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OMG HUMAN AU JACK ANGST YAYYAYAYAYAYAYYAAYAYAAYAYAYYA

I WILL DEVOUR THIS ART WITH SATISFACTION

THEY LOOKS SO SWEEEEETTTTTTTT

My fucking son, man. (based off SAMS newest ep)

Hes just 12 (human au-wise) leave him alone o(╥﹏╥)o

(I forget that, whatever happens in the SAMS/LAES/EAPS dimension, also happens in my human AU of them. And stars do I forget how young some characters like Jack are in the human AU :( I also fixed Samuel/Sun and Max/Moon's ages in the humann AU because I realized I miscalculated BADLY)

I think Jack's trauma is only ever covered now because Jack seems to have desperately tried burying it since he got out, but now that hes basically killed someone (yes, human Jack does this, too) who tried killing his father, the memories of all those orders he was given to destroy homes and lives just comes back to him like some stampede.

I really hope this isnt some foreshadow of sorts—that Jack will be brainwashed again or something like that (possibly by that overseer to try eliminate Solar). I really hope not because, as Moon said in the ep, Jack is quite a kid inside. :<

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THEY QRE PERFECT

Its so nice to see solar comforting jack 😭

They are so sweeeet ARGHHH

thank you for this I will cherish it forever

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NO BUT FR

I WANT HIM BAAACKKK BUT I DONT WANT DAVIS AND REED TO FEEL LIKE THEY ARE FORCED TO BRING HIM BACK OR SOME SHIT IDK

So i thought about it

If nexus came back as someone who is tired of life and dosent care anymore i think that would be neat 🙃

Even if it dosent make sense

But HONESTLY JUST DONT MAKE HIM THIS STUPID INSANE TYPE JUST GIVE MY MAN SOME CREDIT FOR HIS ABSOLUTE GOOD VILLAIN ORGIN STORY, Make him a good insane character not a cringy one just cause you want people to hate him or just want him out of the wayyyy

cant nexus comes back as insane and nonchalant LIKE PLEASE ?? NOT CRINGY TYPE OF INSANE ? LIKE GENUINELY INSANE ???? PLEASE ? PLEASEE3333EEEEÉ IM TIRED OF THINKING OF HIM RANDOMLY IN A WAY THAT WOULD MAKE ME SIMP SO HARD FOR HIM I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE THINKING THAT

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SAMS AU rant?

So ehm new AU-

It follows jack as our main charcater and a messed up future-

If i would make this some sort of series i know exactly how i want to begin with it buuuutttt idk-

I mean the story would need a lot of setting and planning and im gonna have to use extra as much SAMS logic in this than any other AU i think-. Sooooooo yeh. Its just basically jack seeing glimpses of the future and putting two and two together to bot let that future happen, we got solar and jack angst aswell as jack having lots of smart moments

And we get to see jack of that terrible future and how messed up the guy is :D

ALSO i kinda wanna make a future SAMS AU that mqy or may not be similar to dream smp-

IM STILL OBSESSED WITH THAT SMP LEAVE ME BEEEEEE

Anyways yeh-

With similar to dsmp i dont mean its polizical and stuff although ig kinda? But just having dsmp as the main insperation

Gotta twist a lot of stuff tho

ANYWAY BYEE GOTTA WATCH SOLQR ALMOST GETTING KILLED 😀🔫

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Me.

Everytime.

Whenever i just consider drawing or writibg ak idea down for a story or anything, my motivation just does a solar move and thanos snaps itself

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Ngl i see this everywhere at this point

Mf gets so close to people , just hug them at this point

delulu

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Well

From what i understood moons are SUPPOSE to die. No matter what. Moons are so common to die that they even die with one wrong step and then KABOOM.

But even if moons die so much, everytime they die, they die mlstly for sun and always find their way back to him. Moons being protective over their sun's is kinda a way of them saying "i chose you to be my anchor of life, if you die i die with you. Your my reason to live and i will follow you wherever you go."

In a way as much as its not seen that way, sun leads and moon follows. Its always been like that and its gonna stay like that.

So its kind of like

Sun live cause plot armour and main character, moon dies but comes back repeatedly. Both are tortured in their own way.

At first i thought nexus would be staying dead, as a sort of sighn that, sun cant always have someone come back for him and that he is gonna have to deal with loosing someone permenantly. Them bringing nexus back, unreachable for sun, nexus not willing to even ig lets say "reach out" to sun anymore kinda makes it even more sad.

Cause the guy lives, but unlike moon he wont return to his anchor. Unlike moon, nexus dosent know how to return.

Imagine Moon freaking dies again, idk, by Sun's hand.

Sun: Okay, Moon V4, you just have one mission. Very important mission!!!

Naive and just fresh out of Fazbear Moon: OwO yes?

Sun: Do not die. By any accounts, protect yourself and do not die by my hand.

Moon V4: Okie dokie boss.

---1 year + plot happened----

(*blowing up sounds*)

(Sun looks at another Moon's corpse)

Sun: Goddamit!! You have one job!!! One job!!!

I think it's kinda funny how Sun couldn't keep any Moon's siblings alive. Old Moon dies, Lunar dies, New Moon dies, Nexus dies, Nexus V2 about to die with the amount of smoke he choke on.

And with people he cares about? Earth got crippled, Dazzle technically a ghost child, Roxanne gets her personality chip screwed over. Even Computer, the one who only helped Sun also got terminated.

He likes a walking death flag, that makes everyone close to him get an afterlife vacation card immediately the moment they care and love him.

And not only the loved ones, even his enemies get very unlucky too. (Eclipse, KC, Bloodmoon,. Creator..)

I think we need to change Sun's name to Conan, because by now, he is truly the Death.

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Y'know

THIS makes me miss nexus and solar duo so much TvT

Dont get me wrobg i adore moon, i love the guy, but nexusssssssss TvT

I didnt get enough nexus and solar content and i need more.

Also i relaized that nexus and earth angst isnt talked abour as much even tho it also serves some tragedy🙃

Has anyone else felt the tension, or siblings rival between Solar and Moon?

It is very subtle but....

Like how Moon picks on Solar (in a funny way) quite a lot, and with all the sass and pranking.

Boy especially chose Solar as his sarcafire lamb to make Sun happy (turning Solar into doll), calling Solar as an uncultured swan when he said he hasn't seen the TV shows yet.

And a lot of moments too. I hope those just use as funny bits, and not because he still seems Solar as Eclipse and has some undertone resentment about it. (In a lighter way, of course)

Because like in the episode today... He becomes very possessive around Sun when Solar tries to help Sun.

Like... I can handle it, It's my brother -Moon quote.

Does Moon not remember Solar is their brother too or deep down inside he just sees Solar as cousins?

I also noticed Moon leaves Solar very much along and not dragging him into adventure just like how Nexus did back then because Solar is smarter than Sun and it would be less dangerous for Sun.

Moon behaviour really reminds me of the time when Nexus brought him and Sun only a whole aSs mansion.

I smell the codependent there....

Also... What do you mean Sun jelly with Solar for being more cooler dad than him? It's so cute man???? Like he wasn't even aware of how Jack liked hanging out with him and listening to him a lot.

Also .... The "Don't you dare touching me..." I really hope it applies for everyone (because he gets a lot of trauma from getting beat like shit) and not because Solar is the one who is close to him and Sun still sometimes thinks Solar as Eclipse, just a better one.

I think it is just my imagination, but I kinda scared Sun still unconsciously scared of Solar as an instinct for all the hatred he has for Eclipse.

Like he especially states he hates all Eclipse equally, (from Clipsy to EaPs eclipse...) idk man.... Kind alarm when seeing him said it.

Also... Hehe I was right!!!! Sun is still very bitter about how he gave blessings for Monty.

To be fair, Monty didn't give Sun a chance to process before saying yes.

I love to see the good old banter between Sun and Monty back there, and how he very much becomes a protective brother for Earth.

God, I will pay money to see Sun roast Monty alive in one episode

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Well matter of fact nexus is also younger than earth-

He is the actual baby sibling in the family

Do whatever you want with that information, and let that sink in.

And sun grtting clingy to moon is definetly cause something about nexus. He is scared of loosing people and he got a taste of how he lost someone without them beibg permenantly gone now :D

"The child who is not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel its warmth"

Thinking about the fact Nexus is actually younger than Lunar. Thinking about the fact his rage, his hatred still feels like an act of a child who couldn't explain its feeling.

Sun gets so much clingy on Moon recently, do you think it is because Nexus once keeps dragging Sun into adventure and Sun keeps refusing until Nexus gives up?

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He was so high-

That is the best moment of his life and k recommend to let him be

Then just casually crash world ending scenerios at him

He is fine guys, he still hasnt reached his breaking point :D

This episode was so fucking funny

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REAL

He is so silly and ao comforting at the same time its so sweeettttttttttt

I love him and im so happy solar made him. He is so sweettttttt and perfect.

The embodiment of perfection

ACTUAL COMFORT CHARACTER JACK O MOON

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SAMS Rant

Y'know what would be neat fot some sort of sun and nexus angst?

Nexus being scared of sun while sun tries to be good to him.

Since Nexus was (in his eyes) mistreated, hurt and even killed by sun i wont be suprised if that guy is more scared of him than he hates him

I also have this neat thought (or headcanon) that most people wont like maybe even hate me for it but hear me out

Since Old moon was the (lets say) abuser and sun the absued one in the past, i have this neat thought of once new moon appered as in after the reset these roles switched. Sun was acting more like old moon and new moon was like past sun.

Wich kinda adds to this "nexus being scared of sun" thing. Idk i find this thought neat and could be used for an AU ngl-

I could make one? Maybe mingle that in this SAMS Fantasy AU i have been thinking about but idk 🙃

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FACTS

Real words!

Warning, long rant ahead:

Sometimes I look at other’s opinions on a character and it’ll be like “I LOVE this guy. I will defend them to the DEATH they’re the absolute BEST.” And then one (1) episode goes by where they make a bad call in the heat of the moment, or does something mean to another character, and they’re like “I HATE them. THEY’VE NEVER had a GOOD bone in their body. Now they’re a VILLAIN I guess. Horrible writing.” And. Like.

That’s the thing with characters. They often times make mistakes. Or do bad things for what they view as a good reason. It doesn’t mean you have to defend them, or agree with the reason they’re doing the bad thing. But like… you have to have a bit of sympathy. You’re viewing their moral decisions from an outside perspective, where none of it affects you! If you want to understand why your blorbo said the mean thing, you have to understand that people say things they don’t always mean. That blorbo was under a lot of pressure at that moment. It doesn’t make it right, they still need to apologize, but… can’t you relate a little bit?

This is about Ruin running away from the group after his Monty died. This is about Nexus saying horrible things and running from his family. This is about Charlie tormenting Eclipse. This is about Lunar killing Eclipse. This is about Lunar using NSP. This is about Dark Sun.

It can be so frustrating to see people slapping “hero” and “villain” labels on every character, when clearly they’re more complex than that. Nobody is a “hero” or a “villain”. Nexus hurt Sun and Earth’s feelings, and tormented Moon. He also felt he was under the expectation of being better than Moon his whole life, and then when Moon comes back, everyone just ran back to Moon as their better brother. Was that what happened? Not exactly. But that’s the situation Nexus thinks is happening.

Moon died, and when Nexus went to see him, he promised to always protect his family, as Moons are supposed to do, in his opinion. Then, he gets revived, and Nexus has done the opposite. He’s run away from his family when they needed him most, over an Eclipse. He’s a coward and a poor excuse of a Moon. Is that what happened? Not exactly. But that’s what Moon thinks is happening.

It’s really not hard to understand the character’s motivations, and it helps inform the conflicts they go through. No wonder Nexus hates Moon, and Moon hates Nexus! They both represent each other’s worst nightmare. Moon fears his own cowardice, and betraying his family. Nexus fears being abandoned for making mistakes. Who’s in the right? Doesn’t matter! It’s not supposed to be a tale of morality. It’s more like reality TV. It’s okay to like Moon. It’s okay to like Nexus! But it doesn’t make sense to call everyone a “hero” or a “villain”.

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This could save me from this stupid cycle of messing up drawing those twinks over and over again.

To all the lovely DCA artists out there.

HOW DO YALL DRAW THESE BOYS IM STRUGGING WITH THEIR BODIES, HELP ME ALL I WANNA DRAW IS THEM BUT I CAN'T I THINK IM OVERCOMPLICATING BUT IM CRYING T0T

i just wanna draw them man...someone help me out here.

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Ok mister, miss, theydam

Someone has to tie you up for how luch sun and nexus angst you give

Dont get me wrong i love it but...

No.

I litterly just came back and this is the first thing i see arghhhhhhh

They really need to fight more i wanna see that so badddddd TvT

Why do you keep twisting my words?? Why can't you understand what I'm trying to say?

They both say that. And all these words always fall into deaf ears.

I think of Nexus's black and white mindset and I suddenly think of how much I relate to him. And now I'm sad.

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SAMS rant?

Sooooo i talked aboit how its not visible to see how mich the jack being controlled by the creator is being ignored and well its trauma for jack

I watched some stuff and ehm maybe its not AS ignored as i originally thought

I mean i think i notice some small things about jack ? I think the him being scared of people yelling is something he only got after being controlled wich makes sense if he hesrd all the people he killd yell and scream for help maybe even mercy-

I believe he got more clingy to solar or atleast wants to be nearer to solar at all times, seeing as to how the beast got to infect him and how he was litterly living in fear with no solar around while being controlled by the creator kinda explains it? Unless there is a diffrent reason idk of-

Him also spending time with the cats ia alao a new thing? Maybe he sees them as a support animal just like how sun sees them as that

And probbaly more things that ig im gonna have to look for

So i think they didnt fully ignore jack having trauma and only give small sighns for it litterly showing that he hides his feelings or pushes them back

If he knows people find hil annoying then he wont want to talk about his own problems, he is a child and children always come to some sort of explenation to why people treat them a certain way. People still see him as dumb, mostly annoying and too energetic , and i get that it was a sort of birthday for sun and moon but sun being RELIEVED about the gift, the gift from jack alone is so sad in my opinion. "Yeh you each get a 10 these tukons things whatever they are called and a week of me leaving you alone" that comming from a child, i mean the tukon thingies are ok ig but the last part ARGHHHH. So yeh sun bekng relieved with that gift kinda is now a proof to jack who of the bunch is really tired of him. Wich can lead to him distancing himslef from sun now as a way for him to show "im sorry for annoying you, i'll leave". He probably also thinks he is a burden on the rest, and he knows everyone else had probably worse than him so he wont talk or maybe the thought of him originally being a mashine a weapon to be used is getting to him and he puts it together with "im just a mashine, a weapon. I shouldnt be feeling anything". As long as the others only see his funny little gremlin side then they wont question anything.

In conclousen jack does show sighns of him having some sort if trauma but he pusges it back probably to not be a burden

Those are my thoughts anyway idk if i got those right tho-

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I honestly thought abour jack being a teenager too-

But more as in how his relationship with the others would look like?

But him growing would mean he'll have some argumemts with his daaadddd

Its just a phase guyysssss

Back to child jack-

Also i kinda like to think that when its jack's bedtime, and he dosent wanna sleep. Solar would make it like a sort of game? As in maybe a short rp with jack but no equipmemts just them being silly and depending on how jack acts in these small rp solar has to find a way to make him go to bed, that can be either chasing jack or tickling him and so on and so fourth

I think thats sweet and also it helps cause if jack has the mind of a child then children are gonna want to sleep in order to be able to? Well tbh some kids are like that and the rest turn into menacing beings who get angry at every single thiiinngggg

I have this neat idea that i wanna draw, showing a bit of jack angst and him bonding with solar but for one im bad at intepreting characters and two my wrist hurts and its probably from writing, drawing and positioning it weirdly when i sleep soooooooo yay- 🥲

SAMS rant? ig? can i call this a rant? idk

Y‘know, everytime i think about SAMS human AU i keep on just seeing jack looking like solar but having New Moons personality-

(that is if we go with new moon being jack‘s second parent)

as in, jack can look cold and give off the vibes solar gives at times but his personality is like New moon, kind little curious gremlin.

and ngl i sort of headcanon that jack acts like new moon at times wich makes solar have deja vu-

this especially hit hard when he first came back from the dead to find out necus went into villain arc, and after solar got closer to jack he noticed the similarities between jack and new moon

im fine :D

totally

also can we discuss how even jack sees that others find him annoying-

i caught up with some ep cause i couldn’t watch them since…. ehm tests, and school hates me-

anyways so i watched the birthday ep whatever its called and caught jack saying that he know he is annoying, so like call me stupid but i dont think thats a good thought for a child to have? also didnt jack go through immense trauma when he was controlled by the creator? i mean i get maybe they want to make it seem like jack hides his whole emotions and trauma from that event but arghhhhhhh my babyyyyyyyy 😭

so i like to think jack stays up at night cause he be scared for threats and being controlled again. im probably gonna draw this since words suck and im not good with them at all💀

bit yeh…

reminder for you people to drink water. ik you guys are dehydrated don’t lie to me, even im gonna drink some water after posting this