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Is it?

Is it too much to ask for a break? God knows I need one, just one A momentary silence A fleeting moment of peace Briefer than a willow feeding off her mother Mother. That’s a word I haven’t said in years. A creature that slithered away from my life A child no more, forced to try. As I was forced out the snake’s womb, I am forced to live. To lay my roots deep within the ground Never to be felled Unmoving, always there waiting for her The snake needed to satisfy her thirst Kin was poison in my veins All I needed was a break. I will break..

I was 16 when I ran I ran far far away I didn’t have a destination Lost in a sea of people Drowning on air I had long been the adult Forced to grow and learn I found my destination A place far far away Where the light doesn’t reach Where my mind lies still Where the flower beds paint the skies Free of the weeds of my brain

I reached the place Where my journey ends Is this the break?

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Talk

You see, thinking is the problem I have no issue dealing with arguments It’s the sensation How can such be true? I long for distraction A disturbance in my thoughts That way I don’t think I write I talk I speak so my thoughts shut up Tumbling deeper than Amenti herself That way I don’t think I don’t want to think I don’t want to be alone with my voices The voices of a time past The voice of a little child asking if mommy is ever gonna love him The voice of a teen wondering if it is worth it I don’t want to hear my voice The voices I had killed years ago And the voices that killed mine A man I used to call father A woman who I used to call mother While to both I was called a mistake I don’t want to think So I talk

(poem is mine but this amazing artwork isn't)

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Heart

Do me a favor and think of a heart. Can you imagine it? The vessels protruding? The blood ushered through each chamber? The fleshiness of it as it beats As if it is speaking or perhaps breathing.

Oh you thought of a heart drawing? why? You know what a heart looks like, after all you do have one. Have you forgotten it? No? Then why. Answer me.

Acquainted with the comfort of ink on a page? Programed to not feel but think? Do as you’re told? They told you to love your parents. You did as you were told They told you to love school, your life, friends. Oh how obedient you were. Don’t refuse it my child for you thought of the heart, didn’t you? You. Did. As. You. Were. Told.

Now stop and listen. It’s still beating isn’t it? Learn. Learn to love those who deserve to be loved, child. Learn to think and feel; they are two sides of the same coin. You will be lied to. You may even believe them. I forgive you; I always will But never forget a heart was never heart shaped. Never let anyone teach you what you were meant to learn.

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This is SO COOL

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TW: mentions of unaliving/sh

Peace

How do you want to die? I thought about this for a while Maybe falling? That’s painless, right? But what a pain would it be to gather my…never mind Starve myself? lock myself somewhere out of sight? No, I love food way too much. Besides it’s painful. Drowning.

Oh relentless water. A perfection Nature’s simple laws down to their core roots Fighting is futile, Submit. Engulfed by water as it fills up my lungs Let go and let it carry me. Carry me to the end or the start. I don’t care The choice was easy really Water was flowing Water was fierce Water was kind Water was free Simple, peaceful water.

Humans. the complexly, simple humans Divided by nature yet joined by thought Those who fall have been falling for a long time Who starve have long denied themselves eating Who drown..Well, who drown have stopped breathing a long time ago No one was there to hear it anyways Just another number to add to the charts

You know, you can learn a lot about people Just ask them

How do you want to die?