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A bond everlasting

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He has revealed himself to us in all his glory. Praise Rafayel the Lemurian Sea God!

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qíyù only stops trying to move away when there's clarification that he is, indeed, not with the men who had been following him for quite some time. to track him all the way to the n109 zone shows how desperate they are to get their hands on him. there's worry then. if they do not get their hands on him, they will try for another. one of his friends, one of his family members. there aren't many of them left. most have already returned to the sea. and it has almost never been by choice.

" help me again, " he's taking a chance. only time will tell if he regrets this decision. if he could leave on his own without being followed, he would. but, there's a much higher chance that his attackers will corner him in a one-way alleyway. he won't be able to fight back in this state. the lemurian must rely on someone, even if what he wants couldn't be furthest from that. " take me back to linkon. once i'm there, i can find my own way home. " he can't risk asking for anyone else to come to him. they'll only be put in danger, the very thing that he is trying to prevent from happening. " ... please. "

circlet of weakened fingers around his wrist, the dig of fingernails, the sensation is enough to pull him from the trance, to look from the bright blue markings & find nervous eyes. his curio grows as an unfamiliar speech rolls off his tongue, but he refrains from pushing, realizing that his touch alone has sent the man into full-blown panic. pulls back to expose his palms, universal sign, as if comforting a spooked creature. " sorry, i didn't mean to pry. please, you need to lie down - you're losing too much blood ... "

the sharp movements have already shifted the bandages enough for a scarlet blossom to anoint the thick wrap, & he has to tamp his professional instincts, refrain from reaching out to redo them tighter. he doubts he'd appreciate it under the circumstances. instead, he says, " if you insist on sitting up, at least, don't put weight on your arm like that. " even though he wants to do nothing more but to push the subject, he tries for a distraction. raises a bloodied palm, the remnant of a bullet pinched between his fingers. " that's what i took out of your shoulder; don't undo all my hard work. "

" the men that started the shooting ... were they after you? is that why you're susppicious of me? " he asks, fishing for information while aiming for casual. " i'm not with them, if that's what you're worried about. "

[zihuo]

happy birthday to caleb, you little shit.

[zihuo]

i think i am going to make it so that the position of mc can be dependent on who i am writing with; as in, we do not need to follow the game's story to have an intimate, romantic plot where their souls are intertwined with one another. if you're interested in exploring that side with rafayel as your own character outside of the protagonist's plotline, i am 100% down for it. let them be soulmates in their own way, yet linked in that specifically irreversible way that rafayel and the protagonist are.

their relationship does not have to be as wholesome as the present mc + rafayel's is. like, i know there's angst involved, too, there always will be when it comes to qiyu, but for the most part, she is supportive of him and he is of her. but what if his soulmate was not only his other half, but also the devil on his shoulder, so to speak ?

qi yu isn't innocent. he's killed people out of revenge. and he doesn't care for humans, as a whole. innocents are another story, primarily human children, he seems to have a soft spot for them because they aren't corrupted. it would be really fun for someone to push qiyu more into that ambiguous, morally grey role that we see if we are brave enough to look between the lines, past his passionate and romantic passages that he whispers in mc's ears.

would love a love/hate relationship. qiyu is toxic in his own way; he manipulates, sometimes on purpose, other times not realizing. he's possessive all the same as the other li's. he doesn't like sharing and will get passive aggressive if it feels like his love is paying attention to someone else more than him. i feel like it isn't abnormal to think that being with qiyu would be extremely hot one moment, and then devastatingly cold the next. pairing him up with someone who is equally toxic in that regard is ... chef's kiss to my ears.

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every day i wake up and think about how much i actually love qiyu.

[zihuo]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃𝐁𝐘𝐄 . ( a collection of dialogue prompts from the film the hobbit : the battle of five armies . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

he hit it ! he hit the dragon .

his arrows cannot pierce its hide . i fear nothing will .

we cannot turn back .

[ name ] ! what are you doing ? you were supposed to leave !

i came to help !

who are you that would stand against me ?

now that is a pity . what will you do now ?

you are forsaken .

you cannot save him from the fire .

tell me , wretch , how now shall you challenge me ?

you have nothing left ... but your death .

[ name ] . look at me . you look at me .

you are not alone , [ name ] .

[ name ] , come on , we're leaving .

they are your people , they must go .

i know how i feel , i'm not afraid .

i don't know what that means .

keep it . as a promise .

that is where you are wrong .

i'll catch my death in this cold .

it's all right , darling .

i have said it many times , this is a man of noble stock .

i'm not the master of this town . where is he ?! where's the master ?!

enough ! look around you . have you not had your fill of death ?

winter is upon us . we must look to our own .

we must look to our own . to the sick and the helpless .

those who can stand , tend to the wounded .

we must salvage what we can .

i tried talking to him , he won't listen .

he doesn't sleep , he barely eats ... he's not been himself .

it's this place ... a sickness lies upon it .

behold the great treasure hoard of [ name ] .

no one rests until it is found .

take only what you need . we have a long march ahead .

we can take refuge inside the mountain .

what gold is in that mountain is cursed .

we will take only what is promised to us .

you saw something out there .

they bore a mark i have not seen in a long time .

[ name ] , it is your king's command .

i command my own heart .

spells will not save you .

i am not alone .

you should've stayed dead .

do you doubt the loyalty of anyone here ?

dragon sickness . i've seen it before .

it is a fierce and jealous love , [ name ] .

perhaps it is best it remains lost .

i'm going to plant it in my garden .

it's a poor prize to take back to [ location ] .

there's gold enough in that mountain for all .

get some fires going .

[ name ] , you take the night watch .

do not tell me what they have lost .

i know well enough their hardship .

they have much to be grateful for .

the children , the wounded and the women come first .

all quiet , nothing to report .

we did not look to see you here .

i heard you needed aid .

i came to reclaim something of mine .

i ask that you honor your pledge .

i will not treat with any man while an armed host lies beyond my front door .

be gone , ere our arrows fly !

this does not concern you .

we are , in fact , outnumbered .

we attack at dawn . are you with us ?

true friends are hard to come by .

i have been blind , but now i begin to see .

i have been betrayed .

[ name ] , the quest is fulfilled .

is this treasure truly worth more than your honor ?

this gold is ours , and ours alone . by my life , i will not part with a single coin .

i will not part with a single coin . not . one . piece of it .

you started this , [ name ] . you will forgive me if i finish it .

i'm not doing it for you .

i'm not afraid of [ name ] .

how came you by this heirloom ?

they are taking us for fools . this is a ruse . a filthy lie .

you would steal from me ?

i may be a burglar , but i'd like to think i'm an honest one .

you have no claim over me , you miserable rat .

i was going to give it to you .

you are changed , [ name ] .

do not speak to me of loyalty .

did you not hear me ? [ location ] is surrounded .

life is cheap . but treasures such as this cannot be counted in lives lost . it is worth all the blood we can spend .

you are lesser now than you have ever been .

i will not hide behind a wall of stone while others fight our battles for us !

it is not in my blood , [ name ] .

will you follow me ... one last time ?

what took you so long ?

this was their plan all along .

i think [ name ] has fled .

keep low and out of sight . if you see something , report back — do not engage , do you understand me ?

don't be ridiculous , you'll never make it .

they'll see you coming , and kill you .

they'll never see me .

i'm not asking you to allow it , [ name ] .

you will not turn away . not this time .

today , tomorrow , one year hence , a hundred years from now . what does it matter ? they are mortal .

there is no love in you .

what do you know of love ? nothing .

you think it is love ? are you ready to die for it ?

we'll live to fight another day .

you will die last .

don't move , don't move . lie still .

i wish to part from you in friendship .

you're not going anywhere , [ name ] , you're going to live .

you did what only a true friend would do . forgive me . i was too blind to see it .

i'm so sorry that i have led you into such peril .

i'm glad to have shared in each of your perils , [ name ] .

go back to your books , and your armchair . plant your trees , watch them grow .

if more people valued home above gold , this world would be a merrier place .

i cannot go back .

[ name ] ... your mother loved you . more than anyone . more than life .

they want to bury him .

if this is love , i do not want it . take it from me , please . why does it hurt so much ?

songs will be sung , tales will be told .

well , i think i'll slip away quietly — can you tell the others i said goodbye ?

you can tell them yourself .

if any of you are ever passing [ location ] , tea is at four . there's plenty of it , you are welcome at any time .

it's here i must leave you .

i quite liked having a wizard around .

don't take me for a fool .

i've kept my eye on you ever since .

i'm not dead . presumed or otherwise .

[zihuo]

naesarang. silently read a book alongside my muse.

a crimson colored brush glides across the canvas without much effort on his part. in a bit of a daze, he merely follows his heart, allowing his brush to control him, rather than the other way around. once the piece is complete enough for today, he pulls back to gaze upon what has been created. it is only when he forces himself out of his creative headspace that he realizes she's still here. " you haven't gone home yet ? "

[zihuo]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐀 𝐘𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐄 .    (  a collection of  mixed action prompts.   adjust phrasing as desired.   potentially mature content within.  )

[ 1. ] sender steps between receiver and an aggressive stranger, voice low and steady: "walk. away."

[ 2. ] sender teaches receiver self-defense, hands firm on their hips as they adjust their stance.

[ 3. ] sender presses their forehead to receiver's, voice breaking as they murmur, "i don't know how to fix this, but i'm not leaving."

[ 4. ] sender shoves receiver out of the way of a projectile.

[ 5. ] sender combs their fingers through receiver's hair in the aftermath of a traumatic event, whispering words of comfort.

[ 6. ] sender whispers, ��i’ve thought about this all day,” before pinning receiver against a wall for a searing kiss.

[ 7. ] sender wipes away the receiver’s falling tears with their thumb and whispers, “i’m here."

[ 8. ] sender patches up receiver's wounds, hands trembling as they whisper, "you can't keep doing this to me."

[ 9. ] sender shoves receiver into a hiding spot, hissing, "stay here or i’ll kill you myself."

[ 10. ] sender finds receiver drunk at a party, sighing. "let’s get you home."

[ 11. ] sender is discovered sleepwalking by receiver.

[ 12. ] sender steals receiver’s weapon and presses it to their own chest, daring: “go ahead. prove me right.”

[ 13. ] sender ‘accidentally’ flashes receiver while changing, purring, "see something you like?"

[ 14. ] sender whispers, "you’ll ruin me," before biting receiver’s lip hard enough to draw blood.

[ 15. ] sender takes over while receiver is giving themselves stitches, promising to handle it.

[ 16. ] sender frantically grips receiver by the shoulders, "don't you dare close your eyes."

[ 17. ] sender fixes receiver’s crooked [ tie / jewelry ], teasing, "nervous?"

[ 18. ] sender shakes receiver out of a nightmare, comforting them in the aftermath. "same nightmare again?"

[ 19. ] sender brings hot tea and medication to a [ hungover / ill ] receiver.

[ 20. ] sender invites receiver to dance with them, insisting, "what? this song's perfect."

[ 21. ] sender leaves a single rose on receiver’s windshield with a note: "you’re being followed. smile."

[ 22. ] sender pins receiver’s wrists during a sparring match, grinning, "yield."

[ 23. ] sender playfully steals something from receiver, initiating a chase. "come and get it, then."

[ 24. ] sender drapes a blanket over receiver, accidentally waking them. "sorry, go back to sleep."

[ 25. ] receiver returns home only to find sender already there. "finally."

[ 26. ] after a pleasant night out together, sender asks: "can i kiss you goodnight?"

[ 27. ] sender wipes the blood from receiver's face, murmuring, "let's get you cleaned up."

[ 28. ] sender shoves receiver against a vending machine to dodge security, breathless. "act natural."

[ 29. ] sender wakes receiver in the throes of a nightmare, reassuring them, "it's okay, it's not real."

[ 30. ] sender purposefully antagonizes receiver, hurling insults; "what are you gonna do about it?"

[zihuo]

carrd update & wrote a blurb for his kcd verse.

[zihuo]

consent is sexy ! - includes a mix of povs

can i help you out of that?

do you want this, too?

how do you like this?

how do you want it?

can we try something new?

keep doing that.

does that sound good to you?

please touch me.

what if i [insert act here]? would you like that?

you like that, don’t you?

i’d love to try that. what do you think?

hold on to this if you want me to keep going.

drop this if you want to stop.

show me what you like.

may i..?

do you want to be inside me?

do you want to feel how [hard/wet] i am for you?

wanna go down on me?

can i go down on you?

is this okay?

are you okay?

i want to kiss you. can i kiss you?

we can stop if you need to, okay?

please don’t stop.

can i kiss you here?

please kiss me there.

i’m so turned on right now.

i love when you do that.

i can’t get enough of you.

tell me how much you like this.

tell me what you want.

hey, i need you to look at me and tell me if you’re okay.

can you touch me like this?

can we try this tonight?

i won’t do this unless you want it.

you can kiss me.

please kiss me.

please touch me.

are you into this?

you look like you need to stop, do you?

i need to take a breath.

you don’t have to be gentle with me.

can i watch?

i just want to kiss right now.

i don’t really want to do anything tonight.

is it okay if we don’t tonight?

do we need a break? 

are you still okay? 

does this feel good?

i can take more.

more, please.

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his sensitivity is heightened as he feels something press against his scales. for a brief moment, he's lost in bliss. it has been a very long time since someone has been close enough to him to touch him in such an intimate way. and then .. his eyes abruptly open, upon realizing that no, that loneliness is still his reality. he does not have someone like that in his life. so, then, who is responsible for bringing out such a reaction from him ?

qíyù's hand move to grab hold of the other's wrist. he does not seem to even understand what he is doing to him. his naivety causes his cheeks to heat up. his lips part to speak, and then .. he sputters, coughs. he's lost a lot more blood than he thought. that must be why he's in mid-transformation. his nails dig into flesh, threateningly so. to make him stop, without words.

" i can't be here, " the lemurian barely manages to get out. he's panicked, and it shows in the way that he pulls himself up, fast, and completely overlooking his wounds. if this man has witnessed him in such a state, then there is a good chance that others have, too. how long before he's locked away in a cage, poked and prodded with unknown tools, all in the name of science ? no, he has to leave. no matter what.

@zihuo .

he should have known - murphy's law & all that. even the simplest kind of reconnaissance mission wouldn't go smoothly in the n109. there were too many unknown factors, not to mention the general unpredictability of the people in these parts. he ducks behind an upturned table, dragging the unconscious auctioneer under his arms until he's shielded from the gunfire. frost gathers at his fingertips & he takes easy aim, trajectory hitting true. while his evol wasn't the most effective against wanderers, the shards are more than enough to deal with human assailants, piercing through the weak points through like butter. he turns his attention back to the stilled form, the sluggish bleeding from his shoulder. it's lucky for him that li shen still has his medical kit on him right now. bullet emerges swiftly under his practiced hands, the wound packed tight enough to sting.

he's about to make his quick exit, but the figure shifts underneath him, issuing some sound that's restless & pained, a soft glow issuing from behind his ears & through the fall of pressed-lilac hair, electric blue. he stares, hand outstretched without a second thought to trail along the unique markings, rippling along clammy skin like water. captivated by the unearthly display, he forgets himself, abruptly realizing that the man is now wide awake, eyes gritted with remnant pain. still, curiosity burns enough for him to ask, " … what's this? "

[zihuo]

maybe he should feel guilt in regards to all of those that he has killed. but, instead, all he feels is remorse for taking so long to enact each kill. research has to be done beforehand; he does not want to kill those who do not deserve death. in this way, he can be considered a good person, right ? though, the crimson stains on his hands, that never seem to wash away, likely present a different story.

[zihuo]

[zihuo]

“You think attention is love, and that’s why you suffer so deeply.”

— Unknown

[zihuo]

Cathy Linh Che, from Go Forget your father//Friedrich Nietzsche// Richey Edwards// // Moss Angel, Girldirt Angelfog// Rainer Maria Rilke, Fragment of an Elegy,// Leila Miccolis, till death do us part.

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──── 𝑹𝑬𝑳𝑨𝑿 𝑻𝑰𝑴𝑬

╰ 𝑹𝒂𝒇𝒂𝒚𝒆𝒍 LOVE AND DEEPSPACE