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Some of the most satisfying things cPhilza has done since becoming a Senior Administrator in admin au:

-Publicly took cEret's crown off, saying that players shouldn't have such fancy titles.

-Delete all countries and player creations from the server.

-Put music players in public places, with all sorts of disks next to them. (Record music can now only be played in public places. And maybe he was a little petty by banning disks spawns in the world.)

-Fell asleep, confident that no one would come to his house again.

-Finally ensured complete safety for his child.

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epic x dsmp in care enough au, part 1 (the family without ties)

cDream's theme is "No longer you". A guy is going down a spiral, he goes through a path so hard that it drives him crazy, and makes him make one awkward decision after another, and his mind can't keep up with his emotions.

cPuffy - "Monster". cPuffy has already completed her metamorphosis, cDream, unfortunately, is too similar to her.

cNiki - Eurylochus, who realized that Odysseus knowingly sacrificed crew members in "Mutany". cNiki followed cPuffy for so long and so faithfully that when she realized what she had become, she was horrified. And then she turns around and sees cPuffy in cDream.

(cPuffy and cDream are like transitional stages of songs, cDream is the one who is still in the spiral, but hasn't hit rock bottom, cPuffy has been through hell and has nowhere to fall, she's already a monster. And I really only now noticed how close these songs are, although I've listened to all the sagas more than once, lol)

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is dream ever allowed to stop regressing, will he even age, will phil let him

Regression does not depend on cPhilza's wishes, it is a natural process for those children of admins who grew up too quickly. The forms in which regression ends can differ dramatically.

cPhilza will probably want to prolong cDream's childhood and spoil him quite a bit by his own standards, but even he cannot overcome time. cDream will have to grow up. But no one ever talked about healthy separation and long separation.

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Wait dream has phils code in like a different entities but copy pasted, or is dream kind of and extension of him rn

Above, like encryption - cPhilza's code, below - cDream's code. These are different entities, their code is not the same in reality, it's just a security measure.

Think of it as identity-hiding magic, like you're looking at Dream, then you see his ID, and there's cPhilza's photo. And that's totally fine! this is definitely Dream!

This is such a short question but it made me think so much and rack my brain a little. And I hope my words make some sense!

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Why is cPhilza angry at cGeorge? context

There's a lot of lore here and I actually wrote a whole essay. I hope this is a fairly detailed answer, but if you're interested in anything, I'd be happy to answer questions! :)

I'll break it down point by point:

Firstly. cPhilza is a product of the universe itself and is considered to be the first generation of administrators. He not only knows history, he witnessed it.

Gods are the first creation of the universe, they have the same mother as the administrators and surprisingly different upbringing and perception, although they share the gift of immortality.

Gods, those who created players in the likeness of Administrators, deciding to prove to the universe that they can create.

That's how players came to be.

Secondly. Players can become moderators, subject to all the conditions set and approved by the Council.

Thirdly. There are clans of moderators, so ancient that their very essence today lies in service and assistance. You can consider them cults of worship of the Administrators, but they honor the traditions of their ancestors and believe in the truth of the words of the Administrators. The Council personally approved their existence. So, GeorgeNotFound actually belongs to an ancient clan of moderators. Now he is denied access to moderation, like all the Forsaken. He is also from the main branch of the clan, which makes him a complete loser.

Fourthly. cGeorge is a close friend of cDream and the object of his sighs for many years. But moderators are servants and assistants, crossing the line means thinking about yourself higher than was ever allowed. Servants are not friends and not lovers, they are those who dedicate their lives to service for free and are ready to die for their Administrators. Is cGeorge ready?

Fifthly. cGeorge actively worked with the server code and helped cDream with various plugins and mods, they had fun programming together. cGeorge had access to the server code, which no moderator in his life received. He also calmly checked cDream's code, and some players on the server. And cPhilza wouldn't have known about it, but cDream was too curious asking about the code and so on, he also decided to inquire about how often to review the admins' code for errors.

cPhil was closer to murder than ever.

Sixthly. cGeorge abandoned cDream. In cPhilza's eyes, some Forsaken saw a young and very inexperienced admin who has no guardian anywhere nearby, and decided to take advantage of this. To feed his ego, he decided that making the boy fall in love with him, playing with his feelings, encroaching on the territory created by cDream, taking all the power and getting rid of cDream as an objectionable person would be a great solution. cPhilza is, to put it mildly, in righteous anger.

cGeorge violates the foundations of the universe in cPhilza's eyes. He is a lying little bastard who will do anything for power and his own fun.

But cPhilza also sees that cDream sincerely cares about these players, that he has a deep affection for them. Every word he says about his former friends is laced with bitterness or love, and sometimes both at once.

It makes him wonder how much cGeorge and cSapnap value him. But then he hears the gossip, dirty and dark, hears cDream's side of Lehmanburg's history, hears what haunts cDream in his nightmares, in dreams of the day he was abandoned, when one friend turned away and another turned enemy.

And cPhilza comes to a conclusion.

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Dreamzablade head canons?

(IVE SEEN YOUR ASS ON ETHEKS BLOG)

cPhil likes to call cTechno special, because in cPhil's eyes, he is.

cTechza has a pair of emerald jewelry pieces that cTechno made in a fit of his piglin instincts. He spent literally days mining for the purest emeralds, then painstakingly cutting them into perfect diamond shapes to match piglin customs about the meaning of shapes. He also went to the Nether to find gold and dig it up with his bare hands, so he could feel the satisfaction of finding it. Then he smelted a gold mold to make an earring, and since he saw that cPhilza didn't wear long earrings, he decided to start with studs. (He would later make a pendant for cDream.)

He made his jewelry from the leftover gold, enough for a frame and a small chain. And maybe he overdid it a bit with the gold, but then he saw the amount of emeralds and decided that he would soon go to the village to trade.

cTechno likes touching, but he is a little hesitant about it in prison, because cDream is wary of it like fire. It hurts cTechno to watch, he does not want to know how a person can be brought to such a state. He tries to give him as much good as he can, because cDream needs it, and cTechno can only give him this small mercy.

cDream likes sweets. cTechno promises him the most delicious muffins with sweet berries in prison. cDream cries.

cPhilza bakes him a pie with sweet berries when he is feeling better. Dream cries again.

cTechza likes to sit cDream on their laps, they like to keep him safe in their sight. They hug him and change cDream's position with ease, especially when he falls asleep in their laps. cPhilza covers him with her wings, leaving him in a cocoon. cTechno hugs him with her big arms, giving cDream complete peace.

Kissing with cTechno is difficult, he has a different anatomy, but they have their own analogy to kissing.

cTechza kiss each other like an old married couple, they kiss in the kitchen while they cook, in the bath while they wash cDream, in the forge while cDream sleeps or does other housework. Sometimes they are wild, fighting and dominating each other.

cDreamza kisses deeply, sensually, cPhil gently holds cDream's chin, completely leading in the kiss. cDream is a puddle in his hands.

cTechno kisses cDream softly and anywhere at any time to make him as embarrassed as possible, making him giggle and smile. cTechno is a gentle giant.

cPhilza likes to tease cTechno about his choice of boyfriends, because he brought a mini version of cPhil home. cTechza teases cDream about liking older men. cDream and cTechno tease cPhil about his memory.

cDreamzables like to do mini concerts, where cTechno uses the violin, cPhilza picks up the tambourine, and cDream either sings or plays the flute.

cDream is their little bard, who loves to hum something and experiment with different instruments.

cDream likes to sleep between cTechza, because it is so paradoxically nice there that despite the hateful heat and feeling of constraint, cDream feels completely safe and loved.

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I cannot stop thinking about ur c george comment on phil thinking hes the most deserving on punishment, like, why him specifically? What does phil feel about the weird flirty relation of dream and george? Is bc the whole "just tell me you hate me" thing? (U dont need to answer this ks me rambling bc i really love ur au)

Okay, first, I'll give you a little bit of lore. I'll also mention that cPhilza is an admin who's been around for an awful amount of time and his views are pretty hard to break.

I'll give you some facts, and you can put them together and try to guess what's going on. Later, I'll post the real version of why cPhil is mad at cGeorge and his take on the situation. How do you like that?

Facts:

cPhilza knows the names of the moderator clans that have been raised to serve the admins for ages.

The players' attitude towards cDream is abnormal by many standards. But cGeorge and Sapnap are considered his close friends.

cDream is young and very inexperienced in cPhil's eyes, he doesn't know many things.

Moderators mostly help admins with the code and make sure the players follow the rules.

So, moderators are basically assistants and loyal servants in work. They also communicate quite closely with admins.

Rumors are the most unpredictable thing, you never know where the truth is buried.

Enjoy :)

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"cSapnap and cGeorge are really bothering him, asking unnecessary questions, trying to dig up information about cDream and trying to follow cPhilza." "cPuffy and cEret are worried of younger players, they are not very kind to cPhil." "cPhilza uses rather old-fashioned punishments... they are very effective"

Oh god, I need to know more, I need dettails!!! You are hitting all my dark-angsty needs here 😈😈😈🤩🤩🤩🥰🥰🥰

some details fot you

"cSapnap and cGeorge are really bothering him, asking unnecessary questions, trying to dig up information about cDream and trying to follow cPhilza."

They don't like cPhilza, but they know that the admins are a force that shouldn't be opposed. (It's amazing how things feel different when it's not cDream.) But ahem, they do have a weirdly blurred line with cDream in the player-admin relationship. They harass cPhilza in various ways. It doesn't lead to anything good.

They're also driven by the idea that cPhilza took their friend.

"cPuffy and cEret are worried of younger players, they are not very kind to cPhil."

The older players are worried about the "teenagers" of the server. They see how cPhilza's actions affect them. It's a bit of a scary picture, too bad it's too late to do anything about it.

"cPhilza uses rather old-fashioned punishments... they are very effective"

We all know the most universal language in this world, right? Someone had to teach cTechno this truth.

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Imagine teen c!Dream trying ot be all tough and rebellious infront of Phil and Techno and he says 'woof' for whatever reason and they just can't even take him seriously (not like they did before that either but still)

Oh, their boy has problems with diction, they will have to sit and work on his speech again.

Sweet evenings when cPhil and cTechno listen to the baby's hissing babble and try to put him into difficult letters, trying to make him imitate animal sounds.

cTechno will tease cDream, simply because now he does not have a formidable army of wolves, but a cute little collection of woofs. Cute fluffy woofs.

How can you normally perceive cDream when he is so sweet and blushes because of his own mistakes? Definitely a cute child.

Even his attempts to escape are now perceived as an attempt to leave home at 5 years old, because he was not allowed to play with the hounds for 10 minutes longer, and he really wanted two hounds to get married.

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Anon from prev ask,

Does he get a rebellious phase/attitude?

Yes, cDreamy is often capricious and whiny, but what can you do, he is such a sweetheart, and cPhil loves his baby to bits.

While he is too small(4-7 years), the only place he runs away to is the yard.

He just to escape into the yard (his only attempts to escape so far) during naps with cPhil and cTechno. Sometimes he gets caught before he leaves the nest, sometimes he manages to escape into the yard to have fun with the horses or sheep.

But if he tries to leave through the door, the hounds just grab him by his shirt/overalls and drag him back to the nest or to the hound pile.

If they have a hound with puppies at home, she will definitely take him to her puppies.

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So at some point Dream will grow older, when he becomes a teen does he get angry at Phil or Techno?

Does he try to run away like he did all those years ago?

Yes, cDream is definitely growing, but now with a guardian in his life.

cDream will be spoiled, but he will not bypass the rebellious phase. cPhilza will really quickly rein him in, but this man allows cDream so much in reality.

Escape as a form of rebellion? Maybe. I didn't think that far ahead, but it is quite difficult for cDream to stay in one place. cPhil will most likely isolate the server in the future.

Anger is a complex feeling and cDream is too dependent to stay angry at cPhil or cTechno for long.

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For this post Here

Who is Her?

Her is the Universe.

The one that started it all. The one who gave birth to the Primordial World, the Gods and the Administrators.

She is everything and nothing, she is the primordial dust and emptiness. She arose from nowhere and became everything.

(I'm sorry if I confused you a little bit)

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As they should Dream has not been taking very good care of himself because he's literally a child

Yes and no.

He is indeed a child, but he is also an adult. He grew up too fast, unlike his generators, which need a guardian, unlike his code, which does, unlike his childish core, which whines when he falls asleep alone in a cold bed again, when his friends are absent (but whines more when he knows they are gone).

He can think and make informed decisions, he can fight battles and rule lands, he can form bonds and fully administer. Because he is an adult.

But the Universe did not intend for children to grow up fast, lessons take time, fun takes time. It pays for every young administrator with absolute protection and love.

(The admins can't stand Her sorrowful sorrow, they respond to it like moths to a flame, trying to comfort and honor Her, the one who gave them time.)

And if cDream can't take care of himself, it's not just because he's a child for the admins, but because he's cDream and his life hasn't always been kind to him.

(He grew up a wild child, Hers is what remains free and has a character that knows the wind will always pick up, the branches will cover, and the earth will comfort. But even She can't give him much, Her comfort is fleeting and desperate.

The child grew up too fast.)

He grew up alone in the starting world, he saw and interacted with so many players who began to imitate them, and later met those who truly care about him, plunged into complete imitation. He tried to survive as best he could.

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Admin au Techno and Phil being a weird hermit couple that maybe sorta kidnaps this random guy that Techno found that turns out is a like 10 years old

Eh, kidnapping is not the word they would prefer. It's more like a forced adoption for his own good, the guy is only about a year old and he's already been tortured, he's been involved in adult server stuff, he's performed in the arena with players and oh the Void! he's interacted with players and even grown up among them! (9-10 years old is one of the later stages of regression, but far from the last for cDream).

literally cTechza:

-We're adopting him.

-Absolutely.

And you can put any order of names for this dialogue and it will be correct.

I also really like the dynamics of cTechza, since they are two immortal beings who trust each other a lot. Although in this AU, cPhilza is not only cTechno's friend and partner, but at first he literally mentored him in everything. They have a very close relationship.

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cPhilza's first thought when he stops and actually thinks about cGeorge and cDream's relationship is:

"You fucking little bastard, you'll be begging the Void for mercy when I get my hands on you."

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It is surprising that cGeorge, one of those who should have suffered the most severe punishment, was the one who was most protected from it.

It's good that cPhilza is patient enough.

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It is surprising that cGeorge, one of those who should have suffered the most severe punishment, was the one who was most protected from it.

It's good that cPhilza is patient enough.

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So in your AU Philza turned Dream in a child? When and Why that happened? Why Dream's code is the same of Philza? And, what Techno think about the situation?

Yes! And cPhilza is very proud of it! Regression requires patience and time, so cPhil put a lot of effort into it.

cDream's code is the same as cPhil's for protection, in the future it will form into its own, but for now cDream's code is hidden in cPhil's code.

cTechno doesn't know what to think, so he can only trust cPhilza. Especially since by the time he finds out about it, the regression can no longer be stopped. :)