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i always say that i’d do anything to be thin.

anything, huh? anything at all? or do i really mean anything easy? cause there is something i can do to be thin. i can fast, i can restrict, i can just control myself and my body. i can do all that. 

i need to remember that starving is part of the “anything” deal.

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gonna need some motivation for the next 18 hours, think im gonna have a little snack then and start again, or carry on for another day💕

Meanspo wanted and appreciated pls!!

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Wow, big fucking surprise that you failed. No, by all means, go ahead - eat some more, why don’t you? You obviously love being a fat piece of shit since you’re doing your best to stay that way.

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Great tip for when you are fasting

Go on tik tok. You can literally spend hours on there and it makes the time go by fast.

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Me to myself when I start trying to rationalize how 3 extra servings won’t be too bad

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Don’t make one bad day into many bad days.

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Why I won’t “Just eat”

♡Hearing people ask, “Have you lost weight?’

♡Watching the numbers drop on the scale

♡Seeing my mom look proud when I tell her I need smaller pants

♡Looking and feeling healthier

♡Being the skinny friend

♡People asking for the ‘secret’ to how I lost weight

♡Seeing my collarbones and a gap between my thighs

♡Pulling off any outfit

♡Looking graceful when I dance

♡Wrapping my pinky and thumb around my wrist and still having room

♡To look in a mirror and not feel like crying

♡Thigh high socks and boots

♡The flat stomach

♡Not being embarrassed when I say my weight

♡Avoiding the feeling of regret I always have after eating

♡Seeing people stare as I walk down the hall to class

♡Hearing people talk about how skinny i’ve gotten behind my back

♡Big sweaters engulfing my body

♡Feeling confident 

♡Becoming thinspo, instead of just reblogging it ♡Stay safe angels♡

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Wish I could eat nothing and no one would question anything

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please!! im struggling so bad whilst in isolation☹️

reblog this for some meanspo in your inbox

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Reblog if you have an eating disorder but

You’re not underweight

Even a little chubby

Struggle to fast

Binge eat

Struggles to lose any weight

Maybe I’m just a fat ass…but I just want to feel like I’m not alone

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