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HAZEL LEVESQUE HAS A MESSAGE FOR YOU

a request I received from a lovely friend of mine, who’s a black activist and part of the pjo fandom. I’ll put the links for petitions and infos down below, and I hope this helps spreading the message

blm site

ways to help

emerald black | eric logan | george floyd | julius jones | joão pedro | jennifer jeffley | belly mujinga | tony mcdade | amiya braxton | willie simmons

thread with more petitions 

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Plenty Of Fish in The Ocean

Wow look at time. Last time I was here I was talking about relationships and I was in my sophomore year of college. Currently I just finished my Junior year and we are in quarantine. Now I have nothing but time to write and reflect on my life. Okay, now let's take a stroll along memory lane of junior year. 

` The beginning of this semester I was surprised by a friend who was having a baby. I was shook because I would not have guessed that she would get pregnant. She had a healthy beautiful boy last month and this name is Prince. Additionally in the beginning of this semester this boy had my attention for maybe 2 weeks or less lol.(Notice how I called him a boy because he was not acting like a man when I was talking to him) I swear he probably thought he was so smooth as to how he thought he pulled me but it was ehhh. Let me start by saying that I am a kind person who looks out for people who show me kindness and that I smile and laugh at anything. But back to the story, he was in my swim class and he asked me about my swim cap. I told him where I got it from and when the class was over and I was headed back to my room he stopped and offered to give me a ride to my dorm and I was like sure. I said yes because A it was cold outside and B because it allowed me to get  to my room faster and take a shower and prepare for my next class. He really tried to be cool saying he lived off campus and all this jazz. We met up a few times but in conclusion I felt like he was trying to pull something on me and I was not here for it. I gradually fell back to just stopped playing his games and he really got the vibes. Going into the next semester again we were in the same swim class and then he had the nerve to ask me why I stopped talking to him and what he did. I laugh like I usually do and just said idk you tell me lol. I swear when people start moving funny and I become done with them I am done. I cut off everything, but we just slowly both pull back from each other on good terms then I will still say hi and bye.However if it is bad I will look at you just like any other stanger I see on the street. Sorry not sorry.

Also in this second semester swim class I thought I actually found someone I might have a chance with. I really don't know what it is about guys in my swim class but this one was cuteeeeee. Okay he was dark skin with a body. Like just think of Morris chestnut body and skin complexion. PERFECT. I honestly can't remember how the hair was because he always wore a swim cap but the smile was crisp. He had straight teeth and wore a gold chain with I think Africa as a pendant. To be honest the first time I saw him I was not really paying attention to him because there was this other guy that I thought was cute was in the class too. This guy is still cute, I don't know why I said it as if I didn't think he was still cute now. Anyways, let me give all the rundown. This man was brown skin with tattoos oh baby. He had little dreads when I had my first  class with him but he ended up cutting it in  this class into  a shortcut which I think made him even more of a looker. I can't remember if the teeth were straight but I do know he had this swag about him that was really attractive. I remember again the first time I met him he asked me for my name and shook my hand. I was surprised I was like a true gentleman, they do not make them like him anymore. This guy had a nice build too and was an athlete who seemed like an overall sweetheart but also could be a player on the low if he wanted to. Anyhow that guy took my attention away for the Morris guy. When he was not in class and I realized that me and Morris were in the same lap lane I got a chance to really observe him. I was truly like damn why am I just now noticing you and that I was one day going to shoot my shot. 

Although I had this plan I knew I was not going to follow through. I had the chance one time and I missed. I think maybe he even shot his shot to me and maybe I didn't even see it. OKay so here's the story so while we were swimming he offered me his swim goggles. I was like sure. I put them on and swam my lap and thought nothing of it. Then the goggles started fogging up and I was like here you go you can use them and then he said thank you to me. In my head I was confused as to why he said thank you because they were his and I can’t remember but I hoped I said thank you when he first offered. After he takes them off after a lap and we talk about how the goggles fogged up. To be honest I think that was his shot he was throwing but during the moment I was not thinking that deep and it was just a nice gesture. When I told my friends the story they were like Davina wtf he was definitely shooting his shot and I was like really you think? After that day I would try to start small talk by asking if he wanted to swim first for a lap. Then covid happened and ruined everything, Classes were canceled and I returned home, There was no more swim class and no more Morris, Tbh I don’t know what year he is and I'm praying that he was the same year as me because if he graduated that would truly suck because I won’t see him next semester if there is a next semester. 

I think I told enough stories about my swim class crushes for today, I guess stay on the lookout for my next memory that I am going to share lol. Maybe I will upload something every saturday. But i guess only time will tell so stay on the lookout lol.

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Music is one the sweetest escapes the world has to offer

yours truly

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Lovely Loner

I swear maybe this is just me but some days I just like to be left alone. I feel like I am a very to myself type of person and I rather not be bothered by nobody. I think it has to do with me being a shy person growing up. I think grew a liking to being on my own and to myself that once people start asking me to do stuff I get annoyed and is like ahhh why just let me be!

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College... dating?

Okay, so the last time I wrote I just began college now I am currently a sophomore in college. I can sure enough say I learned a lot about myself from that first yea of being on my own. I learned that I do not have to form to the norms or certain things people do to fit in. For some reason I just really wanted to to like and now I am just like I do not really care if I person like me. I am not about to fake who I am to impress you or to make myself more likable to you. 

Since were on the topic of being likable I want to talk about dating in college. To completely honest I do not care if I end up in a relationship in college or not. For some reason I do not feel like people take it seriously in college or maybe thats just what I think idk. I feel like a lot of people just want to mess around for the most part because this is such a early stage in your life and they not ready for commitment. Since I have never been in a serious relationship, I think that is what making me think this way about dating in college. Maybe I just feel like if I am ever in a relationship that it wont last because it will be my first if that make sense. And most people go through about 2-3 serious relationship before find the right one. Just dating overall in college is so much different than what it once was. People back in the day would be getting engaged in college and I could not see myself doing that. To be honest the only reason I think a couple would get engaged that young while in college could be one of two reasoning either the girl got pregnant or they might of been together since highschool and think they are ready to engaged but still do not think that smart. I do know like i said maybe because of the fact I have never been a relationship PERIODT lol, is what is making me think this way. Anyhow this is it for today, I do know why i am up here instead of studying for my midterms which start tomorrow. I never make smart decisions lol. Maybe you will here from me again and it wont be such a large gap in the time in which I update

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Sweet Summer ‘18 I miss you!

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“I always wanted to know how it feels like to kiss someone who you love more than you’ll ever love yourself.”

Kathy B. (via wnq-writers)

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Michael B. Jordan and Issa Rae pose for the Variety Actors on Actors (Day 1) Portrait Session by Chelsea Lauren in Los Angeles, California (April 28, 2018).

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Amine

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2 yrs later

Wow, the last time when I was up here was in Oct, 2015 while I was a junior. Now I am a freshmen in college. Boy. how time has flew! Just to give a quick summary of senior year it was pretty swell lol. That year went by slow in the beginning but once we got closer to graduation everything just starting going by fast which I’m sure others can relate. Seriously the days leading to graduation my friends and I hanged out after school everyday. We went to the beach a lot and played volleyball til the sunset and went roller skating. It funny like earlier in the year it was hard to plan things because everyone was busy or the planning was too last minute. However around that last week of school we would plan to hang out the day of and pull it off and everyone would come. That one thing I enjoyed about coming to the end of senior year, everyone was able to just spontaneous hang out because like we knew in the future once we left platt it would be harder. Especially for me, out of my friend group only me and 2 another girl went out of state. One went to Temple the other Kenn State which isnt far from CT both like 4hr away, while I went to VA. Its crazy I never thought I would go out of state and to a HBCU at that. I don’t say this because I didn’t think I was good enough for a HBCU’s i say this because I wasn’t really excited about college. I was just like okay I guess I’m going to apply to some schools see of I get accepted and go then thats that. To be honest I don’t know why I left that way and that moment I was feeling like college wasn’t meant for me. Now that i’m in college I still have mixed emotions about it which I will talk about that in a different blog. Anyhow back to the topic of senior year I actually miss it, not the school thought i hated that school i just miss being with my close friends everyday Finding people to click with in college is really hard to be honest. This concludes my lil recap of my final year in highschool. Maybe I will update and blog more in college idk. But i do know i’m gonna rewatch awkward which inspired me to blog about my time spent in school. 

Thank you for reading of anyone read it. Ik i suck at writing but I feel like blog improves me writing skills so maybe I will commit and do it every week.

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happy birthday you beautiful man ❤️

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6:00

Some of you may or may not know KAM are back on tour w/ Timeflies. Today they are in my states and the venue is literally 15 or 18 mins away from my house and guess what... I’m not going. Long story cut to short I forgot to purchase my ticket they ended being sold out once i was ready to make my purchase(btw they were vip tickets which came with a m&g). I was so pissed and decided to wait and see if anyone was willing to sell theirs. A day before the show I find the sweetest girl willing to sell her tickets. I was heavily convinced i was going to go i even wrote a letter to Myles that i would give to him at the m&g. Only to find out i cant go anymore. I literally wanna cry and know i just look at the clock thinking if i could go i would be in line right now waiting for it to be 6 so i could meet the beautiful souls that changed my life!

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Highschool Blog

So I was suppose to blog bout highschool but like every year I forget. So now I'm a junior last time I blog was like in December about homecoming sophomore year. Okay I'll try this year hopefully I'll do better!

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beauty of a picture of a picture

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please don't assume

my overthing mind

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blessing on blessing on blessing!!!