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Lately I’ve been thinking sm about u & how things went.. I knew ur not fine either but I never thought that day would be the last day I’ll ever see u. Never thought ur going out before me. I miss u fr.. & this damn feeling of regret won’t disappear. Like,what if we would’ve talked longer ? What if I would’ve been in a better state mentally ? Would it been different ? I hope u know that u really deserved better & hopefully u got ur piece now..

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what kinda drugs u use ?

And do you want to quit it one day?

Tbh I took everything on the list but heroin is my problem..

Idk on one side yes but everytime I tried without any kind of drug, I just went crazy fr. I cant live normally without drugs. Just can’t stand myself & my thoughts without anything. It ended every damn time in something really bad

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If I can talk to you and not be judged, reblog this

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i miss 1990 when i didn’t exist

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bpd episode time, baby. let's get fucked up

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Sterben klingt langsam echt wie eine Erlösung, schlimmer als die Hölle hier kann es nicht werden...

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Maybe I just don't have it in me to stay sober. .

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I'm so tired of living this way (← girl that will never do anything to change her way of living because breaking the routine scares her more than anything)

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Do you sell fentanyl patches by any chance?

Not anymore, I’m sorry 😑 but if its urgent, I could get u some at the train station in my city.

Do u live in the states or where u at ?

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you touched my heart in a very different way. & that’s exactly why I still think about u

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🤍🤎

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just wanna do some lines with someone and forget about everything for a while

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- Beau Taplin