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its fucking bullshit

attachment issues + abandonment issues is NOT for the weak

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REALLY triggering shit below

God I hate myself

I keep having really awful intrusive thoughts

Especially really violent, sexual ones.

I just want it to stop. Strangers, my friends, my teachers, my family members, I feel disgusting, I don't want to think these things, I need them to stop getting into my head.

Every time, it pops into my head, and it's almost always visual. Sexual assault and abuse, they'd never do that to me, I'm awful, God I'm awful.

I can feel it under my skin, I don't want this, I don't want this I don't want this, I don't want to think about them doing that to me, I don't want this.

I need to cut, I need to relapse, I need to punish myself for this

I should have ended it when I had the chance

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can somebody so kindly break every single fucking bone in my body. I think it would hurt less.

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I felt so useless. Not just useless but destructive.

I cannot help anyone and even when I try I still end up hurting them.

I deserve the pain in my legs. I deserve the disgusted look people give me when they see them.

I am nothing but an inconvenience so it only makes sense to meet my presence with disdain.

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TW SH

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i want to forget reality

but i can't even enjoy my escapes

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Avoidant culture is not understanding how people can miss you so fast. Like, we just talked yesterday and you already miss me? How does that even make sense?

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The most annoying part about cutting isn’t the pain or cleaning

It’s when your cuts are partially healed and your skin is starting to flake

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wanna cut really bad ngl im mad for essentially no reason everyone sucks i hate everyone i hate this whole "getting better" bullshit, it doesn't do anything and nothing ever changes what's the fucking point

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Cutting playlist I made for myself but I can share

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I'm ad2@=

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I AM A BURDEN A SICK FUCKING BURDEN

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