me-myself-and-autism

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“Is it me? Am I the problem?” isn’t just a meme to me; it’s literally what I ask myself every day as an autistic person just trying to navigate basic social scenarios.

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Do you ever feel like you’re just too much?

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Sometimes I feel like I’m robbing my partner from having a better partner.

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That feeling when you’re in an autistic meltdown or shutdown and you really want to tell someone everything that you’re deeply feeling, but words are almost impossible to form and it hurts to even utter any sound at all, so you’re stuck inside your own body feeling isolated in terror that only you know is happening.

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me: i really wanna eat some soup right now

autism: no :(

me: what? why??

autism: your favourite spoon is dirty :(

me: then i’ll… use another spoon?

autism: no you won’t

me: then i’ll,,,, clean,, my favourite spoon??

executive dysfunction: lmao who’s gonna tell them

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This is definitely me trying so hard to be “an adult” and not waste the food my partner so lovingly purchased and/or cooked up for us. Being autistic is annoying as shit when you’re both extremely thankful for the food people offer you, but also at the exact same time, your entire body is resisting the urge to breakdown and power puke with disgust because you can tell before putting it in your mouth, your autism is like “not today.”

me: *trying to be nice and not wasteful and eat the yogurt my mom bought me that is a different brand than usual*

The Autism™:

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Life in an Autism World

Autism

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Today, someone changed their expectations of me, after I spent days already processing what I was previously told would be expected of me. Now I’m stuck in bed with a meltdown. And there goes my day.