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“We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they are called memories. Some take us forward, they are called dreams” - Jeremy Iron

“If given a chance to go back to the past I would choose my Dad”

I would choose the time where my dad was still alive, happily smiling and joking with us. I dreamt every single day that I wish I have a dad whenever I go home after school and talk to me how’s my day. I want to re-experience the moment where I can feel the love and care of my sweetest father not just in his soul but also through his heart and hands, the deeds that he shows to us. I want to reminisce the memories where the family had bond together with my nephews like going to church every Sunday, eating at the restaurant and go to the mall. I want to see him cooking and taste again his delicious specialty food for us on our Birthday, Christmas and other occasion of the family. I want to see his smiles enjoying playing with his favorite instruments together with his band. I want to hear his voice singing for my mom and to dance with him again like in my debut where no one can have his daughter.

My dad was the strongest person I knew. He was the strongest person most people knew. He was my loving dad to all of us and sweetest husband to my mom. He was the greatest dad I’ve ever had. He wasnnice and smiling person to every people surrounds him. He was the amazing, kind-hearted and sweetest man in my life. But I know in life there are good and bad weather comes, it may be tough but we need to believe in him. Last year, my dad started to go at the hospital in U.S., and then the doctor checkup and found out that my dad pancreas got infected. After that, they endoscopy my dad and found again two small mass in his liver. He got an operation successfully and we thought that he might recover immediately but not yet, he was on and off in the hospital. It is the saddest part for us because we’re not there to take care and assist him. Few months passed, my sister called us that my dad is now weak, he has 2 months to live in this world and we cannot accept that because only God knows when that person die. So, my dad decided to go back to the Philippines and the doctor said maybe he need to go back, maybe when he’s in the Philippines there must be a miracle. April 2018, they came here in the Philippines together with my nephews and my mom. I saw him crying when he came into his place in CDO. He was so happy, smiling and alive when he came in to our house. But in 2 weeks, my dad is really weak again, but I saw in his eyes that he was happy when he sees all of us. Last, May 11, 2018 the day came up, he rushed to the hospital and that’s the time he gives up.

Losing him was the deepest pain that we encountered in our life. I never knew that he would leave and give up easily because, before he died you can see to him that he is the strong and smiling person. But I knew that deep inside of his heart; his body and lungs suffered him a lot because he has a diseased named Cancer. I thought that there’s a miracle that God can give to us. At that point when he left us I thank God for not make him too long to suffer anymore with that diseased but for us it was the hardest to accept. The idea of having an entire life without a dad, without the conversations, without the arguments, without the bond we had is what keeps me awake at night. These thoughts are the ones that hit me the hardest; they transform the dull feeling of loss into a deep, unbearable blackness and I have regrets that I didn’t make any chance to talk to him before he died because he died before I make him proud of me.

If have a chance to go back to the time where my dad was still alive I just want to thank him for giving us all our needs, for taking care of us and sacrificing everything to give us a pleasant life. I just want to say sorry for all the mistakes that I did and the things I’ve done to him and to say sorry for not being a good and perfect daughter to him. All I just wanted to say is that I love him so much. Today, I do well in school and I know in heaven that my dad is so proud of me and the achievements I’ve got, especially that soon I’ll be graduated and get my diploma. He’s happy now because his hard-work will be paid off soon. I will learn to love the life that my dad wants to see me succeed and pursue my dreams. Now, he is one of our guardian angel to guide and give us strength. He is Zaldy the beautiful soul in this creation.

“Death is not the greates loss in life. The greates loss is what dies inside us while we live”.

[zelenamarie]

STORY # 3

Today, on the way to school, I saw a pack of monkeys. I waved. They waved back. I stuck out my tongue. They stuck out their tongues. I started to run. They started to run, too.

As I kept the fast pace of running, I thought all of them were already gone. But I was wrong. When I looked behind, I saw millions of monkeys running after me. I wanted to wake up thinking that everything was just a dream. Suddenly I heard something. I knew that it was my mom’s voice yet when I looked out, it was a monkey who kept on wagging its tail – it looked like it wanted to get me!

“Oh”, I told myself. What happened to this world? If it was just a dream then I would blame myself for sleeping earlier. Now, whether or not it was a dream, I don’t care! All I want is to get myself out of this jungle full of monkeys and get rid of their annoying faces.

Disappointed and angry, I still chose to trudge my way going to school and hope not to see those creatures anymore. But, the nightmare never ended. When I went to the school playground, I saw another bunch of monkeys laughing, giggling, swinging from the jungle gym, jumping around, playing games, blowing bubble gum and telling jokes. Oh my goodness!

My heart and mind were like near to explosion, so I went to the comfort room. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was stuck for a moment. “Oh! This looks familiar! I am pretty sure I have seen this face before”, I told myself. And so not long after, I realized that I was one of them. Yes, I became a monkey! PECULIAR! (

I went outside the comfort room and started to calm myself. I touched my body covered in monkey fur. And I even got a tail! I also noticed that I wasn’t walking up right. Instead, I walked just like an ape man did in ancient times!

I was bewildered about the bizarre happenings. I walked and walked and bumped into something huge. I looked up high and I saw an enormous monkey! It had thick fur and huge feet. Its tail was thrice thicker than a coconut trunk. What made me more frightened was the smoke that came out from its nostrils. And his eyes – they glowed green as an emerald.

I was about to step back when it bent down on its knees. The ground was shaking. The monkey’s movement made a tremendous sound. I looked closely at his face. He seemed gentle and welcoming. “Be not afraid, for I rule them all – the tribe of monkeys including you”, it said. “Come, I will show you our palace”. Palace? What palace? Isn’t this the King of the Monkeys?

The place was full of trees. We went deeper into the woods and stopped in a place where all the small monkeys sat down. They formed a circle. And there were even monkey guards in full battle armor who welcomed us. Each guard bowed down as we made our way to the big throne. The King’s seat was made of purest gold. The sides were ornamented with pearls and rubies. On top was a gleaming crown made of diamonds.

“Everyone! I want to introduce to you our newest member” declared the King. And all the little monkeys bowed down. “Enjoy yourself some delicious snacks there” the King told me. Hmm, these food could be tasty. I picked the pink bananas glazed with honey. I was right when I took a bite! It really tasted good!

Suddenly, all the monkeys disappeared. In a twinkling of an eye, the kingdom disappeared. I looked around and I realized that I was just staring at an announcement posted on the school bulletin board. The announcement calls for students who are interested to join the Jungle musical.

Ha! I was just daydreaming! The bell rang and I rushed to my next class.

[zelenamarie]

Astonishing Paris✨

WHATS YOUR PLAN?

Travelling is the best moment to treasure in our life. Especially, if we visit our dream place and proudly say it was all priceless. One of the best and famous countries that have a lot of tourist attractions in Europe is the France, the Capital City of Love or the City of Lights “PARIS”.

Paris is today one of the world’s leading centers for business, fashion, entertainment, art and culture. Paris conjures up images of the city’s world famous landmarks, museums and cathedrals. Also the people love to welcome all the visitors.

So plan your own tour now! Explore nearby attractions and see Paris on your own terms. Here are the Top tourist attractions in Paris France:

1st: “Eiffel Tower”

I know everyone dream to go here. Not just the background to take a perfect picture but also the unique design and strong tower they build in the world. Visiting the iconic symbol of Paris usually ranks as the number one thing to do for most tourists. This is the very famous tower for everyone especially the Millennial today. If you can believe it, many Parisians initially found this architectural marvel more than an eyesore. Regardless, the Eiffel Tower today stands as one of the most visited tourist attractions in the world. Visitors can walk up to the first floor of the Eiffel Tower or take the elevator all the way up to the top. That's because every hour on the hour, thousands of flickering light bulbs make the Eiffel Tower sparkle. Eiffel Tower is the glamorous background to take a perfect picture with the family, couple and friends.

2nd: “Jardina du Luxembourg”

Jardin du Luxembourg Known in English as the Luxembourg Gardens, I also love to visit this place in Paris with the colorful lovely flowers. This is the public park and the second largest in Paris. Visitors here can picnic or stroll relaxed among beautiful lawns, formal gardens and fruit orchards that feature many artistic statues and fountains.

3rd: “Louvre”

Topping the list of the world’s most visited museums, the Louvre Museum is located in the Louvre Palace with its signature glass pyramid marking its entrance. It is a collection of more than 1 million objects including the famous artwork. This is one of my bucket lists and I’m sure this is also one of your bucket lists to visit in Paris.

4th: “Notre Dame de Paris”

No trip to Paris could be complete without a visit to the world famous Notre Dame cathedral, this amazing church is considered a supreme example of French Gothic architecture. This church is one of the reasons why I want to visit Paris.

Bonjour! Book your tickets now and visit the City of Love that capture your eyes and heart “Paris France”. paris ici je viens!

[zelenamarie]

“In search of Peace”

From the title “In search of peace” we, people needs to search and find peace. For us, to have a peaceful mind, heart and soul. The poem has a meaningful interpretation it tells us about a person who struggling depression, sadness, pain or a problem and want to find peace in heart and soul. Through opening her heart and have faith in God, she prays and talk to our God and she found an answer. She found an answer to overcome the challenges, because in every problem there is a solution. Through ourselves we can solve that problem and also to our family who’s always support and listen to us. Searching peace is within us, we need to reach out that problem, stay strong, and solve it. Of course, pray and believe to our God.

“She finds peace in knowing God will always lead her exactly where she needs to be”. – Morgan Harper Nichols

For me, as an individual, we encounter struggles, obstacles, problems, stress, and depression in life. Some of us say “I quit”, “I should be gone in this world right now”, “I’m useless”, and “I give up”. We can say these words when were so problematic in life. There are a lot of thoughts inside our head that make us feel down and wanted to give up. Crying is one of the first things to do when we encounter those situations, we cry because we’re weak, we feel that we have no strength to overcome the problem. But, praying and believing in him is the powerful and best thing to do to find peace and hope. Don’t let the anger makes you feel stronger, don’t let the sadness and problem becomes your weakness. We all know that these are just challenges in life

When the times we want to find peace, go to church open your hearts and talk to God and to the people who always there for us and never left us. Sooner or later all the people of the world will have to discover a way to live together in peace. If there is God in the center of people’s life, they can find peace.

“True peace comes from know that God is in control”.

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DREAM CHASER✨

In this amazing world, God created all of us equally unique that has different traits. Each individual has talents, skills, intelligence, beauty and a good heart. It depends on us how were going to use it, protect, and slays it in a virtuous way. Since young, we have the desires, passion and dreams in life that we want to achieve. Our family and parents are the first one who support us to reach our goals in life. Every struggle, obstacles, and failures that we encounter in life was just a challenge on how were going to face and resolve it. This is just a progress on how we can be a goal achiever for us to become a better version of ourselves and to show what person are we and foremost how big your faith is and trust in our God Almighty.

Talking about this dreamer girl. She’s a dreamer, a doer, a thinker and she sees possibility everywhere. Her character defines a goal achiever, a heart strong and a fighter and that resembles for who she is. She is a girl who wants to become rich, get an own house, car, travel the whole beautiful world, payback to the hard work of her family and of course to be successful in her career. She have a big faith in God and always put God first in her everyday life.

——Her story starts here...

May 9, 1998 in the City of Golden Friendship at Canitoan Cagayan de Oro City. The happily married couple Emiliano and Floria Lanzaderas were blessed with a cute, angelic face and gifted baby girl. Her brothers Glend, Jaymar, Emiliano III and only sister Diane are very happy to have their younger sister in the family. Her favorite things to do is to read books and stories, to watch movies and to listen to music. When she was still young, she already have the potentials of being an intelligent girl.

She studied in Elementary at Canitoan Elementary School. She’s began to be an active student girl in her academic excellence, she belongs to the FL (Fast Learner) class, and joining some contest like MTAP and leadership organization. She became the Salutatorian in their school and that could be proud of to everyone , but when she became the salutatorian she felt that her parents are disappointed on her. She got jealous every time her classmates and friends are very happy with their family whatever achievements they got.

And——

This starts her journey reaching High School at Cagayan de Oro National High School (CDONHS). Most of the time, when she joins contests in school her parents doesn’t go to support her. Then, she met her best friend named Shiella and other group of friends named Kryzel, Cessy, Mitzi, and Kathlyn. During her freshmen to junior year- she didn’t gave so much effort to top the class. She thought that no matter how she do, it will never be enough for her family. As a result, she was not an honor student from 1st year to 3rd year but she’s active in joining Academic contest. She also entered the beauty and intellectual battle, in her junior year she joined United Nation as the representative of their section and guess what? she almost got the bacon! She won as the “2nd runner up” then, she also joined Miss Intramural and she break a leg- she did it, she won as “Miss Intramural in CDONHS”. But upon reaching 4th year High school, her parents told her to strive hard to get a scholarship for college because they can’t afford to send her to a University. Liked a dark horse, she worked and strived hard and tried to outrun the top students in her batch. The fruit of her labor- She graduated as 6th honorable mention and was granted full scholarship from Liceo de Cagayan University. For her honestly, she never thought of studying in LDCU, so she looked for scholarship programs offered by a different school and government. But she didn’t made it, so her only choice was LDCU School, and at that time she thought that God has a good reason why she let her study in LDCU.

When it comes into her love life, her parents are conservatively strict to the point that there is no boyfriend policy because for them having a boyfriend is just a conflict to her studies and grades. But every time she get good grades they let her to date someone. Talking about her past puppy love to the guys who broke her heart, she became a strong independent woman because of those heart aches she learned a lot of lesson and realized everything that she is worth it and deserve to be love by someone. Now, she’s focusing herself to build a strong relationship with her supporting, understanding and sweet kind hearted boyfriend Mike. They always put God as the center of their relationship.

Turning college, she want to take a course “Broadcasting” when she was in her 4th year high school, she do broadcasting and want to become a Broadcaster in the future- broadcasting was her favorite thing to do and also it can enhance skills and boost confidence to herself speaking in public, but her mother disagree to her to take that course because it’s very dangerous for her when she will be working it in the future, so she decided to took the course Education and taking Bachelor of Secondary Education major in English. English because that’s also her skills and favorite subject and she loves speaking in public. Today, she proved to everybody that she will continue her journey. She maintain her scholarship and be active in her academic excellence, also continue for being a dean’s lister student. She also leveled up her skills in performing on the theatre stage in High School Musical as she played the role of Kelsey and also she let her Hosting skills be recognized.

Now that she’s in 4th year college, how many months today she will get her diploma and that would be one of her greatest achievements in life. Even though she have encountered numerous times of ups and downs she still conquer everything and be productive to show every one that God is there to guide her to lead into the right path and to reach her goals in life.

She is the very talented, the brainy one, a big follower of God, a dreamer and achiever. Quoted that: “Everything happens for a reason, no matter how big, how small always thank God”. She is the compassionate goal achiever, dream chaser, heart strong and a fighter. She is none other than, the one and only MAY ANN ABALDE LANZADERAS.

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ALWAYS A P R I N C E S S

Once upon a time, in Carmen, lived a tenderhearted couple- Zaldy and Gemma Cabrezos. They were blessed with 5 lovely children- Zyra, Gerald, Wendell, Gezelle, and Zelaine. The couple treated their children as princes and princesses. Princess Zelaine grew up with the love and care of her family. She has a soft and white skin, and a shiny hair. When Princess Zelaine was 5 years old, he parents built their castle in NHA, Kauswagan and then they started to live there. Princess Zelaine studied in West City Central School. During her elementary days, she joined their band and became one of the cute little twirlers. Her family was very supportive of her.

“In family life, love is the oil that eases friction, the cement that binds closer together, and the music that brings harmony.” —Friedrich Nietzsche. A few years later, princess Zelaine attended high school at Misamis Oriental General Comprehensive High School (MOGCHS). She was an honor student during her first and fourth year. She also joined different contests in their school and played as Sharpay of High School Musical during her 3rd year. Her parents worked very hard to provide all of the things that their children needed. But little did they know, their little princess was often times doleful for they cannot attend classroom meetings and school activities for her. But princess Zelaine understood her parents knowing that what they’re doing is for them to have a cushy and affluent life.

True to that, in May 2015 princess Zelaine together with her sister, Gezelle, went to Hong Kong. It was her first time to travel abroad. They stayed in a skyscraper hotel overlooking the stupendous city. They went to Disney Land, Hong Kong Market, Clock Tower, Avenue of Stars, and Tsim Sha Tsui Promenade. Then they crossed to Macau and visited the Ruins of St. Paul, the Venetican Macao, and some casinos. For princess Zelaine, this travel was her most unforgettable experience. She was so amazed by the very tall buildings.

Just like any other teenagers, princess Zelaine built friendships and relationships that were soon challenged. She was once in girl fights. But in the end, she still found true friends. Because of her sister’s catastrophic love experiences, princess Zelaine has been prohibited to engage in relationships. At first she was okay with it, having crushes from afar and texting guys were enough. But it was not until a handsome and dashing prince from Nazareth came and swept her off her feet. She instantly fell in love with prince Paul. They had a secret relationship. But as the saying goes, "secrets are like smoke; you can’t hold and hide it.” Her family found out about her secret relationship which made them very furious. They demanded her to break up with him. But princess Zelaine felt that her love for prince Paul is greater than her fear for her family. That’s why they still continued their secret relationship but they were more cautious this time. “I refuse to give up on us and I’ll always fight for us. I’ll fight for what we have and for our love,” said princess Zelaine.

Soon, princess Zelaine graduated high school. At first, she took an entrance exam in Xavier University with a course of International Studies for she wants to learn new languages. Unfortunately, she didn’t pass the exam. Then because of her relatives who are teachers, she decided to take up Education instead in Liceo de Cagayan University. Princess Zelaine is pressured by her family to do well in school.

On the other hand, princess Zelaine celebrated her debut lavishly. Her family, specifically her sister, spent a big amount of money for her. It was held at a hotel and she wore a knockout gown made for a princess. Everything was precious just like how she dreamed it to be. It was her most memorable birthday for she felt like a real royalty having a banquet in a castle.

Princess Zelaine is working really hard to achieve her dreams which are to travel around the world and to pay off the hard work of her family. Now that her father passed away, this pushed her more to make her father be proud of her. Throughout everything, princess Zelaine never forgets God. She believes that with His guidance, she will make it.  "I will succeed in God’s time,“ she said.

Zelaine May T. Cabrezos- a princess to her family, to her friends, to her prince, and to God.

[zelenamarie]

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[zelenamarie]

I chose this song because of the lyrics that reflects in myself. We can’t deny the the fact that in this world there’s a lot of people who easily judged by the looks, appearance or what they can see in that person even though they didn’t know the life or story. I just want to express my feelings that I know you know my name but you don’t know me, people will think they know me just from that. I’m more than just a picture, there’s more to me that people often fail to see.