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*he swallows thickly when Cormac finally looks at him; it had been too long since he'd seen his blue eyes stare at him like that for his liking. He strokes his hair soothingly and shushes him, sensing how panicky he was getting* Shh, mio bello. You're fine and... *he bites his lip, still unable to believe what had happened* and she's fine. Sleeping *he confirms, a small smile on his lips, remembering how beautiful their child had looked* She's healthy, Cormac. You both are and... *trails off before joining him in the bed and pulling him close, closing his eyes as he breathes in his familiar scent* I love you so much. I don't know what I would have done if... *Swallows and holds him tighter*

A few days later

*sits outside, holding his head in his hands and jogging his knees nervously, trying not to cry until he’s toldhe can go and see Cormac. He slips inside the ward hurriedly and runs over to his bed and stares down into his pale face as Cormac seems to be stirring into consciousness* Cormac… you’re okay *he croaks brushing back his soft blonde curls and pressing a kiss to his forehead not wanting to let go* How do you feel? *he asks against his skin, practically almost in the bed with him without squashing him*

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Your nakedness.

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A few days later

*sits outside, holding his head in his hands and jogging his knees nervously, trying not to cry until he's toldhe can go and see Cormac. He slips inside the ward hurriedly and runs over to his bed and stares down into his pale face as Cormac seems to be stirring into consciousness* Cormac... you're okay *he croaks brushing back his soft blonde curls and pressing a kiss to his forehead not wanting to let go* How do you feel? *he asks against his skin, practically almost in the bed with him without squashing him*

*he isn't quite sure where he is at the moment but he felt quiet light and weightless and his body is quite numb. He couldn't see anything but he could hear things. He could feel himself fading away though and that scared him somehow but then he heard that noise, a cry but as soon as he heard that, everything went numb again and he couldn't hear anything. He felt like the world was falling in around him, adding pressure to him. It felt rather strange and Cormac wasn't sure if this was an effect of the drugs or if he was dead. He hopes he isn't dead otherwise it would be a waste of his sexy looks if he were. He soon began to feel something, his senses slowly coming back and he felt someone leaning on him, he wasn't sure who it was thought or what it was but they felt warm*

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Fuckin tease.

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*only now does he realize the consequences of this and he whispers to Cormac, even though he's nearly out of it from the medication,* But I can't lose you. I can't do this on my own. *he holds his limp hand and squeezes it before a medi-witch ushers him out, despite his determination to stay. He paces for what feels like hours before a medi-wizard comes out to talk to him*

Mister Zabini, congratulations, you have a baby girl. She's very healthy. However, Mister McLaggen used a lot of his magic to keep the child alive, given that it was a premature birth. There was also a hefty amount of blood loss too. The patient is currently in a comatose state and we're not sure how long for.

*he feels dizzy and leans against the wall before shaking his head and bursting into the room to Cormac's side. He sees him looking pale, sweaty, gaunt and lifeless almost, and he takes his hand in his trying hard not to cry* Wake up idiota *he grunts out hoarsely. At the moment he doesn't even want to see their child. Not if he can't have Cormac to see it with him. He growls and throws himself on Cormac, careful of his scar on his stomach before sobbing freely but also unconsciously transferring some of his magic over to him*

*furrows his brow as he squeezes his hand back* I suppose so. *closes his eyes, feeling worried about the whole thing as the doctor started and he couldn’t feel a thing* Blaise, you have to promise me … that no matter what happens, the baby comes first. *he says, remembering...

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*he watches the medics get to it, holding his hand firmly, uncaring of the perspiration build up, then looks at him, and frowns at his request, hiding his worry* It's not going to come to that, and even if it does, I can't do that *he tells him quietly, the words hurting himself* I've lived without a kid all my life, I don't think I can live without you, Cormac *he cups his face* They're going to put you under the anesthetic in a moment, but I promise you, you'll be awake by the end of it. Idiota *he forces a chuckle*

*furrows his brow as he squeezes his hand back* I suppose so. *closes his eyes, feeling worried about the whole thing as the doctor started and he couldn't feel a thing* Blaise, you have to promise me ... that no matter what happens, the baby comes first. *he says, remembering the problems that could happen the doctor had told him beforehand*

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*he chuckles under his breath at their disagreement* One day we'll decide on the same thing together *he jokes, grinning slightly at him before squeezing his hand softly, the grin disappearing when he sees the doctors preparing him. He glances back at him* I suppose we'll find out what we'll get soon enough *smiles supportively*

*he looks at the doctor who was just about to start, making a quiet noise before closing his eyes, not really wanting to look and just wants them to get it over and done with* Blaise … You never told me what you would … like? *tries to say to him*

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*in that moment he wishes he could swap their places and it strikes him just how much Cormac must have gone through. He looks at Cormac and smiles at his question. Pushing his damp blonde curls off his forehead he cups his face trying to keep him calm and distracted* Mm, I'm not that picky idiota *he says grinning* But I suppose, a little boy maybe... to see who he'll take after most. What about you?

*he looks at the doctor who was just about to start, making a quiet noise before closing his eyes, not really wanting to look and just wants them to get it over and done with* Blaise ... You never told me what you would ... like? *tries to say to him*

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*he smiles back at him and kisses him softly, hoping to take his mind off the pain* You do that *He doesn't know why he promised when he can't know for sure, but he knows he can't lose Cormac, or this baby, and he'd do everything in his power to protect them both in order to keep his promise*

*watches as they do tests on him and he cries out in pain, biting his lip to hold it back. He just doesn’t feel ready and he doesn’t want to do it now* I can’t … I don’t want to. *he shakes his head before Blaise makes him look at him. He gulps, staring at him and listens to...

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*he stares at him in horror as he hears him cry out* No, no no, you can, I know you can *he tells him firmly, glad his voice doesn't portray how he feels inside. He smooths his hair back and kisses his forehead as he watches Cormac get hooked up to a morphine potion and other necessary fluids and magic drugs. He takes his hand as the medic tells them she's to perform the cesarean now* Okay? *he checks with Cormac* It will be fine. I promise *he glances at the nurses, who look somewhat anxious but tries to ignore it*

*watches as they do tests on him and he cries out in pain, biting his lip to hold it back. He just doesn't feel ready and he doesn't want to do it now* I can't ... I don't want to. *he shakes his head before Blaise makes him look at him. He gulps, staring at him and listens to his words* I ... *he gets intturpted by the medi-nurse who waves her wand to change his clothing and begins to prepare him. He looks at Blaise scared and holds out his hand*

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*he's never felt so helpless before and he stares down at him, wondering what's caused this. After explaining what's happened as well as the fact that he's the father, he watches as Cormac is lifted onto a bed. He feels his chest ache at Cormac's words* You'll be fine *he reassures him and stays close to him* I'm not going anywhere, idiota, promise *he says with a fake smile and watches the medi-witches and wizards carry out tests on him. He cups Cormac's face and pulls it to face him* Look at me, Cormac, you're okay, mio bello *he maintains eye contact with him, letting him know he's there for him*

It’s … I don’t know, Blaise. *frowns* It just hur- *grabs onto Blaise’s arm tightly as pain goes through his lower stomach and his knees threaten to collapse*...

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But... *stares at him shocked, not prepared for him as it was a few weeks before they were expecting. He stares feeling his heart ache at his scared eyes and he picks him up gently before grabbing his wand and disapparating to St Mungos hospital, but stops to make sure Cormac's okay before entering the emergency ward* It's alright, Cormac, it's going to be fine *he says firmly, looking for someone to help*

It’s … I don’t know, Blaise. *frowns* It just hur- *grabs onto Blaise’s arm tightly as pain goes through his lower stomach and his knees threaten to collapse* Blaise … *says with a strangled voice*

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*he looks at him utterly shocked* Fuck, Cormac *lowers him to the floor slowly as he feels his knees give out and holds him* What is it? *stares at him, trying to hide his worry, and looks up to the bedside table for his wand* I'm taking you to St Mungos *tries to stand up with him*

It's ... I don't know, Blaise. *frowns* It just hur- *grabs onto Blaise's arm tightly as pain goes through his lower stomach and his knees threaten to collapse* Blaise ... *says with a strangled voice*

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*he doesn't let up that easily and follows him* Ohhh no you don't *grabs his arm softly* That was not a reaction to a stomach, if it was a stomach ache it would be permanent. What was it? What did it feel like? *he looks him in the eye* Tell me, McLaggen, it might be serious.

*the pain instantly goes and he raises a brow, removing his hand* It's nothing. I think it's just a bad stomach ache. All this food you've been giving me the past few days. I don't appreciate you making me fatter ya know. *he smirks before he slowly moves to get out of the bed* I think ... I'll just go nip to the toliet.

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*he chuckles* Hmm, true *he says grinning, happy with his decision* I'd like that. *he looks at him strangely when he hears him groan and watches the movement to his stomach* I saw that, what is it? *he asks immediately* 

Well I suppose we mights as well stay here for the time being. Since we have been living here for the past 7 months ... *grins up at him before feeling that sharp pain in his stomach once again, this time making him groan quietly and he put a hand to his stomach*

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*swallows the bread before kissing him back* You better *wags his finger at him* And I suppose it depends where you want to stay mio bello *runs a hand over his face* Wherever you would feel most comfortable *grins at him*

You not having anything? *says as he cuts some of his sausage, grinning whilst scoffing it in his face* I’m fine. It’s okay, I’m doing alright so far ain’t I? It’s later I’m worries about …