#{ and here's this one because I love pain }

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji goes to Lotus Pier (No relation to the AU of the same name)

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[sheeepsprout]

Get that man a weighted blanket and a heat pad right now

[fantasykiri5]

Ticklish

[vaguely-concerned]

I really really like that lucanis reaches the 'there must be some way through this' realization 'off camera', so to speak, while presumably looking at rook explaining the situation to spite. it just. hits right. he gets that moment to himself after 'this place is a nightmare, why would I want to stay here' to come back into focus, to gather himself and think it through in peace, outside of the demands of anyone’s gaze (including the player’s!), while rook takes care of spite’s confusion and urgency and distress as he can’t himself in this shattered state. they're inside his soul, but he still gets that moment of privacy, with rook and spite there and supporting but not intruding. idk there's just something so good and right-feeling about it. rook's presence in lucanis' mind at its most vulnerable and frozen could have felt SO invasive if the quest wasn't written as skillfully as it is, and I get skeeved out by that kind of thing incredibly easily so it's a testament to how well it's done that it always feels safe and supportive. lucanis has had both his bodily and psychological (slash spiritual/existential) integrity and autonomy violated so brutally and repeatedly, and having even the way the camera perceives him here grant him the dignity and respect and privacy of soul he hasn’t experienced in a long time… it’s a whole thing huh. No wonder it’s taken me a while to put it into words lol 

(also what a contrast to what solas and rook have got going on, and what a sly way to slide the point of comparison in there to build to the thematic whole. the solas version of this IS of course wildly invasive and skeeves me out but in the intended delighted horror movie way. solas, too, was let into someone’s soul through the cracks in the wake of a traumatic event, and he IMMEDIATELY sought to turn it to his own benefit and use that trauma as a weapon against them fhdsja I’m sorry but it’s just such a character-revealing instinct for him to act on without hesitation and I love how terrible he is, it’s all so unforgivably premeditated and consistent.

rook acting out of the desire to make sure lucanis is ok vs. solas going ‘well. When life gives you oops killed my friend, make dead friend poisoned lemonade and make his loved ones drink it. this sunk cost fallacy isn’t going to perpetuate itself’ is such a neat contrast and it’s not in your face about it but it’s still there, deep and solid down in the thematic narrative. rook doesn’t do anything to or in lucanis’ mind, really — they negotiate their way through the layers of defense and are let through, and they help him make the whole thing more explicable, but they never exert any force or go rooting around for anything that doesn’t present itself to them first. solas goes about gathering ammo for when he's going to nothing personel kid this person from like the first moment fhdskh doesn't waste a second before he's on that gaslight gatekeep girlboss grind. the fact that the game goes out of its way to show there IS a respectful, non-selfish and kind version of this process makes what solas is doing even more deliciously awful (glee) and rook and lucanis’ relationship (platonic, romantic, whatever it might be in any given playthrough) all the more moving to me)

[chimerafeathers]

i love that isafrin can be the most straightforwardly romancey, wholesome pairing on a surface level and then you go one (1) level deeper and run into siffrin’s seething guilt and convoluted feelings around touch and intimacy and the extent to which they want or don’t want those things in a specifically romantic way or if he was trying to seek connection and love in any way he could once he knew that Isabeau wanted those things from him in that context, and the combined power trip/self disgust at “manipulating” Isabeau’s desires without his knowledge to make themself feel wanted and in control. and then you keep going and there’s also Isabeau’s own warped self image (still, in spite of all his changes, fearing that he’s someone that would be shameful to know), his “emotionally stable pillar” role and self-taught therapy talk masking his deep fears of real confrontation (struggling loop after loop to confess, not wanting Odile to confront Siffrin about their weird behavior in the sus quest bathroom talk) and how Siffrin’s fear of vulnerability and Isabeau’s fear of Pushing Too Hard allow both of their issues to fester unspoken long after it’s clear that the problems exist.

all this to say. duality of isafrin. makes my heart full and warm and happy to see the sweet, fluffy, silly love and connection between them (mutually romantic or otherwise). and then also. the delicious, delicious complications. gnawing on them like a dog with a beloved bone

[alltimefail]

As someone who lived in a home where it was not safe to be queer but their first love was their same-sex best friend, I really cannot emphasize the importance of characters like Charles Rowland enough. As someone who deals with shame from years of self-hate, repression, happy-masking, and being called a "Token ally" by even my queer friends while feeling wrong wrong wrong about it, and being the kind of person who just didn't "Look queer enough" or whatever the fuck arbitrary, exclusionist rhetoric people would casually hurl about, I just really can't believe we have a character like him.

He's complex and deeply scarred and I've never cared about a character like this before. I've never felt so "Seen." I can't wait to save this show because seeing him heal will be like a balm on my heart. His character arc is completely unique and handled with such care that it brings tears to my eyes.

That's all. I am just so deeply thankful for & emotional about Charles Rowland tonight.

[mellowthorn]

Fitz and Amber, a redraw of Ask Me No More by Lawrence Alma-Tadema

[coquelicoq]

it's about...longevity? stability? it's about natsume believing he'll be somewhere long enough to plant flowers and see them bloom. it's about him taking touko seriously when she asks him to tell her what flowers he wants to plant. it's about making something with his own hands, building a future with the fujiwaras. it's about him repairing a rundown home for someone else, restoring it because it's beloved to them, because it's the home of someone they love. it's about him seeing touko's joy and thinking about the youkai saying we'd like to look upon her happy face forever. it's about the box garden making him think of the fujiwaras' garden and his parents' garden, about the flowers being both the memory of flowers that bloomed there before, and the flowers that he and the youkai planted earlier that day. it's about him waking up in both worlds with sensei. it's about touko finding the petal in his hair. it's about him feeling how he falls short and the youkai saying, but you have such gentle hands...

[psychomusic]

induced to me by my contemporary art exam AND a rewatch of rebels after years that. got me into sabezra unexpectedly AND i updated krita and there were many new brushes i wanted to try

refs (IF U CAN PLS HELP ME FIND THE ORIGINAL COSPLAYERS i can't find anything EDIT: found them!! they're starwars_irl on insta and @rebelartistwren / lionesscosplay on insta. thank you guys <3) and ✨colored version✨ under the cut

i can't find themmmmm I've been looking for 2 days but all i found were uncredited reposts

anyway they look amazing

i really wanted to try greyscaling but I'm not sure it looks good. idk. + while i was making it i was listening to i love you by fontaines d.c. (GREAT SONG FROM A GREAT UNDERRATED BAND) and. the grey fit into that mood much better

also two versions without the sketch lines. where ezra looks happier even if they're uglier

[valfeathers]

“baby, both arms cradle you now,

both arms cradle you now”

[iputbigsnake]

Thought I needed to add the update xx

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

hello I love love love pez dispenser debris with my whole chest. its my roman empire I treat it like its canon.

Its so fun going back and re-reading everything (but especially the social media parts) after seeing your Battle of Yokohama posts. Its not even a fic?? but still managed to make me emotional??

I also notice and appreciate how you're setting up the stage for the whole thing (?) with bakugou. Like. There's Izuku's subtle resentment that's barely noticeable to the naked eye. There's that starburst scar. There's the tremble in Little Izuku's hands.

But then the first time he's really introduced it's through KIRISHIMA's pov!!! Kirishima who only has a boundless supply of love and affection for him. Kirishima who says THIS line: "He’s fucking good, and he’s always known it, and there’s not a single person out there that could ever change his mind about that. "

And the Audience shifts uncomfortably in their seats. They exchange nervous looks. They can hear the Greek chorus in the background. But they don't get the chance to make excuses or hide from reality because immediately after? We find out the awful, heart wrenching detail of that injury....you know, the on that left that starburst scar?

THE DREAD THE DICHOTOMY THE DISSONANCE

its gonna be a shitshow and i am HERE FOR IT

I’m so so glad you like it!

I won’t confirm or deny anything with Bakugou but I am very excited for my plans for him in pez. I hope y’all like it as much as I do.

Bakugou’s one of those characters that I had to shelve for the sake of pacing. The inclusion of some characters precludes certain plots or storylines or arcs for the other characters. So I sort of push them back to give the other characters a chance to breathe.

Yagi had the same issue. None of the very early events in pez would have worked out right if Yagi had been there, because he would have showed up to the hospital room, and putting All Might himself in the room is just a fucking grenade toss into the life of any version of Midoriya Izuku.

It’d fuck up the pacing. “All Might” affirming Izuku’s story kicked off Theory Four for Tiny Izuku. Having All Might in the room from the start would have fucked with Izuku’s initial reliance on theories 1-3, the start of his relationship with Hitoshi, his first meeting with the class, all of it.

So Yagi ended up shelved for the open of action so Tiny Izuku and Hitoshi and Aizawa could have their time developing before his presence pulled the pin on the grenade, so to speak. Which culminated in making up a nebulous fake gala in America for him to be attending and tossing in some jokes about how his agency fucking hated his guts.

It helps with the pacing. Aizawa can’t properly build tension if Yagi’s there to help smooth things over or sort of take the lead on this from the start. There’s a chance (not a good one, but a chance) that Yagi could have swooped in and convinced Aizawa to let him handle this had he been the one to arrive at the hospital wing first. If he had been an option, Izuku probably would have called him first and tried avoiding looping in Aizawa at all.

Aizawa’s had time to start understanding just how fucked this entire thing is. Every single point of his investigation uncovers new abuses with terrifying implications, and the fact that Yagi knew something from the beginning hangs over him throughout like a specter. And by the time Yagi finally comes off the shelf, Aizawa’s at the point of boiling over. It culminated in that contentious, infuriated discussion in the halls that wouldn’t have felt realistic for me if Yagi had been there from the beginning. Aizawa needed to hold his student’s burnt and bloody shirt in his hands and have to wonder if Yagi knew about this to get to the point where he’s punching lockers.

Bakugou’s got the same issues as Yagi. He’s the pin on a grenade that gets pulled as soon as he gets involved. Without even touching on how Izuku got injured, he’s just too tangled in Izuku’s canonical past to properly build up narrative tension and let the other characters slowly figure out how they occupy this story.

Like, obviously I won’t say what I’ll do with him in pez, but it’s one of those things where it’d utterly fuck the narrative pacing if he was involved from the start. It would feel rushed and off balanced. The overall story needs more time to build tension before really addressing him.

So he ends up on the shelf for the first part, and I have him be in the gym without his phone because he exercises without music like a psychopath. The other characters get to meet Tiny Izuku without him Right There, already knowing him and being able to be questioned about what the fuck happened.

Then, when he finally shows up, he gets a very slow assimilation into the narrative. He’s only there in flashes. He’s not doing much actively because he’s trying to talk to Izuku first. We don’t see his POV.

I personally love sitting on a POV, as like, a writing mechanic until the time is right. It’s just so useful for building conflict and avoiding reveals until the perfect moment.

The entire class has a very different understanding of Izuku and Bakugou’s relationship than what happened in canon. Half of them low key believe Kaminari’s theory that they were each other’s disastrous gay awakening and that’s why they were at each other’s fucking throats when school began.

Both Bakugou and Izuku are in a very interesting position where they’ve had the (questionable) benefit of growing and changing and building major relationships without the people in their lives knowing about their past. Now, they’ve found out about Izuku’s past, and he feels like the foundation of those relationships are getting ripped out. Pez is playing a game of jenga with their interpersonal relationship right now. They haven’t figured out yet if the entire tower comes down.

[fuumiku]

Harpy mickrin AU yay! Sorta loosely set in Aatom87's harpy & zookeeper AU- Rin is a sooty owl and Mickbell is a cockatiel. You know how parrots are...

The zoo keeps them in the same enclosure out of lack of funds to try and fix behavioral issues. Rin was being too self-isolating and Mickbell was starting shit with other harpies and bonded with zookeeper Kuro instead, which is unhealthy, so they put them in a side enclosure to bond together and assigned Kabru to it instead. Thus they are forced to have enrichment together.

Kabru has it tough since they both act like they hate him, except one is only a tsundere act lol. Mickbell like "huh?? You stealing my cagemate punk?? Wanna fight??" and he's not even wrong lol. Tiny bird very angry very aggressive, cue Kabru getting scratched every day... Kabru leaving their enclosure after a whole showdown of cockatiel Mick screaming scratching biting inflicting him little wounds and then Mick goes right back to "I'm just a little guy"ing @ Rin. Keep going buddy i'm sure... one day...... you'll win her over and make her laugh. Or something.

Although hmmm Kabru hating monsters would mean he wouldn't work there in the first place. Maybe.... He's there undercover to investigate the zoos for corruption or animal-monster abuse or smth... And the injured Mithrun harpy is evidence that he has to take under his wing ba dum tss <- this is how my AUs get out of control

I love Mickbell's stiff paintbrush of a ponytail so much

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Assisting Acquaintance Acquired.

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[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: death mention / family death mention / ]

Mhmm I sure love thinking of the reality where we did get more time to really know Karai and her dynamics with the bros. Losing her hit hard in the finale, but it would’ve hit much, much harder had we known Karai longer and really saw her relationships develop with everyone.

I especially would have been interested in her dynamic with Leo, as past iterations often have the two of them clash in ideals and the like while still sharing many characteristics. Two sides of the same coin, and all that. Her specifically being the bros’ Gram-Gram also adds a whole new dynamic as well.

Imagine how interesting it would be, to have Karai start off on Leo’s side for once, showing wholly just how alike the two are at their cores and bonding as family without the worry of betrayal or animosity that other iterations suffer through, only to have Karai die anyway. Their parting hug and the desperate look of horror Leo wears later on would have hit that much harder, I feel.

[mossterunderthebed]