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something about lunchables cheese just hits different. love being alive.

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life is amazing fish

I think life might be awesome

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spaced out as fuck, do not know my name, forgot the day, no fucking clue whats going on around me. i want pizza with grape jelly on it.

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tried to clean my ears, tics were a bitch, shoved the qtip halfway into my ear

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picked at my skin in several places until my face looked like it had a period and now my tics are being hella annoying because if they find something that hurts they get even more repetitive so im stuck stretching the skin that was picked at ahhhhaha

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today i said something that sounded religious and im a complete atheist and now instead of fearing theres a demon in me im afraid theres a religious person in me

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uh hello party people i have realized that my blog probably isnt very nice for a lot of communities im in so heres my blog hahaha

i swear a lot and lately things have been gross so its been a lot of vents and all of them are bad bc theyre vents but ive been trying to tag them so people can avoid them if they want to but for now i have (will hopefully be updated):

#why did wyett cry today — im literally such a crybaby i have a whole tag for it

#wyetts stupid messed up head — i think paranoia stuff? i dont remember making most of my posts but the most recent one had this tag and it was about paranoia.

i yap about mental stuff on here and sometimes age regression mixed in with a splash of autism and transgenderness, sometimes i even talk about good stuff like interests or happy times which is so awesome sauce

uhh dni if youre a shitty person i guess. like not if you think youre a bad person i think im a bad person too but if you apply to general dni zones then i guess dont interact with me but i dont really care. i dont let stupid shit get under my skin but if you interact with me to be fucking stupid i am not above caling you out and blocking you.

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one of my evil exes told me one time while i was having my first episode that its easier to get through problems if i speak them to others and whoever sees my little corner of the internet cannot see my face so its ultimately easier and its starting to get bad so i may as well put it out there (im only putting this up on my stupid blog because its in my head and it wont get out unless i word vomiy it up)

-the light drives them away. as soon as i am without light i am at risk of them getting me. corners without light are to be avoided. even in the light i am unsafe if i so much as look down the dark hallway.

-i cannot use my bathroom because the layout leaves me vulnerable. should there be an intruder or god forbid they come then i have no escape.

-something is living in my bathtub. it is unseen but most definitely heard. it laughs at me. taunts me while i fucking cry.

-the garage is not to be stepped into without someone with me or the door open. the closed garage is unsafe and they will have me if i venture alone.

-i am not to speak of them. they do not have names or faces because they fluctuate but they are always there and i am in danger.

-i am not to open the door to my bedroom once i am in bed and the overhead light is off. this means that should something impersonate my mother, then it will surely get me while i am sleeping.

-younger siblings in the hallway are not to be trusted after the time passes in which my little brother gets sleepy.

-the alien protects me and should he fall off of the bed i am immediately in danger, no matter how many blankets are wrapped around me.

-the tv also drives them away. the second i turn it off at night the bad creeps in and i must run to my room to not be caught.

-reflections will not be viewed in anything other than the mirror in the master bedroom’s en suite. every other reflection is either tainted or too dark to be seen or trusted.

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OH MY GOD washcloths make showers so much less overstimulating and saves so much energy why havent i been usingg these stupid things all along??

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was today years old when i remembered that all drugs have withdrawal symptoms if you do not keep takig them.

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its a horrible thing to say but i fucking miss my self destructive habits. i miss having a constant source of ‘safety’ i could turn to when everything got too much and i miss having the control it gave me. im a fucking wuss now and all i have is self deprecation, empty suicide threats and tears.

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today on the people wyett surroudns himself with:

his boyfriend trauma dumped on him last weekend. hes been drilling it in his head to not text him ‘hey’. why? because his boyfriend’s incredibly toxic and abusive ex used to text him ‘hey’ when they were breaking up with him over and over again. wyett’s boyfriend then proceeded to tell him he should ride on his motorcycle with him and dismissed wyett’s anxiety surrounding motorcycles. during this dismissal, wyett’s boyfriend said ‘my dad got in an accident once and told me all about it. it was horrifying but that doesnt make me an anxious about motorcycles.’ wyetts dad died in a motorcycle accident. the loss of someone that important in his life is the stem of almost 75% of the issues that makes wyett hate himself.

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my teeth hurt :(

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NOOO NO NO NO NO WHY WHY WHY I CANNOT ELIEVE NO WHAT WHY NO AGH OH MY GOD BOBBY NO

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ealy raly sml

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sosmal