chaoticcows

[chaoticcows]

I’d let you tear me apart bit by bit if it means i feel the warmth of your fingers beforehand

[chaoticcows]

My love is sick and suffocates like a cancer that fills the lungs, infecting all that comes into its vicinity. To conceal and kill it is my greatest act of devotion.

I will never know love that takes the breath of one away, as it will always be sitting like dead air in the voids that were filled by the thought of you.

[chaoticcows]

My heart will always hold a piece of you, and it feels as if I’ve been rotting. Whether it is bitterness or maggots feasting on my grief, I let it fester. It is the only thing I have left.

[chaoticcows]

You have planted vines in the cracks of my walls, and they move as if it’s all they’ve ever known.

Gentle and meticulous, you’ve covered me in greenery

[chaoticcows]

[chaoticcows]

I am a man of humility, but I will never know a minute where I am not proud of the man I love. He brings me to my knees, he fills my heart with pride so deadly, I feel as if I’ll perish on the spot. God, my sins are plenty, but let me have pride in the way I am loved by him.

Edit: we haven’t been together in 2 years, but this is literally the best thing I’ve ever written - I cannot delete it 🫡