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yandere!attendant!shoto x princess!reader

i’ve been reading too many of those royal webtoons, i need help. (im also hesitating whether making this an AU or a series, I have so much ideas for other characters, don’t hesitate to ask me about anything or about anyone if you’re curious)

word count: 1554 tw: yandere (softer than what i usually do), possessive behavior, obsessive behavior, manipulative behavior, minor characters death, forced marriage (mention), threat of confinement, royal au

✤shoto was the only thing you had that looked like a friend, despite the fact he was forced to be your attendant. <hen you first met he was a very hostile person but he slowly warmed up to you. It wasn’t easy at all, he was very cold and almost always ignored you, but somehow after months and months of pestering him, he softened. at first he wasn’t your attendant, he was just a servant like the others but you got so close to him you decided to appoint him as such.

✤but as you grew up you noticed every schemes of the nobles, you didn’t know how to scuttle their projects but you were still aware of what they were. stuff like forcing you to marry their son so that he could become the next king or even plotting to kill you so that the king didn’t have any children left. you thought everything was fine as long as your parents supported you but that was until that one night.

✤one night while you were roaming with shoto in the palace you passed in front of the dining room, hearing your parents talk with duke toshinori, they were discussing your engagement with one of his adoptive sons. the two options made you shiver : there was the eldest katsuki who was easily one of the worst human being you could encounter, he was cruel, loved spilling blood and also a man who was greedy for power and money. ever since you’ve met he always bullied you, made a fool out of yourself and to be honest he was one of the main reasons why people always thought you were dumb. there was also the youngest: izuku who always acted very creepy around you, watching you every opportunity he got and didn’t know any social norm. he wasn't mean but he wasn't really nice either. you couldn’t imagine spending the rest of your life with a husband like that.

✤you felt tears threatening to spill from your eyes, so that was what your parents felt you were only worth. a political marriage ? shoto brought you back to your room and soothed you while you were lying in bed. he pat your back and played with your hair as he listened to you venting, as he always did. you fell asleep after hours of crying, bakugo only leaving when you were sound asleep.

✤the next day your parents told you you’ll be marrying one of the toshinori sons and told you you had three months to tell them which one of them you chose. you were devastated, you always dreamed of marrying a man you loved, not marrying like this. you were crying in the garden when shoto joined you, he couldn’t bear seeing you crying like this and decided to offer you a solution. you had to do whatever he said and you could finally prove everyone your worth while escaping the marriage your parents planned for you.

✤during those three months you did exactly what shoto told you. you studied foreign affairs to prove your parents you were a very talented woman, you also put back anyone who dared question you so that everyone could see what the princess was made of and you planned something to make sure you’d be the one accessing the throne. you were so thankful to shoto and everything worked so smoothly you also managed to make them call off the marriage with the toshinori family. you’ll finally be able to be your own person.

✤or at least that’s what you thought.

✤one night while you were sleeping you heard someone come in your room. you rubbed your eyes and called out to see who it was, although you were pretty sure it was shoto, he was the only one who had the keys to your room.

« shoto is that you ? »

« yes princess. you can go back to sleep if you want to, i’m just checking whether you’re okay or not. »

✤you were about to do what he said but something felt off. the sounds he was making when he was moving where similar to those someone who wore an armor would make and there was a weird smell floating around, similar to the smell of blood.

« shoto, what’s happening ? »

✤he sighed and got closer to you, as he passed in front of the windows the moon was shedding light on his body. you could see his face but also his body warped in an armor but that wasn’t the only thing you saw. the colors he was wearing weren’t your country’s colors, but rather the colors of the empire who had always been your country’s mortal enemy and his face and his gear were covered in blood.

« i didn’t want you to find out like this, but it’s my fault i should’ve been more careful before coming here. »

« w-what..? »

✤he pinned you onto the bed while reaching out for something behind the headboard, when you heard the noise of chains clinking you struggled (when could those chains have appeared… ), trying to get out of his grasp. but it was no use he was too strong. way too strong in fact for someone who was only an attendant. you heard a click and something heavy closing around your wrist before he let you go, did he just chain you to the bed ?

« now we can talk peacefully, be a good girl okay ? »

✤you decided to listen to him before deciding what you’d do next. shoto told you his story, he was one of the emperor’s sons and he was sent in a mission, a mission which objective was to take your kingdom whether you agreed or not. he told you at first that his plan was to kill everyone inside the castle, including you. But quickly he fell in love with you, with how kind and how bright you were, uncorrupted by the things who were happening in the castle. so he decided to wait, to help you live a good life as long as possible.

✤but everything changed when the marriage was arranged, he had to act either he would lose both the kingdom and above all you. the mere thought of another man touching you, kissing you was was making him mad. he always took care of any servants who would make a rude comment about you or your body but if you married a toshinori there was nothing he could do. so he decided to use this as an opportunity. he manipulated you into doing whatever he wanted so that everyone recognized you as their princess, while at the same time also despising your mother and father. wou were only a princes but you had done more for the people than your parents ever did. shoto began to induce resentment against your parents in the kingdom. in the end it was very easy to convince the people and the servants to join the empire to overthrow the kingdom.

✤you were dumbfounded, shoto had been lying to you from the start.

« what happened to my parents ? »

« i took care of them. »

✤you shuddered and started tearing up when you thought about how you’d never get to see them again.

« i-i can’t believe this… I… »

✤you were panicking and you tried to get up and to leave the room but the chain was keeping you from doing this.

« shoto please let me go, they will… they will kill me too… i’m scared, i’m so scared… »

✤shoto looked at you with a small smile on his lips, hugging you close.

« they won’t, they love you as their princess and soon as their queen. »

« i can’t become a queen without a husband and the empire won’t let me sit on the throne... »

✤shoto grabbed your hands and kissed them softly, looking into your eyes with a strange glint in his eyes.

« why do you think I went through all this trouble when I could have just killed you all ? »

« n-no, no way ! i’m not marrying you… you killed my parents… I can’t, it’ll be the same as killing them myself or marrying a toshinori ! »

« it will definitely be different dear, I love you so much I could even steal a kingdom for you. they just wanted to use you to gain power. »

✤shoto sat you down on the bed, petting your cheek before pressing a soft kiss onto it. he dried your tears and hugged you close to him, just like he used to when he was your intendant. you pushed him away, you couldn’t believe he was doing this to you.

« look Y/N, you don’t have much a choice anyway. marry me and be the queen you always wanted to be or don’t and stay locked in that room, forced to be mine everyday until you give in. »

✤another tear rolled down your cheeks as you wondered what you could have possibly done to deserve this. shoto kissed your cheeks again and layed you down on the bed, looking at you with a manic glint in his eyes. he grabbed your hand and waited for you to fall asleep. when you finally did he smiled and kiss the back of your hand.

« i'm sorry about all of this but now... you’re all mine… my love… »

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yandere!bully!bakugo x fem!reader

first time writing for him ! i tried something different, i hope you enjoy it.

word count: 1321 tw: bullying, obsessive behavior, controlling behavior, slight mention of sexual harassment (not nsfw), dacryphilia, fem!reader, yandere

✤you and bakugo had been going to the same schools since elementary school. you've never been friends thought. he always made you an outcast, bullying you and making sure that anyone who wouldn't bully you wouldn't be friends with you either.

✤elementary school, when you both met, was where everything started. you instantly caught bakugo's eye. you arrived after the year started because you moved. you were hiding behind your teacher as she introduced you to the rest of the class, teary eyes and legs shaking.

✤for some reason, bakugo couldn't take his eyes off you, you immediately obsessed him. he tried to find out some things about you, like your quirk (which was a small healing quirk). at first, he tried to become friends with you by showing off his quirk but it was no use you were way too shy. so he decided to do the only thing that would grab your attention, bully you.

✤at first he would only make some snarky remarks or laugh at you. but he quickly realized he enjoyed tormenting you, the teary look you had always made him feel so good. quickly his bullying started to get more physical. he would pull your ponytail, push you to make you fall or even tripping you up.

✤you would often get bruises on your knees because of his bullying, that was something he definitely enjoyed. he saw it as some kind of way to mark you, a way for everyone to know you were his.

✤everything went like this for all elementary school, where you still had some friends despite bakugo's bullying. when you entered middle school everything was different.

✤somehow all of your friends went to different schools, you were left all alone. you thought it wouldn't be a big deal to make new friends, you were very wrong. first of all almost everyone already had friends in your class, moreover bakugo would drive anyone who tried to approach you away.

✤he always sat on your desk during breaks, talking very loudly and making everyone notice him. he was seen as a delinquent by others and him being almost always with you made people want to avoid you. you spent your whole middle school all alone, surrounded only with bakugo's relentless bullying.

✤he would keep making snarky remarks and making you trip but he also started to get more creative with his bullying. for example at the end of middle school bakugo would often unclip your bra whenever he passed behind you, which would always make you cry in shame. you then started to wear sports bra to keep him from doing that.

✤you never understood why bakugo hated you that much he had the urge to bully you all day long. you always felt uncomfy whenever he would order you around or when he would put his arm around neck, keeping you from leaving him. you feared him especially with the way he stared at you whenever you cried, with a hungry gaze that seemed to yearn for more, more of you.

✤to bakugo, now you were dating. he wouldn't do anything he does to you to any other girl, you, his girlfriend. not that you were aware of it, but that didn't matter to him, he was the one who got to make the decisions, he was the one who knew what was best for you.

✤he knew what was best so he also knew which school was the best for you, he forced you to write UA's hero highschool as your first choice so that you two could keep on being together. you obeyed him because you obviously had no choice.

✤by a stroke of luck, you failed UA's entrance examination and you and bakugo were separated. although you were relieved, bakugo was boiling on the inside. he got very anxious, how was he going to keep you for himself, what were you going to do without him.

✤at first, when you entered highschool bakugo would come get you everyday, but you had another stroke of luck. your parents and you moved again, you were going to change schools and bakugo wouldn't be able to track you down, he'll finally leave you alone.

✤you never told him you were moving, he didn't deserve to know for making your life a living hell. one day when he came to get you, you were nowhere in sight and that's how he understood : you got away from him.

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✤you woke up as usual, feeling a bit tired but ready to start the day. you were in your last year of university and you had never seen bakugo again after highschool. well you never saw him directly because he was everywhere. he became one of the most popular hero ever since he graduated.

✤everywhere you could see goodies of him, ads featuring him, interviews of him... even if he wasn't in your life anymore he was still haunting you. well at least you managed to escape his grasp, you couldn't imagine what would have happened to you if you didn't.

✤you made yourself a coffee and got dressed, today was a rough day but you loved medical school so nothing felt like a chore. you were so focused on doing well today that you didn't even notice the hooded figure looming around your apartment.

✤when you came back, it was night time. you were really exhausted of your day. you didn't even notice you left the door open when you left this morning, you entered your apartment and dropped your stuff on the ground sighting loudly.

✤when you entered your living room, wanting to sit on the sofa. you froze when you saw something or more like someone sitting on the couch. their figure was only slightly visible because of the small lamp which was turned on. even if you couldn't see who the figure was clearly, you instantly knew who that was with those eyes.

✤those eyes that took so much pleasure in torturing you, who enjoyed seeing you cry and making you submit to their will. he was here, in your living room, uninvited. bakugo was here.

✤you tried taking a step back but you were interrupted by his low voice, lower than when he used to bully you.

"don't you try running away, it's useless anyway, I have my body guards right outside your house. you wouldn't go far."

✤you bit your lips, what could he possibly want from you after all these years...

"come here. I want to see you."

✤you couldn't gather the courage to resist his orders. you approached him. he grabbed your hand and looked at you, scrutinizing every details of your body, a weird glint into his eyes.

"you're mine, don't you forget that ever again. quit that useless major of yours and get back to your place, as a support for my agency."

✤you bit the inside of your mouth, drawing a bit of blood. you felt your eyes welling up with tears. you couldn't go back to the way it was, you couldn't let him control you or your life anymore. you had to stand up for yourself. you looked at him straight in the eyes.

"i-i won't quit ! i love what im doing, i absolutely won't stop university. so please get out of here and don't talk to me ev-."

✤he got up, towering you. he grabbed your cheeks with one hand, squeezing them as he stared at the tears in your eyes with a cheeky smirk on his face.

"i don't think i asked what you wanted, i know what's good for you, don't forget it. obey me or i'll have to do it the hard way baby."

✤you closed your eyes, tears rolling on your cheeks. you heard him chuckle darkly as he dried the tears off your face. you never really had any way to escape from him did you..?

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Are you going to look into my cold, dead eyes and tell me im wrong??

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OO2 : ALBERU || THE PARANOID ONE

summary: he is your emotionally dependent fiance.

alberu didn't want to have a fiancee at all. but when his father arranged this marriage with you, the unsuspecting princess from the neighboring kingdom, he had no choice but to accept it.

we all know how manipulative alberu can be if it benefit his people. that's why he tried to manipulate you at first. but then, when he heard about the true reason behind this arrangement, he let go of that plan.

you were just like him, a princess without any power. without a mother and your family practically abandoned you— atleast alberu has the dark elves but you? you were alone.

but surprisingly, for someone who has a traumatizing past. you were chaotic— you practically cause ruckus (but in a good way) on every place you go. and honestly, alberu lived for it.

well, surprisingly for a level headed person. alberu can be really jealous of others. but don't worry, he wasn't a violent type of person when he got jealous.

just like one time where you accidentally called cale, his sworn younger brother, pretty when you first met him. you suddenly felt alberu's hand on your waist while he leaned closer, making sure that you won't be able to see cale clearly and pouts while saying— 'you said i'm the most gorgeous person in your eyes, cheater.'

for someone who is drop dead gorgeous, alberu can be really paranoid, especially when you discovered his secret.

what if you hate him now? what if you were like those people who sees dark elves as threat? what if you betray him— what if you fell out love?

oh, gosh. expected that he will stick with you 24/7. you guys were sleeping on the separate room? heh, not anymore! because alberu already made the arrangement so now you'll be sleeping next to him on his bed! you guys have separate office? well, not anymore! because when you woke up the next day, your table was now inside alberu's office.

for some reasons, your guards became quite distant to you after you discovered alberu's secret.

okay, it's not like he doesn't trust you with his secret— but what if you find your guards handsome/pretty and run away with them?! nu-uh! there's no way he would allow that! so, with simple work behind the scene, he was able to isolate you from everyone. well, except from his auntie, cale and his friends.

sure, alberu can be overwhelming sometimes. but you see, he just needs assurance.

he loves you so much and he rather die than seeing you look at him with disdain in your eyes. don't worry! he'll give you everything you wanted so bear with him, okay?

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"did you enjoy your day, my darling? who did you speak with? what did they say? don't worry, i'm not angry. i just... care. deeply. and i need to know every little detail to keep you safe... with me."

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OO1 : CARCEL || THE JEALOUS ONE.

summary: your in a toxic relationship with your childhood friend.

carcel escalante has always been the golden boy of his family. this dude knew how famous he was because of his look and his family's background. that's why he never hesitated to use this to his advantage.

without any doubt, carcel was spoiled. he always get what he wanted no matter what happen.

that's why when he realized that he was in love with you. this guy didn't even waste any time— he goes to your house with a big bouquet of your favorite flowers on his hand and confessed his feelings.

there was only two outcomes on this event. if you say yes, that would make everything easy for both of you. but if you say no? oh boy, it looks like he needs to use some force.

carcel was definitely a sweet lover. he knew your favorites, your dislikes, your habits— scratch that, he knew everything about you. perks of being a childhood friend, i think?

he was like a big puppy who always wanted to be on your side. he gave you the best gifts, kisses and hugs. hell, he was even willing to give you the world if you ask him.

as carcel's lover, he give you so much freedom. he doesn't want you to be the type of a lover who will suffocate his beloved. he likes you to be free and do what you wanted to do.

but— oh well, he still has one rule. and that is— don't approach any men. if they approach you, you should ignore them.

so far, you were able to follow it without any trouble— well atleast not until now.

the two of you got invited on the queen's party. you don't know what's going on— but the shitty crown prince, carcel's cousin approached you and started flirting with you.

you were uncomfortable as hell— but since his rank were higher than yours. you had no choice but to swallow your pride and smile at him.

then, that was when you saw carcel from afar. he was smiling, but it didn't even reached his eyes. seeing that expression on his face, you realized one thing— it looks like you have to say goodbye to your sweet freedom. because there was no way that he will allow you to interact with anyone other than him after this event.

tsk, tsk, tsk. what a bad girl. it looks like he have to remind you again that you are his. and no one, even his family or the crown prince has the rights to touch you.

don't hate him because he was doing this for your sake, idiot.

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“ break up? my sweet, do you think my love is a toy you can simply discard? we are bound, heart and soul. trying to sever that would only... hurt us both. terribly. ”

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YOUR WRITING IS SO GOOD!! (I followed you btw 0_<) do you think you could do jax reacting to Reader's bar outfit ? Kinda like the goodies fic but opposite. Hope this finds you well >♡<

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summary : the bar adventure was already one jax was starting to loathe, but when you walked in, that all changed.

tags : romance, alcohol, drunkness, implied crushing, flirting, and i didn't elaborate on what your bar outfit was so it can be a dress, suit, or whatever.

note : thank you for the compliment and the follow! i hope you enjoy!

jax already despised this adventure.

he was forced into an uncomfortable suit, and he couldn't even order the drink he wanted without having to hold off the egg whites because he was vegan.

he hated this.

zooble placed a glass in front of him, and jax only slouched against the bartop as he circled his finger around the rim of the cup. he only frowned in disgust at the sight of the drink. he picked it up as he held the glass to the dim lighting of the bar, and he narrowed his eyes at it in boredom before the sound of a bell ringing caught his attention.

"hey, guys!" jax let out a scoff at the sound of ragatha's voice, and he peered over his shoulder to eye the woman before his eyes landed on someone else.

you.

of course, he usually didn't give you much mind whenever you entered a room because he was used to your presence, but this time was different.

it was evident that everyone had been dressed up in some type of formal way to match the theme of this adventure, but he forgot that it would also include you.

you were dressed up, and you looked good.

he slightly straightened up in his seat as he turned his attention towards the glass in his hands, and his eyes flickered towards you before resting back on the cup.

suddenly, the drink didn't repulse him as much as it did before.

the glass was lifted to his mouth as he chugged the alcohol, and the liquid burned down his throat before he slammed the cup back on the bartop. surprisingly, it didn't shatter, but with the way everyone was looking at him, you'd think that it had.

the stool beside him shifted as someone took a seat there, and his gaze drifted to meet theirs.

you had sat down next to him.

his eyes flickered up and down your form before he smirked, and he leaned his cheek against his palm with a hum. "well, hello, dollface..."

you narrowed your eyes at him for a moment in confusion, but that was before your gaze flickered to the glass in his hands.

it was practically dry.

"how many drinks—zooble, how many drinks did he have?"

"just that one," they replied as they wiped down the bartop.

just one? you had seen him chug the one drink in his hand, but with the way he was acting, you thought maybe he had a couple more before you entered the bar.

it was either that one drink was very strong, or jax just had an insanely low alcohol tolerance. it was a possibility that digital alcohol worked differently, too, but you didn't think about it much as jax cleared his throat.

"and i'd like another one." jax announced as he pushed his glass towards zooble, and they barely caught it as the cup slid off of the bartop. a scowl was shot at him before they rolled their eyes. "i think you've had enough drinks for this adventure..."

jax only let out a groan as he placed his head on the bartop, and you watched as he slowly turned his head to face you.

the odd thing was that he didn't even say anything—he just stared at you with lidded eyes. you looked around before resting your attention back on him, and you blinked. "are you...okay?"

"you're..." he lifted his head up as he fell silent for a minute, and he seemed to be contemplating something. you waited for him to continue, but he just flopped his head back down on the bartop with another groan. "my head hurts..."

you quietly sighed at his slurred words before you ordered a drink from zooble, and they gifted you a nod as they started to make your order.

once you were handed your drink, you took light sips of it as you attempted to listen to everyone elses conversation, but your mind kept wandering back to jax as you noted how he was just staring at you.

no remarks.

no questions.

not even his signature grin resided on his face, for he instead just held a dazed expression while his eyes remained on you.

"what are you looking at?" your question wasn't one of hostility, but rather genuine confusion. you were curious as to why he was just staring at you. if he was speaking, you wouldn't mind it, but the thing was that he was silent.

and a silent jax is a scary jax.

"i'm—" he paused for a moment as he slowly sat up, and he turned in his stool so he was facing you.

his legs were slightly sprawled as one of his arms rested on the bartop—seemingly balancing him while his other hand moved to tug on his collar.

"i'm looking at you," he spoke as he removed his hand from his collar and pointed at you, and he shifted his other hand so that he could lean against it on the bartop. you blinked at him a few times before raising an eyebrow, "i know, but why are you looking at me?"

"rabbits look at things they're interested in, dollface..." his words slurred a bit more, and his eyes examined you once more before he smirked. "and i'd be lying if i said i wasn't interested in you..."

"you're drunk."

"so what?" he shrugged as he watched you turn in your stool, and your knees grazed his as you let out a sigh. "you're drunk, so you're just saying stuff, jax."

"ever heard the term 'drunk words, sober thoughts', doll?" his question made you fall silent, and after a moment, you let out a quiet snicker before taking a sip of your drink. "are you always this flirty when you're drunk?"

"doll, i'm this flirty even without the alcohol."

you hummed against your glass before you placed it down, and you wiped your lips as you tilted your head at him. "is that so? why are you always flirty, then?"

a slight laugh left jax's throat as he leaned back, and he placed a hand on his chest. "because everyone wants a piece of me, dollface. do you see this body?" he questioned as he gestured to himself, "this body is flawless."

"it is, isn't it?" at your words, jax had to do a double-take. was it just the alcohol, or did you actually agree with his last sentence?

he stared at you for a moment before his smirk grew, and he leaned forward while resting his elbows against his thighs. he peered up at you with a glint in his eyes, "i'm starting to think you're getting a little tipsy, too..."

"why? because i agreed with you?"

jax nodded, and you only shrugged as you traced the rim of your glass with your finger. "drunk words, sober thoughts..."

once your statement was comprehended in his mind, a chuckle left his throat.

maybe he didn't hate this adventure as much as he thought he did.

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FUCK, I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU.

synopsis: katsuki doesn't know how to fix. he doesn't know how to heal, or how to love. but for you, he wants to try.

notes: part one here!

he doesn’t see you the next day.

not in class. not at lunch. not even in the places you always pop up, like a constant thread woven through his life. it’s the first time in he-doesn't-even-know-how-long that you’re not just.. there.

sitting on his bed. laying on his chest. places he never asked for you to be, but liked it more than he was willing to admit. places he'd gotten really used to you just being there.

where were you? where did you go?

oh, that's right.

he pushed you away.

and boy, he feels it.

feels the empty. feels the loss.

he doesn’t eat much. doesn’t talk to anyone, which is sort of scarier than him snapping at everyone. his hands shake all day with this restless, helpless sort of guilt.

because he remembers.

remembers your smile, how it faltered.

remembers your laugh, hollow and too small.

remembers how you hugged yourself as you walked away.

remembers how heartbroken you looked, and how it looked like you were trying to shield yourself from him as you left.

and he hates himself for it.

by the time the sun dips low and the sky starts to turn orange, he’s pacing outside your dorm room, hands in his pockets, head down.

he hesitates.

not because he doesn’t want to see you, but because he’s terrified you won’t want to see him.

but he knocks anyway.

soft. three times.

no answer.

he knocks again.

“it’s me,” he says, voice low. “can you.. can we talk?”

still nothing.

then, after a long pause:

the door clicks open just a crack.

you don’t meet his eyes. don’t say anything.

just stand there in the sliver of space you’ve allowed him, hoodie sleeves pulled over your hands, expression unreadable.

he feels like shit all over again.

“can i come in?” he asks, like he’s not sure he deserves it.

you hesitate, then wordlessly step back and let him in.

his heart clenches. he takes slow, careful steps inside like he’s afraid of breaking more than he already has.

the silence sits thick between you.

he doesn't know what to say or what to do. katsuki's destroyed things all his life. pots and vases, people's feelings, people's dreams. he's never had to try to fix them before.

but now he does. because you're precious. because losing this, you, would be way too much to bear.

his head spins with different thoughts. he should've rehearsed what he was gonna say before he came.

he's scared. really, truly, scared. it's a rare feeling for him, and he hates it. hates how much he's shaking. hates how nauseous he feels. hates that he even put himself in this position.

“i didn’t mean it,” he blurts, voice hoarse. “any of it. not a single fuckin’ word.”

you sit on the edge of your bed, arms crossed tight around you. you don't say anything. it scares him.

he nods. “i know i was a huge dick, and i’m.. fuck, i’m sorry.”

he drops into a crouch in front of you, gaze upturned, hands twitching like he wants to reach for yours but doesn’t dare quite yet.

“i got scared,” he says. “you’re so.. you. you're always so.. bright. and i’m just.. i'm me. i didn’t know how to deal with how much i.. fuckin’ need you.”

your eyes flicker.

“so i panicked. pushed you away. said the worst thing i could think of, because maybe it wouldn’t hurt as bad if i did it like this. or maybe i just couldn't handle my own fuckin' feelings. maybe i don't know how to be.. loved, or whatever. i don't really know.”

you finally speak, voice wobbling. “it hurt.”

his heart breaks.

“i know,” he says, hand reaching up slowly and hesitantly to cup your face. you let him. “i know. and i’d take it back if i could. i’d never say anything like that again. not to you. not ever.”

you’re quiet for a long moment.

"i don't want you to have to pretend," you mutter. "if it was really how you felt, i wanna respect your wishes."

"it's not," he says immediately. no hesitation. "fuck, i need you. don't.. fuck, don't go anywhere."

you still look doubtful. there's clearly something else on your mind. he can read you like a book. he nudges you gently, silently urging you to speak your mind.

you look away.

“do you even like me?”

he pauses. then laughs. short, pained. not at you, but at himself.

“fuck, i’m in love with you.”

you blink, eyes wide.

he grips your hand. “and it scares the hell outta me, but that’s not your fault. it’s mine. and if you give me another chance, i’ll spend every damn day makin’ sure you know how much you mean to me.”

silence again. his heart is racing. he's never been this scared before.

then, quietly:

“…okay.”

his head snaps up.

you smile at him. still cracked, still cautious, but at least it's there.

he doesn't care. you smiled at him. he lets a smile slip, too. because yes, you smiled at him.

“okay,” you say again, softer this time.

he exhales like he’s been holding his breath for days.

and when you reach for him, when you bury your face in his chest and let him hold you like he never wants to let go, he finally feels like he can breathe again.

“i love you too, you asshole,” you mumble against his hoodie. "by the way."

he squeezes you tighter. presses a kiss into your hair, like a promise.

“i know. ’m gonna earn that back. gonna make it up to you. i swear.”

and this time, he means every word.

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[jaddddeee]

I DON'T EVEN LIKE YOU!

synopsis: katsuki destroys something he doesn't know how to hold. (aka he's mean and pushes you away) (FUCKING BITCHHH)

notes: if you notice the title is different thats bc it is. (previously 'dicksuki destroys' but that felt too unserious.) pt two here!

it was stupid.

just a joke, a nudge. you’d called him grumpy, poked at him for being all bark and no bite. leaned in too close with that pretty smile that always got him to look away.

but this time, he didn’t look away. not one bit.

“god! stop. you’re so fuckin’ clingy all the time. maybe i'm 'grumpy' 'cause you're pissin' me the fuck off! i don’t even like you, alright?! lay off!”

his voice cut sharp through the dorm hallway, louder than he meant it to be.

and your world stuttered.

your smile cracked in half, lips parting like the words physically struck you.

“...oh.”

that’s all you said.

just a breath. one syllable.

but it felt like the earth splitting open.

he saw it happen in real time. the shift in your expression. the way your eyes glossed over, the slight tremble of your lips how your hands came up to hug yourself like that might somehow keep the pieces of you from falling apart.

he already regretted it. immediately. it tasted wrong the second it left his mouth.

“wait. shit. no, i didn’t-”

“it’s fine,” you said too quickly, voice shaking around the edges. “i get it.” he hated your reaction. hated that he caused this.

you turned to leave. he stepped forward like his body knew better than his mouth.

“don’t go..! c’mon, i didn’t mean that, i just-”

“it's fine. you don’t have to explain.”

your laugh was hollow. small. the kind of sound that hurt worse than a scream. like if you made it funny, it wouldn't sting like a bitch.

“thanks for clearing it up, though.”

and you were gone before he could say anything else.

before he could say what he meant to say.

that of course he liked you. that he was in love with you. that he just didn’t know how to handle the way you made him feel so soft, so seen. like every wall he’d ever built was paper in your hands. how everything just felt.. better when you were there.

he didn't know how to fix this. he'd never had to do any fixing before. all he'd ever known was destruction. you were the healing. you were the love.

and not knowing how to handle it, he destroyed you too. the most precious thing in his whole damn life.

he didn’t sleep that night.

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[jaddddeee]

Jax x reader x evil jax

Warnings: flirting, not proofread

Both Is Good

Jax' stupid evil counterpart was flirting with you. You. Of all people in the circus it had to be you.

He has to admit the audacity of this guy is impressive - thinking he had the qualities to win you over. Ha! As if.

That thing isn't even real. It's just a made up block of code Caine created so he could make him suffer.

There's no way you'd fall for an NPC-

"Wait, wait, I have a better one!" You try to stop yourself from laughing at whatever evil Jax said.

Once you collect yourself you lean against the wall behind him, pinning him there and causing him to turn pinker than he already was.

Jax totally wasn't imagining himself in evil Jax' place-

You make your voice low and raspy, "If you let me borrow a kiss I promise I'll give it right back."

Jax forces himself between the two of you, pushing you out and intentionally grabbing evil Jax by the throat, "That's it!" he forces a laugh, "I never pinned you as a freak but you do realize that thing has my face, right? Are you tryna tell me something sweetheart?"

You stare at Jax, well, more so at his heart shaped chest window, "Why are you wearing a maid outfit...? Not that I'm complaining-"

"You voted yes on this! You didn't even check what you were voting for?!?"

You take the hand that's keeping you separate from evil Jax and interlace your fingers with it, "It worked out in the end, didn't it?"

Jax quickly retreats his hand from you and shields his chest window.

"What the heck is that supposed to mean?!"

"Y-Yeah! I really meant it when I said you look great!" Evil Jax pipes up from the wall.

"Nobody !#&$@!? asked you!"

"Aw, be nice to him. He's just a little guy." you ruffle evil Jax' fur, "Do you think I could convince Caine to let me keep him?"

"K-Keep me?" Evil Jax squeaked up.

"I will kill him in your sleep."

"Not if you're sleeping with me too~" You sling an arm around evil Jax and throw finger guns at Jax.

Jax deadpans, "I hate you."

[jaddddeee]

Jax: how is everyone’s least favourite person today?

You: I dunno Jax, how are you?

Jax: …

You: you walked right into that way too easily it’s honestly disheartening. I almost feel sad for you. Almost.

[jaddddeee]

okay but why do people STILL, IN 2025, use an ‘x reader’ tag and proceed to use an oc…

as said in another yelling, don’t say stuff that doesn’t portray anything about the reader, it defeats the point of an ‘x reader’

fucking hate it

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Jax: *in a maid outfit*

You: honestly I don’t know why your mad about this, you look great, really emphasises your assets.

Jax: I’ll kill you.

You: you have never sounded less threatening than you have right now maid Jax.

Jax: I’ll put you in a maid dress!

*everyone but Jax votes for you to not be put in the maid dress*

You: democracy doesn’t seem to agree with you there., but I’ll give you points for trying after all I don’t think I can pull it off as good as you can though.

Jax: I hate you.

You: hate you too.

[jaddddeee]

JAX RELATIONSHIP HEADCANONS .

⌗ pairing: (tadc) jax x gn! reader

⌗ warnings: lowercase intended, has spoilers of ep 5

⌗ a/n: idk i did this since I’m trying to reach out to other fandoms (yes i’m doing all the characters i have free will)..also since my inbox is dry, i’m asking…PLEASE SEND ME REQUESTS MY BRAIN IS FRYING FROM WRITERS BLOCK

FIRST TIME MEETING:

▹ jax literally does NOT care when you first arrive because he's seen too many newbies lose their minds within the first week (he's learned not to get attached too quickly after what happened with ribbit)

▹ probably pranks you on your literal first day because "welcome to hell, might as well get used to it now" but then feels weirdly guilty about it later??? like he'll leave a small apology gift outside your room (probably stolen from someone else's room tbh)

▹ gets annoyed when you don't immediately break down or start crying like most new people do - where's the entertainment in that??? you're just… adapting??? (this bothers him more than it should)

▹ starts paying attention to you when you either: 1) successfully prank him back, 2) don't rat him out when caine asks who put glitter in ragatha's hair, or 3) laugh at his jokes even when everyone else is giving him death glares

▹ definitely steals your room key within the first week just to see what you're hiding but then gets genuinely curious about your little personal space and the weird way you've arranged everything

▹ makes fun of whatever coping mechanism you've developed but secretly takes notes because holy shit you're actually handling this better than he did

▹ starts doing that thing where he "accidentally" bumps into you during adventures or walks just a little too close when caine isn't looking (personal space who???)

▹ probably gives you a stupid nickname based on either: something embarrassing that happened to you, your appearance, or just to annoy you (spoiler alert: he keeps using it even when you start dating)

▹ gets genuinely confused when you start talking to him like he's a actual person and not just the "funny mean rabbit" because??? people don't usually do that??? ribbit was the last person who really saw him as jax and not just comic relief

HIM CRUSHING ON YOU:

▹ this man is in DENIAL with a capital D - like he'll literally tell himself "i don't like them, i just think they're less annoying than the others" while actively going out of his way to spend time with you

▹ starts hoarding little things that remind him of you (a button that fell off your outfit, a drawing you doodled during a boring caine explanation, etc.) but will DIE before admitting it

▹ gets weirdly protective but tries to play it off as "you're MY entertainment, nobody else gets to mess with you" but really he's terrified of losing another person he cares about

▹ begins pranking you more but they're like… softer pranks??? like putting fake spiders in your bed (but making sure they're not the kind that actually scare you) or rearranging your room (but not actually breaking anything important)

▹ starts having those moments where he'll say something genuinely sweet/supportive but then IMMEDIATELY follow it up with an insult to maintain his image ("you're not completely terrible at this… for an idiot")

▹ catches himself staring at you during adventures and gets MAD about it - like why are you so distracting??? he has chaos to cause and you're just… existing??? attractively??? rude.

▹ probably has a minor crisis about his feelings because the last person he really cared about was ribbit and we all know how that ended (he's absolutely terrified of caring about someone again)

▹ gets jealous when other circus members get your attention but won't admit it - instead he'll just insert himself into conversations or create distractions to get focus back on him

▹ starts doing that thing where he remembers really specific details about you (your favorite corner to sit in, how you fidget when you're anxious, what makes you laugh) but acts like he doesn't pay attention to anyone

▹ has definitely had at least one dream about you and woke up SO MAD about it because feelings are WEAKNESS and he doesn't DO weakness

▹ begins testing the waters with more physical contact - "accidentally" grabbing your hand during adventures, leaning against you when he's "tired," finding excuses to be in your personal space

▹ gets genuinely upset when you're having a bad day but doesn't know how to help without compromising his reputation, so he'll just… be less mean to everyone that day (the others notice and are confused)

YOU DATING HIM:

▹ asking you out was probably the most awkward thing he's ever done because he had to drop the act for like 0.5 seconds to be genuine and he HATED every second of it (but your reaction made it worth it)

▹ your relationship is 70% banter and 30% genuine sweet moments when he thinks nobody is looking and 100% him being terrified you'll abstract and leave him like ribbit did

▹ still pranks you but now it's "couple pranks" - like putting fake love letters in your room signed from other circus members just to see you get flustered, or rearranging your stuff to spell out "I LOVE YOU" (but then denying he did it)

▹ gets SUPER jealous but tries to play it off as possessiveness - "that's MY idiot you're talking to" (he's not fooling anyone, he's just insecure)

▹ shows affection through: stealing things for you, letting you win at games sometimes, sharing his food, and most importantly - telling you his real thoughts instead of just sarcastic quips

▹ absolutely MELTS when you play with his ears but will threaten anyone who points it out (his ears do that little twitch thing when he's happy and you're the only one who gets to see it)

▹ has nightmares about you abstracting and will sometimes wake up and just… need to see you to make sure you're okay (he'll make up some excuse about being bored or wanting to prank someone)

▹ starts including you in his pranks as a partner rather than a target - you two become the WORST duo and everyone else suffers for it (but secretly they think it's cute that jax is happy)

▹ gets genuinely soft when you're upset about the whole "being trapped forever" thing because he KNOWS that feeling and doesn't want you to go through it alone like he did

▹ probably has a secret stash of things he's made/found for you that he's too embarrassed to give you directly, so he just leaves them places you'll find them

▹ learns your triggers and genuinely tries to avoid them in his pranks/jokes because making you laugh is good, making you hurt is NOT (growth!!!)

▹ gets scared when you're too quiet or seem distant because what if you're starting to abstract what if he's losing you what if what if what if so he'll just hover around you until you're acting normal again

▹ your first kiss was probably during a really dangerous adventure when he thought one of you might not make it out, and he just couldn't leave things unsaid (very dramatic, very him)

▹ now he's stuck between his fear of losing you and his genuine happiness at having you, so he's like… aggressively affectionate but also constantly worried (someone get this rabbit some therapy)

▹ starts planning little dates within the circus - like setting up movie nights in the common area or finding ways to get you both out of adventures so you can just hang out

▹ definitely practices saying "i love you" in his room before he actually says it to you (and when he finally does, it's probably during an argument where he just blurts it out and then gets embarrassed)

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