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[writingisrandom]

The boulders are cracking; the twigs are snapping; the stars are fading, and they're dragging my life along. Everything is spiraling out of control. 

The wind won't listen to me anymore; the sun keeps blinding my pathway; and the moon no longer my eternal companion. I don't understand. I don't know what to do. 

My eyes are lying; my arms are failing; my legs crying. The earth no longer trusts me. Someone please help me. I can't differentiate anything anymore. I can't believe anything anymore. I can't - 

-11.09.2019

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-14.08.20

[writingisrandom]

Forget it,

You'll be fine

 Block it out,

You'll be fine

    Push it back,

You'll be fine.

       Don't talk,

You'll be fine

          Don't think,

You'll be fine

          Don't remember,

You'll be fine

                Close your eyes,

You'll be fine

                       Cover your ears,

You'll be fine

                             Shut your mouth,

You'll

Be

Fine.

I covered and

Closed and

Blocked and

Pushed and

Caved and

Cracked and

Broke and

Choked and

Never

Ever

Ever

Ever

E  v  e  r   forgot.

-27.06.20

[writingisrandom]

I'm not okay. 

I don't know how to feel. I don't know how to register the letters flying in my head. I don't know how to respond to the notes humming through my veins. 

I'm not okay. 

I can't look at anything anymore. I can't push my eyes to understand the shapes in front of me. I can't force my tongue to correct the vowels spilling through. 

I'm not okay. 

I don't want to feel anything anymore. I don't want to comprehend the unfamiliar consonants slamming against my mind. I don't want to acknowledge the cataclysmic orchestra of pain awaiting it's turn. 

I'm not o k a y 

And I will never be.

-15.09.19

[writingisrandom]

A familiar light in me breathes

an urge to write,

erase and rewrite

away, to weave

back what we erased.

An ocean of a distance,

ignites a sense of resistance,

against the distance of an ocean away.

-11.05.20