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here’s ur time to shine. show off ur best scars </3

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✨Why to do it✨

To not be a joke

People caring for u

Boys helping u when u pick up stuff

People would not ignore u

To get invited to parties

To wear pretty dresses specially bodycon and not feel like a blob of fat

To look good without trying

Outfits would be cuter

Never having to wory about meeting relatives

To have people notice my weight loss

People would not be disgusted by me

I will have friends

For benches to not creek

My uni life would be enjoyable

Be able to do physical activity and not get tired

My dad would be proud

People would be concerned

To walk and move gracefully and not feel like ur weight is crushing the floor

To finally have the life I want

To be the happiest

Yo know what to do... just follow it!❤️

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Comment below if u want to join a ed group chat!

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but in a weird way… you kind of love her…

ana’s like the friend who makes u fucking miserable but you’ll never leave

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Guys im sorry for being so inactive but if yall could give me reasons to get back on track and inspiration to move forward, that’ll be great! thank you so much! anything helps

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Someone bought me crumbl because i used to love it. but it made me sick after a few bites. i love that my body knows i don’t need it anymore.

our bodies will help us loose weight, you just gotta listen.

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I just want someone to notice me. Notice that I’m getting thinner. Notice that I rarely leave my house or my room even. Notice that I smoke more than usual and eat less. Notice that I don’t wear shorts anymore. Notice that I won’t change in front of anyone anymore. Just fucking notice I’ve relapsed in every way possible.

I’m just not worth being noticed.

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I got a styro if i spread it out. I was almost there and then someone came home

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I have been trying to get my first syro for like an hour…

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Can anyone give me advice on how to make a styro?

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I just bought a #11 scalpel from amazon. i say it’s pretty good. very sharp though so be careful i accidentally cut myself behind my nail.

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thoughts to keep you going:

food brings you more pain than pleasure

is this what kate moss/bella hadid/your favorite thin.spo would eat?

hunger feels better than a full stomach.

you know you won't just have one, you'll eat the whole pantry if you give in.

the hunger will be gone in 20 minutes. the fat you'll gain will be gone in 20 days.

the more you eat now, the more you'll have to resist later.

what do you hate more: the 30 minute workout or the extra 30 pounds?

don't you want to be pretty? delicate? sought after? desired? that food will push you farther away from that.

20 minutes after eating that/binging, you'll feel guilty, disgusting and fat. 20 minutes after saying no, you'll feel proud and skinny.

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rb if you hate your cw so fucking much or if you like cats

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“Well im here if you ever wanna talk…”

I type as i’m slicing open my thighs and starving myself to the point of fainting

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I’m never opening up to anybody again. It all just gets thrown back in my face.

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i call it self care but my therapist calls it self harm, we are not the same