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back again 💌

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guess who’s back 💌

You don't have to eat. No one is forcing you to eat. The food will be there later. You can always have some later. Right now, just focus on getting the body you want…it's not like the food is going to disappear and you will never be able to have it again. You are so close to your goal, so why give in now? Why give in to something you have already tasted a million times…You know what it tastes like, so you don't need it. You know how easy it is to undo all your progress, so just avoid the food. It's not the end of the world. It's actually quite disgusting how food obsessed you are. Think about other things for once. 

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gain motivation & discipline… not weight.

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i think my mum just saw me weighing my food but i don’t know HELP. awkwarddddd.

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idk what i am but i’m cute being it

🫧🦋

also.. is my tumblr tripping or did a whole lot of tags get removed recently ?!

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everything in my life is so dramatic except for my weight-loss.

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damn right i’m on b3nz0’s & eating as my heart desires , full well knowinh i’ll b so sad about it tomorrow. 🌈 anti- anx1ety p1lls r devils that look like angels 🗡️🤍

here’s a live pic bc it tastes so goddamn amazing rn. and…

i’m so fucking sorry to all of us that we feel scared of this shit. WHY CANT WE LOVE AND NOURISH OURSRLVES THE WAY WE DESERVE. 😭

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extended-fasting girl returns 🖤🦋

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ana dreams 🤍☁️

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ranting to myself:

the food will be there when you are worthy of recovering. you are so close. so close to being sick enough, so close to being satisfied, so you can show yourself you fucking did it. and then you can move on. just run this thing into the ground first, once and for all.

don’t lose any progress, don’t worry about trying to fit in foods that you feel like. it’s only a few months until all of them can be unrestricted, unlimited. the companies will still be making all those foods when it’s your time to enjoy them again.

don’t. waste. this. precious. time. on. timeless. foods.

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home alone & it’s romantic af rn. 🎀

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If you feel like you lack the motivation for starving then pretend that you're in an Ed vlog and that everyone that's watching you is looking for inspiration to starve and to be thin.

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upping my calorie limit (to 900kcal) for a bit

i’m scared bc i haven’t done this before and i’m worried i won’t lose weight, but i think this approach will help me not to binge.

i’m so disappointed in my 4 day binge but i realised i was just trying to catch up on all the foods i’ve been missing out on for so long.

if i’m able to incorporate them into my days, i think i will do better overall since i won’t have to ignore literally every craving i get.

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quietly sliding myself back into edblr with a swollen face & cramping stomach after a 4 day binge episode :))

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Dear person in my bathroom

Can you PLEASE hurry the F*** UP. I have already made my sugar-free hot chocolate and it is going COLD bc I must use the scales first.

Sincerely,

The weird one of the house

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posting this purely to hold myself accountable for the next 4 days by:

doing extremely well & sticking exactly to my meal plan

so i can finally enjoy a planned high-cal day on the weekend with a food that i have literally been craving for 3 weeks now.

i have yet to have it because my accidental binges kept taking away my high cal days :(

if anyone was curious.. my craving is for a takeaway butter prawns Indian curry w rice & garlic naan hahah.

(it’s exactly like butter chicken except it’s prawns)

i will reblog this post with a pic of my meal on saturday night when i have earned it ♡.

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i almost binged but i chugged a cup of sugar-free hot chocolate & stopped myself.

omg the feeling of refraining from a binge is actually ecstatic.

sugar-free hot chocolate for late night sweet cravings

i promise it helps a lot. 💓