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*puts a disk in u*

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fennec girlfriend

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There is apparently an unofficial fox linux mascot

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You were the healer—the last light of your party. But now your final ally dies in your arms, and there’s no one left to save. The enemy jeers, calling you useless. You look up, eyes hollow and black. The light is gone. The Void answers. You're no longer a cleric. You're something far worse.

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I'd be down

so what if i told you guys i made an (admittedly 18+ but SFW) plural server. would any of you be interested in it/want to share the link if you know someone who might be? my girlfriend is new to being a system and we could both use some more plural friends

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Trans women who stick up for transandrophobia and trans men who stick up for transmisogyny deserve all the love this world can give. We are in this together. We love you. <3!

Edit: Just realized I worded this weird. I meant stick up for as in like fight against. So trans women who fight against transandrophobia and trans men who fight against transmisogyny. My bad.

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the fact that so many ppl view slurs and oppression as cool exclusive clubs to claim access to, tells me a lot of ppl have never genuinely experienced violence before.

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Joe Hills is a phenomenon. He's been part of hermitcraft since season 1 and he has not even 200k subscribers. He's constantly singing. Minimal editing of his videos. He's streaming with a transparent overlay of his face on the whole screen. His YouTube nor twitch make him money, it's all through PayPal tips and patronite. He's a puppet. He's besties with Cleo and they match each other's freak. He has some mad runaway skills with a triden. He's the mcyt sexyman Nr 1. I just. I'm obsessed

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It genuinely bothers me how almost nobody wants to talk about or acknowledge how disturbingly normalized it is to mock, devalue, and appearance-shame nonbinary folks online.

I hate being told it’s wrong for me to identify under the trans umbrella because I “don’t belong there”. I hate being misgendered and accused of “faking” and “attention-whoring” because I’m not androgynous and don’t feel dysphoric about my breasts. I hate being called a “theyfab” and having that term used to discredit me. I hate being told to censor my self-expression so I “don’t look like a stereotype”. I hate my preferred pronouns never being used because it/its is too “weird”. I hate being laughed at the very second I bring up neopronouns and xenogenders. I hate being subject to jokes about my chosen name. I hate having every single aspect of my identity and expression laughed at and mocked constantly because y’all hold such a fucked-up stereotype of nonbinary people as these 2016-esque SJW keyboard warrior caricatures and I hate watching people online giggling away at “Arson (they/star/bun) in the Discord groupchat” memes because cringe culture never died to them, they just chose a more “acceptable” target to project it onto.

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i have a transmasc friend who has been feeling really bummed recently that he hasn't seen much in the way of transmasc positivity on his dash, and i see how much it impacts his mood and self esteem. i care about him a lot, so i want to do a little something to maybe help raise his spirits a little bit:

share some memories of trans masc folks you know or have known, who left a positive impact on your life!

i'll start:

here's to a boyfriend i had years back! he was a very autistic demiboy with a reptile special interest and a love for aquariums! we'd go visit a small local herpatarium together, and he'd tell me all about the animals there. his excitement was contagious! he even had a pet snake who was so cute. we both loved Pink Floyd, and i really treasure the time we spent sharing music with eachother!

here's to a friend i had back in Texas! he was a really warm and chill dude, always so kind and patient. he loved his community and organized a local trans social group so that we could have something more laid back than a support group. he was a scholar in queer and jewish history, as well as jewish theology, and i learned so much from him.

i have a friend now who is a very kind and sweet guy. he's been there for me in some of my darkest moments and is a delight to be around! he is a very skilled cook and baker who helps make incredible food for our household. he has a passion for hair and has helped everyone in the house with cutting and styling our hair. he loves musicals, and i've learned so much about musicals from listening to him and watching movie musicals with him. i could say more, but i know this post is going to be long enough as is lol

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correct me if i’m wrong, but a lot of intersex people are some of the best examples of gender identity. they’re born with parts that correlate with both sexes, yet a lot of intersex people choose to identify as male or female during their life. their gender identity doesn’t always perfectly match their biology, but we accept them as women/men nonetheless. and of course there are also intersex people who might identify with neither male/female, and that’s okay too.

(sincerely, a cis woman who’s been studying gender theory lately because i was inspired by my MTF friend!)

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i love trans men and transmasc people.

you are not violent because of testosterone.

you a not a “monster” because you transitioned.

testosterone is not “poison.”

you are handsome and wonderful and i’m proud of you for being yourself.

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The autoandrophile and force masc community here on tumblr, while relentlessly filthy, has also been so incredibly affirming.

I know autogynephilia and autoadrophilia have been weaponized against us, but like, I don’t understand why feeling sexy/being sexually aroused by your body is a problem.

For most of my life I tolerated or shunned away from the way I looked. Only liked my body for how it turned other people on, for how it was considered attractive by others, but it never added to my sexual pleasure, and often had to be mentally worked around by framing it through the pleasure others took from me.

Now?

Now I’m very turned on by just existing in my body and it’s incredibly affirming. I saw myself in the mirror getting dressed at my partner’s apartment the other day, and in the mirror I saw a man. The lights were low so you couldn’t even see my scars, just my shape, and it was the greatest combination of joy and disbelief and, yes, lust. Not necessarily lust for my own self, but lust for existing in my body. Lust spurred by being able to show up and interact with people and lovers as the self I was always meant to be.

A lust that is essentially the opposite of the self aversion and self objectification that I thought was so normal for so much of my life.

I understand that queer folks have always been painted as more sexualized and deviant and dirty than straight folks for even something as harmless as a kiss, but I hate the fact that something so incredibly affirming for me and many others is used to further marginalize and medicalize us.

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queer community infighting happens, yes, and it sucks. probably happens a little more online than otherwise.

but there's also acts of solidarity, happening all the time. we're helping each other find housing, crashing on each other's couches, driving the U-haul and lugging boxes, picking up meds when someone's sick. stealing T-shot syringes from work for transmasc friends when the pharmacy fucks up for the 100th time. cooking food for the lesbian couple who just had a baby. tailoring clothes for a transfem partner. finding trans-affirming therapists for sad friends. bringing people into the queer spaces we've found when they're scared to go alone. it's good.

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Being a trans man with trans women friends is so fun bc you’ll help them clean out their closet and they’ll be like “here take this $300 suit that gives me disphoria” and you walk out of that encounter with the nicest item of clothing you’ve ever owned