xteevy

[xteevy]

Gawd damn. This south Texas weather is terrible for my voice. I need to survive. I hate not being able to demonstrate to voice students because I can't sing.

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My worth is slowly rising.

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One day, I'll be proud of what I see in the mirror.

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Whats on my mind.

Every time I feel unmotivated, I think of a person I met on my journey. I think about how they're doing. I'v always been a side character. A character that helps the protagonist get to where they are going. Trigger life altering character development. Inspire someone to achieve their goals. Lucky for me, I love watching people succeed. The success of others has always been a kink of mine. I just want that feeling. The feeling of success. I'm waiting for my turn, but it's so exhausting. If I wasn't stubborn, I probably would have ended up on the street. I feel like the character you start with in an adventure game. The first almost playthrough. Where you test the waters and make mistakes. Then, you get new game plus and forget about your original character and keep getting better while the first playthrough is forgotten and eventually deleted. That's quite the analogy. It truly is a mood. I'm so desperate to get there. Anything that feels like success I treat with a grain of salt. I can't rest. It's safer to delete me from your thoughts. As much as I love success, I hate being taken to those turning points. Being able to vividly recall those moments that I unwillingly said goodbye. I wish my quest line was longer. I wish I could be a companion or a follower. Just so I can feel that success. Don't mind me, I'm just drowning again. -XteevySupreme out

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Best cup of coffee I've had in a long time. 10/10 recomend. Thank you @Kavatcoffee

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One day, I'll feel like I'm worth something.

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Now I play the waiting game.

[xteevy]

Patience is a virtue. I hate waiting too, but good decision. Way to go kid.

[xteevy]

Never give up. Never surrender.

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God help me.

[xteevy]

As I reflect on my birthday and all the people Iv met in my life so far, I have forgiven all those that I felt did me wrong. I am no Saint. If I could apologize I would. There are still people in my reach to clear the slate. I'm way to afraid. What am I afraid of? It's more of the guilt I'm ashamed of. That's something I could never shake. Goodnight.

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Tomorrow is the beginning.

[xteevy]

I'm happy my boi Fred is getting his due respect.

[xteevy]

God I hope things get better.

[xteevy]

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5juROC3YB9XwZIWKehmScY?si=nqgL89-CSQiM1U5bL2ncUQ&utm_source=copy-link&dl_branch=1 Do you like alternative? This one's for you!

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There's a demon in my brain.

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I still carry you around.