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Arquius pleeeease

3/18

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4/13

bluesky post

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A note on the topic of trauma that I personally found helpful in accepting the idea that I am a trauma victim is that one of the most widely accepted facts in the field of trauma research is that abuse is often not the common factor in whether somebody will develop ptsd. 

Many people can go through awful things without developing trauma based disorders as long as they receive compassion and support in processing those events as they happen. The most common factor in developing something like ptsd is emotional neglect. And emotional neglect on it’s own can be enough. 

Whatever you went through was enough I promise, you’re not overreacting. Abuse and neglect are traumatic at any level, you don’t need to have gone through the worst possible experience you can think of to develop ptsd. If it hurt you then it hurt you.

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Some time ago (I think in 2021) I had to go see a neurologist over really scary symptoms that resembled seizures. I was a nervous wreck about what I was feeling and had barely slept all week, which seemed to be apparent to the doc’s assistant when I sat down in the exam room for questioning or whatever. Dude was pretty young and soft spoken, around my age. He was laser focused doing something on one of those tablet-laptop Surface things as I spoke, presumably writing down my symptoms.

Midway through talking about my symptoms my voice audibly started shaking as I was describing them, clearly upset.

In the middle of my monologue he turns the tablet to face me, closes whatever program he has open and the wallpaper is this fucking collage of pictures of lord farquaad from shrek, lovingly decorated. Dude just sat there placidly smiling at me until I noticed and stopped dead in the middle of a sentence. We sat there in silence like this for like a solid minute before I started wheezing laughing. Before I could even say anything else or process it he picked up the tablet and wordlessly left the room, and I just sat there dumbfounded until the doctor showed up. 10/10 doctor experience tbh

I didn’t own a cell phone at the time to get a photo so this rendition from memory is all I can provide you

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Some practice doodles of chapter 3 guys for a thing I'm drawin :3

Since the other outlets look more like cats I'm guessing Ramb is supposed to look like a dog, I made him fluffy too :3

Still like Elnina more than Lanino but he didn't turn out too bad in my style I think

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*Ha... You blokes sure know how to make an old plug blush, huh?

*But I'm sure you've got better people to direct all these kind words to, don't you? *No need to go wasting it all on a bloke like me.

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ramb

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oooohhhhhh you smug little cunt what is your deal

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late nights

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ramb...

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bla bla bla i deltarune slop

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Okay,,, I kind of lied, just one more QwQ And I SWEAR I’ll get back to eltingville

Please enjoy Ramb my beloved

I would lick EVERY outlet for him

WHO SAID THAT!!? 😧

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Something something Ramb doodle

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i love ramb so much if yuore a ramb hater unfollow me block me mute my tweets ok. i love him. ok

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No one will shed a tear for his squeaky ass crocs

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Ngekkkk