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I totally agree with this. I love Audrey, but boy, she and Aki did Max dirty, it’s so heartbreaking

Aki and Audrey breaking up with Max and then going back on their pact all for all or none for none infuriates me

Here’s the thing:

Max himself calls it out, “this is not a relationship! It’s the love story of Aki and Audrey and sometimes Max”. it was never “all for all or none for none”. Aki and Audrey treated Max the way children would a puppy, he’s cute and lovable when they want him, but when he actually needs attention they make it someone else’s problem. It wasn’t “all for all or none for none” it was “Aki, Audrey, and their pet boyfriend Max”

They weren’t ready for that kind of relationship and while I understand being scared to come out, they made Max hook up with other people and literally forced him into the closet (canonically he was in there so long he had time to color-code Aki’s entire wardrobe) when he’d bring up coming out, they’d agree and then back out last minute. They only loved Max on their terms

Aki and Audrey never loved Max, they loved the idea of him, they loved the dopamine rush he gave them so they wanted to keep him, not as a partner, but as a glorified sex toy they could just put in a drawer when they were done with it

Max however, genuinely loved Aki and Audrey, the one thing he wants most in the world is unconditional love, but with Aki and Audrey…their love was conditional. He bent over backwards to make them happy, setting aside his own feelings multiple times so he could appease them

To quote Max directly in season one, episode ten

“I’ve been your dealer, your sex toy, your therapist, your agent and lawyer, but one thing I’ve never been to you is your friend, because if I was you would notice…how much it goddamn hurts every time you use me to make yourselves seem, and feel, and look better”

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Little old Italian lady: Do you have zucchini?

Me: Yes, right here.

Lady: Is how much?

Me: $2.99 a pound.

Lady: It's usually $1.49.

Me: Yes, in the summer.

Lady, pauses, then grabs two: I put it in a soup.

Me: Oh nice, what kind are you making?

Lady: You will not fantasize about my soup.

And then she walked away. "You will not fantasize about my soup" will be in my head forever. I love you, little old Italian lady.

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I like calm men. Men who don’t shout or break things when they’re mad. Men who tell you exactly how they feel. Men who communicate. Men who talk you in a gentle, low voice telling you what made them mad or what you did wrong, but never blame you and make you feel bad about it.

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I know the US government acts like a corporation but it’s not.

Not voting isn’t the same as a boycott. Because you can’t bankrupt a government by not voting. All you get by not voting is less control over what the money is doing.

The money comes from taxes, not voting. Abstaining from voting does nothing to reduce the governments ability to get money and spend it on shit.

So yes, sometimes you vote to reduce harm because not voting WILL NOT REDUCE HARM.

It’s not a boycot. Abstaining doesn’t take power from the government. It just reduces the number of people they feel answerable to.

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hannah muehi

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before you go to bed tonight I want you to remember that it took a lot of courage to leave behind what’s not for you anymore. If you’re strong enough to let go, then you’ll be strong enough to find what’s next for you. you’ve got this, good night.

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This is your sign to stop hurting yourself. No more self harm, physically, emotionally, no more staying awake until 3am, no more starving yourself or crazy diets, no more going days without a shower, no more talking badly about yourself, no more villainizing yourself, no more punishment and cringing about every word you said, no more overexercising and toxic friends and abusing substances, this is your year of healing, this is your sign for change.

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010. I've made a Notion template!

Are you a Notion user? If yes, how and where do you use it? I use it for both work and graduate school. I heard about Notion in 2019 but did not have time to explore it until the onset of the COVID-19 pandemic a year later. It’s weird, talking about something already four years old, but hey, it’s still a going concern, so there we go. So, back to Notion. Lately, I have tried to figure out how to…

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011. January, I love you, but you're freaking me out.

Ah, the new year! Brand new beginnings, fresh starts, and all that, but I’m beginning to think that January feels like an eternity, yet I keep myself in check, lest the whole year will spin as fast as a Beyblade that’s out of control. Does that make sense? God, I hope so. 2023 was a rollercoaster. It’s a rollercoaster that I do not want to get back on to again. Let me be a bit honest here–the…

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Some skinny pretty white girl needs to post a tiktok like "Come with me to get a library card 💞💞" and record herself going to the library and filling out the application and etc and it needs to go viral so people start going to the library

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We all know by now that I am ALL FOR being annoyed/upset/angry about the Bridgerton release dates, but don’t aim that at the actors? They have no control or choice in the decision of the producers and production company and are likely just as let down (but can’t show it) but the circumstances.

There’s a reason I rant on my tumblr posts but don’t comment the same thing on posts from the actors/crew.

Anyway, screw capitalism but support the arts!

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Mr. Bates, if we have to face this, then we will face it as husband and wife. I will not be moved to the sidelines to watch how you fair from a distance with no right even to be kept informed. I will be your next of kin and you can’t deny me that.

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do you ever see a person and you are overcome with incredible fondness? and you just think "oh." but not in a romantic or sexual way you are just filled with warmth and it makes you happy, it just does. and you think "i'm so happy you exist. i'm happy you are somewhere out there in the world, doing your thing". it's love but also not entirely

like people are lovely and i feel it in my entire chest like a burning candle that smells like roses and a sunny day

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009. Opening up again.

For months, I wanted to keep my thoughts to myself. And even so, during these months, I have been very remiss in writing in this blog turned-diary. I had fears that people would find my little cubbyhole on the internet, and everything I write about would be placed under the microscope. Yeah, succinctly put, I was afraid of being judged.  But I realised, that as one reaches a certain age (I shall…