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24/07/2019

Weight: 53,6kg I’m almost at the weight I was previous to the cheat day, but I’m feeling bloated. Maybe it has to do with hormones. Those photos are kind of shit, I have to find a better set up. Today the training session at the gym was bad. I felt I had no strength at all, I could barely do any cardio. This may be because I didn’t eat enough today or because I haven’t been sleeping very well this week. I don’t know. Gotta focus, it’s a journey. It won’t be easy, It won’t be fast. But if I keep going, it will be.

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22/07/2019

Exciting news: I got my balance to weight my food!!! Yay!!!! I feel like I might get addicted to doing it, tho. But yay, more precise measurements!! Exciting news 2: I ran for 20 minutes straight for the first time!! And was able to keep a good pace!! 6:30/km. Now next week I’ll try to run for 30 minutes straight and after that gotta focus on working to get faster! (aiming for 6:00/km avg pace)

Not so exciting news: I weighed myself again today and GOD, my cheat day is still hanging on me! I gained even more weight, now officially 1,2kg heavier (54,7kg, almost 55! this is NOT good, I was almost reaching 53 before this :( ) Butttt, ok, I’m ok with this. It’s a setback, alright, but I had so much fun and ate so much great stuff that.. meh, I don’t care if it takes me some weeks longer. I might have to rethink my planning tho, because I had 1:10 cheat days planned, and if this is going to give me such important setbacks I might have to change it to 1:20 or even 1:30 or else I’ll just be stuck in the gaining then working out for 7 days to lose it, then lose a bit more, then gaining a lot again.. Anyway, NOT A GOOD IDEA.

Let’s see how things go this week and if by the end of it I have not lost the weight and some more I might think about this. I have to take into consideration that there may be some weight fluctuation happening due to changes in my cycle BUT I’m not sure.

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21/07/2019 - After a waste day

Yesterday I went full-on waste day. I started my day as healthy and fit as could: Tangerine for breakfast, 1 hour of beach tennis, half a cereal bar in between games (shared with some friends), reached 10000 steps before 1 p.m., had chicken w/ tabule for lunch (then some triple caramel chunk Ice Cream because it was my waste day after all and I really wanted ice cream, and this is my FAVORITE), went to the gym, did a quick 15 minute-long HIIT on the treadmill then some weight lifting and... went to a party at my friends house. From 5p.m. to 2a.m. - drank a lot, ate like 6 pieces of cake (my friend's mom makes the BEST cakes, it's out of this world), 4 macarons (another friend's mom makes macarons to sell and she had 70ish that didn't reach her standards so she couldn't sell and gave them to us for free), 2 hot dogs. Anyway, I barely tracked what I was eating and didn't count the calories correctly. Today I tried to estimate what I ate and was nearly 2000 calories beyond my daily goal (It could have been worse, I did do a lot of exercises during the day previous to the party, so I had a lot of calories from exercises). I COULD be feeling like shit today, but I don't. The scale says I'm 600g heavier, and I'm ok with that. It won't be one day that will throw all my work away and honestly? I loved every single bite of that cake. Yes, I did eat more than I had to (even to fulfill my cravings) because it's hard to resist. But it's ok. I will have time to burn these extra calories. And I know my normal day-by-day won't be affected by this. I will keep on with my new lifestyle, I will keep on doing exercises, eating better. The results will come. This may set me back a little, my fat may take a little longer to go away, but I'm 100% ok with this. I love that I'm changing my lifestyle. I love that I'm eating things I never ate before and am loving it. Let's see how the month ends. Today I had non-fat greek yogurt for breakfast, then some shrimp, tabule, and petit-pois for lunch with a banana with cinnamon for dessert. I will go to the beach in half an hour to do some running and after that will do some walking there with my friends to catch some pokemon (it's community day on pokemon go). Let's see on Wednesday how things add up this week. I'm ok if I'm a little bit heavier. But it will also be amazing if I'm not! Will keep on the good work!

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17/07/2019 - Weight and pics

Let’s talk about today first. Had the afternoon off from the clinic, got home, had some lunch (chicken, potatoes and egg) and laid in bed to read some Hamlet and... you guessed it right, ended up sleeping. A nice afternoon nap. I woke up today with my legs extremely sore from yesterday exercises (mainly quadriceps and glutes) and it’s not better after the nap. I decided I’d still go to the gym but no leg workouts and maybe no running. I took 1g of dipyrone (best analgesics ever, sorry US) and 600mg of ibuprofen (for its anti-inflammatory effect.. I know, I know, I DON’T RECOMMEND THIS TO ANY PATIENT but anyway, knowledge lets you do stupid shit) and to the gym I went. When I got there my leg was still hurting a lot so I decided running would be a no no.. my running schedule cries in pain at this moment, but I decided that taking some time off would be better for my overall performance these next days. Did some walking on the treadmill (get some blood flowing to my legs to help its recovery) and well, since I decided on no legs exercises, today was arms day! Some abdominal work out too.. Overall, a good session at the gym, but I wish I was able to run. Today I also saw a story on instagram from a girl who went to french classes with me and she posted her running training (turns out she’s running for a half marathon, but she posted something like 9 km in 52 minutes and I was sooo inspired. I want to be able to run like her... maybe by the end of the year? Hehe, maybe not. Anyway, to the pictures we go (I changed my lightning setting and took the pictures using a flash, I don’t know if they ended up good because I feel like the cellulitis etc were kind of hidden with this new set)

Weight: 53,4 kg Let’s keep on moving.

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16/07/2019 - Day off from work

Soo, today was my day off from work, which meant I got a very intense lazy day at home doing a whole lot of nothing (watched a lot of youtube videos about fitness, a lot about cheat days which I loveeee). My diet was ok today. Had some Australian bread (small serving) with light requeijão (kind of spread cheese) for breakfast, had chicken + eggs for lunch with a cereal bar for dessert, greek yogurt for a snack then a chicken + requeijão wrap for dinner and banana with cinnamon for dessert. Total of roughly 1340 calories. I did also buy a food scale yesterday so my calories measurement will get a lot better (yay!), but I have to wait for its arrival which is probably only during the last week of this month.  I went to the gym and did some running on the treadmill (2x 11′ at 7:30min/km then 11′ at 7:05min/km with 1 minute 11min/km interval) and a quick weight lifting (actually only 3 exercises - high tips, squat with weights and Bulgarian split squats). I did very little because I went to the gym yesterday and did my usual workout and also I went almost straight to a 1-hour long tennis class from it and I didn’t want to be dead during it.  I’m very happy today because I got to do NOTHING, but am also feeling a little bit guilty about it (may try to fit something productive before bed). Also am happy because for YEARS I did not eat any kind of fruits (not even strawberries with chocolate) and today I was craving sweet and thought: why not a banana with cinnamon? Like, I don’t even like cinnamon (i think). But I feel like my paladar is much more open nowadays. Maybe I’m really having a change in my mindset on how I look at food and the lifestyle I want to live. There were things I did not eat and I don’t really know why... Maybe because I was so used to industrialized flavors? Anyway didn’t update my running playlist, will try to fit this before bed too. A lot of things to do before sleeping: something for the uni, update the playlist, read at least a scene from hamlet (yes, that’s the book my friends and I picked to read this month lol). And tomorrow is weight-log day! And photo day! Today the guy that occasionally plays tennis with me said I looked leaner and I have to say: I do think I look leaner too. But still much work to do! And tomorrow we’ll see how the pictures look. Excited!

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“Your relationship with yourself sets the tone for every other relationship you have.”

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14/07/2019

I haven’t been posting here as much as I wanted to (which would be daily). I keep forgeting, have other things in my mind.  So, last time was wednesday. On thursday nothing to declare. Spent the whole day working, ate healthy, ran in the evening (3x 9′ with 2x walking interval between them). On friday there was a party at my lab (it’s called festa junina, a tradition here in Brazil). There were a LOT of sweets (cakes, peanut brigadeiro, brigadeirão, ugh, all things delicious) and there was hot dog for lunch so, yeap, ate a hot dog, ate a piece of cake, ate some brigadeiro. I felt kind of guilty about it, but tried not to feel too much, because I don’t want food to become a source of guilty to me. Went to the gym in the evening, did my running practice (same as street practice) and lifted some weights. I don’t feel like I’m yet on a good place on weight lifting, but let’s see how the next week comes to be. During the evening I had 3 eggs for dinner trying to put some proteins in and to compensate all the carbs from lunch and ended the day with a good calorie count. Saturday was a bit catastrophic (food wise and non-food wise too). I ate a lot at lunch (nearly 1100 calories) because we went to a super good arabian restaurant and the food was delicious. After that I planned on running but I had a bit of a mental breakdown over something my mother said (it was nothing, actually, it was a good thing about me, but sometimes I take compliments as pressure to always be perfect and ugh..) and I didn’t feel like doing ANYTHING for the rest of the day. I went to the beach to play some beach tennis, which was good because I let some stress out, but I didn’t even play well because of how bad I was feeling. In the evening I went to the mall with my mom and impressively didn’t have anything to eat there. Instead, I came home and ate an egg and some carrots, finishing the day in a good calorie count. But still a lil bit sad :/. Today I woke up better. Watched Wimbledon's final (yay Nole!) had some “cozido” for lunch (carrots, sweet potato, pumpkin, mandioquinha and sausage) and then, after the match ended (5 hour-long!!!) I went to the beach to run (3x 9′ and 2x walking interval for rest -  total of 4,14 km running and 4,38 altogether) and after played some beach tennis for about an hour (it’s a good exercise, we have to do a lot of moving on the sand which is great). I end my weekend in a good mood (thankfully) and feeling like I did some great things for my health and my fitness. Next week goal: improve my running! Trying to run for a little bit longer (which will be hard because I’m almost DYING at 9′, I’ll have to slow my pace) and put some new songs on my running playlist. Any tips?

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10/07/2019 - It’s been too long

Ok, so.. last time I posted here was last Friday. Saturday was ... ok, I ran on the street for 13 minutes at 6:35/km, almost died. Then I decided that how I was doing my street training was not working and I had to change it. On Sunday some friends and family came chez moi to watch the women’s world cup final and the America's cup final. This was totally a waste day, I ate ton shits of sugar (there were 4 types of desert, all of them excessively sugary but all delicious and I ate them all (a pan of brigadeiro, brigadeirão, pavê with chocolat, ice cream). I didn’t even count calories, but I’d say they went beyond 3000, easily. Monday I didn’t go to they gym to run because I was way too tired from the day, but I went to my pole class. I ate ok on monday, think I stayed within the calories but didn’t count either. On tuesday I went back on track, counted my calories, was way below the limit, did 2 hours of tennis class, played some good tennis (for my level, which would be somewhere between beginners and intermediary). Today was weight in day and I was a little bit scared because of the weekend. I saw that I had gained some weight on monday but.... was also hoping that it had magically disappeared (and it did!). Because things at the lab are easier this week, I had time during the afternoon to do some street running and decided to try the exact same training i’ve been doing on the treadmill on the street to see how I’d do. This week I’m set for 9′ at 8-9km/h followed by 2′ of 5,5km/h so I tried to do something like fast rhythm for 9 minutes followed by 2 minutes of rest/walking pace. For the first 9 minutes I was able to run ok, with a 6′30′’ pace. Had 2 minutes of walking and then the next 9 minutes. I think I accelerated too much and was not able to complete the next 9 minutes, running only 8′20′’ at a 6′10′’ pace. Then I had to walk/rest for 3 minutes because I was feeling extremely tired and out of breath. Went for the last 9 minute-run at a lower pace and was able to finish it at 6′55′’ pace. Overall I ran 4,26 km in 31 minutes. I aim for 5km in under 30′. I think my training is going well and I’m running way more than I could before. I also felt like this type of training made me grow a lot more than just trying to exhaust myself with the longest I could stand running. After that I went to the gym, did some more running at the treadmill (hiit training, I really felt like running today) and some weightlifting. 

Ok, now for the photos:

I honestly look at these photos and feel like I haven’t changed a bit since starting this whole process. I’m ok with it, because I know it takes time, and I can already feel the changes in how well I’m training, but ugh, I wish this belly would just puff away.  The weight for today: 53,7kg. 5,7 more to go hehe.

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05/07/2019 - Run run run

Today I feel GREAT. Actually, I’m super tired, I can’t wait to fall in bed, watch some tv shows and sleep. But I do also feel great. I spent my whole day at the clinic (not so cool, not so cool), had to spend my lunch hour going to the lab and then was NOT able to do what I had to do there, had to come back there at 5pm just after I left the clinic, they stayed there till 6:30pm. I was tired but the good thing about today is that I was extremely excited to go to the gym after that. I had been out since 7a.m. and still wanted so badly to go to the gym (the fact that a couple of friends were going with me helped to keep me motivated). The thing is: I really wanted to try 2′ 5,5km/h 8′ 9km/h (x3) today (which is basically increasing the speed of my “running” when compared to yesterday). I had set in mind that I’d be able to do it, and I did!! God, I have to say, the first 2 rounds were easy but the last one, gah, I had to count the seconds. After that, I did some weight lifting and bam, came back home (actually stopped at the market to buy some food and, as a result, arrived home just after 9pm. Yes, that’s right, was out from 7am till 9pm. Ok, maybe this is why I’m so tired).

As we are talking about food, today was not a very “healthy” day. I ate a cereal bar for breakfast (strawberry covered in white chocolate, absolute deliciousness) and then, as I didn’t have much time to eat lunch, I had a tapioca (with white cheese and turkey breast). And.. that was it until dinner. Yes, I ran and worked out having eaten less than 500 calories during my whole day. But anyway, this is what I had the time to eat. For dinner, I was a little... extravagant? I had a “Mediterranean” salad (ricotta, tomatoes, black olives, arugula, chickpeas) then some cheese bread with cold mate tea (I have to say, I had a lot of traditional brazilian things to eat today, I don’t know if I am translating them in an appropriate way) and then some ben & jerry’s ice cream. Yes, I went there. But guuuuuys, I had burned so many calories at the gym, and I was so... calories deprived (lol). Ok, these are excuses, but I don’t feel guilty at all. I really wanted some ice cream. I LOVE ice cream. Anyway, my whole dinner added up to 851 calories. Not bad. I feel great because I feel like I achieved so much today with like, still wanting to go to the gym even when being super tired because I am really trying to overcome my limitations there, and becoming every day stronger, and eating healthier than I ever did on my life but still ending my day with ice cream <3  Oh this was a happy day. Now I have to catch up with my reading of The Handmaid’s Tale because tomorrow is book club discussion day!

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04/07/2019 - Yes, I know this should have been yesterday

Wednesday is the day I’m supposed to log in my weight and my new photos BUT I had a ton of things to do yesterday and just had not the time. Actually, it was the first time since starting my running plan (except the week in which I was traveling) when I did not complete a goal :( I just didn’t have the time to go to the gym. But since my tennis class for tomorrow was canceled I’ll go tomorrow and pay my debts! Actually, I have to say: I was suffering last week just thinking about this week’s training and it has been fine so far, today I ran 3x 2′ 5,5 km/h then 8′ 8,5km/h and it was ... fine. I was tired at the end, sure, but I was not dying. Anyways, that means I can try 8′ 9km/h and die. 

Ok, now back to my evolution. I have to say that when I took the pictures I saw no evolution at all. I feel like my body is the same. However, when I stepped on the balance I had lost quite some weight. As I just got my period, maybe my bloating is related to it, and that’s why I feel exactly the same? I don’t know. Maybe there really wasn’t any visible evolution. Anyway, here it goes:

(Sorry for the low quality photos, next week I’ll set to take better pics... I’m full of bruises because of my pole dance class, lol. Also the ridiculous tanning marks because of the shorts I use to play tennis/run, oh god.) Weight: 54,2 kg (yesterday)

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01/07/2018

New month, new me. Lol, who am I kidding? Same me. Today started with a morning at the clinic. Had a total of 6 patients, which wasn’t much. Had some time to check some Wimbledon results in-between patients, just to see Osaka losing :( And Vondrousova :( ANYWAY, got out of there at 1p.m. and went to have lunch at this new place the residents there showed me, where they have salads and stuff, and ate myself a really good salad with chicken, which was my first meal of the day (photo below, today I remembered to take some!)

It was delish (lettuce, little tomatoes, chicken, chickpeas, broccoli, heart of palm and some mushroom) and actually kept me full for the whole day. After that, I went straight to the lab. Got home at 5p.m., wasn’t feeling hungry at all, but as I had a pole dance class and also had to go running after that I decided to have a little snack, which consisted of two toasts with white cheese on top (and also some drops of pepper sauce because I was craving pepper). My leg is full of purple marks due to the pole dance class (and hurting :( ) but anyway, after that I went to the gym and did my running of the day. As the start of a new week, I’m doing new times: 2 minutes of walking (5,5km/h) followed by 8 minutes of running (8,0km/h for now) x3. I thought it would be harder, but at the same time I don’t know if I’ll be able to increase the speed of my running on wednesday :/  BUT I CAN TRY, RIGHT? For dinner I had some salmon that was left from saturday lunch (yes, we eat a lot of leftovers around here) with some asparagus and tomatoes sautées. Aaaand, for desert (I hadn’t reached 1000 calories for the day!) I had half of an alfajor I bought on my trip to Buenos Aires (I usually don’t like alfajor because of the flavour of the cake-ish thing in it but this one was amazing, kudos milka). Total: 1012 calories for the day. Yes, this is very little, BUT I need you to remember that I am 1,5m tall (4′11′’) so.. yeah, not a lot of calories needed to keep me alive lol.

Let tomorrow be awesome (and may I eat the other half of this alfajor, hehe)

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30/06/2019

I accidentaly deleted the whole text and I don’t feel like writing it all again, so I will be brief.

Yesterday I ate around 4000 calories. I ate a looot at the party, and I also drank a lot. I did dance a bit, but hahah, nothing to pay off the calories. Today I also did not have a great diet. I had potatoes at lunch, with duck, and for dinner pasta with fried egg (no oil) and some pepper sauce (been craving pepper). The pasta is the leftover of Thursday's lunch and was the only thing easily available to eat. 

Today I also ran on the beach (not on the sand, tho), as a part of my running training. I ran for 11 minutes, which did not seem much but almost kills me. I suck at running. I absolutely cannot run for long. After 9 minutes my legs were already burning and I felt like I couldn’t do it anymore. I was not at my greatest place physically, since I had a really crazy night (got home at 6 a.m., slept till 4p.m.) but, anyway. I’m still pretty bad at this. I ran 1,65km in 11 minutes, which gives me a 9km/h pace. Not too bad. My goal is being able to run 5km in 30 minutes (10km/h pace) and I’m working towards it. I’m still embarrassed to talk  about my running with my friends because I pretty much still suck at it. But by the end of the year I won’t. I have to keep training. Remember this when you don’t want to leave your bed for training: you will get better, keep going. Today I almost didn’t get up, but I knew that little rectangle on excel had to turn green, and it did!

I’m not too excited about next week. I’ll have to walk for 2 minutes then run for 8 minutes (3x) on the treadmill. I’ll start with a running speed of 8km/h because during this week, whilst doing my 3rd repetition of 5 minutes at 9km/h, I was almost dying. But anyway, this is the problem for tomorrow. Today, my goal is completed. It was hard, but I made it. In some months running for 11 minutes will be extremely easy, and new goals will be set.

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28/06/2019

Today I spent the whole day at the clinic, from 7:30a.m. to 5:45p.m. then went straight to tennis class. I was not as good as I wanted to be during practice. I mean, I did have some nice shots during the game, but my serve is shit and my returns are still shit if the serve is even a little bit faster. Gotta practice. Training is the only way to get better.

I had lunch with some residents from the clinic, we ate at a supermarket that sells mostly healthy stuff and they serve some salad and similars for lunch. My lunch had 338 calories: lettuce, a spoon of chickpeas, a spoon of palm heart, a spoon of cucumber, some small tomatoes (like 3), and some avocado with a cup (aprox. 300ml) of fresh orange juice. I had never eaten avocado before (JUDGE ME) but I felt like trying and ... I don’t know if the dressing (some herbs) took all the taste away from it but it didn’t taste like much.. The consistency was ok. I may try it again. I didn’t eat a single thing till 9p.m. when I ate some pre-cooked pasta that I had at home (I didn’t feel like cooking or like ordering anything). I also ate like 30g of a treat a friend brought me from Israel, which is like a peanut butter cheetos which makes NO SENSE AT ALL to my taste buds, but is pretty good. I’m proud because I ate like, a fourth of the package and thought: yeap, I’m ok, I don’t need any more of this. My old self would have eaten the whole package without thinking twice about it.

Tomorrow will be my cheat day. I have a graduation party to attend, which starts at 11pm and there’s a LOT of good food (risottos, japanese food, chocolate cascade, pasta, small entries, ugh, everything is SO delicious) and a LOT of good things to drink (hehe, I’ll go for energetic + vodka as usual tho, maybe try some different drinks during the night). What sucks is that ANOTHER graduation party next week (again with amazing food, and for free, so how can I not eat?). 

I have to say that I looked at my running plan for next week and I’m not excited about it. I don’t think I’ll make it. But I will. Somehow. Ok bye.