#... ACTUAL TOPIC TO PRESENT ON. CMON.

[autism-corner]

guy who willingly goes to a university has to write his first report. millions dead.

[changisworld]

“Why do you make me feel like this, pretty?”

fuckboy!hyunjin x reader

Word count; 5,902

Summary: After hyunjin took your virginity, you grew attached despite trying your hardest not to. You find out he hooked up with someone the day after it happened which broke your heart, making you cry.. but of course, hyunjin caught you crying. He didn’t really know what he felt, it being new to him, as he tries to refuse the silly ideas popping into his brain, he can’t ignore how much you being upset is making his heart.. hurt?? Surely he doesn’t like you too..?

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**This can be read on its own despite it probably being confusing but i highly recommend reading part 1!**

SMUT WARNINGS: spit/drool, PIV, needy reader, pet names, shyish reader, rimming( f rec), oral ( f rec), fingering (f rec), finger sucking, unprotected sex, jealous jinnie, edging???,pull out method, literally 1 spank, slight dacryphilia, jealous jinnie, soft jinnie, kind jinnie, hyunjins a tease obvs, slight aftercare, wayyy fluffier ending than last time you're welcome!!

You & Hyunjin walk off campus, you still hiding your face from him, embarrassed at the tears now staining your cheeks, your face tinged red, you also don't fail to miss the looks you & Hyunjin are receiving from other students walking past the both of you, his arm still around you & you can't help but feel judged, so you push his arm off.

"Forget the cafe, I'm just gonna go home, I feel.. sick. I'll see you later Hyunjin." you murmur, still not looking at him in the eye.

"Y/n stop being weird, just cmon. I promise to cheer you up." He replies back, reaching out to cup your cheek but you move your head before murmuring a quick 'bye' before walking away from him hastily, leaving him standing there, confused & a bit annoyed.

He watches as you turn the corner & he huffs before kicking a stone nearby. 'Why do I care she's actually upset? 'What did I do wrong?' 'I hope she's okay' & 'Shit how can I apologise' are all thoughts that race through his head, no matter how much he tries to shake it all off, he genuinely feels guilty. But why? He never feels sorry for the girls he fucks n chucks, so what makes it different? He barely even knows you? He only spoke to you for a week which is barely anything. He sighs before pulling out his phone & going onto his contacts, about to call Joy, another one of his side things, before deciding against it, instead calling his friend Jisung& asking to meet him.

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Twenty minutes later Jisung meets him at the local dog walking park & they end up sitting on a bench, talking about random stuff before the topic of you comes up, but not because of Hyunjin.

“You’re lucky you got to partner up with y/n for that assignment, I got put with Changbin so obviously i fucking failed, tryna do that presentation on the spot was absolute torture, you still talk to her? she seems quiet as hell.” Han sighs, sipping his bubble tea through his straw & Hyunjin laughs.

“Ay! I actually helped her so shut up, just because you both have no more than eight brain cells, i’m just proof there is such a thing as looks & beauty. Nah, we haven’t really spoken since, just been busy i suppose & what the hell am i meant to say to her?” Hyunjin replies, a quick chuckle leaving his lips.

“What do you mean you’re proof that looks n beauty exist, y/n basically invented it you idiot. Wha'cha mean what are you meant to say to her? Did you fuck her too or something?" Han questions, leaning forward.

Hyunjin just kisses his teeth before nodding & Han just raises his eyebrows. "fuck, I didn't think someone like y/n would get around that way. Can you do me a favour n start speaking to her again n put in a good word about me I wanna approach her but she feels intimidating, you get me?" Once Hyunjin hears these words, a bad & gross feeling bubbles up in his stomach.. is what he feeling... jealousy?

"Uhh.. you're really not her type, she's not up for dating, she told me. Go try your luck with someone else." Hyunjin says in a bitter tone, not looking at the man in front of him & Han scoffs.

"You chat shit Hyunjin, stop gatekeeping! I'll just use my charms & trust me, we'll be fucking a week later n dating two weeks later." Jisung jokes, patting Hyunjins leg but he pushes it off.

"You're ridiculous Jisung, she won't want what's between your legs." Hyunjin spits out before standing up off the bench, stretching out & sighing. "I have things to do, you can keep day dreaming, I'll see you later. choke on your boba." Hyunjin jokes with Han & he spits out a bubble as a response before he walks away, leaving Han on the bench.

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He walks through the rest of the park, thinking about Hans words & he can't get over it. 'Why am I so jealous?' 'Who does he honestly think he is talking about y/n like that?' 'They wouldn't even look good together.' are things that keep racing through his head & he is getting more pissed off as the seconds go by.

He gets out of the park & he keeps walking on the pavement, not having an actual destination in mind.. until he seen you walking out of a random convenience store across the street & a lightbulb lights up behind his brown eyes.

He picks up the pace of his walk as he follows just far enough behind you on the other side of the road until you reach your apartment complex before entering & he can't help but feel like an absolute creep, but that doesn't stop him. He screenshots his location on find my Iphone, just so he won't forget where to go later on as he walks back the way he came, heading to the main line of shops near the campus.

He strolls around for around twenty minutes, looking at random little trinkets, bookmarks with the college logo on it, which he cringes at due to the look of it, before he keeps walking until he reaches a little florist shop.

He enters it, aimlessly walking around, fingertips grazing over a few roses & tulips, admiring the pretty colours as he sets his eyes on a bouquet of lillies. He picks it up, giving himself a better look at it before deciding he is happy with it, heading to the counter.

He places them down, not paying attention to the cashier as he looks at the little vases beside the register.

"Can I get this pink vase to- ohh, I didn't know you worked here Jennie, hiya." he says, surprised. "Sure. You know, Lisa doesn't like lillies, I suggest you get her daffodils, her favourite colour being yellow n all." she responds, smiling up at him. "Ah, they.. they're not for Lisa so I'll pass. Can you fill up the vase with a bit of water too? I think that's what you're supposed to do, right?" he says quickly, hand coming up to the back of his neck, the awkwardness filling the small space.

"mhmm. £29.11 is the total." She says in a cold voice, taking the tag off the vase as she turns around to the small sink, filling up the vase 1/3 of the way. She dumps the bouquet in the vase with no care at all before pushing it towards him, giving him the card machine. He pays, a strained, awkward smile on his face before saying thank you & leaving.

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After buying you a box of chocolates & a Vanilla bean smelling candle & following the path you walked on earlier, he ends up back outside your apartment complex.

He sits on the front steps, waiting for someone to leave the building so he can catch the door & once he is inside, he begins knocking on every door, talking to each person who answers in a quiet voice, Ignoring the confused looks of other students who recognise him who are all definitely wondering why he is knocking doors looking for you, making sure you wouldn't hear him & then refuse to open the door.

He reaches the fourth floor, mouth slightly dry from all the talking he has had to do & he is beginning to doubt his memory. He knocks on the third door & takes a step back, waiting for an answer as he hears footsteps & he can't help the smile that spreads across his face as you are the one who open the door.

"Surprise, & I'm not just talking about my pretty face. Can I come in?" he chirps as he raises his arms, making sure you see what he has brought despite it being almost all you can see, not missing the chance to give you an up & down look, you wearing black tight shorts & an oversized off the shoulder graphic shirt.

"Hyunjin, I told you I was sick.. How the hell do you know where I live?" you question, honestly just confused. "Does that matter? I asked a question, Don't leave me standing here I went to like twenty doors to find you!" he pouts. You roll your eyes & begin to shut the door but Hyunjin stops it with his foot.

"Okay okay okay! I followed you, but not in a creepy way I swear! I just wanted to.. apologise? But I knew you would ghost me If I text you." he says in a sulky voice. You groan before opening the door back open, his pretty face poking through the gap. "You are a creep, you know that? Why you apologising?" you question him, crossing your arms, not amused but slightly flattered despite not showing it.

"I'm not going to broadcast my deep, heart warming words in the corridor for everyone to hear, just let me inside, pleaseee." he pouts again & you just sigh before moving out of the way so he can enter, taking his shoes off as soon as they touch your laminate flooring.

You walk into your connected living room & kitchen before sitting on your corner kitchen counter, your legs swinging off it as Hyunjin follows behind you, looking around at the cute random decorations hung up on your walls & on the mantle pieces.

He places the flowers on your coffee table before walking back into your small kitchen & leaning on the opposite counter top, still holding the chocolates & candle.

"Okay, Can I give you my apology now? I rehearsed this to make sure I get everything right." He tries to joke but you just look at him with a blank expression before nodding, encouraging him to continue. "Okay, I didn't realise how much I've upset you & I'm sorry for not trying to check up on you sooner & stopped speaking to you. I partially didn't even mean to ghost you but I also genuinely thought you wouldn't speak to me anymore since you're always so concentrated on lessons & studying, I thought you would have thought I was getting in your way. I'm also sorry for fucking with that girl & you overheard it, if I'm genuinely being honest, I did it to try wipe my mind of you. I know what we did is a huge thing & it was wrong of me to have acted the way I did, if i'm being honest, this was the first time I did what we did so I just didn't really know how to act, but I'm genuinely sorry y/n. Chocolates?"

He blurts out, not taking his eyes off you as he feels his cheeks go hot, the nerves & also the way you're looking at him making him flustered. You both sit in silence for a minute, him waiting for a response & you thinking of a response.

"Gimme the box & light the candle for me, second drawer to your right n you will find a lighter. If you felt like this all week, You've still had seven days to come n tell me this but instead you've let me feel like shit for a week, this was the exact reason I was unsure to do it with you Hyunjin, in fear something like this would have happened & instead of just growing a pair & talking to me, you fuck someone else to just try forget?" You reply, your voice getting a bit shaky without meaning it, the feelings of it all hitting you again.

Hyunjin listens as he digs into his pocket & pulling out his own lighter & lighting it before putting it on the counter & he walks the few steps over to you, handing you the chocolate before standing right in front of you, leaning his hands on the counter on the outside of your legs, caging you in.

"Please y/n, don't think like that. I know I should have swallowed my pride n apologised earlier, I was just trying to convince myself I didn't give a fuck but I do, hence why I'm here. I honestly think you used those crystals & manifested this or something." he mumbles the last part, looking away from you, his ears going red after hearing his words out loud & your legs stop swinging as you pause at his words.

"What do you mean you actually give a fuck? What are you trying to say." you reply back, resisting the urge to reach out & stroke his hair. Hyunjin sighs & shakes his head. "Don't make me spit it out y/n, It's just gonna sound like a lie to you." You get an anxious feeling in your belly before taking his chin & guiding him to look back up at you. "Hyunjin, just say it, it's only me here anyway. Just say what you gotta say." you respond in a quiet but firm voice, honestly scared.

He doesn't have much option but to look at you as he lets himself melt into your hand lightly before taking a deep breath. "I.. care about you? I don't know, it feels weird but like... I genuinely felt like shit after how I treated you n i've tried to bury it but it just won't leave, I don't really know what it is about you n honestly it scares me." he says in a quiet, quick tone & your jaw drops.

You just freeze as you both just look at each other in complete silence not including the quiet crackling of the candle & your living room clock ticking. Hyunjin can't bare the awkwardness anymore as he gets shy for the first time in years, moving his arms to stand completely upright but you pull him in by the shirt to hug him, tears threatening to leave your eyes as his arms wrap around you in return.

"This better not be some sort of sick joke Hyunjin or i swear I'll kill you, you're gonna boost my ego to a fraction of what yours is." you half laugh as he nuzzles his face into your neck, inhaling your sweet smell. "It's not, dead serious. You're just different n I don't know how to feel about it, stop casting spells to make me attached to you. I've been itching to ask to see you all week, I wish I wasn't being so stubborn." he muffles into your neck, moving his head side to side slightly, his nose tickling your neck, making you lean more into him, chuckling at his stupid joke.

"Stop with the silly magic jokes, you're ridiculous. I want to say you're not forgiven since you need to prove to me you're not talking out your ass but I do accept your indeed heart warming apology & I appreciate it just more than the flowers n chocolate." you say in a soft voice & you feel Hyunjin smile against your neck before he moves & kisses the tip of your nose, smiling like a Cheshire cat.

"That's what I wanted to hear, I wouldn't be able to handle it if you had told me to fuck off, my first ever rejection coming from the first person I've ever bought a present for that isn't my mom." You chuckle at this before hopping off the counter, grabbing the box of chocolates that were staring at you.

"Rejection? You tryna say you like meee?" you tease, taking his hands before swaying them back & forth & he rolls his eyes, chuckling. "Was it not kinda obvious? I wanted to say it without directly saying it in case I embarrassed myself but... yeahhh I have a tiny crush, I think you made us soul tied or something." you just 'tut' at his remark but your face goes bright red at his confession, cheeks hurting from how much you're smiling.

"I'm touched. Got thee famous playboy hwang Hyunjin to like like me, not sure if it's a surprise but I like you too." You kiss his cheek before leading him to the couch as you sit on it, him flopping next to you. "Enough of the soppy talk for now or I'll get embarrassed, you can choose a movie while I get us a blanket." He just nods & you hand him the box of chocolates & he begins opening them as you scurry to your room to get your favourite fluffy blankets.

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You both end up watching a recommended Netflix romcom suggestion, both of you devouring your chocolates but you pay no mind to it.

Some point throughout, your legs end up swung over his as your head lays against his shoulder, him stroking your hair with one hand as the other hand caresses your thigh.

Every few minutes or so, you focus less on the movie & more on his touch as his hand slowly rises up your leg, then your thigh & his hand is now grazing against your inner thigh over your tight shorts, giving you goosebumps, which he doesn't miss.

This continues up until Hyunjin repositions himself, pushing your legs off him so he can lay down over your thighs, his view now sideways of the TV, not that he cares, not paying the slightest bit of attention anyway as you momentarily tense up beneath him.

You continue stroking his hair, sometimes digging your fingers into his scalp a bit to scratch it, making him let out a satisfied hum. You can't help but keep looking down at the beautiful man laying on you & you can't help but smile to yourself.

As if he can feel your eyes burning into his skull, he moves the blanket down your legs enough to expose your legs enough for him to begin planting little pecks on them, slightly tickilish but you don't miss the wetness now pooling under your shorts. "Stop teasing Hyune." you speak up, your voice quiet & he just chuckles.

"If you don't want me to tease, I won't complain if you lay back." he replies, not bothering to look up at you as his hand reaches to squeeze your thigh softly as he keeps giving your legs kisses, suckling at them slightly,

You think about what he says & you would be stupid to deny the chance, your pussy clenching around nothing. You lightly push his head up off you & he takes the hint, moving & you push the side of his arm, towards the edge of the couch & he looks at you slightly confused but does what he thinks you're hinting at, getting onto the floor right in front of you, looking up at you with his pretty eyes.

You give him a shy smile before you take it upon yourself to wriggle your shorts & underwear off, leaving your bottom half completely nude, biting your lip in anticipation.

"You really got this desperate since last time I saw you?" he teases & you put your hand in front of your cunt, covering it with how shy you've just started feeling but he is quick to pull it back off, looking at the small shimmer on your middle finger before licking it off in one go.

"Don't be shy, gorgeous. I've been just as desperate if not more, can I get a taste?" he says in a sweet voice, not looking away from you, stars in his eyes. "Please.. If you want to." you respond, hiding your face in your hands but he reaches up & swats your hands away yet again as his other hand begins to slowly drag through your folds, making your hips buck.

"Stop hiding, where's your confidence gone hmm? Do I make you that nervous? trust me, there's nothing I want more." he leans in & kisses right next to your lip before smirking at you & sinking back down onto the floor, blowing cold air onto your now soaking cunt, making your legs tense up & he tongues his cheek as he watches your face twitch.

He spreads your folds open, getting a better view of your hole, clenching around nothing before he licks a long, slow strip from your hole to the top of your clit, letting out a low groan in the process. "Taste better than anything y/n, I fucking swear." he says as he looks up at you for a split second. "eyes on me, if you look away I'll stop." he voices before digging in.

You do as he says & make eye contact with him as his mouth latches onto your cunt as he begins letting spit roll off his tongue, mixing with your juices just before slurping it back up, not afraid to make as much noise as the mixes of juices allow.

You weave your hand in his hair & play with his hair & scratch his scalp for him as he suctions his tongue onto your swollen button, both of you groaning at the same time.

"Hyune, so good" you whimper out, your breath shaky as your eyes struggle to stay open & you feel Hyunjin smile against you. He brings his fingers up to your clit before rubbing it in a steady rhythm as he lets go of before his tongue find its way into your opening before beginning to tongue fuck you & you throw your head back, your moans now louder than the TV still playing behind the both of you, your legs now closing around his head, not that he pays attention to that anyway, if anything he is enjoying it.

You begin to clench around his tongue which he remembers is your tell tail sign you're about to orgasm, your moans getting higher pitched & your grip on his hair getting tighter & he chooses to worm his tongue out of your hole before pinching your clit between his two fingers & dropping a glob of spit to it before giving it one more lick, smirking.

"I wanna try something I think you might like, turn over so you're facing your back to me, hunny." You huff at the beginning of a future orgasm beginning to appear suddenly bubbling away but you do as he says, slightly confused.

You get up on your knees & rest your elbows on the back of the couch, you now looking at the wall behind you. "Why am I fac-" you're cut off as Hyunjin spreads your cheeks & begins fondling them as he begins suckling on your pussy from behind, letting out a satisfied hum behind you as you begin kneading the couch until your fingers begin to ache, biting your lip to try hold back moans.

"G-gonna cum Hyunjin, keep g-going." you whimper, pushing yourself into his face, seeking even more from him if it's even possible & he gives you a quick slap on your ass as he removes himself from your cunt again, much to his own displeasure.

"Don't bite your lip y/nnie, I wanna hear you fully, Mkay?" he speaks from behind you as you yelp at the impact & he hums as he keeps kneading your ass, giving it a few kisses. "Your ass is to die for, you know that? Gonna taste it." Before you can even process what he says, your mind too full of lust to understand, he is letting a glob of spit fall past his lips & it landing right on your tightest hole.

You try jerk your hips away from him but he is quicker & pulls you back to him, keeping a tighter grip on your ass, keeping it spread as his tongue begins to graze over your pretty pucker, his eyes scrunching together as he smiles against you, tongue now drawing patterns on it as he lets go of one of your ass cheeks, going down to your leaking cunt again before entering two fingers, instantly finding the same G-spot that made you orgasm only a week or so ago.

Your hips buck at the new sensation & you let out a long mewl, letting your face fall onto the back of the couch as your knuckles turn white from how hard you're clenching on it.

Your pretty hole is clenching & pulsating on his tongue as he lets out a deep growl at your taste, so different compared to your cunt but still enjoyable, you're moans getting to an even higher pitch as his tongue enter inside you, swirling around as much as the tight ring will allow.

"Hyun- please l-let me cum, s-so- fuck!" you basically scream out, not even being able to find the strength to lift your head up to look at the man behind you as your pussy & ass clench around his fingers & tongue but right before you cum, Hyunjin pulls completely away, again & your legs shake from the painful pleasure of yet another stolen orgasm.

Hyunjin leans over so his clothed chest is touching your back & he tilts your head so he can see your pretty face & he sees your now tear soaked cheeks & your pretty, glossy eyes.

"Awww, pretty girl couldn't contain their tears, could you? I promise you can cum now, I don't have a condom on me though beautiful so do you just want my fingers hmm? or my tongue?" he questions as he strokes your now damp hair out of your face, pouting at you.

"J-just fuck me Hyune, j-just pull out." you whiimper back to him, your breath so unstable it's difficult to even push the words out. Hyunjin opens his mouth to re ask you, just to make sure he is hearing things right but you wiggle your naked ass against him & he bucks his hips before just nodding before kissing your shoulder & then shimmying his pants & underwear down, freeing his pretty cock.

He spits onto his cock, pumping it into his hand a few times, letting out a hushed groan before he aligns his tip with your pussy, rubbing himself against it a few times to coat his tip in your juices before prodding his tip against your hole, before pushing just the tip inside.

"I'm still gonna be gentle, it's only your second time, tell me if this position is uncomfortable." he speaks behind you & as you mumble out an 'okay' while your face now being mushed against the cushion again, he pushes his hips forward very slowly until he buries himself to the hilt, you both letting out a moan in unison.

He stills inside you, trying to not cum instantly from how hot your walls feel without the restriction of the condom he wore last time, his hands coming to rest on your hips as he waits for your signal to continue.

Your breath staggers as he pushes forward, the stretch being a bit painful but no way near as painful as last time & after a minute or so, you push yourself on his cock experimentally, making you both hiss.

"You- please move, mak-make me cum Hyune, p-please." you elongate the last word, turning your head to the side so he can actually hear you. He takes a deep breath & pulls out half way before pushing back in, the both of you letting out a whine as his balls slap against your clit, making it even more intense for you.

Hyunjin sets a steady rhythm, lightly using the tips of his finger nails to add sensation to your back, tickling it but also feeling nice as you know it will leave those pretty little red marks later on. Both of your moans & whines fill the small apartment, not even thinking about how your neighbours can one hundred percent hear you.

"Y/n yo-you're too tight, s-so warm." he breathes out, lifting his leg & standing it on the couch for a better angle as he keeps rutting into you, leaning over your back again to kiss your cheek, your moans going straight into his ears.

"To- so big hy-hyune, pleas-e lemme c-cum." you whimper, your eyes scrunching closed, the ends of Hyunjins hair tickling your face as he begins to nibble on your earlobe, your cunt clenching impossibly tight around his cock, almost suffocating it.

"c-cum with me baby, h-hold on for me." he groan back as he tilts his neck into an uncomfortable position just so he can kiss your lips. His tongue instantly enters your mouth & you suckle on it, tasting the remaining taste of your juices from what he hasn't already repeatedly swallowed, making you moan in content.

Hyunjin speeds up his pace slightly & your G-spot loves this, making your legs almost give out on the spot as your brain turns into mush. "I-in my s-stomach Hyun-deep." you babble out against his lips, barely even knowing your own name at this point.

As Hyunjin stands back upright after giving your shoulder a few pecks, his phone begins to ring. Your eyes spot his phone on the other end of the couch, where he was sitting earlier but he reaches over & declines it before shutting his phone completely off, throwing it to the side, his pace not slowing once.

You don't bother questioning it, instead focusing on the noises of your slick & his balls connecting together mixed with the sweat of the both of you, sloppy clapping noises of your skin connecting filling the room, your legs begin to give out as Hyunjin worms his fingers down to your clit yet again before rubbing it frantically.

"In your s-stomach hmm? You can cum for me angel, n-not gonna last, too w-wet n tight." he squabbles, breathing frantically & this i all you need to hear as your entire body tenses up as finally, your orgasm hits you like a brick wall & you let out a squeal & Hyunjin has to grip onto your hips as his life depend on it in order for you to not flop & slip off the couch.

Your noises & the way your pussy flutters around him is just too much for him to handle & as much as he doesn't want to, he pulls himself out of your wet, hot walls as his cum spurts down your ass & back, throwing his head back as his cock quite literally pulsates as his balls empty, a high pitched whimper leaving his lips, breathing staggered.

He comes back to his body quicker than you do & he helps reposition you so you're fully laying on the couch, trying to make sure his cum doesn't get onto any other surface.

He grabs his underwear & wipes the cum off your back in a comfortable silence, slightly twitching as he wipes it off. He leans over your back again before kissing your earlobe. "Did so well, so proud of you, still so pretty for me despite being sticky with sweat." you both weakly laugh as you turn onto your back before using the ounce of strength you have left to pull on his wrist.

"cuddle." is all you say as you pull on him until he lays on top of you, half his weight dangling off the arm of the couch as he lays his head on your chest, listening to your still racing heartbeat & he can't help but feel secure.

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You both sit like this for a while, talking to one another about what you both spoke about in a bit more detail & also just talk to each other about things you don't know about one another, things like family pets, favourite colours, favourite brands etc.

Hyunjin ends up powering his phone back on & you are both just scrolling through his for you page, when you remember his phone ringing. "Quick question hyune, who was it that called you? If it was important you coulda stopped to answer." you ask him, not lifting your eyes from the video playing on his phone screen, not really thinking too much of it.

"Don't stress it, it was just someone I'm not gonna be speaking to anymore." he replies in s tired voice, still scrolling. His reply slightly confusing you. "Who? I don't mean to be nosey or anything but now i'm curious." you respond back, your fingers in his hair now pausing.

Without saying anything, he switches apps, onto his call log & it's Lisas name at the top.. nineteen missed calls. He just sighs as he presses on the 'more' option before deleting her number & deleting the Imessage conversation without even bothering to read her spam of texts, yelling, crying & cussing him out before switching apps back onto tiktok without saying a word & you just blush, your hands cupping his cheeks from above, your thumbs just below his eyes.

"You're cute." you say as you squeeze them playfully & he just 'tut's but still, he melts himself into your touch.

I'm not completely sure if I want to leave this story as a two parter orrrrrr do a third n final part but to everyone wanting a happier ending here you all are!

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[itwassophiehanseniswear]

so I just finished dual destinies (I'm on the orca case rn) and I ADORED it but I had some minor thoughts on the presentation of the story lines. (don't get me wrong, it was absolutely amazing! but I do think they could've executed some of it better).

this about sums up my feelings on it but I did get a bit intense about it while writing it so

rant under the cut, uhhh warnings dual destinies spoilers and a history nerd yapping too much :3

tl;dr, 'ages' aren't something easy to implement into a game. Capcom did a great job, even involuntarily I suppose, building up to the dark age of the law, with characters such as Manafred Von Karma and Damon Gant, even in the investigations duo, with Excelcius Winner and Fifi Laguarde. and, as involuntary as it was, I believe that having wright get disbarred was the PERFECT setup for the dark age of the law. think about it: he has all of these connections in the law world, high up connections like Franziska Von Karma and Edgeworth, to name arguably the most high up. And they care about him and have connections of their own. So the question arises: why doesn't he use them? easy! foul play. When the whole system is corrupt, pulling a few strings won't overturn a decision. this is summed up really well in this video, although I have my own thoughts I wont share atm

basically, one, or a few, people wont win a war against a corrupt system. so why didn't this carry properly into dual destinies, where Edgeworth and Wright face all they've worked to destroy over the last 10ish years or so: a corrupt system. this alone is a BEAUTIFUL story, and paired with amazing new characters and mysterious pasts, great new cases, and Apollo getting his own development BEYOND Phoenix and Kristoph. but where it gets iffy for me is how this "dark age of the law" is presented. There are many moments across the game where characters talk about it, using its name. for example:

(this is the timestamp from earlier btw :3)

Sure, I assume some people probably go "aha the law is so corrupt nowadays its like we're in a dark age of the law" and I could see it potentially rise up through the internet, making it to Apollo and Athena (though that's a bit of a stretch, but I'd have less of a nitpicky problem with it if that was the case), but for it to make it to the news, to the actual Bar, having enough influence to create fucking MERCH for the court? making it to edgeworth and wright, the Chief Prosecutor and an infamous attorney?? that's INSANE. thats way over-the-top. I mean cmon, do you think people living in the Prohibition Era called it the Prohibition Era? No! they thought it would last forever! Or The Great Depression! THEY DIDNT KNOW THEY WERE LIVING THROUGH A DEPRESSION!!! or even the most famous example, World War One! called the Great War! Ya know why? CAUSE THEY DIDNT KNOW THERE WAS GONNA BE A SECOND. "The War to End All Wars", anyone?

(this is quite US History centric, I apologize, I am an American, after all.)

Another nitpicky thing is how they talk about how they're just going to "End" The age. Like... that's not how it works. righting one wrong does not undo the whole system. You need to work tirelessly to undo all of the hurt and pain that will amount from what happened. You need to account for the people who will still try to cheat. there will always be some more people. From a world history lense, this is never an easy task. ripple effects of the actions taken over a hundred years ago are still felt today, from imperialism and colonization across the world, to stuff like the entirety of the Soviet Union. (just look at the state of Russia today! like! Cherynobl's effects too!)

look, Professor Means was teaching a whole student body to be corrupt and win by any means nesissary. if that wont have ripple effects, then I don't know what will. (and, off topic a bit, but the way he and the other students kept repeating "the end justifies the means" made it feel very. off. for me, and made the statement it was trying to make less powerful.)

Think about when leaders implement new laws/rules to follow. that change is never immediate, it can be repealed, and it doesnt mean the end of a fight for change. I am very interested in how they will tackle this in Spirit of Justice, if at all.

tl;dl FOREAL THIS TIME LMAO: the storylines in dual destinies are beyond amazing, and paired with lovable characters and cases puts it on par with trials and tribulations, for me. however, the way capcom presented- in dialogue, at least,- the "dark age of the law" makes it feel lackluster, which is why I think some people may be put off of it. it also signifies a new era in the AA universe, with 3d sprites, I mean. (man I could go on about those sprites for AGGGGES the uncanny valley feeling and the incosistant styles... eek).

apollocheese again for the us/global history refernses. and if you want a more niche or easier to swallow (depending on how you look at it) refernence to help me reiterate my point: think about the stone age, the iron age, the bronze age, ect. That was over long periods of time, with a gradual and exponential climb, and a gradual and exponential drop. it doesn't just stop. and then apply that to ace attorney!

one last thing, as I feel that in these times things like the storyline in dual destinies hits much closer to home in our corrupt society, but this does not mean you shouldn't fight to end this corruption, because without people fighting it will never end. Wright and Edgeworth were right in the idea that they were going to end the dark age of the law, but not in the way that they thought, no. Without the help of other people, help that wright and edgeworth nutoriously push away, the spark they ignited wouldn't fan into a flame. they righted one wrong, and that would push the corrupt system over the edge. it would not kill it, but it would get close. sorry felt poetic there for a second.

[atypicaldrunk0rexia]

gulp, Sorry if writing is bad or punctuation is wrong/Any body part is written wrong. First time writing something like this.

BASED OFF OF THIS POST

“Let’s get these teen hearts beating faster, faster!”

Andre K x gender neutral Y/N x Cal G.

NSFW!

I had became friends with Andre and Cal at the start of the school year, moving to New Milford, Connecticut after fucking up my reputation at my last school. New place and new beginnings.

The day we three all met was on the second week of fall, The trees were slowly becoming red, yellow and orange. Almost every seat was taken except the two seats next and across from me. Everyone else was with their friends. Andre & Calvin had came in a little too late from whatever they were previously doing. Ms. Rachel asked what they were doing and just told them to find somewhere to sit. Calvin’s eyes landed on the seat next to me and took the seat across from me whilst Andre took the seat next to me while Andre silently protested, It was odd that Andres hands were a bit too sweaty that day, or was he always like that?

I came back to the present, Cal is snapping his fingers and waving his hand in my face “cmon, earth to ____!” I snapped out of it “Oh— Sorry.“ I quickly responded. Andre gave me gloves, As Cal had already put his on. Andre and Cal has bought the supplies all over town, from Home Depot to the next which, the workers of those places never really suspected. I put on the latex, disposable gloves. Andre shows me how to assemble the whole thing, but also showing the camera. “You wanna take the caps that you drilled into and you wanna insert the fuse into the cap. Take the caps that you didn’t drill and fasten them into the bottom of the pipe. . .” he goes on for a moment and everyone is silent whilst they’re working, including myself. It’s honestly pretty easy to make these. I’m too focused to think about anything else other than the bombs. 

Cal pipes up “Theses are actually medium sized so like— I dunno, You could fit them through a hole” Andre looks down and realizes “Oh shit, your actually kinda right.” I continue making pipe bombs, not really listening to their conversation. “We should try it out” Cal jokes. He has to stifle a laugh at his own dumb joke. After a while of conversing about other stuff. They round back to the topic of how medium they are. Andre speaks up and asks me a joking question “Hey, you think you can shove this up you?” we all laugh at the absurd joke. 

After a while; Andre actually persuades me to actually do it. Quickly enough, the white shorts I previously had on were on the floor and my underwear is off, next to the shorts. I take a couple deep breaths. in, out, in, out. I close my eyes and prepare myself— I manage to slide it inside. It feels bigger than it looks. It actually fit it inside. With the bottom cap inside and the top cap outside, I go in and out. Soon enough, it feels pleasurable. I feel two pairs of eyes intensely watching me. I finally open my eyes. Andre is..well, palming himself through his shorts and Cal is just watching. His hands slowly dip down his waistband and he pleasures himself.

[some-murmurings]

i'm happy that video essays are a popular format on youtube now. i've loved the genre for years and, with care, it's a reliable source of accessible education.

that said, the popularity of video essays on youtube makes me feel like my brain is leaking out of my ears. it is so easy to immediately tell when an author has no actual investment in the genre and sees it merely as a vehicle for #Content™️©️®️

There are three basic qualities I see suffering the most for this

1. Length

I see so many of these newer channels pumping out 8 hour pieces that are closer to exhaustive book reports then they are tight, well written examinations of something and, while I LOVE the diversity inherent to the video essay format, this is a terrible way to explore a topic. It's boring, lame, and extremely profitable.

Quinton Reviews is a good example; I like his work occasionally, his recent thing on Dan Schneider was genuinely pretty good. It did still suffer from the resulting pacing sickness from overloading on information and underloading on composition & organization. Wendigoon is an even better example. Most "iceberg" style vids also are (not u jan misali. never u.)

Also, there's no defined rule for the length of a video essay. They can be 5 minutes long or 5 hours, flash fiction or a full-bodied thesis. Shots of tequila or a whole bottle of wine can both get you drunk.

2. Pacing

Obviously related to length but this is another problem; video essayists have always struggled with this and it got worse recently anyways.

A lot of that "information overload" is to blame. It's important that, when researching, YOU come to a strong, nuanced understanding of a topic through disparate sources. It is, by nature of the format and genre, an extremely bad idea to try and make your audience learn the information the same way.

We don't need a thousand sources spread across several dozen sentences, we want the 3-4 (max) best sources on a given subtopic concisely synthesized into a coherent idea.

Use music, jokes and relevant graphics to make this information as engaging and interpretable as possible without sacrificing accuracy. It's okay to abridge and note that you were, in fact, abridging. We don't need to know every detail about every single thing loosely related to the topic.

Dan Olson from "Folding Ideas" is a good example of this. His script writing and camera work does an extremely good job of creating effective flow with an appropriate amount of detail & nuance. So, pacing, basically.

3. Topic

U can tell some of these jamokes don't give a fuck or shit about the thing they're discussing. Worse still when it's some inane internet drama they're recounting like its "news."

To be clear: the best video essays are OFTEN on topics you have no previous interest in. Roblox_oof.wav by HBomberguy is an easy example. This shit is a complete mess thematically but, because the author engages deeply and effectively with the topic, it literally doesn't matter. It's an insanely good video you should spend all 2 & 1/2 hours in rn. Go. Watch it.

Nor is internet drama a bad topic to cover. You're allowed, encouraged really, to discuss the weird bullshit people do to each other but like... this is closer to a soap opera than it is a national news headline. Looking at you, "Turkey Tom" or whatever the fuck your name is.

There's something to be said, too, for how quick people are to make an essay about a still moving situation. I know the algorithm is an insatiable maw of content hunger but, counterpoint, ONLY MAKE A VIDEO WHEN YOU CAN ACTUALLY DESCRIBE WHAT HAPPENED. If there's reasonable suspicion stuff isn't done, SHUT THE FUCK UP. It's okay if you misjudge a timeline here or there, you're allowed to admit fault and correct yourself, but, like, cmon.

Also something to be said about how quick so many essayists have ALWAYS been to talk about someone else's business without permission, particularly intimate partner violence.

4. Style/Presentation

Video essays are an extremely novel format, particularly for education, so there's a genuine debt of easy-to-adopt styles. And, because of the recent growth, there are a lot of new people entering the space with very little experience in it.

That said, the next time I hear that fucking "influencer cadence" I'm gonna EXPLODE. You know the one, they slow down towards the end of a sentence to lend "gravitas" and overarticulate every. single. word. to, idk, build credibility?

It's shallow and obnoxious and I hate it. Nothing makes me skip a video faster than a boring intro & a predictable cadence. Be honest about the way you speak. If you struggle to create rhythm & flow with your voice, use music! Seriously, music sampling is a super valid method, most indie artists would be JAZZED to have their stuff in parts of their video. A lot of orchestral stuff is in the public domain, especially a lot of famous "classical" works. Put Beethoven's 5th in your video about potato farming in russia, God might not be real and if she is she'd ALSO think it's funny.

Another problem: predictable cuts & generally uninspired editing. I know editing is a pain in the ass but, like, it IS still a creative process. You do have space to do interesting stuff here and, if you can't focus for that long, literally just make a shorter video.

It's okay if 95% of your transitions are purely functional, the trick is to make those 5% REALLY silly to keep your audience on their toes.

5. Tone

You don't need to be "an authority" on a topic to make a good essay about it. It helps but, as long as you're clear & honest about the limits of your understanding and you've done your due diligence, you almost certainly will be fine to talk about anything you want.

If you want to build credibility quickly, consider starting with disambiguation instead of dry recitation. Dates matter less to me than actually understanding a topic better. Even better if you come across like another autistic person infodumping about whales or w/e.

I'd keep going but my phone's gonna die. U get the gist. Lots of format problems that algorithm-brain is exacerbating.

[taegularities]

Hi lovely Rid 💕💕

I'm coming in with one of my irrelevant and possibly annoying rants™ that I haven't done in a while.

But the part in cmi blooming where Jungkook was talking about how OC isn't even meeting his standards, she's actually building them made me think of my crush and :((

I'm usually so so wary when I talk to guys because in my experience, sooner or later, they always say something that makes me feel weird or uncomfortable, like they start being misogynistic or homophobic, or they start treating me weird. And don't get me started on the toxic masculinity!!!

So when I started talking more to my crush and realising I like him, I thought that the more I got to know him, I would find out something about him that would put me off, like it usually happens. But this man is literally too perfect????

He is so intentional with all of his political and moral views, with the activism he's doing, with the way he's intentionally defying gender norms. If someone says something weird, like sexist or any other kind, he'll be the first to call the person out on it. None of it feels performative either, just really intentional because he realises his privilege and uses it for good. And he's so kind and caring too, listens so well and remembers things about his friend's interests. Like his whole films watchlist is full of his friend's favourite movies and he must have a friend who's an army too because every time we come to that topic he knows so much 🥺🥺 I was nervous about giving him my discord because it's got a jungkook profile pic and everything but he just started asking like isn't he in the military now etc. Literally the biggest green flag of a person.

He's the one currently setting the standard for me! And the problem is that I really don't think he likes me back and now I don't know who else will meet all these standards lmaoo. But when I'm not feeling pessimistic and I look at it from the bright side, he has genuinely restored a little bit of my faith in men (just like bts actually) Because if he exists then surely there are others like him, right 😔

Anyway, this is a bit of an aimless rant, just had to get that off my chest. But of course, cmi Jungkook is the ultimate standard and nobody can surpass him!!

Thank you for listening as always, Rid. Love you 💞💞💞

hi ivi, my sweetheart 🤍

reading smth so wholesome after attending meetings of 4.5h is 🥹 the way you talk about him is so incredibly endearing and made me beaaaaam!! and it fills me with hope once again that such wonderful people do exist. even if you only remain friends, i'm so happy you've found someone who helps you restore faith in humanity. he truly sounds amazing :D and isn't it freaking amazing how knowing the right person makes you realise just what you look for in people? like, having no type but finding a standard in someone amazing is such a grand and irreplaceable compliment. (you should tell him how cool he is 🥺 he'd love that, i bet 🥺)

i was already going to mention it before you said it yourself, but i think he's the ultimate proof that not everything in this world is rotten. i know love doesn't always come easy to us, and somewhere in us, the fear of being disappointed is always present. i guess that's how you know how much you value and cherish your heart and that you won't settle for hurt 🤍 but, while everyone always says this to me, i want to tell you, too, that awesome people come into our lives at just the right moment, and that if things truly do not work out with your crush, there'll be someone one day who'll make you believe in the best in people, too and who'll love you in ways you soooo deserve (although cmon, your crush is tooootally missing out!! 😁). but keep holding onto hope bc love and tenderness do exist and we'll alllll get our very own cmi jk one day for sure, and he'll worship the ground we walk on just as he does with oc 🥺🤍

none of your rants are aimless or irrelevant and least of all annoying. in fact, more!! lol i always miss them when you're away!! i actually apologise for rambling, too like odidgsududh :') love you, ivi, thank you for putting a smile on my face bc this msg was the most wholesome thing ever <3

[narwhalandchill]

anyway tho like. now that ive played the 1.2 story and sat on it a bit id say my overall thoughts are def mixed. i enjoyed a lot of it but theres some things that sorta just stick out or dont work and the pacing definitely worked against the story

(just a long rant/ramble upcoming its not coherent at all lol)

one thing that rly rubbed me the wrong way was like. while overall this story rly sold fu xuan as a character to me (i was a huge fan of her presence overall) the dan shu thing just felt? wrong? and like to be clear it wasnt just fu xuan the scenes writing was off in general but her role in being the one countering dan shus points just made her p central to the problem.

but like my issue is that dan shu is previously established as having very understandable reasons behind her resentment of lan that made her compelling as twist villain imo. Yet that resolve was nowhere in the scene in her rebuttal of the xianzhous ways?? when i think that shouldve been The moment of her calling out the xianzhou and actually challenging fu xuan properly. it wouldve been an even better opportunity to expand upon how fu xuan responds to being confronted with the xianzhous flaws and hypocrisy and problems. but somehow yassified dan shu really just. had a generic villain speech and thats it. the callback to their heritage as former followers of abundance was... fine? but like it wasnt that impactful. and fu xuan essentially calling her nothing but a power hungry villain when thats very much Not what dan shus motivation boils down to sucks and now players who didnt read her diary or play/pay attention to her side quest will think of her as just a generic bad guy and not a very tragic complex figure of her own

then the like. underutilization of blade was just like. ok what was the point. it IS funny to reference the tuxedo mask meme and how he skewers his ex yet immediately gangs up with him against yanqing and all but honestly he shouldve gotten to be more feral and present than he did like its just meh. ig its kafka keeping him from messing up elios script but cmon. i want more of him. yanqing also got done so dirty in that scene like. he shouldve gotten some more screentime and focus even if his job was p much to just get bodied. kid just watched jing yuan make deals with criminals no way he isnt affected by it

in general i was p shocked how inexistent the high cloud quintet was from the story. but ig w how rushed the pacing was for dan hengs backstory reveals at times already ig its better left for later (hopefully). i just rly hope this means that the topic get its time to shine properly in the future. esp since im p sure they never even named any of dan fengs crimes outright which is a curious choice.

jing yuan got a rly solid characterization and i definitely enjoyed it!!! even if im a little miffed at how they didnt give dan heng enough breathing room to come to terms with the emotional impact of facing his past and memories thanks to the plot moving forward so fast and he was kinda the one leading that. but he was still great - i liked the scheming side to him and the arguably pretty ruthless way he leveraged dan hengs exile status to force his hand to cooperate a lot. his reasoning makes sense obvi but its still a very brutal and utilitarian approach and i like that energy for his character. his duty is to the luofu above all else even if thats far from all he is about. overall his and dan hengs interactions including dan heng very much emphasizing his desire to be seen as separate from dan feng were a highlight for sure. and jing yuans final showdown moment against phantylia slapped obviously

and then w dan heng im torn between like. really loving all the good stuff we got with the insane cutscenes and the vidyadhara echoes and then wishing that he got just that little bit more for his own realizations and inner conflict. and the part about not properly featuring blade also hurt his story too imo bc the anticlimactic nature of the scene where blade confronts him and forces the transformation and how he n kafka just... leave rly kinda flattens the impact of the reveal moment esp since thats when jing yuan just all but openly says ok time for the plot. but they still did a great job selling DHIL and i think im overall a fan of how they seem to have handled the dan feng vs dan heng thing (and its roughly what i was expecting). dan feng is dead but its never just that simple either. i hope theyll be exploring the exact nature of dan fengs sins and the sedition in the future

im so mad i spoiled myself the tingyun thing bc jfc the neck snap wouldve hit So hard if the reveal itself was also a complete surprise. and its sth that was genuinely well built up like i remember thinking her 1.0 dialogue was kinda sus but wouldve never imagined the actual truth. dont do leaks folks sometimes this happens and it sucks :/ but i have to say phantylia herself was kinda? underwhelming. i liked when she picked up jing yuan like a little bug she wanted to squish and the boss fight was cool but to be fair. this was like 50% bc of how bad the sound mixing was for all of her dialogue that overlapped w in game battle. she rly lacks the necessary menace and imposing energy when u can barely even make out what shes saying 😭 her voice shouldve been as loud and large as her..... Presence. jing yuan carried the boss fight and the final cutscene but man the fade to black rly didnt do the abrupt ending any favors like we just teleport to exalted sanctum and thats it???? maybe jing yuan dies maybe not!!!

overall my prime issue is p much just how like. it feels like they shoved 3-4 mini arcs worth of stuff into one speedrun when all of them deserved more focus and exploration and the pacing rly got rough at times. it wasnt like inazuma level bad but it does get me wondering if hoyos just bad at doing these big conclusions to prior build up and holding the story threads tightly together until the end.

this comes off as super negative helpp but like. by no means did i hate all of it so dont take it the wrong way lmao. its more that there was good stuff there but also wasted potential. for the most part i was having a blast but to be fair that was 40% just playing blade ridiculously underleveled through it all. i only got him to lvl 80 for the boss fight

[anaalnathrakhs]

very much in the category of things that weren't my problem once, because i was a little kid, but are now just mine to deal with because it's not reasonable, either morally or practically, to expect other people to fix them for me, but, if i can complain for a second here

it's kind of fucked up that i've demonstrated or communicated struggles with schoolwork my whole life and not once has anybody found a solution beyond just not doing it.

like i'm endlessly grateful that i got that remedial high school thing to railroad me towards the graduation exams, and i did pass those sit-down exams like any other student, but you have to admit that the homework requirements (including graded work that does count on reports for the final grade) were lax. very lax. and so i've just taken a lot of time with assignments, procrastinated until the night before, never wrote shit down and worked on passable memory and "good enough"

and before that everything was just a mess. mail-in school i just wasn't doing shit. there were a lot of problems but also like WHAT am i supposed to do with my textbooks. what do i even do. what is studying like. what is it supposed to be. i don't fucking know. i've never really done my homework. i invented fake presentations homework that i liked to do instead of doing my actual homework, in elementary school. and i was like. not works of any kind. it was just repetition of actions that i liked. i didn't research or learn or read anything about the topic i gave myself. i don't fucking know.

it just, again, strikes me as a little fucked up that the system would allow every adult to shrug and say "clearly the problem is that this kid is way too smart. who's to say????? no prescribed course of action, what does the next person up think?" until we had solved precisely no issues and made me skip a year to harder classes (despite sucking ass at like everything besides good reading/writing levels)

and like SHIT i know it's up to me now to learn how to study and to manage my time and to make time, but holy fuck i don't know how. i don't fucking know. part of the "perks" of picking my cursus over others was that professors monitor your work and it's kind of a "learn to learn" kinda thing, a "learn to study" experience. and it's just fucking not. holy shit. the first week they all told us "well you got good grades in high school so by now you know how to study and how your memory works" NO I FUCKING DON'T NO I DON'T

in like 8th or 9th grade my parents sent me to a day-school kinda thing with my mail-in school stuff, and it was just like sitting in a room with a number of other people working on their own shit while the lady taking care of it sat at her desk and overlooked or chatted with adult students. it sucked for a number of reasons, but above all it did not fucking help. i did like one assignment there? two maybe? i was just staring at this shit. doodling and writing disjointed words. maybe sort of reading a bit the textbooks but i remember really struggling to get through and constantly re-reading everything. i remember my senses and looking at the clock and lots of stuff surrounding the experience but i sure didn't learn anything. and produced very little. i was stuck. it was in a bumfuck village, an hour away by car, i had nothing on me, my dad would just drop me off and i'd sit alone and stare at this shit with nobody to talk to and sometimes the lady running the place would tell me to work on it. i think she did give some more substantial advice on the few assignments that got done, but like, cmon. i spent hours upon hours, days upon days there. i does not work. i can still sit four full hours in an exam room and give back a blank sheet.

so here we are. i still don't know how to study. how to do homework. how to organize my time. i don't even know how i'd begin to organize the fuckton of paper we've been given since september. i sort of write down assignments on my phone but i bought a nice agenda for that and i gave up on using it because it's just too much effort to pull it out to write at the end of the class and to check it at home. i feel like i'm fucking drowning. i read one book i did manage one book (read one-shot) during winter break but that too. so much shit to read. how do you even organize that. how do you organize your time and your space for that. i know it's stupid that i'm sitting on my computer and have been since september instead of doing shit but christ. even in the beginning when i wasn't LATE i did try to just lock myself in front of the school supplies. jack shit. i don't know what to do.

and it feels like such an unsolvable problem, like WHAT are you supposed to do when you don't have the basic number one skill everyone who went through 1st through 4th grade has some degree of. what the fuck do you do. and every time i try and have tried to express it, people suck off my poor wittle self-esteem like oh no but you have good memory, your family has cultural capital, you have so much you can do it! and like. first of all cool dismissal. second of all i do not currently have the skills to exploit those useful things. you have to understand that i may be able to make surface-level reference and socially pass as somewhat intellectual because my parents are rich nerds who namedrop literature at the dinner table, but that's not a knowledge that goes beyond surface level, and if i have to actually use these books/concepts/etc as rhetorical tools or examples in an essay it will not make sense because i do not fucking know what i'm talking about. or, more probably, i will not be even able to construct a reflection to make or not make sense, because i don't know shit about my topic.

like. i have to fix it. problem: how? i thought picking this cursus would help fix it. i thought it would be more explanatory, that there'd be specific methods that would be taught to us, in general that the method would be more explicit. i thought that if my schoolwork was suddenly plentiful and particularly important, as well as covering topics i find interesting, it would both force me to prioritize it and lead my parents to leave me more wiggle room. only it didn't work and also i forgot that i owe all of my time to my parents and i'm literally parasitic anyway and anything i do is a burden on them even if i somehow were succeeding currently. extra fun.

and the best thing is: I SAW EVERYTHING COMING. i knew it would probably go like this ever since we got the summer homework sheet, if not even earlier, and i knew why, but i'm stupid. i still went. i worked on placating my mind the first few weeks to see if i was just being negative and it was actually going to be okay as long as i went into it with an open mind and good will. fuck me it did not happen.

[clouds-rambles]

On my mind: being close friends with Zhongli and Venti. Cute stuff that tends to be associated with romance but it's all platonic. Running around Mondstadt holding hands with Venti. Unceremoniously sprawling on each other like cats when resting. Writing poems for each other for Windblume. Giving Zhongli flowers out of the blue. Celebrating anniversaries of whatever is significant to you two/you three. Dancing together or going as a plus one to an elegant event...

Omg, this is amazing I love it

Return of the leader of the winds igig

Lets ignore the fact I haven’t even looked at my essay yet ;-;

Pairings; (Platonic) Zhongli (Morax) and Venti (Barbatos) x reader

Warning(s); fluff

Keep reading under the cut!

Over the centuries you have found yourself in the friendly company of the anemo and geo archons. 

While you are closer in age to Barbatos (give like four centuries) you see both Barbatos and Morax as close friends. You had only just gained a physical form at the end of the archon war you had often aided the adepti of Liyue before you settled down to helping the people of Mondstat. When you had first met Morax he was still suffering from the lost of Guizhong, you were very much a helpful hand to him. Especially since he didn’t want his adepti to see what kind of state the loss of his ex lover had left him in.

Not yet was Morax the refined gentleman that Zhongli is in the present. He still was clinging onto the title of God of War even though most of Liyue’s threats were gone

You had met Barbatos through whispers on the wind. While your title may be leader of the winds more often than not you are the advisor to the winds, someone they turn to ask questions. You never would have expected another wind spirit to ascend into a human body. Barbatos really did interest you. The first time you had met Barbatos was the first time he had donned his friends face. You let him cry with you that day

It’s been a long time since the three of you have all inhabited mortal bodies at once. And mostly forgotten are your godly names.

Zhongli

“Whisp my friend it’s been so long” Morax greets with open arms and a tight hug.

“Need I remind you that I’m going by [name] in this form, Morax?” you tease, Zhongli chuckles at you and shakes his head.

“Of course not my dear” he smiles “How about some tea?” You connect you pinky with Zhongli as the two of you walk through Liyue, just to keep a hold of him. And as a form of expression to the archon.

“So what do I owe the pleasure?” Zhongli asks, you smile up at him.

“Well I believe it’s coming close to the anniversary of our meeting” you tell the man.

“Three thousand years” Zhongli remembers “Give or take a decade, right?” he asks, you nod as you both sit down for tea.

“Ever the quick brain” you jest as you rummage about your pocket dimension.

“Yes, you appeared about a millennia before the end of the war” Zhongli thinks “Easy to remember in that regard” he adds, you nod with a laugh. You present a bunch of windwheel asters for the archon as a present.

“I thought maybe you’d like some of my favourite flowers as a gift” you explain with a smile “It isn’t often that we see each other so..” you trail off thinking of what the ex-archon would think about your gift. Zhongli smiles.

“It’s a great gift” he praises “I actually have a similar gift waiting at home for you” he confesses with a light chuckle

“Something with cor lapis I would presume” you guess with a giggle, Zhongli bows his head with a chuckle

“Seems as though we are as predictable as each other” he announces causing you to smile wide

“It would seem like it old friend” you tell him placing a hand on his

“Mr Zhongli what are you and [name] doing here?” Aether asks walking up to you

“We are old friends” he answers with a hint of nostalgia on his voice “We were just catching up” he adds smiling at you

“Oh uh.. sporry.. in that case-” Aether stutters

“Don’t worry about it traveller” you comfort with a smile

Venti

“Venti come down I want to go see the festival” you call up to the bard as he sits atop his own statue

“Why don’t you come up [name]?” he teases, you sigh and sit beside him. 

There’s a few moments of silence between the two of you before Venti breaks the silence.

“I’m proud of Mondstat, of the Windblume festival” he declares a forlorn look on his face. You feel a similar pain to the bard shoot through you

“Me too, that nun would have loved to see this” you tell the archon

“As would have that bard” Venti smiles

The silence between the two of you doesn’t last long. Just long enough to arrange your shared memories and enjoy the festival that honours the people both you and Venti saved

“I heard they’ve got something to commemorate Whisp this year” Venti teases causing your eyes to widen in curiosity “You know legends say that the leader of the winds loved writing poems” he adds, you laugh along with him

“The legends say that Barbatos also did” you tease back elbowing the bard. Venti grins at you

“Are we writing each other poems again this year?” he asks with a tilt of his head. You answer first with a scoff

“And break our long standing tradition? Of course we are” you answer

And that’s how you and Venti ended up basically laying over each other writing poems for each other while the bard should have been teaching his students how to make poems. You hum to get Venti’s attention, the said bard looks at you with a tilt of his head.

“If you had to choose a windblume what would it be?” you ask, Venti sighs and looks into your eyes for a few moments. “The bard would have been the Windblume” he answers. You smile at the man for a moment

“You know now I feel bad for telling the traveller that my windblume is the Windwheel aster” you joke lightening the topic, Venti rolls his eyes and giggles at you. 

“Cmon Tone Deaf Bard get off [name] and lets get gathering the homework” you hear Paimons voice shrill. You laugh as Venti frowns at the idea of having to do work in any capacity

“Uh we’re sorry for interrupting any-” Aether goes to cover up

“No it’s alright traveller!” Venti exclaims standing up “[name] and I were writing Windblume poems for eachother” he announces as he hides away the sheets of paper he was writing on into his pocket dimension

“Oh goodness, I’m so-” Aether tries to apologise

“Don’t give him the wrong idea Venti, you were slacking off” you interrupt “Don’t worry about interrupting Aether. He gave himself a job to do so make him finish it” you add with a grin

Venti sticks his tongue out at you as he runs off

-

Aether cannot help but keep getting the impression that you’re somehow dating both archons. But it doesn’t make sense does it? As much as Aether has seen you doing couply things with both the archons the most chemistry that happens between the three of you seems to be a friendship with a long history.

Aether wonders if maybe there’s more to you than meets the eye. Namely the lack of mortality you may possess

[hostilemuppet]

thoughts on c!eret? (and c!slimecicle if you want :D)

Erect is an odd one. I really like the concepts, I personally love stories that deal with topics of redemption as the central theme and not just a side plot for a previously minor antagonist (my comic is. All about it LOL) but I feel like with eret it kind of. Falls a little flat? Like how the cc keeps insisting the character did it bc she wanted the war to end, I didn’t watch erets early pov so take what I’m saying with a grain of salt but I’ve seen even eret stans say that she was actually coaxed with the promise of power? It feels like a retcon to make the character more sympathetic which does nothing but make the arc about redeeming herself to the people she hurt feel less effective (not that her having good intentions erases the hurt she’s done to others, but it’s hard to root for her journey to forgiveness when it’s unclear what she’s supposed to be forgiven for)

And during the stream where she was gathering supplies for the ambush of Sam, she kept making jokes about how Awful sams betrayal was and how you’d have to be a Huge Asshole to betray someone like that. Which just... made any sympathy fizzle out, at least for me. And it became super unclear whether it was meant to be the character saying those, so the audience knows the character is a massive hypocrite, or the cc saying it, in which case it’s just jokes.

For slimecicle, MWAH perfect. I love the different take on immortality than what we got with foolish; while foolish was active, Creating destruction, Charlie was passive, Watching it happen. The way they have such different histories that culminate in opposite viewpoints on the world and humanity is such a good aspect of each of their characters to analyse. But specific to Charlie, his development, albeit quick due to the format, was very good. The “everyone ends up bones and dust so nothing matters” outlook to cherishing the time he spent with someone who would die some day, because he learns to appreciate the present instead of seeing it as just a stepping stone to the barren future. You root for him to grow past his nihilistic outlook and develop an optimistic one, which is a good contrast to purpled, who doesn’t and ends up taking his first life.

There are no major faults for me to pick apart for him, the only things that irk me are random things, like treating him like a child for his autistic traits or acting like he’s dead when he just lost the one life and is off somewhere doing god knows what. Cmon guys. There’s “missing subtext” and then there’s “ignoring what was explicitly stated in the text itself”

[mandoalorian]

Hello sweetheart,

You’re headcanons give me some solace during these crazy times. I was wondering if you could do headcanons about what kinds of movie genres the boys would be into. I think you would have some creative ideas for them.

Hi darling, thank you for the request & i’m sorry it’s come a little late. I hope you enjoy! ❤️

Warnings: no warnings, other than themes of a sexual nature in Oberyn’s!

This isn't showing up in tags so REBLOGS are appreciated!

Masterlist

The Pedro Boys & Their Favourite Genre of Movies

Din Djarin

Poor man hasn't watched a movie in his life. He wouldn't see the big deal over them, but that's because he's never spent time indulging in one. There is simply no way of telling what his preference of genre would be!

Maxwell Lord

Maxwell loves older movies. He likes black and white movies, and Hollywood pieces from the 50s. It was those movies that gave him the stereotypical vision of America when he was younger. They inspired him and planted a sense of ambition within him. He loves the glamour of it all, and the traditional story telling. He's definitely one for the classics. Marilyn Monroe. James Dean. Audrey Hepburn. etc.

Frankie Morales

Please don’t k*ll me, but Frankie likes typical male saviour movies. Ones with fighting and shooting and ones where the protagonist always ends up with the girl in the end. He just gets lost in them and he thinks they're cool. He's not picky though, and he'll watch most things with you. That's just his preference.

Ezra

He likes movies based on history and literature. He also likes ones that are a little confusing and take a lot of contemplating. He likes think-pieces, and movies with open endings that he can interpret for himself. He's not someone for closure and he enjoys using his imagination to wonder what happens next.

Oberyn Martell

He loves drama movies. The ones with big, crazy plot twists and that have you yearning for more. The ones that make you audibly gasp in shock. Oberyn has an explicit fantasy too. He wants to watch a dirty movie with you and act out the scenes. He thinks it would make for a fun roleplaying game and it's an excellent way to spice up what's going on in the bedroom.

Marcus Pike

He loves those cheesy Hallmark romance movies. The ones that always repeat on day-time television. He's not ashamed about liking these movies either. He indulges in them often and finds them so comforting. He hopes one day he can find a romance just like the romances presented in those films.

Javier Peña

Poor Javier doesn't really get the chance to watch movies. If he's paying attention to anything on the television, it'll be the news. If Javier liked anything though, it's movies from his childhood where the characters speak his native language. Reminicing on his youth through consuming media like this, is really comforting to Javi. It helps him escape from the harsh reality that is his life.

Max Phillips

I can't tell you what movie genres he loves, but I can tell you he hates Twilight with a burning passion. No, he actually hates that movie, and he is very vocal about it. "Vampires aren't even like that," he'll mutter, offering you a roll of his eyes. "This is stupid. This is dumb. Since when do vampires sparkle in the sunlight?"

Dave York

Whatever you do, don't check Dave's Netflix history. It's concerning, to say the least. He watches murder documentary after murder documentary. He indulges in how they did it, and specifically takes interest in how they got caught. He's not really interested in movies per-se. Sure he'll sit down with Alice and Molly and watch Zootopia, but his real interest lies in making himself become a better serial killer.

Jack Daniels

He loves spy movies. Honestly, his favourite is Spy Kids. He'll never tell you that though. Jack thinks of himself as some kind of James Bond, and everytime he watches a spy movie, he gets the urge to go out on some kind of secret mission and save the world. He'll parkour around the house. These movies bring him an air of confidence.

Marcus Moreno

He likes sci-fi. Things like Star Wars and Star Trek, and a little bit of fantasy too. He enjoys franchises like Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter. He's definitely a binge watcher and he loves to settle down over the weekend with Missy and just watch movie franchise with her. They'll eat a lot of popcorn and fast food and it's truly his favourite way to spend time with his daughter.

Javi Gutierrez

Oh cmon, Nic Cage movies. Can Nic Cage be a genre in himself? I think so. We also know that Paddington 2 is his all time favourite movie. I do think Javi loves kids movies. He knows that they'll always have a happy ending and they bring him a level of comfort. I think Javi suffers from anxiety, but watching Disney animated movies soothes him and helps him escape from reality.

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[evarcana]

Courtiers + Christmas

Sorry, dear anon, it took me ages 😓 well at least I did it before xmas, right?

To avoid the whole discourse about why the bunch of demons and one morally corrupted human are celebrating Christmas, I should say that this is based on the MC inviting the courtiers to celebrate together.

Valdemar🎄😈

Not like they usually pay attention to silly human holidays. But if it is you inviting... “how delightful” - of course Valdemar is coming. The problem is that in their millennia of existence being busy with their research they sort of missed out on what Christmas was about. “MC, don’t give me that look, this is all fairly new”, you don’t even want to what is old for them. But it’s Valdemar so they lock themselves in dungeons and put all their inhuman determination into researching Christmas.

Valdemar’s research is ...advanced. After they excitingly start telling you whether you knew that red in decorations symbolises blood, you decide it’s time to intervene, hand Valdemar list of gifts to buy and encourage them to return to their usual work (who would believe you would ever say it).

They turn to the party/dinner dressed as Santa (or whatever equivalent). Are you shocked? Erm yes... But why are other guests loving it ?! Well they did become sort of xmas expert in less than a week so you guess it’s okay. Expects lots of stories on how Christmas celebrations developed over the last centuries.

Charms your grandma or elderly auntie by being the only person capable of listening about their chronical conditions and actually engaging on the topic. Your little niece/neighbour’s kid loves them too - they expertly removed all those bits of turkey leg they don’t like to eat in less than 5 seconds. Everybody loves them. But Valdemar still spends most of the time telling what a fascinating specimen you are.

When it comes to gift exchange part, you are glad that they only added a few medical books, plague masks and antiseptics to the list, could be worse.., but where is yours present? “You, my little silly duckling, are on the naughty list this year” with this Valdemar gently throws you in their sack grabs you and excuses you both from the party. You try to protest but they only say that they played along for long enough and now it’s their turn to play little game with you. Oh well you can leave early one year, it promises to be worth it.

Valerius 🎁🍷

Every year Valerius receives plenty of invitations to winter holidays parties arranged by the nobles but this is the first time he got invitation to something that personal. Tells you that he needs to check his diary and finally reluctantly agrees only because “there was a rather unfortunate cancellation”. But really in his head he is like “Omg does it mean that I am part of the family now? Cancel all plans NOW.”

Then he learns that you plan to have Christmas dinner/party at your place. The consul of Vesuvia to go to that ...shack?? That’s unthinkable: The party will be in his estate, yes he knows that it’s incredibly generous of him to offer and no you cannot refuse.

And this is when things are getting extra. You know that crazy neighbours competitions whose Christmas lights are brighter and decorations are better? That’s Valerius, although he has nobody to compete with really. The massive xmas tree got delivered from who-knows-where and who-knows-how in 2 days, and there is no red, golden or green decoration item left in stock in entire Vesuvia, oh and some the palace’s best cooks suddenly took a sick leave for a week (no it was Valerius promising them triple wages).

You ask Valerius not to get any expensive presents, otherwise you will feel bad, he did indeed agree that it was reasonable suugestion. Everybody gets presents more expensive than life. The guests surpringly find Valerius a very good host, this might have something to do with those gifts which were definitely extra or with the fact that everybody got merry in like 20 min thanks to all the fancy wine. Valerius is gossip central, argues about politics with your annoying uncle and plays board games with children.

Insists that it would be better if you stay overnight and not travel home late. Falls asleep in chair with drink in hand like an old man. Later that chair somehow migrates to the hallway by the guest bedroom, under the strategically placed mistletoe. Wait, where did red silky robes come from? All planned. Let’s hope that the unfortunate relative of yours is not staying in the same guestwing.

Vlastomil 🎅🏻 🪱

It’s lovely of you to invite him but he is a busy worm man and cannot really leave his children alone. Maybe he can just stop by? “No, MC! Don’t get offended!!”

Then he learns that Christmas is usually about family, does it mean that his children can come as well?? Ugh while you are mumbling something about that worms may not be very comfortable at your place, Vlastomil decides that the Christmas party will be held in his garden so the worms everybody can enjoy it.

Prepare to have a ...thematic Christmas. There is white xmas tree decorated with the shimmery worms and candy canes which have worms wrapped around them. Okay, even you are not the biggest fan of worms you have to admit that the ice sculptures of worms are quite impressive. He even has little nativity scene but with the worms.

Everybody receives crystal tree decoration baubles with live worms inside. Everybody is shocked. Vlastomil explains that it’s only stocking fillers and there are more gifts. (Also crystal baublesare only for transportation, the worms need to be free range, how dare you). The actual gifts are... amazing. Somebody got a scarf that they liked but didn’t have enough money to buy on that day, another person got a album of pin up pictures of snake women even if it was supposed to be a secret interest of theirs and you got that sparkly princess teara you cried for your parents to buy at age 5 but they never did (cmon, x years later, you still like it).

Some little child says that Vlastomil is like Santa with how you he magically read people’s wishes (there there, little one, it’s just the power of gossip), but Vlastomil is vibing: wiggler gets elf outfit from somewhere and you get lots of invitations to “come to sit on Santa’s lap”. Yes you can stay there after all the guests leave (and yes you can keep your sparkly teara on).

Volta 🍪🥛

Was secretly dreaming to be invited since at least October. But is still genuinely surprised when you ask her to come. She asks tonnes of questions: who else is coming, are you sure they would like Volta, what are you going to do, will there be food?

Volta wants to help you with all the preparations. Not like she is super useful but she did dig out from the piles of stuff in her estate and bring you lots of old tree decorations and some nice tableware. She basically spends all your time with you in the build up to Christmas: you decorate the house together, make gingerbread houses (well more like you made one house from the 1000s attempt, they all got eaten before they were actually completed) and pack gifts for everybody.

You warned all the guests that there going to be lots of food this year, and no you finally don’t need to worry about what to do with the leftovers and crying “end me, I am sick of having xmas food for 10 days in a row” because they are not going to be any leftovers. But you didn’t expect Volta to turn up with even more food. “Volta does not want anybody to starve on Christmas!”. She surely eats lots but she is also looking after other people lots, passing them plates with food (just imagine her holding it with both of her tiny hands) and topping up their drinks, she wants everybody to enjoy the dinner.

Everybody at the table is talking of how adorable Volta is, and nobody can even hide tears when Volta presents little hand made gifts that she prepared herself. But Volta humming Christmas carols? How does she even know Christmas carols? This is illegal level of cuteness.

Volta wants to stay to help you to clean up when the dinner is over. It’s quite and it’s only two of you. Oh you might still have some sweet things in the cupboard.

Vulgora🔥🌟

At first super excited to be invited but the next second they ask what is Christmas about and what does it involve. You decorate, eat, chat to people and exchange gifts? That sounds awfully boring to Vulgora. Can they at least smash the tree in the end? What do you mean - NO?!?!

Eager to help too. They need to use their energy somewhere. You are not sure whether it’s the type of help you wanted. You asked them to carry the xmas tree from the market? There are 5 trees in front of the house, one of which is like is almost 10’ tall. You asked them to chop some wood for the fire? Well, there is enough to have a bonfire in the towncentre. But on the positive side, your house is lavishly decorated this year, Vulgora likes the red and golden theme.

Lots of battle stories at the dinner, some of which ...lack xmas spirit a bit. All the gifts are...war themed. Then Vulgora gets bored and wants to fight for the right to cut the turkey/ vegan nut roast, whatever you are having. Oh no. But they can smash nuts with their gauntlets - the guests are impressed and suddenly want more battle stories. On the positive side, it’s definitely not boring this year, Vulgora is load and energetic.

But then suddenly Vulgora suggests you all go outside, when you question them, they say it’s a surprise. It’s hard to believe what you see: they prepared fireworks and sparkle fountains !!! You cannot help but smile watching vulgora excitingly running around setting them all off (but hopefully not setting your house on fire).

You watch firework lighting up the sky with Vulgora hugging you from behind and then..they rugby tackle you to the ground?! Well whether there is snow or not, they want to have a fight. Luckily the fireworks are over and the guests can just...leave you two to it.

[another-dr-another]

{Oh shit um. They lied about something else which proved they couldn't kill Kurokawa???}

Maeda - Now I get it!

Maeda - Process of elimination, right? We know timing was fine, since no one saw the culprit, and the drugging went off fine...

Maeda - So there must be other stuff we're overlooking.

Hatano - Well, as culprit, wouldn't they wanna try to shift the blame to someone else?

Yamaguchi - Odds are, they tried to convict someone a few times, but didn't go too far with it!

Hatano - What makes ya say that?

Yamaguchi - Tsurugi said he knew who they are, they already know they've made mistakes, so they try and get the classes opinion swayed to someone else!

Yamaguchi - But if they go too forceful, the class would suspect them, and next thing they know, they're being prosecuted,

Yamaguchi - And Tsurugi comes in to explain how they did it!

Kobashikawa - I retract all previous questions about the validity of your talent.

Taira - Yamaguchi certainly earned a place here with his past...

Yamaguchi - Eh?

Taira - ...Your mother hired me for a month or so to come by once a week and tidy up, after your first case.

Taira - Very very messy.... very good pay, by extension.

Uehara - Talent talk, talent talk, talent talk!

Uehara - Christ... Maeda, we're still solidarity on not knowing how we got in, right?

Maeda - For sure...

Maki - God I wish that were me.

Tsurugi - After like, therapy, my first priority when we get out is totally gonna be getting my talent changed.

Mekaru - Still odd to me that a school like Hopes Peak wouldnt factor something like that in...

Mekaru - Anyways, on the topic of school, Maeda, wanna go back to your little presentation?

Maeda - Huh?

Mekaru - Just a joke about how you're kinda just explaining to the class how things happened, like a presentation!

Mekaru - But anyways, I just figured we should get back on track, and you should keep going about the case.

Maeda - ...That's all I got.

Ōtori - Huh? Really?

Maeda - What's that supposed to mean?!

Hatano - Well, you've kinda been solving a lot of stuff up until now, I was expecting you to work it out...

Maeda - The sole experience I have with this is a week of debate prep in Elementary Sixth, and glorified crime shows I'd put on for background music!

Yamaguchi - Don't you have a violent past or something though?

Tomori - You've just assumed that about him...

Inori - I mean, if you haven't reached a conclusion, maybe we're looking at this wrong?

Tsurugi - Ah... that's not the case...

Hatano - Cmon Maeda! Show me how smart you are, but some passion in and think!

Maeda - You're all expecting too much of me!

Taira - Oh really?

Taira - What was everything leading up to this then, a lucky guess?

Taira - And now the good luck of getting so far is turning to bad luck of not putting it together... seems awfully karmic to me.

Maeda - I feel... sick...

Tomori - ...Makes sense, this seems stressful to say the leas-!

Maeda - ...

Tomori - Oh! Maeda, you're starting to hyperventilate, okay? Focus on me, try to ignore everything els-

Higa - Do we really have time for this? Let the freak cry in the corner or something, and move on.

Maki - Holy shit, do you actually think any of us are gonna agree with you?

Yamaguchi - Cmon dude, I know being in a room with elites can be scary, but you're freaking us out, pull it together!

Iranami - It doesn't work like that...

Maki - They don't have a point, but Maeda? You do kinda need to calm down, save the breakdown for later.

Iranami - ...Or like that, either.

Tsurugi - Hey, can everyone stop for a sec? It's overwhelming to have that kinda reaction and attention on you, especially when already breaking down.

Tsurugi - ...Good, good, thank you all! Now, Maeda? You hear me okay? Look at me if you can; you don't have to make eye contact, just look over here.

Tsurugi - Thank you!

Tsurugi - It'll be okay! Here here here, breath with me, okay?

Tsurugi - Tomori taught you 4-7-8 earlier, right? Let's do that together!

Tsurugi - In for 4, hold for seven, out for eight. Inhale...

Maeda - ...

Tsurugi - Hold...

Maeda - ...

Tsurugi - Exhale... there you go, you're already doing great! Keep doing that, lemme explain what we're gonna do.

Tsurugi - I know you're overwhelmed, so let's talk out just who the culprit is. Just a simple conversation!

Tsurugi - If you don't get the same thing I did, that's okay! You'll be bringing up things I haven't thought about, or things I need to change.

Tsurugi - And even if it isn't helpful, it's okay to make mistakes!

Tsurugi - Then, when you understand, you can explain it to everyone, if you'd like. I'll be there the whole time to back you up and defend your answer!

~*~

Tsurugi - So we've already established the culprit was thrown off and panicked, and was making mistakes.

Tsurugi - So, they repeatedly lied about things, to try and subvert the blame. And we just trusted what they said,

Tsurugi - Then when they kept being proven wrong, we didn't question why someone with their expertise would mess up.

Tsurugi - And in fact, it was only when we ignored what they were saying on the case, something they actively fought against,

Tsurugi - That we started to realize what had happened.

Tsurugi - They claimed that they weren't physically capable of the murder, but the wounds they inflicted and how they impacted me...

Tsurugi - And assumedly Kurokawa, would've enabled them to pull off the murder; there was no other reason for them to attack where they did.

Tsurugi - They couldn't lie about cause of death, because I was able to work that out, but they suggested a weapon they didn't use,

Tsurugi - When this student, especially known for being a bit... odd with how they work when it comes to their talent, would likely have a drill in their room.

Tsurugi - They've even tried to throw suspicion on others, but like what's been assumed, they didn't press too hard, and ultimately tried not to bring attention to themselves.

Tsurugi - When they were speaking up, it was either trying to distract us from a conclusion we were making, divide us on incriminating evidence,

Tsurugi - Or defend themselves when they seemed suspicious.

Tsurugi - I mean, even just a few seconds ago, they were trying to get us to change our minds on our facts!

Tsurugi - The culprit is someone who was interested in others and how they reacted to the motive, and is someone who acknowledged that they could've drugged me...

Tsurugi - It's always been... incredibly hard for me to handle this sort of thing, where someone who could've had a great life was manipulated into something bad,

Tsurugi - And knowing what lies ahead of the culprit, I can't help but feel terrible for them, especially if I'm right on their motive.

Tsurugi - But Kurokawa deserves justice, she shouldn't have died for caring!

Tsurugi - So, Maeda? Think you know who it is?

~*~

Maeda, narrating - ...

Maeda - Time to make my selection.

{Select the Culprit}

[everybody-loves-purdy]

dude are the erins okay? like these books have both

- toxic relationships, that are only really framed as toxic from the male POV / the female POV characters are expected to stay in those relationships

- acknowledgement that the system of how things are needs to change (like cmon forbidden relationships are so common in warriors that its a MEME) but the refusal to actually change the system because 'muh ancestors'

like blink twice if you need help bestie we'll come save you cat politics writing mfs

Don’t forget the ableism!

But yeah it astounds me that even with a whole team of people planning the stories now are like “yep this is a good idea to present this positivly to children” with certain topics and I guess they just don’t want to change up the status quo with this forbidden relationships thing (although signs are hopefully pointing to the code maybe changing soon I hope )

[macyrae]

Rhett and Link: Grandparents

If you would have told Rhett and Link that they would share a grandchild, they would never have believed you. Yet, here they stand just outside the delivery room, waiting anxiously to meet their granddaughter.

They would both switch from sitting down to standing up to pace the small waiting room. Jessie and Christy remained seated lightly sipping their coffee and watching their husbands move around the room. Lily sat sideways in a chair, her legs dangling off the side while she ate some chips and loosely listened to her mom and Jessie talk. Locke sat next to Lily, occasionally stealing some of her chips. Link sat down and watched as Rhett paced. He patted the seat next to him.

“Come sit down. You're makin' me nervous." Rhett sat down and wiped his hands on his knees. Lily and Locke watched them both and laughed. "Were you this nervous when we were born?” Lily spoke and motioned her bag of chips between her and Locke. Rhett and Link just looked at them with a dumbfounded look on their faces, which caused Lily and Locke to laugh even more. "No." Jessie looked at the two as they burst into laughter. "Listen. I've never really been on this side of the experience. I was in the room for all 3 of you and in there everything seems to go faster.” Link spoke and looked to Rhett for an add-on. "This is totally different.” Rhett spoke in a serious tone now. "We're talking about a surrogate. I'm nervous for multiple reasons. But mostly just excited. And impatient." Rhett looked to Link, they both smiled at each other. Rhett felt a hand on his leg, it was Jessie's. They all sat in silence for a moment before Rhett spoke once more. “Where is Lincoln?" he turned his body towards Link as he asked. Link looked at him and pushed his glasses up. “He said he was on his way a little bit ago." Link waved his hand and looked at his watch.

The group sat there for another 15 minutes before Lincoln finally arrived. "Well, hello there son." Link spoke as Lincoln sat down next to Locke. Lincoln responded with a simple, “Sorry”. Lily broke the silence after a beat by catching Lincoln up on the state of their father and his best friend. As they all laughed, Shepard came around the corner. He smiled as everyone raised to their feet. A nurse stood behind him. "You all can come back now.” Shepard spoke nervously. They all followed Shepard and the nurse.

They entered a regular hospital room, only this one had a crib, changing table, a chair and small couch. The nurse left them as they all entered the room behind Shepard. They were greeted by Lando, holding a baby girl while sitting in a small rocking chair. He looked up to see his family, he had tears in his eyes as Shepard came over and crouched next to the chair and place a small kiss on his daughter’s head. Lando looked up to his Rhett and Link who were, of course, at the front of the line to meet their granddaughter. Link held his hands up to his chin, and Rhett put one arm behind Link’s back as they slowly inched closer. They both went around to the back of the chair and looked down over Lando’s shoulder. Jessie and Christy watched with tears in their eyes. Anxious to get a turn holding the newborn. Lily, Locke, and Lincoln hung in the back, trying not to cry. Lily took a quick photo of Rhett and Link watching their sons with their newborn child. Rhett softly spoke through tears, “She’s beautiful.” He bent down and place a hand on Shepard’s shoulder and squeezed. Shepard put his hand on Lando’s as he held their daughter, brushing at her face every now and again. The room set quiet for a minute, the silence broken by small cries from Nora, their brand new daughter. She scrunched her nose and wiggled her arms up and down. Shep and Lando looked to her and watched their daughter try to open her eyes.

Link looked up for a moment to Rhett, tears pooling in his eyes. “Oh my gosh, Rhett.” He placed a hand on the taller man’s back and rubbed up and down. “When do I get a turn now Cmon?” Rhett spoke anxiously through tears. Everyone laughed and Lando stood up from the chair along with Shepard, who had been crouched on the floor. He maneuvered to the front of the chair and sat down, with Link remaining in his place, watching his son hand his granddaughter to his best friend, and other grandad, or papaw-as Rhett said he was to be called. While Link would be pappy. They both had big smiles on their faces, and Link bent down over Rhett’s shoulder to look at Nora better. Both of them whispered baby talk while watching her wiggle around. They even started whispering, “I can’t believe this,” and “Would you have ever imagined?” To each other. Eventually everyone got their turn to hold baby Nora. They sat in the room for the better part of 2 hours before a nurse came in and took Nora to be fed. Shepard sat in the chair with Lando loosely sat in his lap, with Rhett, Link, Christy, and Jessie sat on the couch. Lily, Locke, and Lincoln ended up leaving since it was midnight and they were very tired. The six of them sat in the room for about an hour, waiting for the nurse to bring Nora back. The two older couples gave their advice on taking care of a newborn, Link and Christy telling them about taking care of a baby girl. The boys listened and laughed tiredly along with them. They eventually fell into normal conversation when Shepard fell asleep, with his arms tight around Lando’s waist, who sat on Shepard’s lap, leaning against his chest. Lando slowly turned his head around then looked over to Rhett and Link. He smiled at them, and Rhett and Link watched the two for a moment as Lando settled back against Shepard and closed his eyes. Shep buried his face in the crook of Lando’s neck and breathed deeply. They both fell asleep peacefully, taking a small moment.

Rhett looked over to where Christy and Jessie sat on the opposite end of the couch, they had fallen asleep as well. Link leaned his head on Rhett’s shoulder and they fell back against the couch. Link grabbed onto Rhett’s arm, and Rhett returned the favor by rubbing Link’s arm and up and down. They sat a talked for a moment before falling into silence. Both of them thinking of their two boys, and their journey. Here these two were, an almost spitting image of Rhett and Link, with a child of their own. Rhett and Link still remember when they told them they were going together.

*****flashback*****

Rhett had just came outside the pool where he was grilling steaks for Shepard’s graduation party from high school. Link was already by the grill, cleaning it for his best friend. It was a small party, just them and some of Shepard’s friends from school. While Rhett already knew Shepard was gay, Shep had never been in a relationship. It was actually a topic of conversation for Rhett and Link that day while they cooked and prepared for the graduation party.

“I just hope he knows that, we completely accept him. And I don’t want him to be afraid to get into a relationship.” Rhett spoke to Link, they were still outside by the grill as they watched their wives decorate the outside area. “I hear ya. I feel the same way about Lando. I don’t want him to feel like he’s not accepted or wanted. He is, and your boy is too. I mean, I’m extremely proud of their bravery.” Rhett didn’t respond to Link, but only started laughing to himself. “Could you imagine our boys going together?” He paused what he was doing and turned to look at Link, he whispered it almost but laughed. Link smiled at him, “Wouldn’t that be something.” They both laughed and continued cooking. “I bet you,” Rhett paused for a moment, “I bet you, a dollar that they are going together.” Link looked up to Rhett and pushed his glasses up his face, stepping to the side so Rhett could block the sun from his eyes. “A whole dollar?” Link said sarcastically serious, which caused them both to laugh. “So, if they aren’t then you give me a dollar? And if they are, I give You a dollar?” Link questioned. “Yeah. Deal?” Rhett held out his hand, Link shrugged his shoulders, then shook his friends hand.

When the party wrapped, the Neals stayed behind to help clean up. They all settled in the kitchen, sparking conversation amongst each other while Shepard waved the last of his friends goodbye. Shepard came into the kitchen and sat down next to Lando on one of the bar stools, he leaned forwards with his arms on the table, same as Lando. They leaned forward, their heads hung down, staring at the kitchen counter, their elbows grazing each other’s. Rhett, Link, Jessie, and Christy stood in the middle of the kitchen, leaned against the counter and frame. Rhett silently nudged Link’s arm, and motioned with his head to their boys sitting next to each other at the counter. They both watched them rub their elbows microscopically together. Link thought to himself, “just like we did back then.” He smiled at them slightly, hearing them giggle with one another. The boys eventually looked up when the realized the room had gone quiet. They were greeted with their parents staring at them smiling. Shepard and Lando moved away from each other and looked away from their parents’ stares.

“You owe me a dollar.”

*****present*****

Link smiled as he rested his eyes against his friends shoulder, enjoying the memory of seeing their two boys together, cut to now, them sleeping peacefully together in a hospital room awaiting their daughter’s return. Rhett’s arm fell limp against Link’s, he knew he was asleep now. He sat there, taking in the moment, trying not to think too hard about Rhett, and imagining what their sons have. Cause once upon a time ago, in a different universe, this was Rhett and Link. Both of them had talked about it over a few drinks, how the multiverse was real and there’s no way in hell that they weren’t together in at least one of these universes. Link pondered the thought for a moment before nestling deeper into Rhett’s side, letting his head move against Rhett’s rising and falling chest. Link then let his hand fall to Rhett’s hand, that has fallen down to Link’s leg. He spun the ring on Rhett’s finger, and it brought him back to when Shepard proposed to Lando, and their -eventful- wedding.

*****flashback*****

Shepard and Lando had been dating for 3 years now, even planning on finally moving in together not far from their homes in California. But now it was Fourth of July, which meant they were back home in North Carolina. Shepard had been planning it for months, but it had been on his mind for pretty much the entire time him and Lando had been together. He remembers talking to his dad about it, and letting the words, “I’m gonna marry him one day.”, slip from his mouth without even thinking. So, when Shepard felt they were ready, he started planning it around their trip to North Carolina. He told his dad about the plan, and of course, he spoke to Link.

Link was welcomed into the McLaughlin household where he sat down with Rhett and Shepard at the dinner table for an “important discussion.” Rhett explained to Link that Shepard had something to ask Link. Of course it didn’t hit Link right away, but just hearing Shepard say, “Mr. Neal.” Link knew right away, which of course the name made him laugh and cry almost instantly. Rhett was doing the same, watching his son express his love for his best friend’s son, and asking for his hand in marriage, as a man should. Shepard cried through the whole exchange and smiled along with Link and his dad. When Shepard was finished with his “proposal” to propose to Link’s son, Link stood from his seat and hugged Shepard tightly. “Of course, son.” He spoke while he hugged the boy in front of him. Shepard was the same height as Link now, clearly he was now a man. They proceeded to tell Link of Shepard’s plan. Link made sure to keep the exchange quiet- not even telling Christy until a week before they were to leave for NC.

The festivities were like every other year, setting fireworks off on the dock of the lake. They sat on the grass, the yard lit up with explosions of light coming from the sky. Shep and Lando sat upon a blanket on the grass, with Shep’s arm around Lando, leaning close together as they watched the fireworks. When the show ended, Rhett casually suggested that they all take photos on the dock before heading inside. He and Link lit up the dock with torches and watched as Shep held onto Lando’s hand and let him down to the dock. Christy and Jessie guided the “photo shoot” making sure to get a few good photos before the proposal. They both moved over to their husbands, and watched as the boys turned to face the lake. Their fingers interlocked, Lando could tell Shepard was nervous, but took it as nervousness from both their parents staring at them. Which of course, their parents eventually hung back a little further form the boys, towards to edge of the grass leading to the dock, to give them space, but just close enough to hear. They all watched as Shepard turned and hugged Lando, Lily was set with the job of taking photos and recording- Lincoln and Locke set with the task of setting off fireworks when the proposal happens. The boys stood swaying for a moment, Lando planting a quick kiss on Shepard’s lips. Shepard held Lando’s hands in his, looked into his eyes, and spoke.

“Lando.” Shepard’s voice was shaking and tears were already forming in his eyes, as well as everybody else’s. “I hope you know how much I love you. And I’ve wanted to be with you for such a long time. I don’t know how we went so long without going together. Because now, I don’t even want to spend another minute without you by my side.” Shepard held onto Lando’s hands tight, swaying them with emphasis on his words. “There truly are no words to describe how I feel about you, and you know I’m not one to get too sappy or emotional. But all I want, is to spend the rest of my life making you as happy as you make me happy.” Shepard looked to Lando, who was now crying and laughing. Shepard paused for a beat before releasing his hands from Lando’s, and reaching into his pocket where he pulled out the ring. Lando put his hands to his mouth, and pulled on his shirt collar. Shepard bent down and got on one knee and opened the ring box.

“Will you marry me?”

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The video played at the reception while everyone enjoyed their meals. Shepard and Lando sat at the front of the room, watching the video. They both smiled, looking upon that memory and listening to their families reaction. Not realizing what they were even saying during that moment. Of course their parents had to throw together a video for them, putting embarrassing photos of them as babies and videos of them spending time together. The video ended, then Rhett and Link stood from their seats and went to the stage, where two mic stands and a guitar awaited them. Rhett spoke into the microphone first while putting the guitar strap around him.

“Hello everybody. Uh, I’m Shepard’s dad. If you didn’t know that-why are you here?” Link laughed along with everybody else. “I think they know that.” Link spoke and waved his hand to the crowd. “I’m Lando’s dad by the way.” Link spoke, imitating his friend. Everyone laughed once more before Rhett spoke, “Anyway. Link and I,” Rhett turned his head to look at Shep and Lando, who were sat at their table, just by the stage. “We wanted to perform your ‘first dance’ song. We hope that you like it-if not, don’t tell us that.” They both laughed as they stood and walked to the middle of the dance floor. “Yes, please just- pretend to like it boys.” Link spoke before he turned to Rhett and they counted to start playing. Shep and Lando started dancing when Rhett started strumming his guitar, then Link started with the first verse.

“You give me chills on a summer day. When were laying still but you make my heart race. Gonna keep me young when we’re old and grey. I know that time moves on. But some things don’t change.” Both Rhett and Link joined in for the chorus. “I won’t stop getting butterflies, I get em every time I look into your eyes. You won’t stop running through my mind for the rest of both our lives. You give me butterflies.” The guys continued to alternate and play on while they watched their boys have their first dance, trying to remain steady and not cry while watching and singing. The song came to a close and the boys ended their dance with a kiss. Everyone cheered.

*****present*****

The sounds seemed to be fading out and away from Link’s memory. He suddenly jolted awake to see Rhett’s face. “Cmon man. It’s late let’s go.” Rhett stood over Link. He held out a hand, which Link took and raised up. He looked over to Lando and Shepard who were no longer asleep, but holding their baby girl, swaying her to sleep.

“I’ll talk to you boys tomorrow morning, love you both.” Link walked over to them and place a hand on their shoulders before leaning down to place a small kiss on Nora’s head. “See you tomorrow miss Nora.” Link whispered and gave them a small smile before meeting Rhett in the hallway. Jessie and Christy had already left. Letting Rhett know before hand, but decided to let Link sleep just a little bit longer.

“You sleep good, bo?” Rhett nudged Links elbow with his while they walked down the hallway.

Link smiled at Rhett and reached down to hold his hand, “yeah.”

[iceglade]

i made a thread on twitter about this but i've been thinking about vanilla vs royal i cant handle how happy i am that royal has made ppl like akechi more, not just for "hes hot" reasons bc ppl love that but winning over reddit* folks who dislike many fanon takes for being too wooby,

not that i particularly care for Wooby bc ive been in fandom for ages and i like seeing ppl happy - i know theres a certain degree of allowance when it comes to twisting canon characterization for content, because you're the content creator, its in your hands and cmon- 

but especially with royal i think akechi's serious edge "won over a lot of people" who can now respect him for how he approached refusing the dream world, i think thats something they can understand and appreciate - ESPECIALLY when a lot of ppl's beef with vanilla akechi was "daddy doesnt love me boo hoo" which is a GROSS misunderstanding/simplification of his EXTREMELY complex character, which was barely covered or etc bc of vanilla's horrid writing -- over all! its not JUST him - BUT, royal provided such a good opportunity to show off akechi's character, through giving him more screentime and VERY IMPORTANTLY: Plot Relevance like how, say mementos mission shows off joker's need to be helpful bc hes a deep-feeling person, or scramble showing off haru and makoto and the other thieves by drawing them against the new characters to compare and contrast and give them Time to BE, - royal gave akechi time to recover from the frankly AWFUL vanilla narrative decision to shoot and shove him off like chopped liver and never mention him again, so that many ppl's impression of akechi goro was of an incomprehensible, annoying character who blew up and then acted like he dont knowww know bodaay haghnaghnahgna   

i joke but SERIOUSLY a bad first AND last impression, REALLY... 

ahh. im just surprised !! every time someone says they like him or that they disliked him earlier but dont post-royal or etc etc it always takes me by surprise even after all this time !! it makes me very happy -though even as i focus on how happy i am that people like his character, even streamers talking about his ass (what ass... ... cindy thats bone) or etc-  i shouldnt, but i still count it as a sort of win because my standards are so low ;-;.. i dont like sexualizing characters (of any gender or sexuality, dont worry ^-^'') but the point of it all is that the amount of stannery is .. stunning i think, from all ends of the fandom, when i think about how nervous vanilla felt to me. if im wording this all right.

-- that being said. obviously there are ppl who still dont like him, VEHEMENTLY, and everyone gets so passionate about him and everything that tension and fights erupt very very quickly - it makes me wonder what about royal didnt hit with them, but hit with other people, in a Genuinely Curious kind of way. not that im not suuper passionate about goroboying, because, i am !! royal makes me very happy and i stay out of fights as best as i can because i know, ACUTELY, how PAINFUL it is to have a hyperfixation broken. nauseous furious shaking heart aching - its heartbreak !! i'd rather die before i inflicted a pain like that on someone. + id rather remember something for the love i felt for it than the harm.

(though while i'm here, people who were in the "# p5r spoilers" tag remember what happened a little while ago shortly after royal jpn came out , though that's for a whole other post about the fascinating history/sociology of that particular event, 👁✨)

- its not about me having to choose between a lesser of two evils. thats not my point

no matter how intensely my heart is in it, i want to be able to say that you can feel how you feel about characters, though any misinformation sits badly with me in hyperfixation hell. funnily enough, while back on the topic of Agency, which goro is in some dire need of - which may be the root of why so many femme-presenting folk or lesbians are fond of him, + respecting women + sex workers + etc GORO AKECHI CAN BE SOMEONE SO PERSONAL ACTUALLY-

* - oh, backreading my own post - i didnt mean to specify redditors as if they're the only ppl i'm talking about, but it was the first to come to mind ; i'm just thinking a lot about how it seems like people really like the light royal was able to display him in, both as a delightfully entertaining UNHINGED EDGELORD and a very focused, goal-oriented, respectable ally, to the point that people are MUCH more open about how much they love him nowadays, which does bring me no end of joy - its no surprise that the new appreciation, as well as atlus ... highlighting ..... aspects ...... of blask ...... and the new content, of course the fandom treats him like this, - thats fandom. this is how people do i suppose. from a witness' viewpoint. hdngngm

i see all i know all 👁 i will keep all of my opinions right here and then one day i will die. but. i'll be honest. despite everything. im actually really happy.