xoxoalyssa-belle

[xoxoalyssa-belle]

A girl and her tiny fig tree

I wish that I hadn’t hid my interests and fully embraced them. I believe I was put on this world to entertain and I have wanted to since I was a kind. I would take my mom’s heels and show her freestyle choreography. And I’d do that every so often. I took dance many different times in my life and I’m had enjoyed it. My grandmother paid for my singing lessons. However I was a star that eventually exploded. I don’t know when it happened but I was just stopped. It was like this when I was elementary school age there was a straight path I could’ve followed but instead I constantly veered off that path to interact with the things I thought were interesting. As time went on and people started snickering and belittling me for the things that I liked and did I followed that line very strictly. If I seen someone go off their path I had the habit of ridiculing them in my mind. I wish I just lived the life I wanted too. I wish I had the confidence to be me.

If I was famous I would be an entertainer of some kind. Mostly an Idol like AKB48. They get to sing, dance, and wear pretty costumes. Or maybe a model/influencer for J-fashion like Dakota Rose. If I could do that I think life would be so much better. I’d be able to do a job i like doing, travel, wear pretty clothes, and just be my authentic self. I just hope tomorrow i can wake up and realize its probably not to late to start.

Mid night rant over hopefully life will be kinder to me tomorrow