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لما كان العرب عربا ذات يوم.......

اعتقل ملك من ملوك العرب رجلاً من قبيلة أخرى !

فجاءت قبيلته بشيوخها وبأمرائها تشفع فيه

فقال الملك :

من هذا الرجل الذي جئتم كلكم لتشفعوا فيه ؟

فقالوا بصوت واحد :

هو ملكنا !

فقال : لم يخبرنا عن نفسه !

فقالوا : أنف أن يذل نفسه

فأراد أن يريك عزته بقومه !

فأطلقه لهم ....

وبعد أيام جاءه الخبر أن ذلك الرجل ماهو الا راعي الإبل عندهم ، فأرسل اليهم الملك يستفسر مما صنعوه !!

فجاءه الرد منهم { لا أمير فينا إن ذَلَّ راعينا }

العبره :::

لا خير فى قوم ضاع فيهم حق ضعيفهم ..

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I understood myself only after I destroyed myself. And only in the process of fixing myself did I know who I really was.

Sade Andria Zabala (via nightlyquotes)

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Change your conception of yourself and you will automatically change the world in which you live. Do not try to change people; they are only messengers telling you who you are. Revalue yourself and they will confirm the change.

Neville Goddard (via nightlyquotes)

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المرونة … وهي القدرة على تغيير طريقة التفكير بتغير الموقف ، مع القدرة على توليد أكبر عدد ممكن من الأفكار بشأن الموقف الذي تفكر فيه .

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I spent a whole day making this, it was so much fun i didn’t even felt the time running, but i also was so immersed in it i forgot to work on the other tasks i had !

So basiclly this is my uncle’s house, used all the Balkan’s videos, i will be forever grateful for his youtube vids, and by the way I took a decision of getting into Blender, and got curious about 5D ‘ill be writing about that later, i have to figure out how to make a strcture too !

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Now! I know !

I didn’t know what i was doing on tumblr, and the purpose of doing it but now I do, I’ll be documenting everything i do in my life, my ideas, my thoughts, what i like and dislike, anyway!

Today, I spent the day wandering on the internet, and got to see some tedx talks, i was never a big fan of those talks, but one got my attention and from there i started browsing more!

It’s called “ why getting behind may get you ahead “ by David Epstein, he explains that focusing on one topic isn’t going to get you far, and backs it up with real life experience of elite athletes and scientisits, reminds me of the course learn how to learn, about forming chunks, and the relation between how a chunk in an area might be used in an other, which is the point that was also explained by Elon Musk, which explains how he can shift from so many disciplines!

which lead me to another ted talk of Maryane if I rmemeber correctly her name, that talks about the term liminal, which is people who have interest in many areas and can’t fit in!

which led also to discovering the physict Freeman Dyson, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rlaPLvETBug i’ll be talking about him soon!

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Don’t think about what can happen in a month. Don’t think about what can happen in a year. Just focus on the 24 hours in front of you and do what you can to get closer to where you want to be.

Eric Thomas

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I don’t like to stick to a shelude and a planner when it comes to writing, i just go with the flow, like now that i finished applying for french universities( it was a mental challenge to unlearn and relearn the process of making a resume and cover letter, even a PORTFOLIO), it took me a lot of time !

Anyaway, i’m percieving this post about the IKIGAI book as my reward, i loved the book it was easy to read, it didn’t take much of my energy to understand, it was well written, i loved the purpose of it, the stories, the adventures, the little things that no one would have ever noticed, were pointed it out in the book, i don’t want to give examples, because it would do more harm to the book, and i think everyone should read it, not for the sake to live a happy life, but to see life from another angle, you might pick up one or two things that you can add to your daily life maybe, i did learn a lot !

it was refreshing, it was human, because reading the hustle blablabla on the internet and the toxic prodctivity and positivity that is beeing marketed is just so insane ! that you no longer feel human, it’s like you should be at your best always! that’s not life!

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Overwhelmed again!

16/12/2012

I’m having difficulties finishing my universities applications, because i can’t figure out how to describe myself, no matter how many articles i read to help go through this !

another thing that is bothering me is i have an infection in my mounth, it’s been almost a week i’ve been on medications and it didn’t fucking shrik, not a bit!!!

what am i supposed to do now ? huh ?

Another thing, is i have to prepare for job applications before the end of next week !

so i have to rewrite everything, cv portfolio fo other purposes and in an other language!!!

as for the self care and health, it’s just a disaster i lost track !

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almost half of December 2021

I’m taking it very slow, i used to rush and beat myself up for all the things i choose to think i missed out in life, now i’m starting to enjoy the present to not live in the past nor in the future, i choose me, to work on myself, to master my mind to try not to fall into depression again.

i was supposed to finish my portfolio, resume and sop for french universities which the deadline is for the 20th of the month, yesterday i started with the portfolio, how do i say ? it was a mess, chaos !

I have to learn design principles, it became a necessity now, it is a skill i find useful, as for today i couldn’t put myself to work, i have a bucal infection, i went to see the dentist, and then fall asleep in the morning, i was lost in my mind, wondering again, but not a negative way which is great, as for the afternoon i choose to finish my reading, i’m very proud to say i finished the ikigai book, it was a light and easy read, i liked the way the ideas were presented, i learned many things, it’s a book i will read again that’s for sure !

I also, had a wonderful time waxing my face, yes my face i’m an arab with a lot of facial hair, anyway and i used an oil which is supposed to reduce the hair gradually, which is called nutsedge, in arabic it’s saad oil, it is a plant that is dried then you make a powder out of it, then mix it with some olive oil.

i also made rosemary hair, so i can make it my rinse or as some women prefere to say leave in conditonnar, now i’m going to sleep!

i’m glad a took physically care of myself, it was a moment of peace for me, i missed that!

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Molly’s game is a movie inspired by a real story of a woman who was supposed to win an olympic medal but became a successful business woman running poker games !

I have to admit that my favourite actress is Jessica Chastain, she has a way in her acting, the choice of her movies are just unique, this time i was not only looking to watch jessica beeing the bad ass woman she is, but also was really curious about the story, which i fucking loved, no romance ( i hate when they mix business and romance ), the movie was fire as i expected, you don’t ever know what move she is going to do next, to just break though every rock life throws at her, it was a movie about beeing clever with your choices, beeing resilient, about how education of little girls can help in her real life as an adult, about beeing true to herself, i loved it, and to be honest i wanted to know more!

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My story with hallux valgus or communly  called bunions,

As you can see my big toe is going toward my second toe, which means they are not alligned proprely.

it’s been years i’ve been wearing separators, but it didn’t actually work to reajust my toe but it did help preventing it from getting worse, how do i know this ? I stopped wearing them a year ago ( cause i can’t find them in my room ) which led me to serious pain and even instability in my feet, i started to read and watch youtube videos about the issue to really understand the problem ( since doctors advice surgery and no way i’m doing that ) i found out that my wide hips who everyone thinks are amazing are actually a deformity, yes my hips knees and ankles are not alligned which led me to not walk propreprly which led to bunions, i’ve been doing some exercises to strengthen my le alignment and we’ll see!

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THe thing i became more aware of is that, i will be living with myself for the rest of my life, so i better had to start exploring myself, exploring the things that make me feel good and the things that me so angry, for exmeple, the last weekned i cooked, and it felt so good, i savoured every moment of it, i forgot how much cooking affects my wellbeing, i didn’t think of it as a task, or something i had to do, i just did it, and for the 1st time since a long time i was present in the moment, my bode, mind and soul were only thinking about what i was doing in the present which is cooking, it was ribs with fresnh provencal herbs , lemon and olive oil.

Picture : The Blissful Mind

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This is by far the most difficult year I had to live, i lost all confidence i had in myself, the self doubts just became an everyday feeling, it’s like it had grown roots in my soul, i lost all common sens, and sens of direction in life, questioning everything including my existence, it was really hard, specially, the fact that i blamed myself for not meeting the high standars i always had for myself, and the dreams i’ve always wanted to achieve.

I don’t know how, or when it clicked, but i was going on tiktok and so many “ normal “ not the perfect and glamorized kind of influencers started talking about how they changed their life, it all started with books, and there were common books they all advised, so i chose to give it a try, and oh lord.

I forgot, how much I missed reading, not to understand or gain anything but just the act of reading, i wasn’t thinking much about it, i don’t know how it had an influence on my mindset that’s for sure, i’m still struggling though, most of them talked about money, which wasn’t enough for me, i was looking for more !

Picture by: Leanne Ford

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Digital journey

Hey again!

The digital journey I started didn’t go as well and as planned as i excpected, but here we are again!

Only this time, I won’t make the mistake of setting nonsense goals, but to actualy do things that have a meaning and fullfiling, to maybe find the purpose that should be driving me to keep forward in life.

In other terms, finding what i was born to do.

I will be exprimeting a lot of things this days, i can’t wait!