's never going to get better. It's never going to be okay! WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO SEES THAT!? I'm not even saying it as a bad thing, I'm saying it like it is. Like it always has been. It's been over a year and I'm never even close to getting better.

Is that my fault? Is it your fault? The therapist's fault?

MY DAD MY MOM MY EX BOYFRIEND, MY SISTER, MY GRANDFATHER, THE PEOPLE THAT LOVED ME, THE PEOPLE THAT DIDN'T? WHO'S THERE TO BLAME?

Anyone need a Doctor?

How can she hate you and love you at the same time? I think you just need to be there for your sister right now. Tell her that no matter what you love her and sisters are forever and that you need her. I’ll go check on her to see how she’s doing, okay? 

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Dahlia tried to kill herself last night. She's alright now. But... she tried again. She left a note for me... I read it. She hates me, Oliver. She really hates me. She said she loved me that she was sorry, but she really hates me.

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Woah slow down Lisa. Who? What happened? Whatever it is…I’ll do my best to take care of it.

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She tried to kill herself, Archer. She really tried to kill herself...

Anyone need a Doctor?