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Novel Structure

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And here they are:

Thermoception:  Ability to sense heat and cold. Thermoceptors in the brain are used for monitoring internal body temperature.

Proprioception: The sense of where your body parts are located relevant to each other. 

Chronoception: Sense of the passing of time. Your body has an internal clock. 

Equilibrioception:  The sense that allows you to keep your balance and sense body movement in terms of acceleration and directional changes. 

Magentoception:  This is the ability to detect magnetic fields. Unlike most birds, humans do not have a strong magentoception, however, experiments have demonstrated that we do tend to have some sense of magnetic fields. 

Tension Sensors:  These are found in such places as your muscles and allow the brain the ability to monitor muscle tension.

Nociception:  In a word, pain.  This was once thought to simply be the result of overloading other senses, such as “touch”, but it has it’s own unique sensory system.  There are three distinct types of pain receptors: cutaneous (skin), somatic (bones and joints), and visceral (body organs).

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me: *has a romantic thought*

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I posted this a year ago and it turns out im just a horny maladaptive daydreamer!! world is crazy innit

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I case you were having doubts about your f/o(s) loving you today 💖

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Brotherswing

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Im back

I went inactive for a bit because of personal reasons, but now I’m back and I’m very much obsessed with my new FO’s >:)

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me logging onto tumblr dot com to make another post about how much i love an extremely specific feature/quality of my favorite character’s

my followers who watch me talk about the same exact shit every single day

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sir, that’s my emotional support imaginary world

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look at me im funny

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when your problematic f/o does something terrible

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me rn

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i am v glad you liked the hc’s!! sorry i took a while on them i work way too much lol but im glad they came out good for u bb! 🥰

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they were amazing! i love that arthur recognizes the readers mental illness and still regards him as equal, its something i personally have struggled being able to talk about to friends and family irl!

and it didnt take long at all!!

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these are great im very inspired to write now

could i get hcs (preferably fluff) an arthur/joker with an ftm FO who has bpd? this isnt me projecting at allllllll hahahahaha i love your blog and i love u im sorry if this comes off as rude

Hello my angel of course you can! So I’m not trans, I don’t want to offend anyone so I won’t really focus too much on that I hope that’s okay! But I do have BPD so I totally got you on that one my dude - this is just loosely based off of my personal experiences with the illness and how it affects me sometimes. i hope these are good for you my angel!!! ALSO i will fix the formatting when i get home from work I know it’s ugly af right now, i just wanted to get this posted pls be patient w me!

Oh golly. Y’all’s relationship would be so fucking intense. Not necessarily in a bad way, but intense nonetheless - every emotion is heightened, every little feeling and quirk noticed by the other and it some ways, it would be a little overwhelming, to say the least, but more often than not, it would absolutely be the most validating thing you’d ever come across in your life.

Your illness affected you in ways others couldn’t really wrap their heads around - and that was okay, you didn’t need to be understood by everyone - Arthur was the only one who mattered in the end. We’re not exactly sure what mental illnesses Arthur suffered from but a personality disorder wouldn’t surprise me - so a lot of the times you two would “bounce” off of each other, if that makes sense.

He could read you like the back of his hand, sometimes being able to understand your illness better than his own. He could feel your split before it happened, and although it took him awhile, he eventually got to the point where he could help you through it better than any medication or therapist visit could. It took a lot of effort, a lot of pain and hurt feelings mutually to get there but once you did, you were the luckiest couple this side of the Mississippi.

Arthur is very physical - he likes to speak his emotions via touch, sometimes his words fail him and honestly I could see him going non-verbal for short periods of time. You’d enjoy this, sometimes talking could get a little overwhelming especially considering how intense your emotions are, particularly regarding Arthur - you loved him so much and you felt it so deep it was impossible to match words to it sometimes

Arthur understood how deeply you felt for him, no matter how insecure he may get - he knew you loved him so fucking much. The look in your eyes, your body language, the way you frequently cried just waking up with him in your arms, he knew.

You preferred to be the big spoon - as long as you were close while sleeping you were okay but you liked to hold him close. Sometimes it felt like everything in life was lost, that it was difficult to keep in touch with emotion and love and you refused to let Arthur slip away from you, so physically holding him close made you comfortable enough to just float away. So many relationships in your life didn’t work out but this one, this one stayed so strong and steady. He was absolutely the most important thing in your life, and nothing would get between the two of you, not even air. He loved it, loved the feeling of your arms wrapped so tightly around him and he never wanted to leave your embrace - your gentle touch meant the world to him and waking up and actually getting out of bed was extremely difficult when you felt so good.

Mornings were your favorite time with him (all time spent with him was your favorite let’s be real). The time you spent with each other before facing the world, before your vision clouded with the hardships of your lives and of work, was so warm and tender and it was like nothing else existed but the two of you. Arthur was the only thing that regulated your emotions, kept them from running wild and just merely gazing at him would help to calm you, and you could feel yourself coming down from an episode with just a simple touch on your shoulder.

He’d be really supportive during episodes, too. Obviously he’s had mental breaks frequently so he’s accustomed to the symptoms and won’t ever try to downplay them or make them seem not as serious as they are - like so many neurotypical people do. You’ll never feel crazy around him. He’s so good at reaching inside of you and pulling you out. Arthur would learn really quickly what worked best for you to help you, asking you gentle questions and keeping himself calm (sometimes he’d have to stave off a laughing fit, seeing you hurting causes him to get caught up inside his head) but he’d push his own pain aside for the time being to be there for you. He learns what tones of voices sound best for you, how to touch you or if you even were okay with being touched during an episode, or anything of the sort. Arthur is incredibly intuitive.

He does his own research about BPD. He’s so supportive and wants to be able to help you at the best of his ability, so he takes secret trips to the library while you’re at work/school and reads up on everything he can. He cries while reading over the symptoms because he hates the fact that the love of his life has to go through this - but it only makes him want to learn more to help you. He picks up good grounding tips from his research and also from his own therapy - maybe he’d even ask his doctor about certain techniques to help during a split or any type of break. Once you figure out he’s learned so much for you, you’re a mess, crying and blubbering because he’s so fucking good to you and you don’t think you can love anyone so much as you do Arthur.

If you’re comfortable and if you have a doctor, you’d invite Arthur along with you to appointments so he can be involved in your care (just like he’d definitely invite you to his own sessions when appropriate). That would make you feel a lot more comfortable in attending the offices and his hand holding yours in the lobby, his gentle eyes watching you during your visit, listening so intently as you spoke about your illness and your problems, he’s really the best boyfriend ever.

He’d help you pick up your prescriptions!!

Even when you’re screaming at him and cussing and otherwise having a bad meltdown, even over the smallest trigger, there he is, taking you into his arms and letting you sob out your frustrations and pain and anxieties. You’d be so panicked you’d merely result to shrieking his name over and over in a nervous voice, shaking him and verifying that he was real, he was there with you and he wasn’t some delusion or hallucination. Repeating his name, touching him over and over helped you to ground yourself and bring yourself back. His lips on your forehead help, too.

Arthur actually really likes the fact that you’re super emotional - as is he. Telling him how much you love him, how much he means to you and going on and on about how beautiful he is to you really helps him in his own headspace. He never doubts that you love him, and in turn, you never doubt he does either - even though your darkest nightmares may be concerning Arthur not loving you anymore, leaving you to face the cold by yourself , you know they’re only sick fantasies of your illness and not the truth.

There’s a lot of kisses!!!! A lot of physical affection!!!! Arthur loves loves loves kissing and touching you in any way and he loves that you’re so clingy. He’s really clingy too - always gotta be touching you or be up under you while cuddling or something of the sort. He likes to lay his head on your shoulder while you’re on your phone or watching tv or whatever. He’s kissing anything he can reach anytime, the back and palms of your hands, your forehead, neck, etc., all the while telling you how handsome you are and how proud he is of you. He can’t ever get enough of you.

Arthur understands your gender identity very well once you explain it to him - and obviously he’s your number one in support. Whenever you feel a little down or dysphoric, he’s there with his arms wrapped around you, calling you his good boy or how beautiful of a man you are, no matter what. You’re so validated with him and he makes you feel so masculine and positive about yourself. It could be in a sexual way or not, he’s very physical about letting you know how otherworldly you are to him and how invested he is in you.

He likes to go shopping with you to buy cute boyish clothes! He’ll take you to the local consignment shops and make you try on sooo many outfits - all of which he adores on you and he’s so excited he’s bouncing up and down as you twirl in from of him. He likes you in soft, comfortable oversized sweaters like the ones he wears (he might end up stealing some from you - watch out!) but it’s cute to be able to share clothes with him.

Arthur prefers simple dates with you - Snuggling on the couch, the both of you wearing the other’s sweater, sipping on coffee or tea or cocoa, or eating takeout , just having good deep conversations are your favorite times with him. Communication is extremely important to him and he’s super good at talking, even when you’re not up for it. Something about you just makes him want to discuss every beautiful thing in the universe because it reminds him of you.

Sometimes you feel like a bit of a handful for Arthur - having a mental illness and being trans come with their own personal issues but to Arthur, everything makes you absolutely perfect. He looks at you and sees the entire sun staring back at him. No matter what you’re going through, he’s there with you, and having someone as strong but gentle as Arthur guiding through life with you is all you need to feel complete.

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me when my favorite character is being treated badly and i wish i could go into their universe to help them

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me, shamelessly writing ‘mary sue’-like self-insert fics because it’s 2019, life is hard, the world is figuratively and literally on fire and i need every shred of positive energy i can get: