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     I have moved, but if you want the url, just message me ! I’ve followed quite a few people already I think !

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          this blog is so messy & kills my mood, so !! I’m probs gonna move to my remade blog tonight !! I’m gonna follow people there once I get some more bios done. I’ll also be moving my drafts/asks/relationships over there too !!

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           Joey’s gasp is over the top, drama at it’s prime. “What’s that in your ear?” He makes a show of slowly reaching forward towards their ear, never actually touching it as he does, until he draws his hand back to to reveal a carnation now within his grasp. Jo’s never been above doing magic for customers. 

          “How were you hiding that there?” 

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          oh man it’s been a while since I woke up to see alys & yuichi angst on the dash

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Daniel could see the tears, and it makes his heart twist. The dweller deep inside his soul just soaked in the torment it brought him, and edged him to go further. To make it that Cass would never be able to stand the sight of him. 

“I am sick of you. All you do is act like an idiot, and fuck around with your little friends. It’s easy to have that much fun when you’re brainless, I guess. You’re weird, so fucking weird that even I can’t even understand you at times,” Daniel stopped to lick at his chapped, bitten lips. Cass was all those things; weird and absolutely idiotic in his actions.

And yet.

Daniel never once hated that about him. It made him crack out of his own cynical shell at times. He was envious of how easily Cass seemed to attract others while all he did was scare people away. Idiotic wasn’t the best word, reckless may be it; able to be so confident in the universe not screwing you over like it did Daniel.

But this was for the best. It was always for the best, wasn’t it?

“What were you even expecting with us in the first place? I’m just a fuck up, and I’m going to be in the dirt in a year or two. No soul… nothing at all.”

          Cass has heard those things before, from the mouths of social workers and foster parents and other kids. He’s long since steeled himself against such insults in order to live as freely as possible with friends that want him around, but from Daniel, that steel turns into chalk, crumbling easily with each insult. He tries to remind himself that it’s no different from the things he’s heard in the past, but it hurts more than it has in a really long time. 

          “Do you—” Cass shakes his head, almost in disbelief. At Daniel. At himself. He really is an idiot for staying where he isn’t wanted, when it would be much easier to turn and run, like always. “You seriously think I befriended you expecting something? Wanting something?” Maybe if he had, this would be easier to accept. 

          “I just wanted to be friends...  I didn’t expect to fall in love with you, Daniel.” It’s the first time he’s ever said it aloud, although Cass has long known it. He’s spent many a night turning the words over in his head, thinking the truth of them would dissipate if he said them aloud. Turns out they feel just as true, just as real, when said out in the open. 

          “You’re going to die. And I know that, but you’re still here now, y’know? Why is it so hard for you to... to just understand that that doesn’t change anything?” 

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          my classes end today, so I’ll try & be around tonight !! I hope y’all are doing well !!

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          mateo has a white maine coon named furball that he loves dearly and has a picture of on his desk at nrc. 

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cass: do you think stormterror likes getting chin scratches ?  joey: like a puppy ?? definitely cass: do you think he’d let me give him chin scratches ?  kian: no cass: I mean, we could go and see- kian: absolutely not

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          hey hey ! I’m missing cass, so I’m gonna reply to some of his stuff today !

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Once again, they're on another one of their sense8 binges, and despite already knowing what's going to happen next, Ant's still just as enraptured. With Maddie's head in his lap, it's more than easy enough for him to idly begin playing with his hair. Ant's thought about it plenty of times before, felt the urge when he shouldn't. Yet before long, his fingers begin sliding through purple tresses, not that he's entirely conscious of the act, eyes still on the screen.

     If it were Anthea or Daniel, anyone else really, the gentle fingers in his hair likely would’ve helped ease him to sleep. He was losing focus on the show ( despite the fact that Lito and Hernando’s scenes were his favorites ), but only because the fact that it was Ant made it so distracting.

     That just wouldn’t do.

     It only took about a whole minute to work up the courage, fingers flexing nervously and trying to wipe any sweat from his palm as subtly as possible before reaching up to pluck Ant’s hand from his head. Fingers quickly threaded together, before coming back to rest comfortably against Maddie’s chest. While fairly sure he did a good job of not looking as nervous as he felt, he had to count on the dim lighting to hide the warmth in his cheeks. 

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          summoned by haliegh’s long haired maddie post, but idk if I’ll get to anything before I crash. I hope y’all have been doing stellar !!

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i know i’m cute but you can remind me

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          :)

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          I’m legally obligated to add Seven to my remade multi now bc I have the perfect fc for him

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❛   oh, monsieur tachias! i believe you forgot to assign us the homework for today’s lesson.    ❜  

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          Rook is... a darling one for sure. The looks from the other students don’t go unnoticed by Mateo, and he almost feels... bad about assigning the homework now, if only to keep Rook from receiving his peers’ resentment. 

          “Ah, surely you don’t want homework, Rook. Maybe I can give you all a pass today...” 

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          mateo, my beloved