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executive dysfunction is legitimately physically uncomfortable. i’ll be trapped between two things, weirdly caught on how-much-time-it-might-take-me. i take hours worried im going to take hours doing things. i’ll sit on the floor for the entire day, caught up in the middle of not-doing the chores i actually do want to be doing.

& the amount of mental energy that goes into it. & the legitimate amount of anger and discomfort and self-hate. is not “being lazy”.  it’d be a lot less work if i didn’t have to fight myself to just get up and do it. 

i just need you to understand it’s not effortless. it’s never effortless. it’s not “okay let me just get up and finally start doing this.” it’s more like. i am slamming my foot on the pedal but the car is in neutral and nothing is moving. it’s more like shouting instructions into a dying telephone. it’s more like being trapped in a small electric box, and someone who hates me is administering shocks. 

im trying. im trying. please help me get up.

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hate madd love my paras love this community love love love HATE MADD hate having my time sucked away from me hate having no life hate failing college loooooove my paras and u guys tho

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*fucked in the head and forever physically drained* "but at least I have my really vivid imagination"

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💭🔮✨ THE ULTIMATE DAYDREAMER’S GUIDE ✨🔮💭

💭 What is it?

This is a guide both for those in the Daydreaming Community, or want to learn more about it. It is meant to be an archive of all things relating to MaDD & ID, and is curated/run/owned by yours truly!

💭 Can I link this on my blog/post/etc?

Yes!! The whole reason this doc was made was so that it can be passed around as a general resource, so you are more than welcome to link it anywhere you want. The same goes for anything linked within the doc itself -- not that I own any of it anyway lol.

💭 Can we give suggestions?

Suggestions are highly encouraged & appreciated! I am only one person running this doc, after all, and will not be able to uncover/document everything without some help. You can send me stuff through DMs or my ask box.

💭 What happened to the original doc?

I wish I knew! It was brought to my attention that it had gotten flaged for review for...some reason. I've tried figuring out how to request a review for it, but it won't work. So I've resorted to just making a new doc. Sucks, but that's all I can do right now.

Because this is a whole new doc, I'm going to be tagging some people so the word gets spread a little bit. Sorry!

@blue-bubonic @writingmadd @thedaydreamdictionary @burningivy @chamomilemanor @dreaminpeaches @daydreaming-memories @scorpiolight-madd @whizzergoingmadd @fallingmaddlyinlove @blue-madd @skiaismadd @maddgicalgirl @heartofdaydreams

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those mitski daydreams always be hitting different fr

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being a girl that doesn't talk to men at all and finally being able to talk to one that has MADD is crazy bc as a man what would you even daydream about... i asked him what his paracosm is about and as soon as he mentioned drake i lost all interest im sorry. he gave me a synopsis. he has a repeat daydream where he makes music and drake reaches out to him for a collab and becomes his best friend and they rule over the music industry. i dont daydream shame but....

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watching the world i created in my head go up in flames after i set the fire

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Word Of The Day: Intercosm

A place in a system that is between a layer/other system area and paracosm. This may be an area with both attributes of a paracosm and the headspace, an area where paratives reside, or any other variety of experiences. Intercosm are not the whole headspace, and may only be accessible through daydreaming.

the names meaning: inter meaning between, among, or in the midst + paracosm

source

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“You are not free until you have no need to impress anybody.”

— Joyce Meyer

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“It’s amazing how much damage can be done when you have nothing but good intentions.”

— Tom Marin

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me everyday

“I am finding my way back to myself again. slowly, patiently, intricately. I am finding roads in between my heart and my mind that connect. I am finding melodies that taste good on my soul. I stray and i take detours occasionally, but I am finding my way back to myself again.”

— Unknown

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Maladaptive Daydream Things pt 2

daydreaming about music video/ anime opening but they're with your paras

going to your daydream for comfort

feeling like your paras are your real friends and family

daydreaming in your sleep, aka you are dreaming and you start dreaming about your paracoms in your sleep

daydreaming in the car/on the bus

finding a new series to have more fictional paras

daydreaming your paras are with you in your current situation

having mega happy positives paracosms but also having very dark and hardcore paracoms

daydreaming paras doing things you want to do/ scared to do/ can't do

daydreaming to get out of your situation

daydreaming so much it makes you miss good time with friends

not fully being in the moment cause of daydreaming

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Maladaptive Daydreaming things

making AMVs of with your paracosms

losing sleep to daydreaming

lying in bed daydreaming

acting out daydreaming

having multiple paracosms you switch from

daydreaming in everyday life, getting lost in daydreaming when you're supposed to be doing things

daydreaming mid conversation

listening to music to get you in a daydreaming mood

starting to daydream after getting triggered

not being able to talk about your paracosms cause theres so much of it and its very complex

daydreaming irl scenarios to see all the options that could happen

maladaptive daydreaming instead of other coping mechanisms like cutting

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When you get a new para it's literally like

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the 'having a fun little daydream world as a child' to "i rely so much upon escapism to escape from the monotony of life that days seem to pass too quickly and sometimes i don't feel real" pipeline

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me trying to convince myself that the whole spectrum of human emotions is a good and necessary thing to feel even if its not comfortable while im actively experiencing emotions that make me feel like my bones are being dissolved in acid

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why is trying to make a new friend so embarrassing. hi. me again. asking for your attention once more even though i am literally just some random person to you. it's because i want to be not just a random person to you. please understand