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announcing another week break...sorry...i'll be back soon, i'm brainstorming as we speak🫡

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10. dragon boat festival

Yn shook their head and sighed. Why couldn't he just leave them alone? First, he fuels the rumor by not denying it, and now he wants to ask about who they're going to the festival with? Yn just couldn't wrap their head around the situation.

"Hey! Yn. it's been a while."

The man walking up to Yn smirked, his hands in his pockets and a bounce in his step. He seemed happy. The voice snapped Yn out of their thoughts as they smiled to the person standing in front of them.

"Hey Scara. How've you been? Should we head inside?"

They signaled to the entrance and started walking, Scara matching his pace along with them. "I'm doing okay. Finals are over so I'm on summer break now."

"Oh! It's the same for me. Guess we got lucky haha. What are you planning to do for summer break..?"

The conversation continued into the festival as the pair walked around. They got to try Zongzi and view the dragon boat race. It was interesting to see how the school had adapted it since it didn't have a river. After a while, you headed to another booth that was selling Realgar wine in little cups.

There, you ran into Yanfei, Hu Tao, and...Xiao. Yn quickly glanced at him and focused their attention back on their friends.

"Yanfei! I thought you wouldn't be able to make it because of your finals." Yn smiled and held Yanfei's hand while subtly dragging her away. "Oh wow there's samples over here. I'm gonna borrow Yanfei for a second!" Hu Tao raised a brow and pouted. "You owe me dinner Yn!!" The woman sighed and looked at her leftover company. "Should I give you two a moment? I can't tell whether you're gonna fight or make out."

Xiao narrowed his eyes and Scaramouche sighed, Hu Tao could only hope that the two of you would come back soon.

"Yanfei! Why are you with him?! I mean, I know he's your family, but he wouldn't voluntarily third-wheel you and Hu Tao. I think."

"But he did! He said 'Can I join you? My friends left me.' So I took pity on the poor guy!"

Yanfei trailed off and looked over to the group that they left behind. "Why'd you decide to come with Scaramouche anyway?"

Yn looked at her and shrugged, "I wanted to do the mugwort walk but everyone was busy. So I asked him."

"Why didn't you ask Xiao? We both know you know each other better anyway."

As soon as Yanfei uttered her question, Yn sighed and shook their head. "Yanfei. We haven't talked long enough in recent years to be as remotely close as we used to be."

"Well yeah, but I can't believe that you just gave up without even trying. Especially when he-!" Yanfei stopped herself and huffed, moving her gaze to the ground. Like she wanted to say something but couldn't.

"So what? What about him?! If he still wanted to be close then he could've said something!" You sighed and gripped Yanfei's hand tighter, "It's not a big deal anymore. We've moved past that. All we are is acquaintances now." The way Yanfei acted made Yn confused. Why was she trying to group the two of them together so much?

"You're right. I'm sorry I acted like that. Let's just go back." She mumbled quietly and didn't look at you. It felt like she had more to say but stopped herself.

Meanwhile, Xiao glanced between Yn and Scaramouche. He convinced himself that he was only watching out for you, like he did at the party. He's known you since you were kids, how could he just sit back as one of his friends took you? In all honesty, his heart sank a little when he got that message from Scaramouche earlier in the day. Xiao would never admit to himself the obvious reason why though.. Which was out of character for him.

Scaramouche wasn't a bad person, he was just a little rough around the edges; but so was he. So why could you put up with Scaramouche's antics but not his? Well, he never really tried getting closer to you again. Especially after you confessed. It made sense why you disliked him.

As he was thinking about it, he came to the realization that you weren't the same person you were in your schooldays. Why would he look out for you when he didn't even know who you were anymore? You had your own friends that could take care of you. So why...

"Sorry we took so long. Scara, should we head over to the mugwort walk now?"

Xiao looked at the two of you, a ripple growing bigger in his chest. He couldn't, he thought to himself. He didn't know you; but then you turned your back. Like you did so many times before. He swallowed the lump forming in his throat. He didn't know you, but couldn't he change that? It was simple really. All he had to do was reach out to you, stop you from going with him.

Could he allow himself? Would he be content in that decision? He'd already hurt you once before, he couldn't bear to do it again. His thoughts were racing, trying to find a reason in which he could reach out to your hand.

He just didn't want to lose you.

And before he realized it, he did.

He grasped your hand without thinking.

"Oh."

Yn turned to him, slightly shocked. "Huh?" She swiftly composed herself and responded with a quick "What?" Her tone blunt.

"Can I join you guys instead? I don't feel like third-wheeling." He said the first thing that came to mind, his eyes were glued to yours, keeping the relaxed facade.

"How do you know you won't be third-wheeling us?"

Xiao gripped your hand tighter. The two of you looked at Scara, his impatience obvious with his crossed arms and annoyed eyes narrowing at Xiao.

Yn pulled their hand out of Xiao's hold and held their hands up. "Well, he won't! I'll just let you two go on since you're both friends. I don't mind staying with Hu Tao and Yanfei!"

You smiled nervously and clung to your friends who were bewildered at the scene playing out in front of them. You pushed the two ahead and laughed it off. Xiao took one glance at you before turning and walking away. It was weird.

It might have been your delusions but it seemed like he was looking at you longingly? No. It was definitely a delusion. You shook your head and turned back to Hu Tao and Yanfei, trying to process the situation.

"That was weird. Right?" They nodded in agreement immediately starting to gossip.

"I didn't expect him to do that. I didn't expect the other one to say that! Yn! Your love life is seriously turning into a fanfiction!! Where are all these men coming from? Who's the next bachelor?!" Hu Tao pulled you closer with fire in her eyes, her never ending questions poured out while Yanfei tried to pull her off of you.

Your mind was a jumbled mess. You could understand why Xiao said what he said, but you couldn't understand what Scara meant.

Xiao probably wanted to get away from the couple and since Scara was his friend, it was obvious he'd try to join us; but Scara...why would he reject Xiao's request like that? Why did Xiao grab your hand so suddenly?

The questions seemed to pile up, and you didn't have any of the answers. It was truly frustrating and you couldn't stop thinking about it throughout the festival.

In the mugwort walk, a conversation of its own was happening.

"Why did you come with Yn?"

"Why did you grab her hand?"

The two had questions that the other preferred not to answer. The air between them was awkward to say the least. Neither of them said anything until Xiao broke the air.

"Do you like Yn?" He kept his eyes ahead, maintaining a calm character. He was like this until Scara retorted with "Is that important right now? Shouldn't you figure out your feelings?"

"I..." He hesitated. "I'm not sure yet; but I want to find out." After that, they were quiet. As they both thought about what to say.

Scara looked away and muttered, "When you're able to answer that question, I'll answer yours." Xiao looked at him slightly puzzled and dismayed while nodding.

With that, the mugwort walk finished in silence. Neither of them saying a word to the other.

And soon, the day was coming to an end. All that was left was the the Performing Arts Department's showcase. There were many performances to enjoy ranging from plays to traditional dance and opera singing. Which Yunjin was part of. When you got to watch your friend perform, you couldn't help but forget about the happenings of the day as you finally relaxed and cheered for Yunjin.

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🎀 ; and that concludes the first part ! i'm gonna go on a quick hiatus to think about where i want the story to go because no direction = bad writing...even this is honestly a bit dookie but it's all part of my journey to becoming a better writer! i'll come back after a week or two refreshed and knowing in what direction i want to take!

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9. denial

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🎀 ; xiao finally made another appearance! i was starting think he was becoming a background character haha ^^ i'll get back to preparing the dragon boat festival for you all, please look forward to it~ edited the last tweet because it seems ooc for xiao lol

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just wanted to let everyone know that the next chapter of fitymi is probably going to be filler as the real stuff will be going down on dragon boat festival day :^

i am planning for dragon boat festival chapter to be a bit longer than my usual chapters so please look forward to it :)

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8. night of the party

Yn placed their phone down, sighing while sliding a hand through their hair. Due to the new drama surrounding Xiao and a new woman, people had started to leave you alone. Of course, you were overjoyed. At first. But that happiness was soon replaced by a pit in your stomach. It was uncomfortable and wouldn't go away.

As much as you didn't want to admit it, you enjoyed the fact that people mistook the two of you as a couple; but obviously that was due to the crush you'd had on him since middle school.

Middle school was when you realized you were smarter than you believed. Which sparked the 7 year one-sided feud. Hoping that one day you would surpass him and he'd give you the attention you'd worked so hard for.

It didn't take long, a year at most. Eventually, when that day arrived, he didn't look your way. Like you had expected him to. 'Why would I expect that from Xiao? Am I stupid? No, I have a 4.3 GPA..so..why...'

You were never compared to him in any way, shape, or form. So why?

Oh.

It was so glaringly obvious that you couldn't help but laugh. You had a crush on the guy. Okay. Easy, it'll pass, you believed.

And then another couple years passed and here we are. You didn't do whatever it took to get his attention anymore, you even avoided him as of late. After being brutally rejected by him at your middle school graduation, you buried your feelings. Naturally, you still worked diligently on school, these scholarships weren't going award themselves.

You had almost forgotten about these buried feelings until the night of the party.

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There I was, a cup in my hand, subtly swaying with the music in the background, trying to get ahold of my friends before somebody tapped me on the shoulder. A guy.

He had a sheepish smile, his cheeks a bright red. 'Someone's had a bit much to drink' I thought. "Can I help you?" I asked him with curiosity in my tone, he nodded and pointed to the stairs.

"Yeah. Can you come with me real quick?" I obviously didn't trust him and stepped away, looking at him skeptically. "Whatever you have to say can be said here."

"But...I can't confess here..." He muttered, but I picked it up. 'You usually wouldn't confess at a house party weirdo.' I sighed and placed my cup down, spotting Hu Tao heading my way I nodded at the guy's request. "Only if my friend comes with me."

Hu Tao agreed to go under the condition that she'd guard the door, she was clearly only there to eavesdrop.

Unbeknownst to you, someone had seen the whole interaction. From the moment the guy tapped on your shoulder. (Even before that if we're being honest.)

Xiao had witnessed the whole thing. He followed you guys upstairs, pretending to look for the bathroom. Hu Tao took notice and a lightbulb lit above her head. "Hey Xiao. Why are you following us?" She teased subtly and crossed her arms, leaning on the door to the room you were in. "I don't think the bathroom is this way. It's that way." She pointed down the other end of the hallway. He sighed in response and leaned against the wall opposite to the door.

Hu Tao pouted, muttering a quick "Boring." as she looked away and focused on the conversation. In her attempt to act, her eyes widened. Gasping and placing her hand on her mouth, she quickly looked to Xiao and signaled to the door. A look of distress on her face. He sprung into action, opening the door with such force that it flung open.

He had fallen for Hu Tao's sad attempt at acting and now he had found himself in an uncomfortable situation.

"The person I like is Xiao-!" Yn shouted before turning to the door, their face going pale. The guy opposite to Yn scoffed loudly before stomping out the door, pushing past the recipient of Yn's feelings.

"Xiao? What are you-?" He shook his head before closing the door behind him, sighing, visibly disappointed. To this, Yn's face burned in shame.

The awkward tension was palpable as the two sat next to each other on the bed. Neither daring to say a word. Until Yn decided they had to say something.

“So..pretty crazy thing that just happened, didn’t it?”

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"Ugh just thinking about it makes me naseous."

You shook your head and downed some water. Flipping to another page in your textbook.

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🎀 ; not exactly what i expected to write, but once i started i couldn't stop so ^^ now we know exactly what happened on the party night! i'm trying to decide whether this was relevant or not lol...

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new part of fitymi comes out tomorrow!

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7. newfound peace

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🎀 ; happy birthday to me! the big 18!! this is my present to you all! (although late, i'm sorry ;;) please let me know if i got anything wrong about the holiday! i did some research, but i'm not chinese so i'm not completely sure it's right.

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i have 2 drafts ready to post!! i'll post part 7 of fitymi tomorrow!

i just need to proofread part 8 and i'll post that on wednesday next week~ i'll start working on part 9 so that i can release it on the 28th (pst) ^^

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nobody talks about the random bursts of inspiration you get at 2am

aka new part of fitymi coming soon😝

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i'm trying to write the next couple of chapters for fitymi and i'm having really bad writer's block

trust i'll sit in front of this doc until i get ideas🫡

IM SORRYYY I JNOW MY POSTING IS REALLY BAD

this is why you should write a basic storyline before writing yall

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hey guys sorry for no update i haven't had any motivation😭😭

will start working again soon! i've just been busy with college apps and stuff🫡

trust i'll work on the next part of fitymi soon!

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6. almost believed it

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🎀 ; not much of xiao this chapter but yayyy update

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i was just looking for frieren fanfics because i was curious and then i come to find that theyre nonexistent hello😭😭

like the anime has been out for a year now where are the writers hiding

idk i just thought it was a bit silly i've never seen anything like this in a fandom lol

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i've been reading manhwa again and i remembered how much i love a good jealousy cliché

might be making jealous xiao who knows🙂‍↕️

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5. sudden message

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🎀 ; hello!!happy new year!!! i hope you're all doing well💞

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🎬 stuck with you!

a social media idol au | scaramouche x gender neutral reader

synopsis after the disaster that was the live award show, where you and scaramouche got into an argument on stage after both of your groups got a tie for top artists, your guys' PR teams have been in shambles trying to scrape up your mess. that's when the idea to send you both off with some other idols to a remote location for a survival dating show to mend your public image comes up. before you know it your bags are packed and you’re on a plane to a remote island. the only obligation is you need to end up with scaramouche at the end of the show, whether you end up liking him or not doesn’t matter to your managers as long as the show’s ratings stay high. whatever you do in between to get there is up to you!

Idols Inferno

Finding love in itself is a rollercoaster on its own, but it’s even harder when you’re an idol. How do idols find the time to perform and find a lifelong partner? The short answer is they don’t!

We bring you an exclusive dating show with your favorite top idols, including Y/N, Scaramouche, Barbatos, Lumine, Aether, Yoimiya, Kazuha, Ajax, and Alatus to name a few!

All your favorite top idols will be shipped off to a private island, where they’ll partake in many challenges and have the opportunity to woo one another. Amongst this they will be left with limited amenities and must fend for themselves.

Hosted by Yae Miko! New Episodes every other day on Netflix

genre enemies to lovers, celebrity au, fake dating, dating show inspired by singles inferno

status ongoing, no update schedule

warnings time stamps don’t matter, alcohol consumption, mentions of weed, mommy issues, eventual smut

↳ playlist

NOW PLAYING...

starring…

↳ y/n and windblume | scaramouche and delusi❖n | playlists

ACT ONE: never settle!

PROLOGUE

O1. the girls are fighting

O2. dream blunt rotation

O3. pr team in shambles

O4. screaming and fighting

O5. strawberry bong

O6. crash course on how to not be an idiot

O7. don’t embarrass me motherfucker

O8. im on top (of you)

8.5 idols inferno

O9. mile high club

1O. sand in my ass

ACT TWO: fake it till u make it!

11. five feet apart

12. kiss kiss fall in love

13. it’s a cruel summer with you

14. gold rush

15. call me by your name

16. im so obsessed with your ex

17. jealousy, jealousy

18. cherry blossoms

19. you get me so high

20. poolside shenanigans

21. stuck with you

22. you’re a symphony, i’m just a sour note

ACT THREE: i choose you!

23. all you had to do was stay

24. i loved you, i’m sorry

25. why why why

26. if i can’t have you

27. NDA

28: get out of my head and give me head

29: tba

extra headcanons

ROLL THE CREDITS!

author's notes: the title card came out sick i’m ngl and have you guys seen singles inferno i’m a whore for that show 🤭 update: kinda wanna write this to get the scara out of my system

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i was going through my old writing and omg...it was so messy im sorry😭

anyways, although i'm late, happy new year!! i hope to become better at writing and that college life isn't too hard on me this upcoming year~

i also hope to travel some more and earn more money so that i can treat my family, although living in america and being mexican that seems quite hard, i'll try my best

i hope to become more mature and a better person, i also hope to stay happy and healthy, maybe adopt some healthy habits as well.

and lastly, i hope you all stay happy and healthy, although it won't be sunshine and rainbows all the time, i hope we all push through the tough times and change our situations so that we can be happy!

thank you for the last 2(going on 3) years, although i don't upload as much, your supports means the world to me. thank you so much, happy new year!!