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hi band guy is my boyfriend now just thought i’d keep you updated

5/29/21

the world isn’t ugly. the world is beautiful. it’s filled with love and hugs and smiles. there are ugly people; mean and selfish and greedy people.

do not lose your hope in the beauty, because it will always be there.

you’re beautiful, and everything you leave in your wake is too.

the way you make others feel reflects your beauty.

you think it means so little but you make a world of difference in my world.

i’m going to share a few things that make me believe the world is beautiful, in hope it can help someone believe their world is beautiful too, because we share one.

- the girl in band that gave me a hug when she saw me crying. i still appreciate that gesture weeks later.

- the girl that tells me i look cute every now and then, it makes me smile.

- the boy i work with, who never fails to make me laugh so hard my face hurts

- my middle school track coach, who never gave up on me, no matter how bad i was doing, she always pushed me to finish even if i was in last.

- my best friend, who always makes me feel what love feels like. (it’s warm and fulfilling.)

- the boy in band who laughed at my joke while we were setting up for the seniors graduation; i felt especially funny that day.

- my cousin, who will always be there no matter how long we’re apart.

- the love of my life, who coincidentally is my best friend. i’ve never loved anyone more than i love them, and they love me too, and it’s not romantic, but they’ve made me feel better than anyone ever has.

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the sun doesn’t shine unless she tells it to.

the moon comes out only to brighten the dark of the night for her.

her beauty doesn’t stop on the outside, everything she does radiates beauty.

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5/29/21

the world isn’t ugly. the world is beautiful. it’s filled with love and hugs and smiles. there are ugly people; mean and selfish and greedy people.

do not lose your hope in the beauty, because it will always be there.

you’re beautiful, and everything you leave in your wake is too.

the way you make others feel reflects your beauty.

you think it means so little but you make a world of difference in my world.

i’m going to share a few things that make me believe the world is beautiful, in hope it can help someone believe their world is beautiful too, because we share one.

- the girl in band that gave me a hug when she saw me crying. i still appreciate that gesture weeks later.

- the girl that tells me i look cute every now and then, it makes me smile.

- the boy i work with, who never fails to make me laugh so hard my face hurts

- my middle school track coach, who never gave up on me, no matter how bad i was doing, she always pushed me to finish even if i was in last.

- my best friend, who always makes me feel what love feels like. (it’s warm and fulfilling.)

- the boy in band who laughed at my joke while we were setting up for the seniors graduation; i felt especially funny that day.

- my cousin, who will always be there no matter how long we’re apart.

- the love of my life, who coincidentally is my best friend. i’ve never loved anyone more than i love them, and they love me too, and it’s not romantic, but they’ve made me feel better than anyone ever has.

[xrdxntwrxtx]

love that patrick came out as ska music lover not even a week ago and now he’s wearing ska shoes he said i love ska and i’m gonna make that every else’s problem now! we love to see it!

literally!!!!! special interest shoes baby!!!! it makes me so happy!!! like genuinely it makes me feel seen idk!!! :]

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5/16/21

sometimes i think that we're the only people on the planet. it's just you and me and a bunch of irrelevancy. through the sick and the hurt it's always been you. every good little thing that came i want to share with you because you're all i am in reality.

summer came and went last year and it's back again, and you're still here. you never went with the seasons like she did.

you never went and came like the episodes of my mental state.

summer doesn't feel like miserable heat and bug bites, it feels like warm evenings and sweet smelling smoke from bonfires and new friends.

the endings of stories aren't dreaded anymore, because i know that even when these stories and memories passed by, you never did.

(for the resties.)

-x

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5/3/21

i want to love you more than anything, i really do. i want to be able to see you but i can’t. everyone else thinks it’s wrong, but being scared isn’t an excuse to hurt you; you’re a good person and don’t deserve that. i am the martyr of “us���. it never really was just you and me. you don’t believe in god, and if i’m honest i don’t think you ever will. and that’s fine. i think you don’t like that i do. every wednesday i sit with my friends i’ve known all my life and we feel like family. maybe that’s the you and me that i needed to heal, but the “us” never came. a rolladcoaster that went up and up and never down. at what point do you realize that that buildup never leads anywhere? there is a somewhere, actually. that somewhere is the end of the tracks and the drop is the rollarcoaster carts simply falling to the ground. martyrdom.