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11.04.2025 🌱 today's anthy!

iv been sitting here for 10 mns trying to think of a proper caption 🙂 ...

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genuinely all you need to know to truly understand homura is that she was raised catholic. that’s it. im so serious. that’s why she hates herself. calls herself a devil and a sinner and takes the blame for everything. kneeling at madoka’s feet worshipping her statue and leaving stains on her legs because she’s tainted. her catholicism is also fundamental from a narrative perspective because madoka could ONLY ascend to godhood because of homura’s religious-like devotion for her. because gods are kept alive through veneration and rituals which is essentially what homura does in her loops (put madoka on a pedestal and perform rituals by doing it all over and over again). and the only way for homura to undo making madoka a god is to act like the catholic (but also islamic tbh) version of lucifer. anyway they needa have a yuri conclave in walpurgis rising

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sketches

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hope u dont mind if i post this rough homusaya sketch

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homura akemi

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The bells are ringing

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Happy Pride!

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in episode 36, touga and saionji went on a bike ride. with the knowledge that this took place after the nanami duel (episode 32), where she was subjected to the unblemished and violent truth of her relationship with touga and who he was as a person, the fact that saionji was wearing a yellow helmet here, a colour associated with nanami, is interesting. touga wore his signature colour, red. perhaps saionji willingly filled touga's void by being a stand-in for nanami after the siblings' fallout.

from episode 34 onwards, we saw that these two spent more time together and, in a way, were closer than before. in that episode, touga waited for saionji so they could spar, as a preparation for touga's upcoming duel with utena. in episode 35, touga approached saionji, who was practicing alone in the dojo, and asked if he'd spar with him. later, they had a heart-to-heart conversation at the student council spot, where saionji questioned touga's beliefs. in these instances, it would seem that touga was almost desperately seeking out saionji for whatever reason he had. we know beforehand that touga fostered nanami's dependency on him over the years to feed his need for power and control over others (these manifested as the results of his sexual abuse by the kiryuu adoptive parents), at least over another person. with nanami out of the picture for good, this feedback loop is broken, and he's left alone. hence, he pursued the only other person he was close to, and the only one who'd respond in kind. saionji, on the other hand, can be said to have a soft spot for touga, with him being his only friend since childhood. despite his open disdain for touga, he'd always go back to him. in a way, he's similar to juri in this regard. their actions betray their words. but a distinct difference between them: juri tried to move on from shiori, but saionji kept coming back to touga. we could interpret his disdain as being born out of obligated care for him.

in episode 36, after the bike ride, they met up at the student council spot to discuss touga's decision on whether he'd duel utena or otherwise. then, after losing to her, they laid down on the duelling arena where touga affirmed saionji that it's not over for them and that they'd see till the very end. in episode 37, touga and saionji rode a stationary bicycle at the student council spot. later, saionji joined touga to meet up with akio in his room; together in damnation. it's like they were back to being good friends like in the old days. saionji, who urged that they should rise from their coffins, accompanied touga to be sexually assaulted by akio. if he couldn't save him, then he'd go to hell with him.

addendum: my brilliant oomf @tasaq pointed out that saionji wasn't even wearing the helmet, which could indicate that he either couldn't or refused to fully fill nanami's role. or perhaps he was being reckless.

the end of episode 39 showed the two of them sparring and having a playful banter about saionji trying to catch up on his lessons. on the other hand, nanami prepared tea for all three of them. it is a hopeful conclusion; there is hope to rise from their coffins and leave altogether.

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27.05.2025 ✨ today's anthy!

tried to magical girly her a bit more 😸 i drew her pulling her sword out at first but i think in a traditional magical girl setting her weapon would be long range and she'd be more of a support type than a dps character so uh ... actually what did i ... what is that. help. um i think i decided shes pulling out a wand or the handle of a rose barbed whip but i already drew that for a revue starlight design somewhere ....... anyway !! her powers would be similar to whats shown in the anime and manga ... like sealing/putting you in stasis, illusionment/enchantment, summoning weapons, power enhancement, animal/plant manipulation, nullification. i think her main fighting style would be deflection/rebounding attacks thru portals maybe she defeats monsters/enemies by sealing them in a glowy summoning circle and they sparkle out of reality as a final move and when asked at the beginning where they go she givs an explanation of putting them to sleep and delivering them to a realm of dreams to bring them peace to avoid depicting outright death to a pg audience but its later revealed where they actually go is inside her heart/soul gem where she summons things from and she takes on all their pain instead so her body is basically a gu jar of trauma and every weapon she summons is actually forged from every weapon ever used against her that she sealed so like basically canon right but the addition that now her heart is full of prisoners and demons and whatever and shes tortured by their dreams at night when she sleeps. maybe her power enhancement for damage assists are fueled by all the agony and resentment shes collected inside her. but as a divine warrior of justice it is her heavenly duty to suffer for the sake of protecting others and bringing balance to the world through the righetous path blah blah blah a million swords of hate upon ye etc etc oh dont worry about it though she doesnt feel anything. this version is like if i took a heartless doll with a hole in her chest of an endless abyss but like i put a crystal heart on top of it like a stopper so nothing bad that goes in can leak out so i fixed her :+) like kintsugi. thats how it works right. its also more sparkly now. holds her outu in front of me like an aciton figure

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midsummer’s night dream redraw/study/whatever but its utenanthy

original reference under cut

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clara doll homura being normal

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18.02.2011 ⏳ today's timeline

me - im going to draw a madohomu that is sso off model

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25.02.2011 ⏳ today's timeline

idk if theres like canon pmmm lore abt it somewhere in an interview madokaheads lmk but i like to think their magical girl forms as being manifestions of their idealised selves while also reflecting certain facets of their psych. which could explain impracticality in battle attire like idk. homuras stiletto heels. sorry i know i knoww its magic its the genre shes a support not dps char their bodies feel less pain re their soul gems etc etc but whenever i watched homuras magical girl training montage i just thought abt how much it must hurt running on those lmao that being said id like to think their magical girl forms Can change like with shifting values or convictions but usually not very noticeably and only with small differences when they do due to their short lifespans. id imagine their forms just becoming dimmer/desaturated maybe with minisculely corrupted design elements like slightly warped motifs/off pattern details before they fall into despair to reflect disillusionment in the ideals and beliefs that manifested them originally. or maybe missing details to show how they dont remember what theyr fighting for. but id imagine them to look just slightly off like theyr barely holding it together before they burst and hatch into witches (itd be very cool to think of rare instances where magical girls hav complete upheavals in their belief systems and narrowly avoid becoming witches to manifest completely different forms instead. still itd just an intermittent form before the inevitable) but in homuras case since shes been a magical girl for around 100 loops i wanted to design a form that could reflect her psych after repeating a decade of adolescent trauma taking aspects of her original manifestation and fracturing, repeating, layering them to the point where it looks like its about to collapse in on itself before crystalising. she has much longer hair to convey how subconsciously she feels like she should be aging. longer sleeves that swallow her hands like clothes she shouldv grown into by now. two bows, the black one of her original length to represent the withered innocence of her wish and the shadow of her despair while its strangled by the bow of her original purple that stubbornly sits on top and stretches past it. added fingerless tactical gloves for her significantly accumulated knowledge in mechanical and explosive weaponry. i wanted to make her outfit giv off more of a witchy vibe too. shrug initially i drew her 1st version with nothing changed from her canon design besides braiding her 2 side bangs and i drew the wider heel on her 10th loop version but i rly wanted to do the diamond heel for her final one and the progression of her heel becoming sharper just made more visual sense if i switched it lol oh also i liked drawing her bangs shadowing so much of her eyes but i thought itd b fun to draw more of her eyes showing to symbolise how she metaphorically can see more clearly now. nothing about her physical non magical girl form changed but i think if homura can use her time magic to heal her eyes she can also use it to idk freeze her hair in a certain position so it doesnt get in the way instead of a haircut ghjfgdfgd anyway its fun for me to imagine her not noticing with how focused she is on saving madoka until one day she sees her reflection and is taken aback at how unrecognisable shes become to herself even while her actual body remains unchanged

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0̶4̵.̴0̷3̶.̵2̶0̵11 ⏳ today's ṭ̸́i̷̕ͅmeline

i thought it was way too obvious who my favourite was after homura and ma̸d̶o̶̧͝k̵a̵ s o̷ ̶o̴ ̴o̶ i tried my best to make them all look equally good to hide it ... can u tell who it is ...

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Maid cleaning a massive chateau surely belonging to the richest people you’ve ever seen, and as she’s walking from room to room you notice that every single portrait is of her