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The things i would do to be able to write like this

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So fucking cool

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Insane

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New sincerity. The banal and boring is what I want the most?

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I’m so impulsive, but I feel like I’ve earned that.

With my mental condition I’ll be surprised to live to 28. I just feel like I should take the most of what I have while I can and fuck the consequences.

I have an ace up my sleeve, in the worst possible sense.

I’m not sure if anyone else feels like this.

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Idk maybe I’m wrong but there’s no way people pre 2016 felt as desolate about the future as I think most gen z kids do. I have never grown up thinking that we were going to be able to fix climate change or other major issues

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Why am I drawn to the things that I know will push me toward a relapse in my depression. Like they are so natural and honest to me, even though I know what will happen.

Why do I not grow to instinctually reject and avoid those things? Why do they still call to me when they’ve never caused me anything good.

Is that what depression is, an inability to reject what it is that will hurt us most?

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Gay rendition of “Guess She’s Cool” by Only The Poets

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I know what I can bare and it’s not this

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The illusion of thinking that being young earlier would feel better

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Remission will always be relapse

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It broadcasts that we are so bored and powerless in our own that we must create something immaterial just to escape

Every piece of fiction is a condemnation of reality

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Every piece of fiction is a condemnation of reality