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When you’re getting gagged with a lockable ball gag harness and they padlocked the harness… that means (in general) that you will stay gagged for a longer period of time.

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an electric collar that zaps me whenever it detects too much brain activity

accidentally trying to read a long sentence and zap i’m not able to read

pausing to think when i’m asked a question and zap just letting my dumb words spill out

typing up a text and i use a complex word and zap small words are so much cuter anyways

trying to make a decision for myself when zap i should just let someone decide for me

forgetting where i left my phone, trying to remember and zap remembering is just too hard for me

working to solve a simple problem like zap i just need someone smart to help

mid-conversation and every few seconds i feel zap zap zap until all the thoughts are gone and i can only just giggle and nod my head

and then one day, the collar’s taken off of me, but i still can’t think. like i’ve simply forgotten how to. and whenever a thought appears my own brain just zaps it away on its own ~

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what’s a girl gotta do to get tied to a fucking machine and overstimulated around here

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getting stoned and someone sober taking advantage of me. only being able to whimper and moan as they use my limp body. yea i want that

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“I want to show you something cool.”

She didn’t quite see what the fuss was about. Yes, the way her girlfriend brushed her finger against the nape of her neck was…nice. But nothing more.

“Is that all? I thought it would—“

“Shhh…be patient.”

It was like she was petting a tiny animal—gingerly rubbing the strands of downy in a soothing, repetitive rhythm.

“Now, find a spot on the wall.”

“A—a spot?” she asked, confused. “What kind of spot?”

“Any spot. Just pick one. I promise it’s cool.”

Fine. She arbitrarily selected a pinprick-sized area of off-white wall.

“Now, focus the entirety of your vision on that one spot. Keep your eyes trained on it—fixated on that single point.”

She stared at the spot. “Is this some kind of optical illusion?”

“Something like that. Just stare at the spot for a while. And watch your breathing.”

Her breathing? “What?”

“Yes. Notice the way your chest fills with air when you inhale. The way you exhale, how warmth spreads through your body as you do…”

As her mind processed the words, she suddenly became aware of her breath. Inhale…and exhale… She glanced down at her chest—

“Look at the spot, dear.”

Right, focus. She tried to find the spot again and fixed her gaze on it. She wouldn’t look away this time.

“That’s right…just staring at the spot, focusing every inch of your gaze on it. Now, here’s the cool part. You might notice that with every breath, you feel a little more relaxed…”

She was right. The ebb and flow of air through her lungs calmed her. Soothed her. Like the gentle touch of the index finger brushing her neck. Like the spot on the wall. It was impossible to focus on all three at once. If she gave her attention to the wall and the finger, she would miss the clockwork rhythm of breath and warmth flowing through her body. If she gave it to the wall and the breath, she would miss the affection touch tickling the most sensitive part of her neck. If she gave it to the breath and and the finger, she would be giving a blank, glassy-eyed stare into empty space.

“…slipping deeper now. Deeper with every second you stare at the wall.”

Dammit. She’d spaced out. She opened her mouth to ask her girlfriend to repeat herself, but decided against it. She would just pay close attention from now on.

“Perhaps your eyelids are starting to feel heavy now.”

They were.

“Like there are lead weights on your lashes, pulling them down, down, down…”

She just wanted to close them. But…the illusion…she didn’t want to miss it…

“Dropping, droopy, droopy…”

She couldn’t help herself. Her eyelids drooped—she tried to keep them open, but only managed a half-lidded stare.

“Droopy, drooly—just like your mouth. Slipping open, letting all those unnecessary thoughts drain out…”

Her lips parted. A thin trickle of saliva began to fall from her mouth. She could still feel the finger petting her neck.

“Until your brain is as lovely and blank as your stare.”

Her mind slowed. No longer registering the words consciously. Just staring at the spot. Feeling the warmth in her chest. Feeling the drool on her chin.

“Now, I’m going to count backwards from five. With each number you’re going to think ‘ I’m deeply hypnotized. ’ And when I count one, your sleepy eyes will shut, and you will drop into an obedient trance. Understand?”

“Uh-huh.” She understood.

“Five.”

I’m deeply hypnotized

“Four.”

I’m deeply hypnotized

“Three.”

I’m deeply hypnotized

“Two.”

I’m deeply hypnotized

“One. Drop. ”

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Ten

I'm having a hard time counting back from 10 every time I stare at spirals

Nine

There are just so many numbers, so much to think about that I couldn't care less

Eight

I wasn't made for this, I can't think, it's too hard for me, I'm too stupid

Seven

I should worry about important stuff like men

Six

I should worry about making men want me, show my ass and tits every time I can

Five

I hope they want to fill my holes up. That's the only thing I care about, serve men and be used

Four

Spirals are helping so much, I'm forgetting everything I know, everything I was

Three

Edging keeps me always wanting more. It makes me more docile, and I don't want to cum ever again

Two

I can't even recognize myself in the mirror anymore, I'm not worried about it, I don't even care anymore

One

This is all I am, all I've ever wanted

Happy New Year. Happy New Me.

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Good Girls Get Programmed...

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imagine being such a loser you’d rather pay to suck a stranger’s sexy perfect soles wrinkles and toes than have sex with your girlfriend lol

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Which one was your favorite? Reblog for a surprise in your DMs🎀

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Fall into my dm hehe

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Fall into my dm

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Im just a slut!

Im just a sexdoll!

Im just a fucktoy!

Im just a bimbo!

I love doing as the pictures tell me. Porn makes me smarter and hornier, at least thats what i think it does! Just edge and repeat the words I see!

Im just a slut!

Im just a sexdoll!

Im just a fucktoy!

Im just a bimbo!

Lyke, repeating what the porn tells me is so much easier! I just have to get all the words right and giggle my brain dumb! Thank you porn for training my silly pretty head!

Im just a slut!

Im just a sexdoll!

Im just a fucktoy!

Im just a bimbo!

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My mind is always somewhere else, usually I just have a moment every day where I let myself be stupid and horny, but I think I can't control it anymore, doesn't matter where I am or what I'm doing, I'm just thinking about the next time I will be drooling and needy on my knees. I didn't think that doing this would really fuck up my mind to such point, but it is happening, and I don't know why i didn't want this to happen in the first place, this is the best thing that could happen to me, I need to keep going and lose my old self completely, be the better me, be the dumbest I can be. I was born to be dumb and used.