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Neil as a narrator: We went to the banquet in clothes.

Also Neil: When the light hits Andrew's beautiful golden eyes at a 41° angle, it makes them look like the scolding hot sun that keeps our world from turning into an uninhabitable wasteland.

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love when writers are like “this character is SOOOO tormented. they are undiagnosable. no one could possibly understand them. they’re just so disturbed and impossible to label. they’re a mystery. no one will ever quite comprehend what goes on in their mind” whole time the cunts just autistic

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hey-o! i am looking for your "during the height of the minyard-josten rivalry" hc? so that i might link its glory in my upcoming fic rec list? if that's ok with you? but i can't find it in this black hole we call Tumblr? if you don't mind, would you link it?

Oh, of course you may! Here's the link

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autism be damned my boy can kill

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hey yall! i opened an etsy! it's a lil sparse rn, but check it out if you'd like. However, if you wanna support et moi but have less coins than required for a custom clothing piece, here's my redbubble!!

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when i hear "boys will be boys" there's no other acceptable argument than that time andrew bought a maserati and matt immediately put their differences aside and asked andrew to start it up and andrew "i never do what people tell me to unless they're neil" minyard twisted the key in the ignition

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“Resources for writing realistic injuries” no. I want to beat my characters to shit and I don’t care where the blood they’re coughing up is coming from. Like in anime.

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The Death of Neil Josten

“Neil had hit the end of his rope before he wanted to, and he hadn’t accomplished everything he’d hoped, but he done more with his life than he ever thought possible. That had to be enough. He traced the outline of a key onto his burnt, bloody palm with a shaking finger, closed his eyes, and wished Neil Josten goodbye.”

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Let's start understanding right now that Neil Josten is demisexual. Yes that does make him queer because aspec identities are queer (please stop acting like aspec people aren't queer/lgbtqia+). What it does not do is make him any other sexuality that erases his demisexuality. His attraction to Andrew does not make him gay or bi or pan just because it makes it "easier" for you because you don't see why using the correct label for him matters now that he's canonically romantically and sexually attracted to another (male) character. It still matters, him being demisexual has always mattered (especially in regards to the representation he provides).

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one of my favorite stupid things to do in fanfic is to throw two characters together who literally never interact. and then give them an entire, fleshed-out relationship dynamic that exists nowhere but my own head. yes they’ve literally never spoken. yes their relationship is important to me. hope this helps.

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demiromantic Andrew and demisexual Neil. please. we need more of this content.

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kevin n neil caught by the paparazzi 

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since i’ve been unable to draw anything here’s a pile of old things i never planned on posting and i’m never gonna finish :))

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Renee is my new comfort character 🦊🧡

ko-fi | redbubble | instagram

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i think we all have that one piece of media we like that’s basically “i love this thing, but i dont think everyone should watch this thing and would not categorically recommend it to other people i know, this thing has a lot of problems and i am the first person you should ask if you want to know a long list of criticisms, but i REALLY ENJOY THIS THING” its like holding up a can of trash to everyone else and saying “you are a reasonable person and you would not enjoy touching this garbage and i value that about you” and then pouring it out on the ground and rolling around in it yourself

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reasons i headcanon neil josten as autistic with adhd

based off of canon and my own personal thots and experience:

the kevin & riko scrapbook shrine binder. this little man made multiple pages of news clippings and magazine clippings and put them in a binder with all of the coded documents his mom left him. he carried only essential items in his little duffle bag and apparently his fan pages were essential. hyperfixate much?

he has basically no impulse control when he's angry. he went on kathy's show scared for his life and then riko says one thing that bugs him and he immediately attacks riko. not to mention the iconic riko roast.

the way he interacts with people??? idk what says autism like not realizing someone's flirting with you but also being able to physcoanalzye someone's personality to create the perfect persona to befriend them <3

you can not tell me that neil knows how to sit still. he is always fidgeting with stuff. when andrew gives him a house key he connects it to his lanyard with his school id. he'll be walking to class and will twirl it because he likes how it clicks and it's just fun.

andrew buys him fidget toys and leaves them in places for neil to find, like in neil's waterbottle, in his bed, in an empty butter container on top of the fridge, in neil's running shoes, or he'll just chuck them at neil's head in the locker room.

he likes math and is allegedly good at it. my little baby man did not have a solid education but he was still somehow smart enough to major in it? gives me very much gifted kid with undiagnosed adhd energy. i bet he does math for fun when he's bored.

he doesn't like buying new clothes because it Does Not Feel Right. he had so much money but he kept wearing his worn out clothing. it is hard for him to wear certain materials becuase of the way the cloth sits on his scars. andrew figures out which cloth neil likes so he doesn't buy him clothing that makes his sensory issues worse.

he's on the ace spectrum. it is super common for neurodivergent people to be ace or aro. he has trouble understanding why people flirt with him and needs things spelled out for him before he realizes what they mean. me too neil, me too.

neil is hot and sexy and people with adhd and autism are always hot and sexy

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N. Abram sketch from that one chapter