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Matt Haig, The Comfort Book

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it’s soooo hard to romanticize where you are now and like i get it, it always feels like the least beautiful time to be in, the worst point in history, your flop era etc, but it’s like Not though. every day i am amazed at the nostalgia i get for the past where i was objectively worse and more on fire than i am now like it doesn’t make sense until You Realize… nostalgia is often just you feeling regret that you didn’t fully experience what you had at that time. and it’s a call to enjoy where you are now because it truly is a unique part in ur life, no matter what is happening because life is a fleeting gift man. like IT IS!! experience every moment fully… it’s what your future self deserves when she looks back at you now

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it’s so strange how the relationship dynamics u established with one person are so wildly different to the dynamics u have established with someone else. like yes I have one personality for u and a different personality for everyone else I know. it’s like we’re all just one person but also a hundred people at the same time

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wait so you can find happiness in the smallest most insignificant things in life and they’re not a distant promise but a tangible immediate reality?

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Ada Limón, from “Calling Things What They Are”, The Hurting Kind

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life really is so simple when you sit back and realise you don’t actually have to do a lot of things. i don’t have to be on my phone constantly. i don’t have to sit inside all day. i don’t have to reply to peoples messages straight away. i don’t have to have what’s in my fridge. i can go out and get groceries and make things that I’m craving. i can go on a walk. i can turn my phone off for a day or two. i can sit and read for hours on end. i can journal for as long as i want. i can mediate. i can cook. i can clean. i can breathe deeply. i can get myself a tea or a coffee. i can have meaningful conversations with my family. i don’t have to be in a constant state of “online”. i can disconnect. I’m not obliged to be here. my name isn’t being called out on a list. i can leave. i can take time away. i am allowed to live.

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so fucked up that so much of our lives is dedicated to being a good student & good employee. it is no longer enough to have good grades or to do ur job well now u have to manufacture this narrative of yourself that is perfectly tailored to what universities &employers want to see. this is why we cant settle for being amateurs at anything I think.. we have so little free time & yet we feel like spending it without being "productive" is laziness.... I want to bake mediocre bread. & collect cool rocks. take naps. play tennis badly. try rock climbing. boil eggs to put in my pockets & eat at the park. fuck everything else

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Matt Haig, The Comfort Book

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you punish yourself by depriving yourself on how you need to be loved

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bunny wearing a strawberry hat

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i look in the mirror, i lose my mind a little, i cry on public transport, i walk through a fluorescent supermarket, i have slow and confusing dreams at night. you know how it is

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the fact that I have to heal and grow and get better and do it all by myself because no one else is responsible for that except for me.........

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We need to abolish the idea that physical labour is “demeaning” and that nobody wants to do it. Many jobs that require physical labour are underpaid and don’t command anywhere near the level of the respect they deserve, but no job is inherently demeaning in and of itself, and moreover, some people genuinely enjoy doing work that is more physical than stationery, and there’s absolutely nothing wrong that. 

We should be more worried about fair wages and rights to unionise for labourers than saying people who take pride in the excellent and necessary work they do  should somehow be ashamed of their positions. If you are paid well, treated with respect, and valued for your expertise, you are not being demeaned just because your work involves physical labour. 

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