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[gobrandyn]

I need to focus more on myself

I’m DONE compromising too much of myself. I have this problem where I feel like I always need to make Jill happy, and I just cant do it while being happy myself. I need to do what I feel is right, and honestly, the right thing to do is to prepare, plan, and pursue my goals. 

So lets get started. 

What is it that I need to prepare for? What are my goals? How do I achieve them? And most importantly, how do I make sure I stick to achieving these goals?

Goals:

1) Eat 3-5 full meals a day

Spaghetti and meatsauce w/ broccoli and carrots

Rice, veggies, and Salmon

Potatoes, beef, broccoli & rice

2) Workout daily

Workout in the morning

Go to the gym in the evening

In between, do some meditation

3) Code and study daily

Code as soon as you wake up

Code for an hour and pause

Code at home until you cant

4) Maintain a clean living area

Clean every break period

5) Find a well paid full-time job

Apply for only an hour a day

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Modified 75 Hard Challenge

1. Follow A Diet (No sugar, no empty junk food)

2. Wim Hof technique & cold shower/plunge + 45minute workouts; 1 of these has to be outside.

3. Drink 2L of water.

4. Apply for 10 jobs.

5. Take a progress picture everyday.

https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1D9Bvy6Tlz94hrPT-u7dlbBNUPwpd7DLSzyxEQRita5M/edit?usp=sharing

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I’m failing and fucking I’m sick of it 12/22/2022

I keep failing. Over and over again. I’m not liking this AT ALL. And I think I know why....

In terms of todays goals, I did not stick to my routine schedule. I did not wake up at 7 and I did not practice my JavaScript. This morning, I instead scrambled about in the house trying to figure out how to cook for Jill and get out of Jill’s house via Jill’s house rules while trying to constantly maneuver around Jill. I also didn't sleep well but I could’ve if I can figure out how to relax. I’m just frustrated that my way of working does not work being in Jill’s house and I wish it did. 

Fyi, none of this is Jill’s fault. I just cannot continue to live with her like this unless change happens asap.

So...How do I fix this:

1) Make better moves towards moving out sooner than later. You do this by saving money. Not spending it on trips and other stuff. 

2) Maybe sleep on the couch for a few days to see how you like it if waking up is such a hard thing for you to do. 

3) Putting on clothes WITH your shoes has helped tremendously in the past because it gets you in work mode SOONER. You can also have your clothes out at once and not worry about where your shoes are later on. SHOES WORK. Maybe get shoe covers again.

4) LIGHTS OUT AT FUCKING 10pm!!! No matter what! If not, find a fucking hotel.

5) Make breakfast and dinner in ONE GO. Meal prepping is HUGE. Place breakfast in the microwave and dinner in the fridge.

6) Stop feeling bad that you have to work all the time. Jill has to work too and she doesn't feel bad, so why should you? Prioritize yourself FIRST, then everything else.

7) Make a separate van fund. You must, because you cannot continue living like this with a sane head. You WILL go insane at some point.

8) Spend some time today doing ONLY this.... organizing, meal prepping, clothing prepping, and rule setting. Do not JavaScript today. Take rest.

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11/20/2022 - 9pm

goals - Stick to my new routine. This doesnt include blogging btw.

my weight - I weigh 169lbs.

Diet - I ate shit food today.

fitness progression - I did not workout today.

feelings - I feel a little stressed, depressed, unmotivated, and bored out of my mind.

highlights - I have gotten a chance to look into react code.

failures - I did not organize my space as well.

beliefs - I can do this.

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Productivity Killers

Smartphone usage. You honestly do not need it unless you’re planning on travelling long-distance. Stay away from it.

Excessive internet usage. This includes YouTube, Reddit, and everything online that relies on user-addiction.

Sugar. Alcohol. Comfort. Eliminate sugar at home. Eliminate alcohol at home. Eliminate comfort at home. It all starts at home.

Overthinking. Or put simply, allowing myself time to think too often.

Weak-mindedness and weak actions. In a nutshell, fear.

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What would the typical “good day” look like?

I wake up at 6am and take a cold shower. 

While in the shower, I brush my teeth and wash myself completely before leaving. 

I then make myself a light breakfast consisting of high proteins and veggies. 

Then, I complete an hour-long workout routine from 8-9am consisting of running, biking, weight lifting, and calisthenics. 

Bonus points if I decide to complete a mountain climb in the morning. 

At around 10am, I get working on something that matters and work for about 6 hours max. 

Make enough money to pay my bills, eat healthily, and allow myself to save around $500 a week minimum afterwards.

Once work is finished, I complete some household chores while listening to a podcast or something. But in all honesty, having some free time would be great up until 7pm hits. 

At around that time, I would make dinner, read a book, paint, draw, make music, hang out with friends, make new friends, explore, etc.

10pm I get ready for bed while listening to soothing white noise or raindrops via speaker (or in reality).

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So, that all being said, how do I accomplish this?

Lets start by prepping everything in the morning. I dont want to have to look for things to wear, or figure out which shoes I need, or how much water I need to drink. Everything should be prepped within a reasonable amount.

It also helps to have a checklist in the morning to place on the whiteboard.

Write a motivating line, or even put on some motivating music/podcasts/videos (if you must).

Locate and write down your productivity killers. Find ways to either eliminate them or keep them at bay.

“It’s better to aim high and miss, than to aim low and hit”.

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7.4.2022 - 9am

goals - Clean the front yard, cut bushes, organize electronics section, make a trash & donation pile, study HARD, go see fireworks.

my weight - 168.2

diet -

sleep - I woke up at 7am, didn't get out of bed until 9:15am

fitness progression -

feelings - I need to get the fuck up already.

highlights -

failures -

beliefs - I need to get the fuck up

changes? - Wake up to a cleaner house

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7.3.2022 - 10pm

goals - Go to Sacramento, workout, see friends, give idyghia her gift, leave before 8pm, get ready for bed & prep for tomorrow.

my weight - I weigh 169.8lbs / 20% body fat (Bathroom scale)

diet - Sausage, eggs, mixed veggies, hot cocoa, orange chicken w/ fried rice

sleep - I went to sleep at around midnight, got up at 10am

fitness progression - Did a very quick workout. Gym was crowded.

feelings - I feel like I need to do a million things.

highlights - I have gotten a huge portion of my UI project completed

failures - I did not wake up on time. Been distracted a TON.

beliefs - If I just stop thinking, I can do more.

changes? - Go to sleep sooner

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7.2.2022

goals - Today, I will work at Philz (in which I will take my scooter), hike for an hour or two up the mountain, and clean the house VIGOROUSLY.

my weight - I weigh 170.8lbs / 20% body fat (Bathroom scale)

diet - Boiled eggs, chipotle burrito bowl, fudge ice cream

sleep - I went to sleep at around 1am, woke up at 9:30am.

fitness progression - Nill

habits - good habit: I am eating better this morning. I will avoid coffee as well. Bad habit: I watched a shit ton of porn yesterday. I did not take a cold shower. Stayed up all night watching "severance".

feelings - I feel woozy...hungry...but I don't think I feel incapable of having a good day.

highlights - I don't feel depressed.

failures - None yet.

beliefs - We could be locked in a time loop.

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7.1.2022

goals - Today, I will go to the doctors and get my arm, neck, and pelvis checked out. Then, I will go to my meeting at 2pm, study for 3 hours, and spend the rest of the evening cleaning up and prepping for tomorrow.

my weight - I weigh 177lbs / 20% body fat

diet - Pizza, mocha tesora from Philz, and probably more pizza.

sleep - I will aim to sleep at 9pm.

fitness progression - I will not be working out today. I need to spend the day prepping.

habits - good habit: I am working towards keeping up with my calendar and avoiding overspending. bad habit: eating horribly, not working out enough, making a huge mess, not studying enough, masturbating.

feelings - I feel tired. My arm hurts. anxious because of the coffee. I want to be stimulated all the time. I dont feel horrible, but I dont feel amazing either. Feeling percentage: 65%

highlights - Luella left to go to the vipassana center today, so I will be spending the next 8 days alone.

failures - I failed to wake up on time to make a good breakfast, like I said I would.

beliefs - I believe, if I just utilize my energy wisely, I can accomplish SO MUCH.

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Weight - July

Current weight - 175lbs

Current body fat % - 20%

Goal weight - between 170-180lbs of muscle

Goal body fat % - 7%

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2022 Goal list

Annual Goals

Build an awesome Portfolio

Find clients and/or full-time dev work

Get more fit than Goku

Get a dog AFTER goals are completed

How?

Enroll in bootcamps + YouTube study + real applications

Actually finish each product

Look into marketing tools and techniques

Work ONLY part-time for the time being (making MINIMUM $70 for 3 hours MAX or $25/hr)

Learn something and practice 6 days a week

Build workout & healthy diet habits

Improvements?

Stick to your word. Execute tasks tactfully. Avoid ANYTHING and ANYONE that will slow this process down. (more to come).

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About this blog

This is a daily fitness blog that may or may not evolve into something else in the future. The purpose of this blog is to track my overall health and habits in order to progress.

I will document the following:

goals

my weight

diet

sleep

fitness progression

habits

feelings

highlights

failures

beliefs

I genuinely hope that I stick to this. Calendaring has helped me tremendously so I'll try to stick to blogging at a set time daily.