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It's the fact that as the Headmaster is helping Atsushi, he's telling him he despises him. It's the fact that the Headmaster says he'll be gone after today. It's the fact that Atsushi doesn't blame himself for what happened to him anymore, and it's because of that realization that the Headmaster can finally leave him alone. It's the fact that Akutagawa realizes that he doesn't care about Dazai anymore, he cares about Atsushi and the lesson that Atsushi was trying to teach him, at the same time Atsushi is learning the lesson that Akutagawa was trying to teach him—that he shouldn't blame himself for his past, just because of the Headmaster. It's the fact that Akutagawa heard him when he was a vampire. It's the fact that their souls are fundamentally connected through everything. It's That Which Drives Us to Act: A Mysterious Thing Called the Heart.

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KOI FIC FOR KOI DAY

As promised, the Kaidou/Reader oneshot is here!!! Happy birthday to my specialest babygirl, here's 7,000 words of angst and character study to celebrate! :Dc

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hihi! im curious how a kind master being in a relationship w the gun boys would be like? are there any cute domestic things they do or want their master to do, what do they think about when master takes them out on dates and treats them like an s/o? for love1, like2, f, kirsch and mauser! thank you <3

Love1

The idea of a relationship catches Love1 entirely off guard. Not that he doesn't want it! It's just so far from anything he expected that he's left struggling to know how to react. Dates, gifts, and physical affection are all overwhelmingly affectionate— and the best thing Love1 can think to do is use his usual comedy to laugh off the almost painfully genuine feelings that come back to claw at his heart every time. Once you're treating him like a partner, Love1 gets quickly, pathetically attached. And while he's far from high-maintenance, the best way he knows to show affection is the same clingy, over-dramatic pestering usually directed at Like2.

Like2

In a romantic relationship, Like2 still approaches things transactionally. He feels safer with a familiar pattern to fall back on, so he offers himself at his cutest and best in exchange for being treated like your partner. The dates, gifts, and near-constant physical affection feel like more spoiling than he could ever deserve, but Like2 wants it so badly that he'll try to trust it anyway. He's a needy partner, always begging for shopping sprees and fancy dates, but that bratty attitude is softened by how he offers you his everything in return. He'll make himself as pretty and pleasing as possible, so you won't stop wanting him.

F

F has a very, very hard time comprehending that you want an actual relationship with him— not just exclusive rights to using him as your toy. He's a bit hopeful that it will be better for his Master to be the only one hurting and using him, but he still spends a long while constantly resorting to his usual flirting and masochistic advances. Even when he starts to realize you're serious, romance flusters him horribly. Dates and gifts and soft, non-sexual touch all feel disorientingly beyond the realm of things he could ever deserve. He likes it, though, so much that he's perpetually terrified of messing up the one nice relationship he's ever had.

Kirsch

As a partner, he's halfway between a spoiled sugar baby and a possessive little brat who will do anything to keep his place as your "favorite". Kirsch sees the relationship as more of a reward or privilege he's won than an equal partnership, and he's actively striving to make sure he'll keep earning it. He's not picky about things like gifts and dates— so long as you're paying attention to him, he's content to cuddle up to you and (somewhat smugly) gush about how grateful he is for Master's love. However, while he's not hard to please, he is viciously jealous of any other guns who seem like they might take his special relationship with you away.

Mauser

Even if you treat your relationship with Mauser like a romantic one, he... doesn't quite seem to get the message. In Mauser's mind, he's your bodyguard and tool before all else. If you call him your partner in a different way, he'll accept it unquestioningly, but it doesn't really change how he acts with you. Just being close makes him happy. Hold him in your lap whenever possible, give him orders directions to keep him busy, and praise him every time he does something that pleases you— Mauser is more than content with that. He struggles to see your relationship as anything resembling "equal", but he's happy just knowing that he's yours.

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Ask game for Gretchen

34, 50 and 54 please :)

34. Does your oc have a pet? If they could have another one or if they were to get one, what would it be? How well could they care for it?

OMG I finally have a character who does have a pet!

Gretchen has a Chihuahua named Killa :3 He weighs like 3.5 pounds and has no teeth. He sits in a special bed that's on Gretchen's dashboard and he doesn't react to literally anything (Useful for when Gretchen is doing crime, he doesn't react to gun fire) and he likes to cuddle Gretchen. She absolutely babies him too.

50. How attentive is your oc? How perceptive are they? How easily do they get distracted?

Gretchen's kinda dumb at times. She really gets through life with brute force and doesn't really care for details or nuisances. She isn't easily distracted though, she tends to lock in real hard.

54. How would you describe your oc’s voice to sound like? Do you have any voice claims for them?

So I actually made Gretchen in Saints Row 2 and that was like 90% of the basis for her character. And I see her voice entirely as Voice 2, so you can hear it here.

100 OC Questions

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Can I add my two cents to this? I wanna add my two cents to this.

Is Evergreen's design kinda boring? Maybe. I mean, Ever, like many characters, has the fatal flaw of being a (secondary) female character in Fairy Tail. Up until we get the S rank exam, Cana was kinda bland, just a drunk, fun for sure, but little else going on other than like, loyalty and a fighting spirit. Mirajane? One dimensional as fuck until we start learning about Lisanna, about her trauma, about why she's like that, and we also learn that she's a little shit (affectionate). Even Erza is oftentimes reduced to the dumb knight (although she is a little naive, and a little awkward because she was a literal slave for... What? Six years? Definitely formative years of her life, which led to some extreme isolation and shielding herself from the world, and thus developed some opinions and some views that are very particular) and Lucy to *checks notes* dumb blonde (who's actually both really capable and smart and has Common Sense which is really needed in a group that contains Natsu (the Common Sense braincell is passed between Lucy and Gray like the empathy braincell is passed between Lucy and Erza)) BUT I'M DERAILING THE POINT. Back to Evergreen!

She actually has some interesting things, once you start stringing them. She always wears hyperfemenine clothes, but likes tacky shit, such as tiger print. She wears jackets, but unlike Freed, who uses the most "wrong century, dude" jackets, she goes for the fur lined ones. In a sense, maybe she is guilty of being a middle point between the other three. Serious like Freed, but with a clear sense of humor. Welcoming and extroverted, like Bickslow, but still guarded and ready to draw limits. Tacky and elegant like Laxus, but a little more purposeful and a little less of a brat. She has pretty distinct dresses (short, colorful, often with prints, always showing her guild mark), coupled with jewelry, and a fan, which is a pretty distinct choice, imo, I don't think there are many characters who use them in Fairy Tail, and are associated with aristocracy, or maybe even secrecy since you can hide behind them. She dresses like a rich kid. But she also dresses like a little girl who never got to have fun with fashion. She's childish, but also mature, and for once, instead of being a bland character for it, I think it gives her an identity. Because she's reliable. Because that same maturity makes her an older sister type you can go to if you need help, and that childishness shows that she's crafted a place where she can be herself, where she can be petty, bratty even. One might even point at her as the little sister. But... If they spoil her rotten, why is she guarded? Where does she come from to have such opposing characteristics, such sorrow behind her warm smiles and effusive demeanor? Some might say she does indeed come from nobility as well, and going against its rigidity. Others, that she comes from a background similar to Mirajane: poor, rejected, trying too hard to make up for the bad in her life. We'll never know for sure, because Mashima doesn't care too much about secondary characters, and Ueda clearly dislikes the Raijinshuu. Personally? I like it better that way.

However, we also have a few other interesting things about Evergreen. For example, her glasses. She doesn't need them, arguably (maybe she does. Wouldn't that be ironic, needing the very thing that contains your magic because you can't see shit?), but still wears them. Why? Because that keeps her magic at bay, just like it happens with Bickslow. However... One could argue she does has her magic under control, considering there IS a change in her eyes when she uses magic, and she can control whether to blow up her statues or not. It is also implied that she could undo her magic whenever, which means, again, that she has it under control. We see that Bickslow also has control over whether he possess someone or not, despite using an extra layer of safety, which... That's exactly what Evergreen's glasses are. Extra protection. For other people. Why? For starters, that says a lot about how she actually cares enough about other people to keep them safe, but also alludes to a time where she wasn't in control of it and actually needed her glasses to prevent accidents. Which, angst, trauma, a lot of baggage.

On the topic of magic, we see her use both of her magics, proficiently. She's a capable mage, moreso than Freed on that specific subject, I'd dare argue. Because Freed is so repulsed by his demonic magic that he refuses to use it. It also kinda points to a certain ruthlessness, or, perhaps, that she had to learn to use every weapon available to her to keep herself safe. Of course, she gets nerfed afterwards, quite horribly might I add, but that's the life of a secondary character in a manga that doesn't know how to handle them. We also see that Laxus himself recognizes her magic.

One could also link her to Medusa due to the stone eyes. There are multiple points about her, and multiple interpretations, too. The ruthless monster, the misunderstood woman. The cursed victim, the woman given a tool to defend herself and never be hurt again. A priestess who dishonored her goddess, a goddess who was forced to punish her priestess and found a roundabout way of giving her a gift. Medusa is a frightening monster who can turn people to stone, but she has also been widely used as a symbol for shelter and protection for women and victims of abuse.

On the topic of statues, too, she says that "no matter how ugly a monster is, it becomes beautiful once turned into a statue" which could betray either an artistic inclination (and a very specific taste within it, such as sculptures, and even the grotesque) or a certain safety that comes with knowing that what's in front of her cannot move, cannot touch her, cannot hurt her. Perhaps, not again. Perhaps, it hints at both.

We also have two pretty distinct, interesting things about Evergreen that come up on Fantasia and then are forgotten about because of Reasons. These are interlinked, or overlap, but I'll try to separate them!

One, is her desire for recognition. Her desire for approval. She's adamant about how she is the one who deserves the title of Titania, of the fairy queen. I should re watch the anime, but I'm pretty sure she means it both in beauty and in strength. She's pissed that Erza is given this things that we presume Everglades has worked pretty hard for, considering her attitude towards the subject. One could assume she feels pushed aside, overshadowed, and it doesn't sit well with her AT ALL. However, if we look at point two, there's another fun thing.

*Of course, we know that Erza has strong reasons for this untouchable, all powerful knight, and the she worked her ass off for what she accomplished, but... Does Evergreen know? Or is Erza just a standoffish brat that seems to get everything handed to her on a silver plate? Is she, perhaps, jealous of the favoritism there seems to be towards Erza? Does she, perhaps, wish she would be treated like that? Is there something else to infer about her desire for status? Is it, perhaps, about security and not just recognition?

Two: she's positively obsessed with fairies. She joined the Fairy guild, she has fairy wings (that get forgotten about...) and she declares that she IS a fairy, that she deserves the title of Fairy Queen because she's the closest to an actual fairy among all of them. Her magic, too, is referred to as fairy magic, the same way Mavis' is or maybe even more, considering the name is in Japanese instead of English. Fairy dust, fairy gatling... Leprechauns are a type of feeric creature from Irish folklore, while Goblins are considered to be elves, who's depiction varies in different myths and regions, but overall remain within the bounds of fae. One could argue that she even has ties to Mavis herself, or Tenrou in general. Many have pointed this out better than I could, and with more elaborate headcanons, but overall that is definitely a point worth checking, just like Freed's connection to demons, or Bickslow's to souls. Not only does it point her as not even human possibly, but also as having ties to the very founder of the guild, or even beyond.

After Fantasia, we also see that she can be quite protective, courageous, and that despite her haughty demeanor, she cares deeply. During Tenrou, we also see that she gets offended at Freed not picking her despite knowing it was going to be that way, which further fuels the rejection-slash-inferiority complex thing.

Anyway, these are just my (slightly more than) two cents.

Tldr? Ever is actually a pretty interesting and underrated character that is often overlooked by both the manga and the fanbase, and writing this actually made me realize how fun she is too.

My thoughts on my Evergreen origin hc

I hate it. Let me rephrase that: it doesn’t sit right with me.

The more I think about it, the more I realize that Evergreen is sadly an uninteresting character. She doesn’t have a unique character design like Freed or Bickslow, she doesn’t have any weird personality quirks like Cana’s drinking habits, Gray’s stripping, or Elfman’s obsession with being manly, and she doesn’t even have that much character development to begin with. Laxus may not have a very unique design or any odd personality traits, but he gets a fair amount of screen time that allows us to see his character development and that makes him an interesting character. Freed may not have as much screen time as Laxus, but he has a unique appearance that makes him stand out from the rest of Fairy Tail, and he is very devoted to the Thunder Legion. It’s something that can be explored and add depth to its character. 

For example, we learn that Elfman’s obsession with being manly actually comes from the guilt he feels about killing Lisanna. He tries to be a good man bc he doesn’t want to make the same mistakes that led to Lisanna’s death. 

Cana’s boarder line alcoholism is actually a coping mechanism to deal with the fear and anxiety of telling Gildarts that she’s his daughter.

Gray’s stripping habit stems from his childhood when he was learning Ice Make Magic with Lyon under Ur’s guidance.

All of these characters’ seemingly strange behaviors are actually hints at there being more to them than meet the eye. Each of these traits are explained and it adds richness to the character. It gives them more of a personality, like you could actually explain and share them with someone else.

With Evergreen, you just can’t and it sucks. I do find it upsetting that for a group of characters that got a whole arc dedicated to them, hardly anything is known about any of them. Not only that, but one of their members is sadly uninteresting compared to the rest of them. Yes, you can wonder where Evergreen got her haughty personality from, but that doesn’t make the creative juices flowing like Freed’s loyalty to Laxus. I’m not sure what could’ve been done to make Ever’s character more interesting, maybe give her a more unique character design, as well as a last name for crying out loud, but there’s not much to say about why she’s the way she is or where she came from.

I’m hoping that I can redeem myself when I do Bickslow’s origin bc he is definitely an interesting character at least design wise, and hopefully I can come up with better ideas for him than I did for Ever. If you have any suggestions or thoughts for anything, don’t be afraid to let me know in the comments. Take care!

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how upset do you think sieg would be if his current master wanted to give him more piercings, with a "it's totally different this time because im the one giving them to you <3" energy

It somewhat depends on how your relationship with him has been up until that point— if you've been just another cruel Master treating him like a failure or a toy to abuse, Siegblut hates the idea (and makes that very clear). However, if you've been kind enough to get him attached (even if that kindness comes with a layer of cruelty), his feelings about the new piercings are more conflicted. On one hand, they're just more permanent reminders of how he's been humiliated and used. On the other... these being your mark on his body does indeed make it seem more special, and Sieg is so desperate to feel properly owned that that's almost enough to make him stop protesting and let you do as you please. When he inevitably loses you, at least these "memories" will last.

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*inhales* hand milking hybrid Murata

I'm not sure if you mean "milking" in the cum sense or the literal milk sense, so I hope the option I went with is okay~ ;3c

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Even if he's genuinely allowing you to touch him like that, shame has Murata tense and snarling, lips peeled back to reveal sharp canines and a vicious expression spoiled by his flushed-red cheeks and hazy, half-closed eyes. His ears are pressed back against his head as far as they'll go, and a clenched-tight jaw is the only thing keeping back the whiny, loud noises that threaten to escape with every fresh spark of pleasure. With his knot already swollen, every slow pass of your hand over his cock is torture. He's already come, but his body doesn't seem to get the message— leaking all over your fingers even when he's so raw and oversensitive that it takes active effort not to flinch and jerk away. Milking Murata dry does wonders for his temper, however, and the limp, empty-headed aftermath is almost worth the torment that got him there.

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“But maybe you’ve been torturing yourself.” Lucy walks over and sits on the side of the bed, taking his hand in hers. “Anyone would break, Freed. And this incredible ability of yours to bury every genuine thing that you feel isn’t self control, it’s a fucking trauma response.” Freed flinches. “Because being numb meant being smart meant being safe. Because that’s what you were taught by people who should have taught you very different things.” She squeezes his hand, and she looks a little heartbroken in her own right. “You love him,” she says softly, “and you're convinced that he’ll never love you back. And your solution to this was to kill every soft, mushy feeling and bury whatever you couldn’t in the sex and drama of men that could never make you feel those terrifying, wonderful things.”

Guys i think i ate

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Full offense but your writing style is for you and nobody else. Use the words you want to use; play with language, experiment, use said, use adverbs, use “unrealistic” writing patterns, slap words you don’t even know are words on the page. Language is a sandbox and you, as the author, are at liberty to shape it however you wish. Build castles. Build a hovel. Build a mountain on a mountain or make a tiny cottage on a hill. Whatever it is you want to do. Write.

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Hybrid!Siegslut with a master that helps with the “punishments”? Like they can’t make them stop (and maybe they wouldn’t want to) but they can hold him, Do some of the more intimate stuff, Pet him sweetly and coo sweet praise for how good he’s doing? He’s such a sweet little moomoo and he deserves it.

It's not better like that. Or at least, Siegblut doesn't want to think that it is. The things the soldiers do to him are awful and painful and violating, and your stupid comfort doesn't change any of that. But no matter how much he protests the "pointless coddling", Sieg still melts every time. No amount of bluster and pride can stop him from leaning into your hands every time you pet behind his velvety, delicate ears, and the praise hits him even harder— his face flushing violently red while he tries to twist around and hide so that you don't see the pathetic expression surely seeping through. The cutesy praise turns his insides to mush every time, which is not at all helpful when he's already fighting not to let the soldiers find anything else to mock. It's humiliating, but Master's soft hands and sweet words are utter bliss no matter what's being done to him.

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making dreyse fuck Lorenz👁👁

• Lorenz is so terrified of Dreyse that he would do nearly anything to avoid the scenario you're threatening. If it's a punishment, he'll beg and plead and offer other options for how he can atone. If it's just for your amusement, he'll volunteer different ways of humiliating himself— anything but being pinned beneath Dreyse and violated by the Musketeer he fears the most. He's a whimpering, trembling mess while Dreyse prepares him, pinned down because any room to struggle makes him jerk and thrash on pure, fear-driven instinct. He knows this is going to hurt.

• Dreyse, meanwhile, is just trying to get the order over with as quickly and painlessly as possible. He doesn't want to hurt Lorenz. He feels awful about the whole situation, especially when he sees up close how scared the other gun is. But Master's orders are absolute, so the kindest thing he can think to do is try to be gentle. Emphasis on try. Dreyse is big all over, and he really doesn't know what he's doing— a fact not helped by how Lorenz is tense all over from fear. Penetration is bound to be painful, even Dreyse is allowed enough time to work Lorenz open beforehand.

• Even Dreyse's best attempts to be gentle don't help much. While he's clenching his jaw and squeezing his eyes shut, trying to force his body to finish quickly and let this awful order be done, Lorenz is yelping like a kicked puppy with every thrust. He's crying in no time, messy tears running down his scrunched-up cheeks while he babbles mindlessly about how he's going to break. Dreyse is so big that even the slowest motions feel like they're going to tear him apart... but that overwhelming sensation is also what might eventually wring a sudden, near-painful climax out of him before Dreyse can finish. That result is by far the most shameful for him.

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mmmmm cuddlefucking marks, cute puppy getting all desperate for master's warmth, him being soft open and willing

Marks buries his face against your shoulder, drooling slack-jawed onto your skin. He's stretched open so deep it nearly aches, but you're letting him cling and nuzzle his tear-sticky face into the crook of your neck when the pain-pleasure-good gets too much.

You shift just slightly, but the movement jostles the cock inside of him enough to have Marks going nearly cross-eyed. The leg he has hitched around your waist jerks, pulls you closer—

"Master," he pleads uselessly, squirming as much as he can while pinned under your comforting weight.

"Shhhh, puppy, you can take it. Nothing hurts, does it?"

Marks shakes his head. You're so deep inside of him that it feels almost like being loaded, filled— but he's so warm and loose that the stretch doesn't hurt a bit. Your cock slides all the way to the base like he was made for it to be there.

There's not much room to move with the way you have him pinned, but that's hardly a problem when it feels so good just to be held. Every little drag and thrust jostles his insides anyway, until he's trembling all over and gasping for breath because he's close— ready to spill with just one more push.

If you could keep him on the edge forever like this, held close and used in whatever way you see fit, he'd be happy. Anything, if it means he can keep feeling so utterly owned.

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Characters that have never experienced affection before, or haven't experienced it in a long time, finally getting to experience it? Top tier.

Said character freezing up for a second, not really knowing how to respond, but not wanting it to stop? T o p t i e r.

Said character trying to clumsily return the affection in their own way, because this is Good and they don't want it to stop? T O P T I E R.

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idk if you gotten this request like officially BUT spanking Like Two (and any of the other boys of your choice :D) cause they deserves to be spanked (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

Ones who deserve it, huh...? >:3c

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Like Two

He starts out violently opposed to the whole idea— both because of the indignity of it, and because he's deeply concerned that this punishment is bound to turn sexual. He'll curse and kick and struggle until you get him pinned good enough to start... and while he can hold out against the stinging smacks for a while, the eventual high-pitched yelps of pain have Like Two's face going redder than the beaten skin under your palm. And when the discomfort becomes more unbearable than giving up his pride, his whiny, stuffy-nosed pleas for mercy are awfully cute.

Gras

More often than not, beatings serve as an outlet for Gras. He doesn't like getting punished, but physical pain under his Master's hand is intimate and emotionally cathartic in ways that he can't access otherwise. Thus, despite plenty of huffy protests in the lead-up, Gras is a lot more excited about the spanking than he's willing to admit. He'll spit curses and insults when the pain gets overwhelming, struggling in your grip like a pinned animal, finally able to let go of his gentlemanly facade when you're already seeing him at his worst. He's already fucked up badly enough for you to hurt him like this— what's the point in holding back now?

Snider

He's an awful brat about it from the start, rolling his eyes at the very idea you could actually hurt him with bare hands alone. And anyway, if "hurting" is how you want him to be punished, why don't you just send him to the battlefield instead? Snider doesn't exactly break quickly, but he shuts up soon enough once the spanking actually starts to sting— he can endure the pain for quite a while, unsurprisingly, and he won't beg unless you really push him to his limit. He will, however, eventually start snarling protests about how stupid it is to keep him bent over your lap (and those protests are his way of admitting he wants the punishment to end).