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every day i wake up and pray this is all a bad dream.

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updated it girl youtube channels

activecactus - short workouts, routines, and productivity

becca watson - productivity, vlogs, talks

beepworld - fashion

christine tay - vlogs

cozy kay - cozy vlogs and balancing productivity and rest

daiz - vlogs

dina lu - business and personal development

dreamy little nails - adorable nail tutorials

emma claire - vlogs

euphoric ash - thrifting vlogs and fashion

fernanda ramirez - vlogs and talks

hazi - mainly vlogs

imogen kaylie - vlogs and talks

isabela juliana - mainly vlogs

isabella grace - vlogs and beauty videos

janet ndomahina - vlogs and productivity

jasmine le - fashion and beauty, talks, and vlogs

krystal oh - nail videos and vlogs

kyla beland - health

lavendaire - meditations and self help

leyla tavas - cute vlogs, glow up videos, etc.

lilrotini - fashion

maria silva - productivity vlogs

mariel - fashion

melanie patricia cruz - vlogs

mikayka mags - vlogs

mira daisy - cute vlogs and productivity

miu - vlogs and talks

muchelleb- productivity

nails by vic - nail tutorials

nairee kiana - productivity and health

nicole leilani - cute vlogs and fashion

nimeshaa - glow up and talks

phedra dee - study vlogs and productivity

rebecca jay - productivity vlogs and guides

sandy diana bang - vlogs, talks, glow up, etc.

saranghoe - vlogs

sheena kim - mainly vlogs

simonesimmo (& her other channels) - glow up talks

tam kaur - glow up talks

thewizardliz - glow up talks

tina engeo - skincare, makeup, and vlogs

yasmin the art person - art and creativity

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been doing a lot of thinking recently and i dont want to anymore

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i reblogged this here by accident but after my vent post it's actually kind of funnier so i'll just leave this here...

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i feel like people don't acknowledge how bad friendships can fuck you up during childhood. i always hear about parental or romantic relationship abuse changing the way a person thinks and acts forever, but my elementary school peers genuinely consume my every waking thought. and it's all her fault.

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fuck my life.

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in my head: i would die for you. i adore you. i dream of kissing you under the moonlight. i will never love again after you. you are my one and only and you are the most radiant, vibrant person i've ever seen. you shine brighter than every star in the sky and i believe in your talent and spark.

out loud: here are some lollipops. also fuck you i'm better than you

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y'all something is fundamentally wrong with me lmao

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morgan's definitive guide to getting a boyfriend.

step one: compliment him! boys apparently don't get a lot of compliments.

step two:

step three: boyfriend.

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i really am my father's daughter, huh...?

well, that's awful.

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being an oldest daughter is knowing your mother had you, wanting to break the cycle, but knowing that it was inevitable regardless.

being an oldest daughter is also wanting so desperately to break that cycle, but fearing you'll end up just like your mother, and her mother before her, and her mother before her.

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never mind i hate everyone again.

do you ever experience a wild moment of sudden empathy for everyone in the world. like yeah i knew a guy who bullied people a lot, and who i really used to hate, but then i found out he got beaten by his stepdad and watched his sister die a horrible and graphic death first-hand, and suddenly the hate didn't come so easy. yeah i knew a girl who abused me for the better half of my life, but looking back, she also definitely had no one in the world who loved her, including her own family. my issues with her are a lot more personal, but i just don't have it in me to really loathe her the way i once did. i've never had a good relationship with my father, but he never had a parent worth looking up to. and i'm not saying any of that trauma excuses being a horrible human being, and i'm not saying you have to forgive everyone who ever wronged you, or even really that you should.

but i guess i'm saying maybe i forgive the people who wronged me.

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sometimes I have brief moments of clarity like oh yes. love and joy should be guiding me and it will all work out. documenting so i remember to express this

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Well it may seem like the end of the world but tomorrow’s a new day & the sun will shine just a little brighter with each day spring inches closer & you will find the people who cocoon you like a warm wool blanket & you won’t have to cling so hard to those who strip you bare anymore