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Stuff with college and life popped up so to the few followers I have, im sorry that I dissapeared! Not coming back just yet, but I am charging!

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This feels like the kind of peace you get when nothing else can be done, so all you can do is look at the pretty things before it(?) happens.

thinking about anastasia trusova paintings again

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So using this on my next jewelry project >:D

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sometimes you need dialogue tags and don't want to use the same four

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Hey so, I think you may have altered my brain chemistry with this one. I will now be taking it for myself :D

Would you mind going more in depth about Drow's relationship with cannibalism? What is it about it? Is it as simple as him just enjoying the taste of humanoid flesh or, given that he ate Orin in that one AU and often talks about munching on Astarion, is it about love/intimacy for him? I kinda have an inkling it's the latter, but I'd love to hear more.

So, bear with me for a moment.

DU drow really likes animals. He doesn't like animals in the sense where he coos at them, where he yearns for a cat to crawl into his lap, or to pet a wild predator in some sort of whimsical, life-changing moment. He likes nature as the undisturbed, self-balancing, grandiose and gory ecosystem that it is. He respects it. He thinks it's the closest that anything comes to perfection. This is (ironically) why he really dislikes druids and sees them as kind of disturbing what is a self-sufficient system that works because of its lack of human-reason or law.

I think when he first ever saw an animal kill another and eat it, he thought that was absolutely magical. Through all of his years in isolation as he grew up, his company often happened to be wild life that he either killed for resources, had to fend off for survival, or just watched from a distance. When he hunted something for food, it was with the understanding that he could meet the same fate tomorrow - that it's all cyclical - that parents sometimes kill their young and their young sometimes eat their parents, that sometimes mating is scary and violent, that birds will push eggs off a nest to make space for their own and predators will start eating you alive if they have to. It's all deeply impersonal and practical, and yet it's a cruelty that utterly lacks malice. It's all done in the name of Need. To the point where everything that's left on the ground will grant some other creature one more day of life.

It's all somewhat abstract and I think me trying to connect point A to point B super clearly would defeat the purpose, put hopefully I was able to paint a picture. Consuming someone is an act of need in its rawest form and leagues more honorable than putting them in a box and six feet under. It's the closest you can get to merging yourself with them and turning into one. It's making sure you are not Wasted. I'm not even sure if its about love as much as it is respect. I don't think DU drow ate people often - he did it when he needed connection that he wasn't getting from the people he truly wanted it from.

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Sorry I didn't catch anything you just said, I'm slowly spiraling into a ghost of myself and losing all sense of self and emotion! Can you repeat that?

sorry i never replied. everyday is blending together and im losing sense of time

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Oh..is THAT what that is? Well shit.

see the THING IS I don't feel like I ever worked hard enough to have "earned" the burnout, which is. probably how we got here.

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Mystic Eye

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Im honestly really proud of this one, the lighting was tricky.

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You are the light. Find it. Be it.

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Death is not unkind, only an ugly truth that hugs gently.

kinder than man, althea davis

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this blog hates donald trump

Look how many people hate him. I’m pretty damn happy about that 😁😁😁😁😁😁

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CHROMOCOPIA CHROMOCOPIA!

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