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Hi lillte demons

Thank you all for all the love you have shown my writing.

This is

The End

Of my bloody demon

<3

May we meet again

Lots of love

my bloody demon<3

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Hear the wedding bells

Love is in the air

The bride and groom

Laughing and smiling

Happy day

Happy wedding

My heart is ripping

The tears are rolling down in a heavy flow

No hope now

I hear the bells

Even from miles away

Like a lion roaring

Reminding us what it is

Time for a wedding

Just not mine

Just not ours

Just yours

Goodbye my muse

My love

My demon

my bloody demon<3

Congrats muse on your engagement..

May you never find my poems

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Kiss kiss

Show it off

Make the delusional people cry

Time to stop

Cry and scream

And move on from it

The fantasy is gone

Kiss kiss

Show it off

Made me cry

Make me stop

Time stopped

Heart broke

Kiss kiss

Sealed fate

my bloody demon<3

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No one would realize that i am gone...

just think i'm offline

my bloody demon<3

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Congrats

One would think

I would be used to this by now but...

3 month anniversary

3 months since we stopped talking

I kind of wished and still do....

I dont want you two to work out.

Congrats on you

3 months...

Did you think of me once tho?

Just a fleeting thought of me

I never win

my bloody demon<3

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I have Thalassophobia

But you made me forget that

Your eyes are the colour of the atlantic sea

And the dark look you get sometimes

Reminds me of the storms and the sea

As one

Your personality is like the atlantics as well

Unpredictable like it

I fear the ocean

The place where the titanic sank

Just like us

I have a fear of the ocean

Yet i was ready to jump right in the deep

I loved you

I jumped right into your sea loving self

But everything was dark

Like the atlanctic at night

Not even a flashlight could save me.

I almost drowned when i was 9

And i am deadly scared of drowning

Of sharks coming near me

But the sea now

Is the only way to get close to you

The titanic might have sank

No one forgets about that ship

And i wont forget ours

Even though im still scared of the atlantic

When i go live by the sea one day

I'll tell it all about you

About us

Maybe it will help me

my bloody demon<3

P.s..i am really fucking scared of the sea...drowning is so not fun!

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A bull vs 2 lions

Who would win?

The bull is stronger

Smart but aggressive

Chargers head in first in a fight

Lions are smarter

Fast predators

Sneaky and cunning

The bull didnt see them coming

It was a sneak attack

But when they struck first

The bull didnt run

It stayed and fought

It was a brutal fight

The lions were hurt

The bull was out numberd

But they still didnt give up

It was brutal

The lions won

The bull was dying

Hurt beyond helping

The fates are cruel

It never stood a chance

Of course it had that kind of luck

The lions won

(Not a documentry)

my bloody demon<3

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Friendship

Beautiful like a rose

Painful like thorns

Friendship

Its beautiful for photos

Like roses

But photos dont really show the thorns

My friendships are always like that

I pose with the rose for a photo

But i bleed from the thorns

And no one sees it

my bloody demon<3

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I once told you

I think you are a butterfly

I never told you why

Butterflies are beautiful

They mesmerize people

But they aren't permanent

They live for a few weeks unless they are lucky

Which we weren't

I knew then

Our love was beautiful and mesmerizing

But like a butterfly

I knew it would die soon

I told you we were like butterflies

Because our love was toxic

I wanted you to be blind though

So i said butterflies

I was right

Our butterfly died in 2 weeks

It got to toxic

So it wasn't a peaceful death

You were like a butterfly to me

I knew you would fly away

I knew our love would die

I was mesmerized by you

I didn't see you get ready to fly away

I was admiring your wings

Then in 2 seconds you were gone

My butterfly flew away from me

I hope they got a new pretty place

To live the rest of their short life

my bloody demon<3

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🧠:

Focus

Dont think about him

He is gone

Focus on the end game

🫀:😝

Get a new obsession🥰

Like a normal healthy minded human being

🧠:❗️❗️

🫀:no

Honestly a war everyday😮‍💨

my bloody demon<3

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Please save whats left of my soul

Save the light that is slowly dying

I cant do it alone anymore

My head isnt a safe place anymore

I cant turn to it for help

The person who can

Is the one who took most of my light

I barely have any left

All i see and feel is dark

I cant feel anything light

Just crushing sadness

Please save my soul

Before it's too late

Before all the light is gone

Save me

Please....

my bloody demon<3

Ps.no lecturing...

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✨️🎉HAPPY BIRTHDAY🎉✨️

There isnt a happy in me at all

There is only dread

And dissapointment

He forgot

She forgot

They forgot

My father did it again....

My family is forcing me again..

No presents to atleast give me real smile.

He really moved on...

She really isnt a friend..

My family knows i hate this kind of cake...

Im alone in my thoughts again

Speaking up will only get me tears

So sit and blow out the candles my dear

No point in wishing...

It never comes true.

Happy birthday to me i geuss

I dont see the happy in 21

I dont see the point of a fake party

Nothing to celebrate

There is no happy in my life right now

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME💀

my bloody demon<3

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My love

My heartbreak

My person

When you left

My creativity left to

It's hard writing now ,love

You were my muse

Now what do I do

The pages are empty

No words in my head

How do I write without you

You are my inspiration

My love

My heart

My person

My muse

my bloody demon<3

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I dont know why

But when i am with certain people

My brain goes blank

And just do shit

I think they think

I am a idiot

They have to hold my hand when crossing the road

Forgetting words

Not knowing how to do shit

So im cleary an idiot in their eyes

But they are idiots to me

Because even if my mind goes blank

I still notice things

I see what they think

What they do

But i honestly just like going blank

my bloody demon<3

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Everyday i wake up

With the same hollow feeling

I can talk to 10 people

But i dont get the feelings

Like i got with you

Well the first you

So everyday

I dread waking up

Because i dont have a happy anymore

Everynight i cross my fingers

And hope for someone to replace you.

Or just not to wake up then

Because life is just lonely without you

my bloody demon<3

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Memories

The plague of the mind

One comes and another follows

Im supposed to forget this shit

Not remember your words

Words that never met your actions

Memory of one bloody text

Howd you do anything for me

But you never did

You did for her tho.

You will keep your promises to her.

And everytime someone says something

Remontely close to what we texted

I get that stupid text in my head

And i see you did it for her.

Memories

Are like the fucking plague

And i'm in fucking pain again

Fuck the tears

my bloody demon<3

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Broken heart

Turned to stone

With a certain person

The stone breaks

Back into

A beating heart

A day comes

Where they hurt you again

And your heart is in pain

So the beating of your heart

Slows back into

A rhytem of numb

A heart of stone

my bloody demon<3