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Hey can y'all tell that I think every fucking problem in my life is casue I'm fat?

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Is me having a crush on an attractive person really that laughable? Am I that fat and ugly that it's funny.

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Yo, never mind shes a cunt and is actually very,very mean. I may be fat, but i would rather be fat and have morals, then be skinny and have none.

My dream body is walking around my school. Literally.

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A really sad thing about finishing school is that i realised that I spent 8th- 12th grade being so fucking unhappy with my self, that I feel like it kinda just went past me. Like what do you mean im a legal adult, with a job and sorta bills to pay. Like what do you mean im still not 14?

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The scary thing about finishing school forever is that I no longer can ⭐ve there.

And I know I don't have the control to do it at home.

I'm trying now, like practice, i guess, but it's so fucking hard.

And I could do it at work, but I don't want to get fired for yelling at somebody because I'm so irritable when I ⭐ve.

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Summer th1n$p0.

It's almost summer where I live so i decided to get into the mood by creating this.

Enjoy loves.

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Anyways, it's been over 2 months since I've posted.

Um anyways life sucked.

Like all of my friends stopped talking to me, tehehe, I started seeing a low-key therapist in school, and I got a job YIPEEEEE.

I also finish school in like 9 days lol.

And I also have gained, lmfao.

But I'm back bitches,

Xoxo, Gossip Girl.

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I used to find it so hard to fast, because I would just give into my urges and eat, but the more I do the easier it is, like I completed a 20 hour fast today and it felt like nothing.

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I wanted to binge sooooo bad, but instead I just chugged some water and walked around my room, and did not break my 24 hour fast.

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Quick question. Does anybody else do a fast and feel so motivated and great and like you're making progress, but then the fast is up so you eat, then you can stop eating until your fast starts again.

Or is this just me.

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I would very much like to fifteen again and ⭐ving so easily, and only surviving on water and zero sugar monsters, and weighing myself multiple times a day, and actually loosing weight instead of gaining.

God I miss fifteen.

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Summer bodies are made in the winter.

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I hate myself

I hate myself

I hate myself

I hate myself

I hate myself

I hate myself

I hate myself

I hate myself

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I was looking at photos of myself from 13-16? And I remember what it was like to be able to skip breakfast and lunch, to not binge, to drink so much water it would feel me up, I want that back.

To make it even worse my mother continuously says how much fatter I am now, and how much weight I've gained since then.

I just want the control back.

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My dream body is walking around my school. Literally.

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If I get one more email from Pinterest that one of my pins has been taken down for 'self harming behaviours' I'm going to scream. Mind your own freaking business bro.