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you called me the sun

you called me the sun

said i burned too bright to touch

that i lit up the world even when i didn’t mean to

but i never felt like fire

i am the sky after everyone’s gone home

quiet and full of things you’ll never name

a thousand flickers you can’t quite reach

soft enough not to wake anything

you said you were the moon

distant and cold but always watching

but you never asked if i even wanted your light

if i wanted to be seen that way

you said you needed the sun to survive

but i think you just needed something to orbit

and i

i was never the center of anything

i have always been the backdrop

the afterthought

the thing you see past on the way to something else

the place you land your gaze but never your heart

no one’s ever looked at me like i was the answer

just the setting for someone else’s story

a space to project their own light onto

a sky to pass through on their way to morning

and maybe that’s why i don’t burn

why i stay scattered and still

because no one’s ever stayed long enough

to see me for what i am

-written by August (Me) 2025

(this will be featured in a book i’m planning to release hopefully early 2026)

thank you for reading!

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Hi, i’m currently writing a poetry book. It’s mostly centered around grief and what it means to me and how i feel it in the loud and in the quiet moments. I’m thinking about starting to post little bits and pieces of my work to showcase here to see if it’s actually any good or not. I’ve posted some previous works on here, i know, but this body of work feels different to me. Anyway, I know nobody really reads ramblings on here like this maybe but like this message if you’d be interested in reading some poetry that i think is very relevant to anyone who has experienced grief before, aka everyone! thanks 🫶

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writing a book is hard guys… who would have thought

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okay here’s my gym progress so far!!! i am so beyond pleased with my results AAAAA let’s freaking go dude!!! consistency is what really helped me achieve one of my fitness goals for the year and im just so grateful to myself for being there and showing up for myself 🫶✨🩷

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Joanna Klink, from "Wonder of Birds“, Raptus

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“I have battled with loneliness. I have battled with insecurity and rootlessness. But I have never given up the struggle. I have never quit trying in life.”

— Avijeet Das

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YALL IM FINALLY STARTING TO SEE THE RESULTS OF ME GOING TO THE GYM CONSISTENTLY!! i got big ole muscles now 🫣🤩😌

pics later maybe

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Being sensitive is a strength—it means you feel deeply. But unkindness? That’s a choice, and a sad one.

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does anyone else feel like they’ve been misunderstood their entire life or is that just me?

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You can call me naive, but I will always see the best in you

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the one thing about heartbreak that is pretty useful is the poetry that i’m able to write from it. i’ve been writing so much and i think it’s my best work. working on writing a book to release in the spring now. i have so much to work with and it’s so so exciting ✌️😙✌️

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it’s crazy how much i let my soul slip away when i was dating that evil twink. i do all the things that i felt like i had to stop doing because we were together 24/7. i’m reading again, writing again, working out again, knitting again, and painting again. i’m able to actually write out my poetry book and get stuff ready to submit for publication. i’m just excited being a person again and im never letting someone take that away from me again. i’m happy again and i don’t need anybody to make me feel good because i know im powerful and im a good person. plus i’m incredibly fun to be around. i love myself again and i wont ever stop

✌️😙✌️

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that PF hydro massage bed is calling my name today, my back and shoulder is so still ✌️😭✌️