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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

“Good, Then I’ll move back in tomorrow.” she breathed as she watched him sit up. She moved so that she was sitting up too as he pulled his shirt off. She was a little confused for a moment but caught on to what he was doing as he spoke. She couldn’t help the light blush that spread across her cheeks as he spoke about being naked with her. Anna still had moments where she couldn’t understand why he found her so beautiful. but she learned quickly that questioning it wasn’t something she should do.  ”You’re only person I’ve ever been any kind of intimate with.. only person I ever want to be..” she shrugged a bit as she spoke. Her hands moved to pull up the tshirt she was wearing as he crossed the room to turn off the big light. She easily peeled the layers of clothes off her body tossing them as side as she did.

Once she was just as naked as him she shifted so that she could get under the covers. Tucking her hair over one shoulder she waited for him to join her again before laying so she was still facing him. “Yep definitely missed this,” she mused a little as she pressed herself in to him. The warmth of his skin seeped in to her own in the most perfect way. Anna loved that they could just lay like this. And she wasn’t bashful or shy.. she was comfortable. It was probably just because it was him. She doubted she would be comfortable naked with anyone that wasn’t Zack. “You know, this night went  a lot better then I thought it was going to.. I had been worried we would just fight…” she stated honestly as she tilted her head so she could look up at him. “I’m really glad that didn’t happen,” she added with a warm smile. 

Zackery Hudson

Smiled as he rand his fingers through her hair. "Why would we argue? We did enough arguing. I don't know if I'll ever be able to argue with you again," he breathed, letting his eyes closed. All he seemed to do was sleep, but he always woke up tired. After a day of work, and going from rock bottom to catching a glimmer of light, he was probably more tired than he'd been in a long time. But Zack knew the the difference between sleeping with Anna, and sleeping without her in the most innocent definition of the phrase would be a hundred times more restful than any sleep he'd had since she left, alcohol induced or otherwise. Kissing the top of her head, he pulled the comforter up, tucking it around her, wrapping his arm around her waist as the final layer to keep her safe and sound tucked against his chest. 

"At first, I thought would," he admittedly lazily, his eyes still closed as he memorized the way she felt in his arms and the soft scent of her shampoo teasing his sense. "If I was more drunk we might have, but you caught me early, I'd only had a beer..." Something in his gut wouldn't let him get good and wasted knowing she was going to be here, he didn't need her to know how bad he was. He didn't want her to seem him that way, and have to live with the consequences of his actions. "But in the last month or so, I don't know. It's like, all of the anger I had that I was putting on you, all of the blame...I realized it wasn't you I was upset with. It was me. Because I promised things would be okay, and that I would take care of you. And when it really mattered ..I dropped the ball and let you walk out of my life like you didn't matter because I couldn't admit to myself that I was in pain, that I loved you. And see you hurt was hurtin me so damn bad..." 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

Anna happily let herself be pulled down to him as she shifted closer. Her lips still firmly set in a smile as rested his head on her chest. “I am all for us going back to that. I want it all back.” she breathed as her fingers gently ran through his hair. “You know i kind of really miss being naked with you..” she breathed lightly as she thought about how their life was before all the bad. They had really made something for themselves.. out of a unexpected situation came the best little starter life. “And I don’t mean that a suggestive manner. I mean like i just missed being able to cuddle up in bed with nothing between us.” she closed her eyes a bit as she continued to play with his hair. “Just being able to feel all of you…” she added with a chuckle. “That’s probably weird..” she shook her head as she licked over her lips. 

“So I think tomorrow I will talk to Rachel about grabbing my clothes from the house. Since that is really all that is there.. everything is still here. And then we can start working on getting our life back..” she offered lightly as she shifted a bit under him. “what do you think of that? I mean if you want to wait a bit longer until I fully move back in.. I understand,” she added. She figured staying over a few nights.. could also be acceptable. But really she just wanted to be home for good. 

Zackery Hudson

Zack let his fingers run through her hair again as he shook his head. "No, Baby Girl, this is your home. If you want to come back, you come back." The idea of her waiting didn't sit right with him, she'd been gone too long as it was, if anything he'd rather she just didn't leave his side again ever, but that was irrational. She had a life of her own to live. And he still had work. But that didn't mean she was going anywhere tonight. Tonight it was just them and that's all he really cared about. Wetting his lips he sat up pulling the shirt up over his head, he tossed it away, Taking off his pants he pushed them off a well, hesitating only a moment before he pushed his boxers off. 

"It's not weird, Anna. Being naked with someone in a not sexual way is a level of intimacy that I've only ever experianced with you. And it's nice. Even if I sometimes have a hard time keeping my hands to myself. I can't help it, you're so beautiful sometimes I just have to touch you." He gave her an easy smile turning on the bedside lamp before he crossed the room to turn off the over-head light. "But tonight you and I can cuddle, nothing between us. Just you and me, skin to skin. I'm pretty sure that Rachel and Chris have stopped listening for us to start screaming by now. So I don't think we'll be interrupted." 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

Anna nodded her head as he moved her off him. Shifting in the bed she propped her self up on her elbows as she watched him. She couldn’t really see what he as doing which just made her more curious. Chewing on lip she tilted her head as he started to speak. She could feel her heart start to flutter as the words sank in to her mind. A warm smile set on her lips and happy tears started to settled in her eyes. She was so emotional these days. She just nodded her head as she reached for the tiny box. “Of course I’ll accept it.” she breathed. Moving up on her knees as she pulled the ring out of its place to put on her finger.

With how big she was smiling you would have though the boy had just asked her to marry him. though this was better. So much better. Looking at it for a moment she wrapped her arms around him as she pulled him in to a hug. Pressing her lips to his as she held on to him. “I love you..” she mused pulling away from the brief kiss. “Its really pretty..” she added pulling back so she could inspect it. It was simple, but then again . Anna was a simple girl so it fit her perfectly. “Thank you..” she felt so light.. lighter then she had in a long time. It was a nice feeling to have after all the negative the last few months held. 

Zackery Hudson

Smiled as he watched her examining the ring. It was nice to know she liked it, and that he and Rachel and made a good choice. But more thn that it was good to see her smiling, to see the light back in her face, he hadn't seen her look so alive since before they lost the baby. It was nice to see the old Anna peeking through, even just a little bit. Laying back he watched her, a soft, content smile on his lips. She was so beautiful. Once when he was drunk he'd tried to figure out what it was that was so different between Anna and Rachel. What it was that attracted him to her, and not her sister. What he decided was that Rachel just wasn't Anna. He wasn't in love with her looks. It was her persoanlity and flair that did it. 

Wrapping his arms around her waist he pulled her down kissing her softly. "Can we just go back to our life? Watching the movies you like while I get handsy, and eating cookies at midnight on the counter, sharing showers and bubble baths because you find them romantic. Because I'm totally cool with you making take baths as long as I get to have you with me. Even if I find it frustrating to have you pressed against me naked in a situation where I can't do anything about it." He kissed her neck resting his head against her chest, listenng to the soft beat of her heart. 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

Anna smiled as he spoke, resisting the urge to protest the whole him not deserving her. She figured she would leave that argument for another day. She happily allowed herself to be pulled on to his chest. Loving the feeling of being in his arms after so long of being away from him. Settling in to their new position she laughed. “Yeah I don’t think that she would want a castle.” she stated as her fingers lightly brushed over the bit of his collarbone that peeked out from the collar of his shirt. “But I like the idea of a party.. or maybe just dinner.. with the four of us.” she offered lightly as she snuggled a little closer to him. “I am sure Rachel is tired of having to cook.. and I miss doing house wife stuffs..” she added lifting her head to look at him. 

“I think she may like to just sit back and be catered to for once,” she nodded a she pressed a light kiss to his nose. Letting out a content sigh she rested her head back down on to his chest. “I missed this..” she breathed idly. More to herself then him. Closing her eyes she just kind of let it all soak in. She was so happy that it had gone well. She had been worried it out have turned in to some screaming match. Ending with one of them storming out. Which would have been horrible. But this.. this was a great turn of events. They weren’t out of the dark spot just yet but she could see the light at the end of the tunnel  And that gave her more hope then any thing at all. 

Zackery Hudson

"Dinner...yeah, we could do a dinner for them." He was so used to be along it was almost unnerving to have her here with him. But he didn't want her to leave. "Hey, stay here for a second, okay?" He moved her off of him, crossing the room, he opened the top drawer of his dressed, pulling out the small square box that was there. He was saving it for when the baby was born. It was going to be a symbol of his dedication to them, and his fedilty to her, because he loved her. And there was no one else for him. As he he returned to the bed, he nervously turned the box over in his hands a few times before he opened it, looking at the delicate silver band, the single heart cut diamon glintinging in the soft light. 

Offering it to her he smiled. "I wanted to give it to you after the baby was born," he offered softly. "I didn't want you to think that I was going to just leave you because you were no longer pregnant.  It's just a promise ring, and it's not much. But I thought the only way you'd believe me if I gave you something to remind you that you have my heart in your hands."You don't have to wear it if you don't want to. Rachel helped me with the size. But if you want to...and you're willing to accept it," he smiled taking her hand, brushing a kiss against her knuckles. "I'm not going anywhere, I'll never leave you, and as the only girl who has ever made believe in love, I'd be honored if you accepted this ring, and my promise to love you every day for the rest of my life. No matter what happens, or where we are. I'm yours, baby girl." 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Text ⇆ Zack

Rach: Just think about it. Maybe it won't make a differance, but that was a hell of a relapse, Zackery.

Zack: Alright, I'll think on it...thanks kid.

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Text ⇆ Zack

Rach: Good. I still go to meetings ever Wednesday night at 8. You should come.

Zack: I don't know Rach...

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Text ⇆ Zack

Rach: You /do/ realize that you owe me big time right?

Zack: Yeah, yeah midget Eva. I owe ya big time.

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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

Curling herself in to him as he spoke, Anna couldn’t help but feel this weight lift off her body. “I’m not going anywhere.. I’m not going to leave you again.. ever..” she breathed as she let out a heavy sigh. A smile slipped on to her lips when he said he loved her. How she loved hearing that from him. Someone that not to long ago didn’t allow himself to feel such things. And here he was, In love with her. It made a girl feel special even in the saddest times. “I love you.. so much..” she stated as their fingers were linked together. “And you’re stuck with me..” she gave him a warm smile as she looked up at him. 

Her brow frowned a little when he brought up her weight. “I didn’t have much of an appetite..” she shrugged. “But its been coming back.. I just.. I don’t know, I’ll start eating more.” she offered as she chewed on her lip. “I didn’t even notice I was getting so skinny.. I don’t think I have been this small ever..” she frowned as she looked down at her frail form for a moment. “I promise I’ll work on getting healthy.. We’ll get better together huh..” she added with a light smile. Lifting her hand she let her thumb brush against his cheek. “Zackery Hudson you’re the love of my life.. you know that,” she breathed lightly as she leaned up to press a light kiss to his lips. 

Zackery Hudson

The feel of her lips was almost sureal as he kissed her back, his hand moving up to cup her cheek as he kissed her, holding her like she'd break if he wasn't careful, and for all Zack knew, she would. She was so small, so frail, she always had been comparied to him, his little Berry who liked to sit on the kitchen counter and eat cookies at midnight. Breaking the kiss, he smiled at her, wondering if this beautiful woman realized she was his salvation. "I know that," he offered, letting her know she had made her point and that he wasn't going to argue with her. "Annabelle Berry, you're the love of my life, even if don't feel like I deserve you, it's true." 

Tighting his arms around her, he flipped them so she was laying on his chest, kissing the top of her head. "We might have to buy our siblings a caslte in Whales or something to make up for all of this," he offered an attemt at lighter conversation. They could talk about the rest later, right now he just wanted to enjoy her presance. "Knowing Rach, she'd just get pissed though. I don't think she wants a castle..." Inhaling her scent he smiled. "We could throw them a party. I don't think we ever had any kind of 'welcome home' gathering when she came home from rehab, we could blame it on their anniversery or something." Smoothing his hands along her back he looked down at her, "What do you think?" 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

Anna cuddled in to him when they were finally laying in the bed together. Her tears slowed down enough that we wasn’t sobbing anymore. Though her eyes still burned. She smiled as he brushed the hair out of her face. She had missed the simple little things of being with him. Tiny little actions like that was on of them. Though her brow frowned when he spoke. And she could feel her heart pick up a bit with worry. She didn’t know what he was going to tell her but it wasn’t good if it was one of those things you had to be honest about. She decided to stay quiet as he told her what he had to tell. Not wanting to discourage him or anything. As he explained what happen, Anna couldn’t help but feel horrible about Rachel having to go through that.

Her sister did so much for them.. and to think she had been put in a position to be so scared. And that Chris had to actually step in and be violent. Something she knew wasn’t in his nature. It just made her feel worst about the situation. But it wasn’t about her. No.. this was about Zack and the guilt he felt. Chewing on her lip for a moment she stayed quiet as she formulated her opinion on what she had been told. “Its okay.. well its not okay. But I’m not mad at you…” she stated lightly as she let out a heavy sigh. “It shouldn’t have happen.. but you didn’t hurt her.. and you weren’t in your right state of mind..” she breathed quietly as she tilted her head to look up at him. “Just… I’m not going to let you get to that point again.. okay..  I know this is hard.. but I’m here and I refuse to let you hit your rock bottom again.” she nodded her head a bit as she spoke. 

Zackery Hudson

Zack felt himself relax as she spoke. She wasn't mad, she wasn't going to leave. "I'll do whatever I have to, I'll go back to meetings if that's what you want, just don't leave me again..." He nuzzled her shoulder, pulling her closer to his chest, kissing the top of her head lightly. He'd talked to Rachel about it so many times he felt like she wanted to smack him for it. He let himself decompress, feeling the stress of wondering why she disappeared melting away because she was in his arms again. 

"I know that we lost the baby, and I know that we're too young to have kids. But if you'll have me, I still love you. I've never love anyone the way I love you." Pulling her closer her closed his eyes. "Chris and Rach are next door, the four of us are a family all our own. But all of that won't matter if you don't stay with me, Baby Girl." Zack grabbed her hand, twining their fingers together, as he brought her hand to his lips pressing a soft kiss to the delicate skin. "But you have to get healthy too Anna. You're too skinny, you have to start eating again. It's unhealthy to be like this." 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

There was no resistance put up when he lifted her to pull her in to his lap. She welcomed the closeness. Welcomed the warmth she was warped in as his arm circled around her. She just cried as he spoke, mostly because her words weren’t working at the moment. But she did burrow herself in to him more. Anna clung to him as if she was going to open her eyes and he wasn’t going to be there anymore. His words echoed in her head. And she felt horrible for leaving him a lone all this time. For being the cause of his pain. But she wasn’t going to do that anymore. No she wasn’t going to hide from him. She sniffled as he moved her away a bit so that he could wipe away her tears. “I promise..’ she breathed out in a shaky voice as she tried to get her voice to form words. 

“I promise that I won’t hide from you anymore…” she finally got out as her own hands came up to wipe away her tears. Though wiping them away really didn’t do anything while she was still crying. But it was a valiant effort. “I.. I want to come home.. I don’t wanna be someplace your not… its been hell.. I hate waking up alone.. and I hate going to sleep with out you..” she started to ramble a big as she leaned aback in to him her arms wrapping around his torso as she buried her face in her chest. “I’m so sorry I left you..” she mumbled out as she held on to him as tight as her arms could. 

Zackery Hudson

"Baby Girl, this place is as much your home as it is mine, you don't have to ask." He carried her to the side of the bed, gently setting her down on her side as he followed suit, pulling her back to his chest as he molded his body to hers, wrapping her up in himself. "You can come home, please come home." He gently brushed the hair back away from her face, letting it slip through his fingers. "I want that more than anything, but Anna, I...I need t tell you something. Because I can't keep secrets from you and if you are moving back in I have to be fully honest, Rachel would never tell you, she loves you too much.." He felt guilty holding the girl in his arms. The girl he loved, when just months earlier he'd attacked her spitting image.

"When Rachel came to check on me. I'd been drinkin' real bad baby. I was on the rock bottom of a thirty-six hour bender, i was out of my mind...it doesn't excuse what I did. I thought Chris was going to kick my ass when he showed up. She came in, caught me off guard and told me I needed to man up, that if I loved you, I needed to go see you in the hospital. She was right, and I was a coward and I got angry I don't really remember what happened but when I snapped back to my senses, Rachel was locking in the bathroom crying in hysterics and I had Chris was punchin' the shit out of me." He was ready for her to be pissed at him, she deserved to be. "I didn't hurt her...she was smart, locked herself in the bathroom, but I'm so sorry baby..." 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

Anna smiled a bit as he spoke. Even in all the mess it was sweet that he was worried she would be made if they changed things. Honestly she had expected it. She straightened up and turned a bit more to look at him as he spoke. Though her brow frowned when he told her what she could talk about. And then at all the rest that he had to say. “You didn’t ruin my life..” she breathed as she shifted on to her knees to look at him. “Look at me..” she stated a she moved her hands to his face so that she could force him to do what she had asked. “You didn’t ruin anything…” she scolded lightly as she shook her head. “I made my choice, I slept with you.. I made that decision. I would have said no..” she started as she licked over her lips. “I chose to keep the baby.. I chose you come live here with you.. everything I did I did because I wanted to.” she added. 

“My life isn’t ruined.. Its not the best right now… but its not ruined. I still have a bright future a head of me. just like I would have if fate had been different and we still had the baby…” she could feel tears burning in her eyes. “But you know what.. no of that.. this bright future.. any future.. none of that would be worth anything.. If I didn’t have you.. I don’t want it if you’re not there.” she stated with a light shrug. “I know that may not seem like the case with how I have been acting. But… I feel guilty.. I feel like I let you down.. because I couldn’t keep myself healthy enough…” Anna felt the tears slip down her face. “And I just didn’t know how to face you.. I didn’t know how to face myself..” she looked down as she sat back on her legs putting a distance between them once again. “If any one ruined anything…” she choked a bit on her words as she started to cry a little harder. 

Zackery Hudson

Zack felt his heart breaking as she broke down in front of him. How was he so selfish? To worry about himself, to ignore her pain to drown out his own? Moving he lifted her, concerned at how weightless she felt in his arms as he moved her into his lap, wrapping his arms tightly around her, as he pulled her to his chest, cupping the back of her head as he rocked her in his arms. "Anna...Baby, shh. You didn't ruin anything." He was at a loss for words at how blind he had been. "I didn't ever stop to think about how you had to of been feeling I just knew that I was hurting and that you didn't want me. I couldn't handle being without you and knowing that I hurt you...I couldn't cope. I'm so sorry Baby Girl." 

Holding her more tightly he kissed her cheek. "I'm not going anywhere, Baby Girl. I'm going to stay right here, right here where you can always find me." Easing her away he gently wiped the tears from her cheeks, kissing her forehead. "If you need to cry, Anna then cry. But cry with me. Don't shut me out anymore, I'm begging you. I can't handle it anymore." He was trying his hardest to keep his voice even, to not break down when she so obviously needed him to be strong. But it was hard to be strong when he felt so weak. "I need you. That scares the shit out of me, but I went four months without you and I've done some things I'm not proud of, but I can't be without you anymore." 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

The small girl hadn’t even noticed she had lost weight. It wasn’t surprising because she didn’t eat much. Only in the last few weeks had her appetite even come back. “I haven’t been very up to taking care of my self.. I could say the same for you..” she breathed lightly as she shifted in her play next to him. Getting more comfortable, as much as it felt like being back were she belonged. There was still that ounce of tension that made it odd.. she didn’t like that. She didn’t want being close to him to ever feel like it wasn’t right were she belonged. If anyone would have told her that she would feel so much for him a year ago. She would have laughed at him. Zackery Hudson had always been the enigma in her life. He was handsome and most girls swooned over his every bad boy move. And at first he was just a temptation that she apparently couldn’t resist.

But after everything, finding out she was pregnant.. moving here with him. He quickly became the first person not in her family she loved with all her heart. And that still held true today.. even if they were a little broken. Pushing the thoughts out of her head; her hand cautiously moved her smooth her palm over his chest. “I really meant it when I said I missed you..” she breathed out lightly. “If I would have known you were having such a difficult time I would have come here sooner.” she added chewing on her lip. It was the truth, as down as she had been. Anna knew that if someone would have told her what was going on she would have been right here.. If there was anything in the world that could get her out of her slump it was him.. good or bad.. 

Taking a deep breath she shifted to sit up. Pulling her legs up to her chest as she did. “It all looks the same..” she breathed idly. Looking around the room they had once shared. “I for some reason expected it to be different..” she added looking back at him form over her shoulder. She wasn’t sure what they were supposed to talk about. Then again maybe she should have just let them sit in silence. But that felt awkward to her and she couldn’t stand that feeling. “I’m sorry.. I don’t know what to talk about…” she breathed honestly after a moment of silence. 

Zackery Hudson

He would have laughed. He wanted to. It all felt so fucking pointless. He could never change what he'd done to her. Fuck. His mom was right. He was a selfish little prick. Zack could swear his heart stopped beating in response to her touch. It made his heart ache, but he wanted so badly to pull her back to him. To wrap her frail frame up in his arms and kiss her until they both forgot their pain for a moment. Where was the bad-ass that he had once been? Where did that Zackery go? The untouchable one who was above love, and heartache. The one who felt nothing because he didn't allow himself to get that close? But that guy was gone, for better or worse. And though the warm buzz of alcohol filled his system he still felt everything. He was drowning. 

As she sat up, Zack willed himself to move, but he remained laying. "Rachel cleans when Chris isn't over...she cooks. I haven't really had the mind to change anything I...didn't know if you'd come back. But if you did; I didn't want you to get mad at me." He we his lips, forcing himself to sit up, inch by tired inch. "You don't have to talk. Or you can tell me everything you've been denying me the last four months. How you feel, why you've been avoiding me. Why you could't answer my texts or tell me how fucked up it is that I basically ruined your life because I'm a fuck up." He put his head in his hands the rage he usually felt was gone. He had no right to rage at her. "I'm sorry, Anna, I'm so fucking sorry..." 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Characters→ Anna Berry && Zack Hudson

Time Frame→ Monday Night, April 1st

Location→  Zack’s Apartment

Comments→ “Take me in, into your darkest hour And I’ll never desert you “

Anna hadn’t been out of her room in months. That was the problem of having a attached bathroom she really didn’t have to leave. And for the four months she had been blocking out the world she hadn’t. But that wouldn’t do anymore. Not when she knew that Zack needed her. Even if he probably really didn’t want her around. She was going to make up for being so absent in his time of need. Okay she kind of had a reason for being so distant. But it didn’t make her feel any better about it. Most of the ride over was spent mulling over everything in her head. And once they pulled in to the parking lot she just kind of stared at the building for a moment. So many time had she come home to this place. As much as her father’s home had housed her for the past four months. Coming here felt more like coming home then being their. Maybe it was true what they said, your home is where your heart is. And even if her heart was a little broken.. it was still here.

Sighing she followed Rachel inside, adjusting the bag she had brought over her shoulder. Her heart was beating faster then normal and she was nervous. She had so many feelings right now and she just couldn’t pin point which one to focus on. Once she was inside Anna took a moment just to breath. It was weird to be back. Just standing in the door way brought back memories she wasn’t sure she as ready for. But she wanted to be there for him, so she was going to power through it. Slipping her bag off her arm she set it on the floor next to her shoes before she walked farther in to the house. Her teeth chewed on her lip as she looked around. Lifting her hand she tucked her hair behind her ears before she let out the breath she had been holding in. After just kind of standing in the living room she figured she should actually find who she was here for.

Moving down the hall way she made her way to the bedroom, knocking lightly at the door frame as she just kind of stood there. “Hey..” she breathed out as she took in the sigh of him laying on the bed. It had been way to long since she had been in the same room as Zack. And even so its still was probably the hardest thing to do. Anna didn’t say it often, but she blamed herself most of the time for what had happen. It was her body that had given up after all. No matter how many time the doctor or Rachel told her that wasn’t the case. She still held a lot of guilt. Which she knew Zack did as well… his text to her was enough to see that. Pushing it all out of her head she moved more in to the room. Looking at the bed for a moment she just crawled in next to him. And with out a word she pressed her much smaller frame in to his. Even with all the emotions it was kind of like coming home. 

Zackery Hudson

Zack forced himself to shower. He'd been working. Living on cruise control Since he'd been through rehab the legal jargon went through his mind. He was isolating. But he didn't care. he wanted to be alone. Deserved it after what he had done. Zack never considered himself to be one of those guys. The douchebags who used innocent young girls. And she wasn't just an innocent. She was a vision of purity. The way she'd melted into his kiss and well practiced hands kept him awake at night. He was disgusting. He was as good a murderer. He'd tainted her to see her turn his own color, to know that for a moment he'd touched snow and it hand't melted at first. 

And then she was pregnant. And she moved in with him and he found himself falling for the little things that made her so perfect to him. It wasn't anything at first, easily ignored. The way she smiled when he came home, how grateful she was when he made midnight food runs. As he got out of the shower, he forced himself to get re-dressed, nothing fancy, jeans and a black t-shirt. One day he would pay Rach and Chris back for what they were doing. One day. He didn't make it much further, as he sprawled across the bed, covering his eyes as he slowly exhaled. He didn't open his eyes again until her heard movement, Rachel unlocking his door and telling Anna to call if she needed anything before disappearing back  to her own apartment. 

He listened to her move, listened to her breathing. She brought life to the apartment. Hell if he hadn't bought it for her. Sure he'd gotten into a fist fight with Finn and his mom told him to get the fuck out. To not come back unless his attitude changed. But it wasn't until after he found out she was pregnant that he took the initiative to find an apartment. He looked towards the door wen he heard her voice. "Hey," He replied, Freezing as she crawled into bed next to him, feeling how small she felt pressed against him. "Anna, take better care of yourself, You lost way too much weight." 

I'll Stand By You → Zanna

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Text - Anna

Anna: Everything will be fine, I'll see you soon okay. I love you.

Zack: Don't panic kid, I'll be alive when you get here.

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Text - Anna

Anna: This is true. I kind of do what I want.. Its the Berry in me.

Anna: but its still nice to know you're not going to try and stop me.

Zack: Even if I wanted to try, I don't have the energy anymore.

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Text - Anna

Anna: Zackery, I love you and I want to be there for you. Please let me.

Zack: I can't really stop you, Anna. I never could.