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I kinda really need the AMC show to have the vampire sex be à la Anne Rice like in the books. Yeah it's kinda cool and hot they can boink like humans do(?) but... in vamp style the sole sex they could have is... sucking eachother's blood. And it'd be 100x hotter to me. Oh well 🤷‍♂️

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Do you think authors sometimes don't realize how their, uh, interests creep into their writing? I'm talking about stuff like Robert Jordan's obvious femdom kink, or Anne Rice's preoccupation with inc*st and p*dophilia. Did their editors ever gently ask them if they've ever actually read what they've written?

Firstly, a reminder: This is not tiktok and we just say the words incest and pedophilia here.

Secondly, I don't know if I would call them 'interests' so much as fixations or even concerns. There are monstrous things that people think about, and I think writing is a place to engage with those monstrous things. It doesn't bother me that people engage with those things. I exist somewhere within the whump scale, and I would hope no one would think less of me just because sooner or later I like to rough a good character up a bit, you know? It's fun to torture characters, as a treat!

But, anyway, assuming this question isn't, "Do writers know they're gross when I think they are gross" which I'm going to take the kind road and assume it isn't, but is instead, "Do you think authors are aware of the things they constantly come back to?"

Sometimes. It can be jarring to read your own writing and realize that there are things you CLEARLY are preoccupied with. (mm, I like that word more than concerns). There are things you think about over and over, your run your mind over them and they keep working their way back in. I think this is true of most authors, when you read enough of them. Where you almost want to ask, "So...what's up with that?" or sometimes I read enough of someone's work that I have a PRETTY good idea what's up with that.

I've never read Robert Jordan and I don't intend to start (I think it would bore me this is not a moral stance) and I've really never read Rice's erotica. In erotica especially I think you have all the right in the world to get fucking weird about it! But so, when I was young I read the whole Vampire Chronicles series. I don't remember it perfectly, but there's plenty in it to reveal VERY plainly that Anne Rice has issues with God but deeply believes in God, and Anne Rice has a preoccupation with the idea of what should stay dead, and what it means to become. So, when i found out her daughter died at the age of six, before Rice wrote all of this, and she grew up very very Catholic' I said, 'yeah, that fucking checks out'.

Was Rice herself aware of how those things formed her writing? I think at a certain point probably yes. The character of Claudia is in every way too on the nose for her not to have SOME idea unless she was REAL REAL dense about her own inner workings. But, sometimes I know where something I write about comes from, that doesn't mean I'm interested in sharing it with the class. I would never ever fucking say, 'The reasons I seem to write so much of x as y is that z happened to me years ago' ahaha FUCK THAT NOISE. NYET. RIDE ON, COWBOY.

But I've known some people in fandom works who clearly have something going on and don't seem to realize it. Or they're very good at hiding it. Based on the people I'm talking about I would say it's more a lack of self-knowledge, and I don't even mean that unkindly. I have, in many ways, taken myself down to the studs and rebuilt it all, so I unfortunately am very aware of why I do and write the things I do most of the time. It's extremely annoying not to be able to blame something. I imagine it must be very freeing. But it ain't me, babe.

Anyway, a lot of words to say: Maybe! But that might not stop them from writing it, it might be a useful thing for them to engage with, and you can always just not read it.

Also, we don't censor words here.

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Dan O'Bannon's take on the Aliens was right. Genuinely. To me this is what they are. Ridley went and ruined all potential nuance and intrigue.

An intelligent race with different values and norms than us? Something truly... Alien?

Nah we can't have that!! Rabid space bugs it is!!

In the original screenplay the Alien is not an implied bioweapon but rather a member of a long extinct race who copulate within pyramid structures. Since the planetoid’s extinct alien inhabitants were capable of architecture and religion, the Alien, as initially conceived, was not to be an entirely hostile creature. As it ages, O’Bannon explained, the Alien “becomes more and more harmless. Finally, its blood-lust gone, the Alien becomes a mild, intelligent creature, capable of art and architecture, which lives a full, scholarly life of 200 years.” To add to the concept of the Alien becoming more intelligent and emotionally content as it matures, O’Bannon excused the Alien’s blood-thirst aboard the Nostromo as a sort of juvenile panic that, given the right environment, may have passed: “It’s never been subject to its own culture, it’s never been subject to anything except a few hours in the hold of the ship. Quite literally, it doesn’t have an education. The Alien is not only savage, it is also ignorant."

IMAGINE if we got this. Something truly ALIEN. So close yet so far.

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Alien: Translucent Costume That Wasn't Used In The Movie 1979.

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YES! Exactly!

This scene is genuinely so beautiful

This is the deeply personal urge to get away, to not exist in any capacity but a natural one. To disappear without inconveniencing anyone. Leaving this life for the sake of others, of something bigger. Fading away intentionally while doing what you love.

It's a dark and twisted thought sneaking into your waking mind. To me this scene portrays the desire to die. A desire masqueraded in leaves and media and all things nice. A natural getaway from life. Non-violent and deeply poetic. You don't even realize it counts as being suicidal. It just feels welcoming.

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the negative self-talk for failing to protect the team and disappointing mensah was so sad -- downloading tv shows is literally the *only thing it has in its life* and it felt bad for "failing" due to that... brb crying about it. and the way mensah went from dismissive and angry over Sanctuary Moon to verklempt once she realized the scope of what the show means to it.

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I think the biggest thing mascot horror things need to get a grip on is the reasonable balance of cute/creepy. The mascot in question needs to be cute enough to realistically be for children but scary enough to actually make for effective horror. Most games always lean too far in either direction and idk maybe it's just me but immersion with these kinds of games are important for me to actually find enjoyment in them.

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This scene is genuinely so beautiful

This is the deeply personal urge to get away, to not exist in any capacity but a natural one. To disappear without inconveniencing anyone. Leaving this life for the sake of others, of something bigger. Fading away intentionally while doing what you love.

It's a dark and twisted thought sneaking into your waking mind. To me this scene portrays the desire to die. A desire masqueraded in leaves and media and all things nice. A natural getaway from life. Non-violent and deeply poetic. You don't even realize it counts as being suicidal. It just feels welcoming.

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"Unnwarranted"

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The "softer approach" in question:

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Transcript: "[Whistles] Sweet rims… 24-gauge? You’re real heavy duty… Just like my friend here." "Precisely my— WHAT?!"

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Transcript: "You interrupted my speech! But don’t worry, it won’t happen again."

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Transcript: "Female."

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I listened to this and thought it sounded familiar. I first figured it was because this kind of voice isn't super unique but then the quiet calm music was oddly eerie and reminded me of something surreal.

Then I heard the line about the neck and figured it out. This movie really was a trip (no pun intended) no wonder only my subconscious got it at first.

Transcript: "Then don't worry about it. You don't need to worry about anything ever again. I'll do all your thinking for you. Just put me on the back of your neck and everything will be fine."

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THE ENTIRE WEST IS BEING PUT UP FOR SALE AND I AM BEGGING YOU TO CALL YOUR SENATORS

Trump’s budget bill has many, many things in it, but buried amongst it is the MILLIONS OF ACRES OF PUBLIC LAND FOR SALE.

This is the entirety of the Arizona state forests, the entire Cascades mountain range. Swathes of pristine desert around the national parks in Utah. On the doorstep of Jackson Hole.

THIS BILL IS BIG, BUT IT CAN BE AMENDED AND ABSOLUTELY MUST NOT PASS AS IS please.

If you have ever enjoyed the wilderness, we stand to lose it all forever.

CALLING your senators - NOT JUST IN THE WEST. ALL SENATORS, is CRUCIAL.

Outdoor alliance has a great resource for reaching out.

I don’t have a huge following but please, everywhere I have ever loved, the forests I grew up playing in, the land I got married on, is all at risk and I am begging.

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Poisonous 🍎

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