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Put this down as a weird reason for hope, but I think people really underestimate the utility and value of sometimes fucking things up.

An example: When I was younger, I in some ways majorly fucked up a situation with a friend, when I was trying to be there for him, but I was in over my head. It ended the friendship. But you know what, that fuckup saved so much of my mental health, because that friendship was really manipulative and bad for me, and I needed out.

Sometimes fucking up is the only way out of a bad situation. Sometimes all you can do is hit your limits, and come what may. Mentally, physically, socially, sensorily, fatigue-ily, whatever it may be.

We can't just do it all - and sometimes fucking up is the only way we know where that line is.

Imperfection isn't always a flaw - sometimes it's a feature.

Anyway, try to not be so hard on yourself for your failures. You never know what they might have saved you from.

Sometimes failure is your body's or your self's only way of asserting its needs. So have some extra self-compassion today.

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Beach day Beelzebub mwehehehe

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They simp for eachother frfr

Original by bostynbaker on tiktok! :

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a lil doodle compilation of the SDV Bachelorettes i’ve done through the year.

Emily, Haley, Leah

Abigail, Penny, Maru

✨Check out the bachelors here!!✨

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“no one’s ever mad at me unless they tell me so” is the best assumption i’ve ever made

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"I sort fics by kudos and only kudos on stories with high kudos counts, why aren't there more stories with high kudos, I ran out of things to read." You're part of the problem.

"Authors artificially inflate comment counts by thanking people, I can't find anything with a real comment count to read." No they fucking are not, they're grateful for engagement.

"I can't read anything under 100k." That's the majority of fics you're ignoring, most novels aren't even that long.

"I don't have time to look for the incredibly rare diamond in the rough, so I won't read anything below a certain amount of kudos, comments, and hits." Those fics are popular because people gave them a chance and then snobs like you found them.

"I won't read anthing with a single typos." You made typos in that sentence, get off your high horse.

"One singular author didn't thank me for commenting, I'm never commenting on any fic again so I don't get burned." You're punishing people because someone didn't give you engagement they don't owe you that they might not have seen.

"This fic is three months old, it's so old, it doesn't matter if I comment or kudos, it's old." Fics do not have expiration dates, comment and kudos.

You're killing your fandoms with your snobbish behaviors.

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it’s just one of those croissant days

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summer day at the beach 𓂃 ོ☼𓂃

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Mega D9 quick sketch

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Some Pokesona sketches!

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Everyone Came to Play! (2023) Illustrator: Mari Inoue

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ten years ago you were so scared of such different things, but you survived them anyway. the same goes for five years ago and two years ago. everything that has ever felt like a hurdle, you’ve passed through. so be afraid, identify your fears, and then allow yourself to remember that in just a little while, this will be another thing that you have overcome.

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it’s so important for your health to regularly interact with people at least a decade older than you who aren’t family, especially as a young person.

When my 45 year old teammate gives me advice on mental health and I know she understands because she’s had a tough adult life.

When my 32 year old friend tells me his life started improving for the first time the year she turned 30.

When the 60 year old man at the soup kitchen gives me permission to grieve by telling me I’m ‘just a baby��� with only gentleness in his voice.

It’s so much easier to abandon and break out from the cultural idealisation of youth when you surround yourself with wonderful people in all stages of their lives.

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hating yourself sucks ass, by the way, it doesn't matter how noble you feel or how you feel it's "right", you're not helping anyone when you hate yourself- that's including you. i understand that depression and other mental health issues can be insidious and tell you that you deserve to hate yourself, but in the end it's just prolonging your misery. it's priming you to believe you should give up and accept misery at every turn. it's not good or right, it's the easy way out, and it doesn't make it the right way out. it's just another way to throw your hands up in the air and refuse to better yourself.

it's just another way to avoid responsibility. it's not cool, it's not right, it doesn't make you look like a good person. you get no cosmic reward for festering in hatred toward yourself. moving on and learning to love yourself helps you love others. the saying that you can't love others until you love yourself is actually true. it genuinely is. you may feel like you love others when you're festering with that much hate, but you're not loving anyone.

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i don’t want to feel like im a burden in everyone’s life, I don’t want to be sad or angry, i want to want to live like everyone else but i can’t and i don’t know why

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I cannot stop thinking about Episode 5 of TADC because Ragatha is, however unintentionally, one of the best examples of how isolating and difficult it is to interact with the world as an autistic person I have ever seen. To the point it genuinely makes me sad to think about her. I need to make a post expanding on this at some point but rn just. The way everyone assumes there’s some sinister hidden meaning to everything she does and says but she’s literally just trying to be nice and she doesn’t understand why it’s not working. The way she tries so hard to make connections but it constantly falls flat, she says things that hurt without realising how or why. She follows the rules she’s been taught will make her friends — she’s kind, she’s forgiving, she’s accepting and apologetic when she messes up, but for some reason it’s just not working. She tries to mimic other people, she tries to laugh at past experiences, tries to open up about her past like everyone else is doing, but now everyone’s uncomfortable and looking at her like she’s crazy and she doesn’t get it!! She doesn’t get it!!! Jax is a jerk and he’s mean to everyone but for some reason Pomni likes him and she doesn’t get it, she doesn’t understand! Pomni tells her it’s okay to be a jerk sometimes but Ragatha doesn’t like being mean, she wants to be nice to people, but she does it anyway, she gets mean like Jax and Zooble do but now Pomni’s looking at her like she’s done something wrong but she just did what she asked her to!! She doesn’t get it!! At the end of the episode everyone goes off into their groups and Ragatha is left alone, after having tried so hard to make friends and fit in and make people like her, she’s still alone, and everyone thinks she’s weird and unapproachable and she just has to give up and accept that she is inherently unloveable. Her evil alter ego tells her she’s going to die alone and nobody loves her and the only thing she corrects her on is the fact that they can’t die here. The few that might like her when she’s around don’t miss her when she’s gone, because there’s nothing to miss. Ragatha has spent her whole life systematically stripping away everything that makes her different and unlikeable in order to make herself more palatable to others, and in the process she has made herself a personalitiless blank slate with no unique identity for others to latch onto and appreciate. She has nothing to add to any conversation because she’s too afraid of being disliked to have a memorable personality beyond being generally polite and nice. And just. God. Someone get this girl some noise cancelling headphones and a therapist on speed dial, being this good of a representation of what it’s like to be autistic, especially to be an autistic person with trauma, is not good for the soul. That final shot just destroys me right in the heart. My poor girl.

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Finally drew some abstragedy i love them,.. webcomic artists can relate.

(read my webcomic pls @rocketchip-comic :3)