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🎶And I'll just keep on walking down this broken road looking for the man who knows me🎵 (Sorry, Gary Barlow)

I had to, right?

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i couldn't rest until i made something this is driving me insane. so what if i dismissed your success as because of your hardships instead of in spite of them

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2018 atreus warmup

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yeah I feel fine, why? oh, my hand tremors? yeah that's just a thing don't worry. yeahh it's a side effect of the dark arcane power boiling like magma inside my veins at all times. it's fine it makes some things hard to do but I get by yknow.

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more sketches

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a bunch of mighty nein and bells hells headshots i posted on twitter recently ✨ click for better quality and less crop yo!

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Callowmoore antis stop being so fucking annoying challenge. We're the toxic ones apparently meanwhile you harass an artist cause they chose to put Ashton on the cover of a coloring book BECAUSE cr asked them to put another member of bh on the cover. Do y'all really not understand anything about composition??

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Actually, another bit of worldbuilding I’ve really enjoyed is the ruidus glass Matt keeps mentioning. That’s the exact color you get from iron ions in glass (or crystalline silicates). Ruidus is red from all the iron and the glass is teal from all the iron. They’re slightly different ions, rust is iron (III) oxide, which forms best in an oxygen rich atmospheric environment, while blueish glass contains iron (II) oxide which is more commonly found in the mantle. Still, very fun and speaks to the depth of research he’s doing.

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...Don't be scared, little child

You're no demon

There's a God in the sky

Don't believe him

Don't be scared, little child

Of that feeling...

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quick sketch

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my figayda crumbs? acquired in the fucking funniest way possible

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e 16 doodle along

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Orym's argument against Ludinus Da'leth and the Ruby Vanguard is essentially "The purpose of a system is what it does."

This is a systems theory coined by Stafford Beer around 2001. He posited there is "no point in claiming that the purpose of a system is to do what it constantly fails to do." It does not matter what someone tells you a system does if it does not reliably do that. The things it does consistently do are the actual purpose of the system.

Ludinus (and Liliana) claim the purpose of the Ruby Vanguard's violence is to free Exandria of oppression from the gods. Orym's point is that they have not consistently protected anyone from oppression. They consistently murder innocent people, indoctrinate vulnerable people into doing terrible violence (including children), support a ruling class that dominates the population through mind control and eugenics, and seek to release a predator so terrifying that the warring alien gods and native primordials worked together to seal it away as a threat to both of them.

So the logical conclusion is that the purpose of Ludinus' system is not to free anyone from tyranny, it's to install himself as the tyrant. And it does not matter what Ludinus says it's for or even what he believes it's for. The purpose of a system is what it does. And Orym has been personally and repeatedly victimized by what it does. Why wouldn't he keep reminding them of that?

Add onto that, the Ruby Vanguard is a death cult. They lure people in with believable lies. They use propaganda to control how people view them and to convince people to support them. Liliana has been groomed into a true believer who genuinely thinks what she has been told is true and that Ludinus' system does what he says it will. She has been convincing other people of this for years. Not because she's an inherently bad person but because everyone generally tries to convince others that what we believe is true. It is actually dangerous to let a cultist try to talk you into the cult's perspective. That's why Orym shuts it down.

Orym was already on edge but it's fully in a breakdown after FCG's sacrifice. One more iteration of Ludinus' system consistently murdering the people he loves. But he still told Imogen he wants her to have a good relationship with her mom again. He wants Liliana to make it through the other side of this. But that has to involve consistently stating the reality of what's happening against what she believes.

Ludinus believes in the rapture of the revolution. Burn everything to the ground on a fundamental level and a new perfect society will grow, with him to guide it. The reality is that kind of power vacuum consistently leads to horrific violence and conditions often get much, much worse. Especially for vulnerable people, who often do not survive. A lot about the gods' relationships to mortals probably needs to change, but this an incredibly dangerous gamble to fix it.

The purpose of a system is what it does. Any suggestion otherwise is cold comfort to Orym's family in the ground.

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bells hells + textposts but it’s just imodna and ashton

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i still won't draw him consistently but at least we've branched from the rbf i got excited about matt talking about him in regards to the m9 show and took a break 2 doodle him today :]

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the intrepid heroes reached new levels of Accurate Teenage Friendship tonight

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Yes, I'm totally normal about her