#...also fun fact this is fic 100 for me which is why i pulled this one out of the wips graveyard specifically

[poisonhemloc]

Maybe It'll All Be Worth It

I have been meaning to write this since. uh. sept 2022. Good thing i never delete a plot bunny

[spencerreidenjoyer]

stress relief | spencer reid x reader

wc: 3k, rating: explicit/18+

warning/tags: established relationship, face fucking, blowjobs, vaginal sex, submissive!spencer, whiny!spencer, insecure!spencer (just a little, more like awkward lol), confident (and insanely horny) fem!reader

a/n: i'm back with more pwp!! surprise!!! i have no excuse. i wrote this in about 2 days. i needed to get it out of my system i think this spencer (s3-4) is crazy and perfect and i need him. also thank you for 100 followers on this little reid blog of mine! i hope to keep writing more on here <3

(p.s: you can find this fic on ao3!)

When you get on your knees between Spencer’s legs, looking up at him with wide eyes that spell sin, Spencer knows he’s in for a wild ride.

“You’ve been working too hard, Spence,” you say, shaking your head, speaking like you’re talking about the weather and not like you have a hand on his crotch, steadily stiffening under your touch.

You watch Spencer’s throat bob as he gulps. He blinks quickly, once, twice. “Yeah? You think so?”

“I know so,” you hum, fingers already toying with the button of his work slacks. Spencer had gotten home late from work tonight, but was still fretting over the stacks of reports on his desk in his home office in the apartment you share. After dinner, you’d convinced him to lounge on the couch for a bit, instead of getting back to work – leading you to where you are right now. “I think you need to relieve some of your stress.”

Almost like he’s nervous, his tongue darts out to lick his lips. “What are you thinking?”

“Orgasms release endorphins which contribute to stress relief, no?” You parrot the fun fact Spencer’s told you countless times, a small smirk on your face. As if your hand gently palming his cock hasn’t made your intentions more than obvious.

His eyebrows raise. “Oh. Yeah. Okay.”

“Wow, you could at least sound a little more enthusiastic about your girlfriend giving you head.” You deadpan, but you pop the button of his slacks anyway.

Spencer squeaks. “Sorry. I– I really want you to blow me.”

“I know, darling,” you coo, pulling down the zipper of his fly slowly, feeling the hardness of his cock pressed against it. His underwear is a bright pink when it gets exposed. You chuckle to yourself. “Cute."

Spencer flusters, laughing nervously. “Oh my God. I kind of forgot I was wearing those. Haha. Sorry."

“Baby,” you frown slightly. You’re not mad, not in the slightest, just amused with how he’s acting. You place your hands on his thighs, pausing with any of the action. “Why are you sorry? I think you’re so cute, you know.”

“My head isn’t on straight right now,” Spencer sighs, shaking his head. “I just want– Like, it’s going to be good for me, obviously, because you’re so good at this. I don’t need to want anything. I just– Want this to be good for you too.”

“It’ll be good for me if you stop overthinking it, Spence.” You smile. “It’s chill. Also, when do I not enjoy sucking your cock?”

Spencer covers his face with his hand, but you see him smile, laughing to himself. “You’re so crude, y’know? But I suppose you do really enjoy sucking me off.”

“I know.” You chirp. “And I do."

Your hand is down Spencer’s pants before he can even tell you to go ahead, but he knows that you know he wants it. Spencer hooks his thumbs into the waistband of his underwear, taking them off. His cock jumps up and you watch, fascinated with the obscenity of it all. Spencer’s cock curves up towards his stomach, reddening at the tip already.

You wrap your hand around his hardening cock, as you start to jerk him off. He lets out a high-pitched whimper, like he can’t control himself, and he cups a hand over his mouth. His eyes are wide as he stares down at you. You giggle, “It’s cute.”

“It’s kind of embarrassing,” Spencer says, his face a little red already.

You pout. “Come on, Spence. It’s really hot.”

His hand falls from his face to his lap, coming up to cup your cheek gently. “You like it?”

“You’re so sexy.” You nod. “Of course I like it. Now, make those noises for me again, pretty boy.”

Spencer squeaks as you tighten your grip around his cock, eyes fluttering shut as you stroke him. You work him up to full hardness – not that it takes very long for him to get there. You flick your thumb over the head of Spencer’s cock, tease into his slit where he’s steadily leaking already. His precome makes everything slick and sticky, easing the slide of your fist over his length.

Your eyes flit between Spencer’s face and his cock, marvelling at the growing mess in your hand and how his face is slowly but surely revealing his pleasure. He’s flushed, lower lip pulled in between his teeth, as you watch his chest rise and fall. His gaze pierces you, the intensity of how he looks sending shivers down your spine.

Knowing Spencer’s looking down at you, you open your mouth and stick your tongue out, pressing it flat against the tip of his cock. Spencer lets out a strangled breath, eyes bugging out at the erotic sight of you between his legs. You wrap your lips around him, suckling gently on the head of his cock. You hope to make Spencer lose his mind like this. With the way he’s breathing heavily, lips parted as he takes in all of you, you think it’s working.

His whines are more frequent, accenting his hard breaths. You see how Spencer doesn’t know what to do with his hands, watch as he digs his nails into the flesh of his palms, and you instead hold him by his wrists to put his hands in your hair. The weight is comforting, and encourages you to sink down on his cock more. You take more than half of him into your mouth, but Spencer being… well-endowed meant that you often never were able to fit all of him in, unless you were in a particular mood.

The tip of Spencer’s cock hits the back of your throat, once it’s slid in. You gag at the intrusion, and Spencer lifts you off of him, slightly freaked out. “Are- Are you okay?”

“Baby, please,” you sigh, endeared but annoyed at the fact that he’s getting in the way of his own pleasure. “Trust me with this. Just focus on feeling good?”

Spencer’s brows furrow slightly, lips drawn into a little pout, but you nod to soothe his concerns. “Spencer, I want you to use me–” You stick your tongue out to lick at his length again, making him shudder. “–Just like this.”

“You want– You want me to…?” Spencer trails off, unsure if he’s picking up what you’re putting down.

“Fuck my face, Spencer,” you say bluntly, tired of flirting in circles. It’s fun flirting with Spencer, because it’s fun to fluster him when he isn’t expecting it, but right now, when he isn’t getting the hint, you need to lay it all out for him. “Use my mouth like a fleshlight. Whatever you want to do. Please.”

He inhales sharply, stunned at your explicitness. He pushes his hair back, out of his face, taking the time to process… everything. His gaze is tender, though, as he gently cups your cheek. “Okay. Yeah. I can do that. But if you don’t want it anymore, you– You have to let me know, okay?”

You smile up at him, pleased that he’s finally letting some of his inhibitions go, even if he still seems hesitant. You pat the side of his thigh thrice. “I’ll do that if it’s too much.”

“I love you.” Spencer says softly.

“I love you too, Spence.” You hum. “Now hurry up and fuck my face.”

“Jesus, you’re so crude,” Spencer laughs. He leans forward to press a kiss to your forehead. Pulling back, he guides his cock to your mouth, the head of his cock pressing against the plush of your lips. His mouth is open when he looks at you like this. He whispers, “Fuck.”

You open your mouth to take him in, like you were before, sinking down inch by inch, until he’s comfortably settled in the back of your throat. Spencer doesn’t move to fuck your face yet, so you make the first move. You bob your head up and down on his length, making sure your mouth is wet and slick as you suck him off. He lets out a moan, hand fisted in your hair.

And here’s where it starts: You slow on his cock, and Spencer, finally taking what he wants, pushes your head down onto his cock for more. You gag slightly. Spencer pulls your head back up, pushes you back down. While you appreciate how much he cares about you, him putting his pleasure first in using you like this makes your toes curl.

Spencer’s cock in the back of your throat is not uncomfortable, not yet, but Spencer steels himself to fuck your mouth and you find your veins thrumming with adrenaline. Spencer’s first thrust is exploratory, cautious. He’s nervous, or it at least feels like it when he fucks into your mouth. You would tell him off, but your mouth is kind of occupied right now. Instead, you glance up at him, and hope that your gaze tells him to just fuck me.

One arm against the backrest of the couch, Spencer thrusts into your mouth again. He gasps. Chasing his own pleasure, his eyes flutter shut as he fucks your mouth. His thrusts are shallow, desperate, hurried, but his mouth falls open in stuttered, eager moans. He’s so gorgeous.

You’ve never heard anything so perfect, the way Spencer moans, the way he cries out your name. You press your legs together to stave off the arousal building between them. You feel like a mess, Spencer’s hand making a mess of your hair, Spencer’s cock making a mess of your mouth. You think spit is probably all over your chin right now, but he’d probably think you still look great anyway.

Spencer gasps, out of breath as he whimpers, “I’m– I’m close, I can’t–”

He fucks into your mouth once, twice more, before slumping back down onto the couch. There’s a slick, wet ‘pop’ as you pull off of Spencer, pouting slightly. “You know I’m happy to swallow, Spence.”

Spencer laughs, tired, and explains, “I know you do, dear. I just don’t think I have it in me to come more than once. And I really want to come inside of you.”

His words make you blush. Spencer doesn’t get too explicit too often, so hearing him say dirty things always turns you on. You reach up to wipe yourself clean, but Spencer’s already ahead of you with a tissue pressed to your face, gentle as he wipes your mouth and chin.

After cleaning you up, he helps you up off your knees and onto the couch. You’re both still clothed, sure, but Spencer’s boxers and pants have been pushed down to reveal his cock; you must be even more of a mess, hair rustled and face messy, and the desperation that makes itself clear at the sight of the both of you makes you giggle.

Spencer smiles at you. “What are you laughing about?”

“We must look insane right now,” you laugh. “We’re not even naked yet and we’re like this.”

“Well, I think you look beautiful,” Spencer says earnestly in a quiet voice, his hand tucking your hair behind your ear. Spencer’s touch is gentle, it always is, and especially in stark contrast to the way he’d fucked your face, just like you told him to. “My lovely girl.”

“Spence,” you purr, nuzzling into his hand as he cradles your face. “Love you.”

“I love you too.” Spencer’s answer is immediate, certain, and it makes you acutely aware of how turned on you are.

“I love you so much, and I really need you to fuck me right now.” You look up at him, watch as his face warms from serious to amused. You shift away from him slightly on the couch, but use the extra space to spread your legs. “Use this pussy, baby.”

Now, he presses his finger to his temple, shaking his head playfully. “Your mouth is filthy. You’re filthy.”

You grin. “Aww, Spence, at least tell me you like it!”

He leans forward to kiss you, hard and eager and desperate. You moan into the kiss, as his hand is pressed into the small of your back. You run your hand through his hair, where it’s starting to curl past the nape of his neck. When he pulls away, he says, looking deep into your eyes: “I like you. And your filthy mouth. Now let me fuck you.”

You giggle, wildly turned on as his long, deft fingers push your shorts and panties off. He kisses along your neck as he does so, then lays you back on the couch, and his thumb rubs circles into your inner thigh softly as he regards you, admires you. “You’re fucking gorgeous.”

“You are too,” you say, awed, as Spencer takes off his nerdy little button-up. His body is perfect – not skin-and-bones skinny, but there’s a healthy litheness to him that you appreciate, especially when you’re grabbing at him while he fucks you. “Want you right now.”

“I know,” Spencer hums soothingly, leaning forward to kiss your forehead. “Come on, love.”

Propping yourself up on your elbows, you watch, slack-jawed, as he wraps a hand around himself. His eyes flutter shut as he strokes himself, but he quickly snaps himself back to reality: guiding his cock in between your legs. He presses the tip to your clit, messy and glistening with your slick, and rubs against you in circles. You moan, feeling a little pathetic as you rut your hips forward to find any more pleasure like this.

Now, he presses the head of his cock to your hole, teasing, pushing it in slightly before it slips back out and spreads more of your slick across the rest of your cunt. You whine, pouting up at Spencer. He coos at you, “Okay, okay.”

Finally, he’s settled against your hole, the blunt head of his cock pressing into you excruciatingly slowly. It’s exhilarating, feeling him feed his cock into your hole, feeling him stretch you open, feeling like you were made for each other. He holds your leg up so he can press up closer to you, feeling so full as he puts his cock inside of you.

“Spencer,” you moan when he stops moving. “Fuck me. Just like earlier.”

”Okay, love.” Spencer nods, trails his hand down your waist and hips, down your thighs. “My gorgeous girl.”

Spencer thrusts into you, the first one sending electric pleasure through your body. He always loves to do it like this, make love to you slowly, intensely rocking into you until you feel all his love. You always do, but you don’t want that tonight. He knows that’s not what you want tonight.

When Spencer starts fucking you, his hips have gained a steady rhythm, your skin slapping together obscenely. It’s so wet between you two, where he’s pressed inside you. He fucks you hard and fast, eyebrows furrowed as he chases his own high. He’s so fucking cute, even while naked and trying his best to make you feel just as good as he does. He’s panting and groaning, your own moans mixing in with his. He knows you want him like this, hard and fast and messy.

You can’t form a coherent sentence, only able to babble and cry out for Spencer, for more, and you cling onto his arms as he pounds into you. You’ve never felt Spencer like this before. Sure, he’s always eager to please, doing whatever makes you feel good, but him going so hard, just like this, just the way you want makes you feel so needy, the both of you feeding off of each other’s desperation. All you can focus on is Spencer’s skin touching yours, the in-out slide of his cock, the slapping of skin on skin, the wet, slick noises of his cock fucking in and out of you.

“Cumming, Spence, I’m cumming,” You cry out needily, desperately, and you moan when he presses his thumb to your clit. He flicks at your clit in rough, hurried little circles. The pressure is cruel but just what you need for your release, and your whole body shakes as you orgasm. The high is so good, a different type of pleasure coursing through your veins.

You clench around Spencer, your cunt like a vice grip on him. Moaning loudly, his hips are stuttering as he comes inside of you too. He fucks out whatever momentum’s left in him, but pulls out quickly and gently, because he knows how fast you get overstimulated afterward.

He kisses your cheek, the corner of your mouth, then presses his lips to yours. The kiss is soft, sweet, tame, unlike the depravity you were engaged in before, and the juxtaposition makes your head spin. Spencer, who is usually such a sweet, soft guy, being able to fuck you so hard and fast until the couch was creaking underneath you. You suppose that’s what he’s capable of when you ask. You like it. You wonder what else you can ask him to do. You think he’d do it in a heartbeat, knowing him.

“That was amazing,” you giggle breathlessly. “Spence, you’re a madman.”

”For you, my dear,” Spencer smiles. “Anything for you.”

You snuggle into his side, resting your head on his chest as you lay on the couch. You’re both sticky and gross, but you’re sure Spencer will be more than happy to clean up later. Right now, you’re just pleased to be cuddling your boyfriend.

”So, do you feel less stressed out about work now?” You ask, after a moment of comfortable silence.

”Well, I certainly wasn’t thinking about work,” Spencer laughs. “You know, some sociologists believe stress can be caused by positive events too? I think you cause me stress, but it’s good stress.”

”Watch your mouth, genius,” you snark playfully. “You’re lucky you’re cute enough that I’d take being called a stressor a compliment.”

“I love you,” Spencer sing-songs.

You roll your eyes, but can’t help the stupid grin that forms on your face. “Yeah, yeah.”

[thesehandsfic]

hiya there - popping in to say i love your fics so much and am working my way through your trc/td3 ao3 tag.

lock & load was excellent - i love the idea of ronan & adam having a constant ongoing conversation no matter where either of them is, meeting up randomly and spontaneously, devouring each other, then parting ways again until next time or until they both happen to wind up in dc/at the barns for a few days.

had a query - what are your thoughts on ronan growing his hair back out? how do you think it would happen, if at all? what kind of conversations would happen between him and adam about it?

i just think it has the potential to be such a great character study of ronan a few years or even a decade post canon. i think you have a better handle on them & their dynamic than anybody else, so i’d love to know your thoughts if you feel so inclined to share :)

cheers!

hi!! thank u so much 😌

the greywaren epilogue gives us noooooothing so it actually is super fun to fill in those blanks and make my assumptions and cast my aspersions... when they're young i'm sure it's very exciting for them to live On-The-Go as it were

i DO think ronan grows his hair out, but i also think he shaves it back off. my ex did this. grow it out, shave it off, grow it out but a little differently, shave it off, grow it out again and remember why you shave it, shave it off. rinse and repeat ad infinitum sic nauseam. i don't think it really has anything to do with the fact he thinks he looks like niall; i think other people put this on ronan more often than he puts this on himself (unless i'm drawing a huge blank about canon and am 100% wrong-i'm not saying he never does this, but observers liken him to niall more often i think). i think ronan hates to stagnate. i think ronan was really suffering when he shaved his head the first time, and for a few years it continues to work for him, but eventually he does want something different. i think (maybe? perhaps? unless i'm going crazy) that it's mentioned he had pretty long hair in canon before niall died-i do not think he ever lets it get as long as he wore it in childhood. no matter what he does end up trying, he'll take it back to the buzzcut dozens of times, i'm sure. i really don't think adam would have anything to say about it--he's going to be out of his mind horny for ronan no matter what. he's probably enlisted to help with the buzzcuts, since it can be tricky to do the back of your own head or the skin around your own ears. i DO think he likes it when ronan starts to go gray. i think he thinks that's pretty hot. which isn't really what you asked, but that is something i think is true.

it's also my understanding there are some fics in the tag that do deal with this! i'm not personally familiar with them but it's been mentioned to me this is a theme a lot of people explore for ronan.

unfortunately my reasons for giving ronan his hair are both simple and self-serving. first reason is i think it's an easy way to show that he's grown, and an easy way to make it a little more obvious that he's put space between himself and his trauma. second reason is i think his curls would be cute. third reason applies exclusively to my pwp and it's almost always because i want adam to be able to pull it or drag him around by it. don't worry ronan likes it he's vibing

this is all just my thoughts feelings and opinions though so i hope this was a satisfactory answer for you!

[quidfree]

now, to the questions:

what was your favorite fight to write, if you have any?

what shouto meant when he said “Clearly I miscalculated in thinking I could adjust well enough. Won’t happen again.”? (what adjustment has to do with it?)

also: He thinks they will all be holding their breaths until this child hits adulthood. (... why adulthood?)

👀 would you ever divulge what hawks was keeping from shouto AKA what dabi/touya told him? i have theories!

why, what, endeavor did wrong when he arrested kajiya's father? shouto talks about the "sins of his father" and feels guilty because of how (he thinks) that relates to him, but i don't understand what endeavor actually did wrong there? he arrested a person who commited a crime, didn't he? kajiya elder's quirk was taken from him in prison like it seems to be the case with every prisoner and his family was left without assistance. but the lack of assistance is more the fault of the government and hero society as a whole, i don't understand how that is endeavor's fault individually. like, don't get me wrong, i don't like endeavor at all, fuck that guy, and he is somewhat at fault for upholding the wrongness of the hero society, but then most pro heroes are too, so i don't understand why shouto internalized that what happened to kajiya and her family is actually endeavor's fault specifically when what he did was arrest a person who had commited a crime.

and i'm not a l*o*v* apologist either, really (not trying to start anything but although they are fictional characters, i believe they should be held accountable within the story, just like endeavor should have been for how he abused his family), but why shouto seems to be more understanding of kajiya than he is of dabi/touya? i'm sorry but can't shake off that impression. and i mean, the two of them are quite similar: fueled by their anger at endeavor for what he did to them; act out by murdering innocent people just so they can execute a plan to get revenge on endeavor. what is the difference between them to shouto? like, both of them are murderers, with disregard for the lives of others and seemingly unrepentant; kajiya seems to directly have killed two people, but she is responsible for the deaths caused by the prison break as well. wouldn't it make sense for shouto to see more of himself/a mirror in his brother, because of the connection of them living with/around/through the same people in the same family?

oh boy okay let's take these in turn

despite the logistical headache, i really enjoy writing fights in general. i think i can give you a top two though. i remember just having fun with the godzilla fight, like just playing around with moves that were cool to imagine. and then the big quirk swap fight was a core conceit i had early in planning the fic so it took me ages to choreograph to get certain plot and character beats to happen, but i found it super satisfying once i had it down and i remember it being quite exhilarating to write because it's so dramatic and brutal.

this is hard to remember exactly!! i think given shouto's inner monologue right before this dialogue, he's talking about the fact that katsuki is angry that shouto got injured pulling a self-sacrificing manoeuver to (amongst other things) save katsuki from harm in the previous ch. katsuki of course is reacting poorly to this and sort of makes it sound like shouto's off his game because he's trying to be more protective of him (which he obviously resents) now they're seeing each other. shouto is understandably irked by this reaction because he would probably have pulled the same move regardless of circumstances, and in actual fact the reason he's being more protective is mainly that he feels guilty katsuki's not at 100% because of the quirk swap thing. but it is all sort of tied up in their unexpected relationship upgrade and the fact that katsuki from shouto's pov is acting really inconsistently towards him. all that to say when he tells katsuki he was adjusting, he's saying: "i don't have a problem/i'm not acting up/there's nothing wrong with me, i'm just adjusting to this us thing (on and off field)'. and then when katsuki (always insecure) immediately takes this as some kind of repudiation and respond like he's lying, it makes shouto double down and just be like 'my mistake for caring if you don't, i'll make sure not to do that going forward (asshole)'.

adulthood because they have not historically had a good track record with child abuse in the family. of course that continues into adulthood, but shouto remembers the worst of it all from his childhood, so he's sort of arbitrarily thinking he hopes no one fucks up his nephew/niece too badly in their infancy.

you know, the hawks thing was never something i set in stone, i just had multiple vague thoughts as to what they might have secretly discussed. feel free to share your theories and i can confirm what was closest.

yeah, the kajiya thing is absolutely just a systemic failure that she's kind of arbitrarily fixated on endeavor as the key culprit of because he's the face she can easily put to it. shouto is aware of this (and it gets discussed throughout the fic that the justice system was/is fucked) but 1) as a person he is very empathetic and finds it hard not to take this villain's personal anguish / vendetta to heart because in general he assumes a lot of responsibility for the victims of his family's actions, either direct or indirect and 2) a lot of his own frustrations with his father are tied up into how endeavor benefits from and exploits the hero system (can make it to number one *hero* while objectively being a terrible person who in his personal life is explicitly villainous for years, etc) and (this is more me extrapolating/theorising at the time than canon) was more focused on his statistics and numbers than the actual people involved in his defeats and rescues, which makes kajiya's point resonate for shouto because he really resents his dad's (previous) attitude towards the impact his actions had even on the field. it's not exactly rational, which is what other characters like bakugou rail against when shouto takes it so heavily upon himself.

this one was the hardest to answer because i can't remember all of my thinking here. but overall this is down to a couple of things, starting with the simplest one: i didn't know as much touya backstory / plot then as we do now! i think we knew for sure dabi was touya, but that was sort of it. and bnha has been a lot more forgiving/interested in enji and touya getting a lot of screentime to garner sympathy and justify their actions than i would necessarily have been if i was writing it, so back then i didn't expect shouto to be so staunch about healing the family/welcoming touya back into the fold- the canon i had in mind was that the touya/dabi thing would get revealed during the leadup for a sort of big final battle and then lead to enji self-sacrificing in some way to stop him from doing fatal damage to something/himself, which i guess isn't too far off, but i also saw touya as being very set on completing his vengeance and so causing serious harm to other 1-a kids in this final confrontation for maximum effect to shouto etc. the personal harm to people shouto loves would have been part of what kept shouto so cautious/relatively cold around his brother. after some unspecified but more morally grey touya redemption arc shouto and enji would have kept him from the death penalty, because as you say on principle i was always sure he would have a lot of empathy for his brother, but in this setting shouto would have found it very hard to rebuild anything with him after everything, and still be slowly deciding how to work with this relationship in the future. and then the second main point is that, with kajiya, he absolutely sees himself and touya in her (him and touya even discuss this a little at some point i think), someone consumed by revenge, which informs his empathy for her- but i think in a way it's easier for him because she's a stranger, not someone he has years of complicated history with and who tormented and harmed the people closest to him at a formative age. it's a subconscious thing, not a logical one. i think where the fic leaves off shouto would be motivated by the whole situation to go slowly revisit his brother.

hope that satisfies.

[hunter-sylvester]

Hi! I’m the anon who wrote the ask about Hunter’s parental issues and about his attachment to Kevin. Thank you for answering my asks, I absolutely love the way you write and how you explain everything! You’re extremely talented!🫶

I honestly didn’t notice how in love Hunter was with Kevin until I watched the movie a second time. It’s crazy how you can literally see all feeling in Hunter’s eyes when he looks at Kevin. I also loved how you said that their relationship fits a BDSM bratting dynamic, because I totally see it.

[and as someone who has ADHD and deals with RSD on a regular, I completely understand him. It sucks.]

Hey 🤘 [prev ask for context] Yeah I obviously couldn’t be 100% sure they were from the same person but it definitely makes the most sense lol

Thank you so much! I’m really glad you enjoy my rambling thoughts about Hunter as a character <3

If you do like my writing, I’m tempted to sheepishly gesture over to my actual Metal Lords fics over on Ao3 if you haven’t checked them out, even tho it makes me feel like a bit of a dick to do so 😅 (They are mostly locked to registered users, blame AI data scraping. The only Metal Lords fic not locked rn is a tiny ficlet. An Ao3 account is free tho 👀)

In any case, I really appreciate that you pushed me to do a bit of analysis again. Because sometimes I tend to forget that all the stuff that lives in my head as “obvious” isn’t always stuff I’ve said out loud on here lmao

There’s a lot to pull from the film if you’re willing to be a bit mentally ill about it.

And you’re absolutely right about the way he looks at Kevin, I mean, it happened enough for me to make a whole ass gifset of it lmao

Look at him. The boy is smitten. Clueless, of course. But smitten.

Which I credit basically entirely to Adrian Greensmith, as it was a vision he had for the character. I really can’t imagine Hunter having been played by anyone else as he brought so much to the role. (Fun fact, if I remember correctly: Noah Urrea, who plays Clay, originally auditioned for Hunter. No harm but I'm very glad he didn't get that. He makes a good Clay and Hunter just needed to be played by Adrian.)

One of the key things Adrian brought to the role also being, probably accidentally, his anxiety.

"I spent a lot of Metal Lords feeling a bit anxious [...] and in hindsight I wonder if some of that was just a sign that Hunter was quite an anxious character [...] I mean his body's so tense all the time." - Adrian Greensmith.

I shortened that quite a bit so I'm including a slightly longer clip of the interview audio for more context. (I can upload a subtitled video clip if anyone wants that as well as link the video on yt but I'd have to do a bit of a search for that)

Aside: If I had to guess I'd say he's probably referring to Peter Sollett who directed Metal Lords when he mentions a 'Pete'.

And yeah the bratting thing was a little bit of a joke but mostly not a joke. Without going absolutely off the deep end, the mentality behind bratting is something I really see in Hunter.

Evie Lupine has a wonderful video about bratting and why people would be interested in it (and why some people hate it) but a short snippet that always spoke to me from that is the following:

"The motivations behind bratting are pretty varied. I think one of the main ones would be a sense of security and comfort. This is when the acting out is sort of a way to be reassured that even when you, break rules, even when you push at things, the partner that you're with is not going to abandon you." - Evie Lupine

Obviously, with Hunter's fear of abandonment, it's easy to see why this would appeal to him.

He also just...idk he has brat energy - sincerely, a brat.

And Kevin does just play out the counterpart to that. He doesn't always have Hunter under control but he tries to.

And he does mostly act as that safe person to brat against, which again amplifies the impact it has when Hunter starts to think he's actually losing Kevin, destroying that feeling of safety.

Aside: I obviously don't think that these characters, in universe, negotiated for a bratting dynamic. In universe it'd be something that just sort of organically developed within their friendship/relationship. But even more than that it's an archetype of a dynamic that we as the audience can easily read into their interactions if that makes sense.

Can you believe the shit they will accidentally put in movies? lmao

And yeah, I have ADHD as well. And RSD is something that affects me pretty fucking severely. I've only really become more aware of it in the past year or so as my partner has pointed it out more and more.

So it's definitely something that I then noticed more and more in Hunter too.

Obviously this is all just my take on the character, and other people might have totally different interpretations. That's the beauty of art, we all get to find what we need in it and read it in our own ways, influenced by our own life experiences.

Thank you again for asking, Anon 🤘 (if you want to use a nickname or smth to identify that you're the same Anon, let me know. If not, that's totally okay too, but I might not always know it's you)

[walkawaytall]

Ooh very detailed asks, love it! How about 1 and 20?

Thanks! I've never written my own list before, but it was fun coming up with these!

On to the answers:

1. Have you pulled inspiration from media sources other than the property your fic is related to (a plot point from a TV show that has nothing to do with the characters/setting of the fic, a line from a book, etc.)? If so, for which story? Why did you find that media source compelling?

Well, I very openly ripped off an entire running gag from 30 Rock for the basic concept of Nemesis. The subplot of Jack having a nemesis who is a literal teenage girl who is just as into the rivalry as he is has always struck me as hilarious, so to shove Tarkin and Leia into those roles for a bit of crackfic was really fun, as was writing a Palpatine cameo that is sort of an unhinged version of Hank Hooper.

But, also, I am like 99% sure I had recently watched that episode of Community with Jack Black in it shortly before I thought of the idea for The Short Stick, and I think just the entire idea of "how annoying would it be to be a background character in this world where certain people are quite literally operating as main characters?" kind of snowballed into that fic.

Also also (and not entirely on topic, but it's topic-adjacent), I am positive I read a fic in which Han and Leia apologize to each other through gestures rather than words at some point during my Epic FanFic Binge Read of December 2022 and I immediately adopted that as headcanon. At the time I was not planning on writing fic, and I could not tell you which story it was (I seriously read so, so much during that time and a lot of stuff bled together and I didn't have an AO3 account yet, so there's no reading history for half of it), but that adopted headcanon sort of inspired the basic concept of Speak Louder.

20. Is there anything about any one of your fics that you have been dying to discuss but haven’t had the chance to?

Soooo, Han's motivations in Purpose of Heritage are not all Leia-centric. Like, a lot of his motivations aren't entirely Leia-centric at this point. The story's currently a little over a year past A New Hope on its timeline and while my intent is for there to be glimpses of their relationship with one another being different than their relationships with other people, he is operating on a mixture of motivations including but not limited to:

not wanting to be killed by a bounty hunter or Jabba

not wanting to be killed by the Empire

being friends with Chewie

being friends with Luke

being friend with Wedge

respecting Rieekan

finally kind of feeling like he belongs somewhere and realizing that he really likes that feeling

fearing the fact that he likes belonging somewhere and not wanting to face what that means about him needing others

shame over various aspects of his past

guilt for taking that damn reward money for sort of rescuing a person when like the only moral code that he is consistently dogged about keeping to is "don't treat sentients like product" (this is Leia-related, but still, I'd argue, not entirely Leia-centric)

and, yeah, caring for Leia in some kind of way

It's been really important for me to give him a mixture of motivations (even if no one ever sees them outright since this story is told entirely using limited third-person from Leia's POV) because I don't think it's likely that Han Solo was all-in on being 100% about the Princess all the time from the moment he stepped back on Yavin. I think he's a more complex and baggage-laden character than someone who is driven entirely by his affection for a woman he just met, and I promise that's the intent with which I've written his character even if his actions could be interpreted in a variety of ways.

Thanks for the questions!

fanfic writer asks

[mindthedocent]

6, 16 and 17 :333333

omg eden hiiii edennnnn :333

6. the word that appears the most in your current draft (wordcounter.net can tell you)

I'm fucking embarrassed that my most used word is "MIN" and my second-most-used word is "RYAN" and my third-most-used-word is "MIN'S" and my fourth-most-used word is "LIKE"

so idk what you want man. i write at an 11th grade level according to this website LOL

16. favorite place to write

in a word doc DUHHH

no uhh i havent written in a while (basically since getting the new job) but it Used to be, at the desk at work while i was supposed to be standing and running around and working haha,

i also like writing in bed on my phone, and on the couch on my phone :3 is the computer better? absolutely. do i pull it out ever? no <3 <-guy who is on their computer right now hence the lack of emotes

17hold on post paused why did it do this

anyway 17. talk about your writing and editing process

so ive definitely talked about this before! but each part is difficult in its own way i think. if im not feral about a story its gonna take me a long time to write. but when i AM writing, i have to make an effort to set aside time to do so. i usually will try to aim for like, 100 words when ive made a decision to write. but sometimes its just a sentence! and thats okay, it happens! im glad to get something down when the going gets tough. but yeah what happens a lot is that as it goes on i get less excited about writing it and i have to really push to get it finished. i DO like finishing fics guys i PROMISE.

once its done i let it sit for between a week and a month. i dont look at it. i dont even Think about it (try not to anyway, lol). once ive decided that its editing time, i read through it again. this first time is not Really the time for spelling and grammar, but i do correct those things as i see them anyway. no the first read is for flow. do i need to add more detail? did a scene drag on too long? did a story feel too short?

(fun fact, in committing to the bit, i reread through it when i thought it was done and felt pretty bad about my contributions to it and felt like id have to go through a rewrite, complained to my cowriter about it, fell asleep, woke up to them giving me a lot of positive feedback, reread it again, and then added in a couple short scenes. and that fixed it.) (points to whoever can guess which parts i added in last)

uhhh and then after reading for overall flow, ill let it sit again for another few days, and repeat the process. if it feels good, ill go back in and read for smaller things. spelling, grammar, awkward sentences. let it sit again, read it again. once it feels upwards of 85% good to me, i decide im done.

WHEW. its a lot of letting it stew and rereading it. i think thats what it takes sometimes. that, and letting it be imperfect. its never gonna be Perfect, but there comes a point where its gotta be Done, u know? u know exactly what im talking about

thank uuuu for this ask ily!

the quastions

[bluejeanstrash]

look idk if its because i reread vampires that night or what but i had a dream...😶

okayy soo you know how wonu literally made cheol mad right and he left (part 2) and cheol ends up making reader regret it (part 3). I literally had dream where wonu would end up asking reader to visit him in his room and tried to sort of "claim" her. So reader would be bruised really badly to the point that doctors need to be involved. Cheol finds out that reader is not able to attend him and he goes to see her. After much arguing, reader finally lets cheol in and he gets mad seeing her like that coz reader is his and HIS ONLY (he feels possesive😏). Fast forward, he goes to confront wonu and wonu literally says that, "idk man, she chose me instead of you that day" and they fought (KILL ME but idk why they started flying and fighting, like they pulled some harry potter shit😂)

After this the plot was kind of blurry, but it ends with cheol realising he likes reader and ends up being with her. Idk what hotel transylvania plot is this but yeaa that was my dream hehe... thought I would share this here coz literally and respectfully i think your writing caused this ahahahah😂. Been loving the series so far. Love your writings too well literally found your page through the manspread, mansplain and manipulate fic... I really loved those toooo🤭🥰 Not gonna lie, I reread those way too many times then I like to admit too. Well this message has been long sooo Have a nice day!!🤗❤

firstly, hotel transylvania plot had me CACKLING.

and secondly, thank you for sending this 😭 this was so much fun to read and i can totally imagine it? vampire wonwoo would 100% leave visible marks on you to remind seungcheol you’re not ‘his’ which would lead to a physical, pretty brutal battle. and then seungcheol finally claiming reader as his own.

also, thank you so much 😭 i’m so glad you enjoy my writing and also blushing at the fact that you’ve reread them?? thank you again and hope you have a good day too 🫶

[allylikethecat]

Hey! Only just saw your response to the ask I sent yesterday (the one about thinking of rereading all ur fics). You mentioned wondering which was my favourite and it might have just been a throwaway comment but I am DYING to talk about it so I’m sending this ask anyway. It’s going to be a long one I apologise.

I feel like my favourite atm has to be All the Kings Horses just because it feels so REAL and I have formed an attachment to the characters already. I adore how they’re all portrayed. But also it’s so clear that you know the world so well it’s so easy to be drawn into it.

Also on that note- do you ever think you’d write something to like publish? Not like a fanfic just something you’ve created ig? I mean it’s clear you definitely could if you wanted. (Also I mean twilight wouldn’t exist without a Gerad Way fanfic writer haha)

But back to your fics I feel like I also have an attachment to a lot of the stories in the infection verse. The first story of yours that I read was the one where he scratches his eye so I guess that one always has to be partially my favourite, the ear infection one that followed too.

BUT I also really love ducklings and it’s sooo good at the moment so that might be my second favourite maybe ??

Who knows. Anyway that’s all I was going to say, I apologise for the long ask if you made it this far :)

Oh my gosh seeing this ask has absolutely made my entire day!! Thank you so much for sending this my way, it was 100% not a throw away comment, I love hearing which of my fics are resonating with people, it's a great way for me to see what's working and what's not working in my writing since I strive to improve with each project / chapter! I also LOVE talking about fic, whether it's my fic or someone else's fic, so the opportunity to do so is always welcome!! Also never apologize for sending a long ask! Literally makes my entire day!! I'm also about to write you one back that is just as long if not longer so buckle up I apologize in advance I got excited lol.

I'm SO HAPPY to hear that you're enjoying All the King's Horses!! Currently, that is my absolute favorite fic that I'm working on and I know it's a very specific, niche AU so the fact that people are giving it a chance (and enjoying it!!) makes me so happy and so extremely grateful. I love that version of the gang so much - because it is an AU where they are not a band, I feel like I've really gotten to play around with how everyone fits together and knows one another which has been so fun! I'm excited to introduce a few more figures from IRL into the All the King's Horses universe! I also just... love horses and equestrian sports so much that it's like combining my two majors obsessions / interests and it makes my heart SO HAPPY.

In terms of actually traditionally publishing some kind of original fiction some day... that would be an absolute dream. I do have a collection of original projects that I've been working on in addition to my fanfiction, but nothing that I feel is "good enough" or that I'm ready to try and share with the world in that way. I'm seriously so flattered that you think my writing is good enough to even consider pursing traditional publishing with original work 🩵 maybe one day! For now I will be continuing to make Fictional!Matty suffer in various ways 😂

AHHH I'm so happy to hear that the Eye Infection Fic is the one that pulled you in!! I also have a huge soft spot for the Infection verse (which is why we keep revisiting that version of Fictional!Matty and Fictional!George) and I have had so much fun piecing together their world and also trying to make sure there aren't any major continuity errors since it was just supposed to be a stand alone one shot when I started haha

I'm also glad you are enjoying Ducklings!! I know that's another niche trope that people either LOVE or actively avoid so thank you for giving that one a chance as well! It's kind snowballed into a monster but I think I have some direction with it now, and I'm excited for all of Fictional!Matty's secrets to be revealed!

Once again, never apologize for sending a long ask!! Thank YOU for taking the time to not only read my fics but to type up this commentary on them! I am truly going like this !!!! and am just so, so, so grateful for the support and kindness of readers like you!! I never thought that I would be engaging with anyone on Tumblr about my fic, and instead have found myself part of such a lovely little community here. Thank you so much again and I hope you had a lovely weekend and that you have a great upcoming week!

❤️Ally

[spawn1644]

Boy Next World

I finished this after stopping-starting-stopping it like a month or two ago 🫣 please don't blame past me! The first three episodes are low-key slow until they start throwing straight grenades at the plot and your psyche.

Spoilers and thoughts below the cut!

So as I said, I spent the first few episodes struggling to get invested, but then I hit episode four and marathoned the rest in a single night D: (rip my sleep schedule).

This one had me live-blogging the entire show to a friend through text--I swear I sent like fifteen multi-paragraph messages. I'm tempted to track an ENG trans of the book down and read it because I'm still trying to wrap my head around everything. Tbh, I need to watch the special episode!!! but I can't find it anywhere yet!! Gah.

I don't get into the pairing/rp shipping and whatnot, let the men do as they please with whom they please, etc. But I do think it lowkey shows either how good of actors these two are OR how comfy they are with each other to uhhh go like that on camera in a room full of people filming you. And then look each other in the eyes and eat lunch together and whatnot five minutes later.

But I digress. The show was super cool and fun; I loved the alternate dimension stuff, and I love how the show fucked with the audience's head by pulling the rug out from under you like four separate times. I was fully convinced it was a sci-fi show and then Cir said he just "dreamed" up their whole relationship and stalked Phu for years, and I was like, "oh, so this is just psychological horror??" Which I was still into, and I started rationalizing/explaining to myself just how Cir would have gotten to be that...uh. mentally unwell, and everything the show did for the next episode or so really helped me flesh all of those thoughts out. And then immediately said HA! no it's sci fi, but we're doing psychological warfare to you :D

I loved all of it and I want to rewatch it with someone and come up with a million different universes and explanations for dark!Cir and what the hell that dimension even is, and why dark!Cir seems to be stuck there?? and what he meant by "hopefully this one will have a happy ending" hello???

The NC (I really need someone to explain to me what that stands for btw, I just picked it up from online discussions and whatnot) scenes were uhhhh distressing to watch as I sat with a hilariously ugly facemask on and caught my own reflection in the laptop screen when it got too dark T-T lmao. I had to pause the show and go clean off my face and mentally prepare myself because otherwise I was feeling WAY too self conscious to watch that. Why? IDK don't come at me. They were really good scenes!

The mom was a psycho, and I'm excited for the special episode bc I really hope Ozone has an actual PLAN for dealing with her, bc otherwise I will be deeply unimpressed with the ending and the idea that there's literally no other solution but to trade one son for another and subject SOMEONE to horrific abuse and control. How did she never get arrested for child abuse, ffs?

Anyway. My favorite part, tbh, is Jin as a whole but also the cute relationship building he's got going on with Wim. The fact that he can just read minds, you know, like it's hard? was incredible. His character was SO much fun and I want like 100 fics exploring him as a character STAT. He was such a little shit and having SO much fun and made me giggle and kick my feet like a kid when he was teasing Wim.

Anyway. 9/10 for me, pending the special episode. :D

[christinescupofcoffee]

sigh.

okay.

back in 2022, I tried kinktober the first time, under the name “eclipse”. In retrospect, I neither enjoyed it nor hated it. It was okay. It was rather interesting to see my own kinks manifest with the prompts, what came to me easily and which others almost felt rather overwhelming to me.

I tried it again for 2023 and it went. horribly. to say in the least. I pulled the plug halfway through.

I came back with it for 2024, and in a big way, too: the main bunch was called “Tijuana sunrise”, and then there was a set dedicated to one of my main kinks, which I titled “The hungry lion throws itself on the antelope”, and a set dedicated solely to Alex for his birthday called “Paradise.” 2024 was a lot of work: it took me away from my main writing and to add insult to injury, the reaction was rather underwhelming if I’m honest. I am not a fan of the community, either. I thought to myself, “why should I do something that I know is going to be painful and frankly, is just not fun anymore? Why should I do something that makes me feel like I’m doing something horribly wrong for doing on my own terms, that is 100% all me?” okay, the prompts for hungry lion were pulled from a kink blog on here, but the fact remains. I decided not to do it ever again. I stepped away from it and tried to not think about it anymore.

thing is, after a time, I began to regret that decision. Am I doing the right thing by saying no to it? Do I really want to sit it out? Last year’s prompts were all me. I wanted to try it because I just wanted to: I was in a headspace back in 2022 where I was really exploring myself. I haven’t left if I’m honest. Shame and disgust have never left me so I have no choice but to be in that headspace.

I have lots of time to decide on whether or not I want to do it again. I went to a Kinktober generator last night and created a list for the hell of it, and it gave me some fic ideas already.

I should probably tell you all that I do not do reader-inserts and I stopped taking requests a long time ago. I also draw a hard line at anything that involves pregnancy, “coming inside”, humiliation, anything forced, and noncon/rape — I believe in a thing called “ethical porn”. I don’t like size and praise kinks except in certain situations. There are kinks, like sex toys, that I grapple with even just thinking about it. I knew right away that I was going to get ran over last year because what I like is so much more different from the fics that get wildly popular on here and on ao3. Please be patient with me.

[mydeslexicworld]

It's been nearly a month since this all went down, and just when I thought the fires have cooled someone sent a comment that just...sigh...

Here is my reply to that person and I will not be responding to anymore like it after this:

I took a bit to respond, because I wanted to do to it both as kindly as possible and make sure my thoughts are conveyed clearly

I will address your message in parts:

What did you expect?

Respect as the author for the time and effort I put into my fanfics. A chance to show something a little different from the norm.

I'll admit, I made the mistake of thinking others read like me. If there is a Fanfic author I like and they use tags or pairings I hate, I will still give their story a shot because I like their storytelling style and want to see how they do it.

I had nievely hoped this would happen with me. I forgot readers can be quite stingy with what they like. I will be more mindful in the future.

It's an easy fix, why are you making it a big deal?

Writing does not come easy to me as someone with severe dyslexia. But none of you know that, because we're strangers on the internets. I have worked hard to develop my writing style, came up with tricks to overcome my disability, and use tools to get closer to the vision of the story I want to tell.

What is easy for one person is not easy for someone else.

Don't you know many RadioApple shippers don't like Lilith?

One of the wonderful and equally frustrating parts of Fandom is everyone's love for the characters. We want to see them in all sorts of scenarios, which leads us to create and share content.

Shipping is by far the most poplar form of content, and, in my opinion, it is also the most viciously protected by fans.

As Fanfic writers, of course, you need to know what is and isn't poplar within the Fandom. Here's the thing, we're going to write it anyways, because we a) haven't seen that story yet and so decided to write it or b) the plot bunnies demand it.

There's an audience for everything.

Why did you pull a bait and switch?

That wasn't my intention. I also had no idea how many people were invested in the story.

At the time, I didn't have that many comments or kudos on any of the pervious chapters to clue me in that there were more people reading than I realized.

I was also very open with the fact I was writing this series as I went with little to no planning ahead. I can't stress this enough: This series was also 100% meant to be a fun little side project, next to my main story. Again, I was open with this fact when asked, and I'm sure I put that in an author's note somewhere.

When I decided to pivot to RoyalRadio, it's because I wanted to try something different. I was excited to share the new direction, and I knew some people might not like the change. So I gave a polite heads up.

I did not expect the blow up. I haven't seen that on other fanfics. Even fics that failed to tag properly didn't get as much hate in their comment section as I did. It was unreal, and frankly, I wasn't going to seat around and be a punching bag because of an unpopular ship.

Why not stick to what everyone wants?

To create, you have to find some joy in it too. I am writing and sharing because I want to, and if I don't enjoy it, the story dies.

It is a slippery slop to give into others demands. To seek validation from others. If you're not careful, you can put your creativity at the mercy of others and lock it behind a pay wall for compliments that may never come.

I've been done that road before. I'd much rather enjoy writing and the whole frustrating process of editing.

Could this have all been handled better?

No. I didn't do anything wrong.

I am writing a story I want to tell. I communicated with my audience as often as I could about the direction of my story. How they take the information is on them. Since the response was overwhelmingly negative, I took the best course of action I could.

And I will continue to do so.

The end:

If you made it this far- firstly thanks for reading. I hope I've made my self clear on this whole matter.

The last thing I want to address in your comment is about seeing anyone as pathetic.

I don't. People like what they like. I respect that.

What I don't respect is telling an author who has invested huge amounts of their time and effort into writing something, you're DNFing their work to their face.

It's hurtful. It's discouraging. It's frustrating. Those words feeds the little insecurity demons that tell me "I'm not good enough", and "No one wants to read what I write"

Demons I've spent years beating down with bloody knuckles and spite. Once again, we're strangers on the internet to each other and none of you know the absolute bullshit I've gone through to become the writer I am today.

That is why my joy comes before others, because no one else is looking out for it but me.

I understood everyone's frustrations. I respect everyone's tastes. I took all the comments into consideration and determined I would continue to write the story I want.

If that means less readers..

If that means loss of trust...

If that means people put me on their DNF list...

That's okay. I'm fine with it.

What's important to me is my joy. Without it there is no story.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/63172471

The next installment of The Worst Kept Secret is out!

Just ahead up to everyone, I plan to pivot this series to RoyalRadio. I am looking forward to writing a ploy relationship, but if you're only here for RadioApple, I completely understand.

[lostinwoso]

Maybe a fic where the reader wheres mapis or alexias sweater and fans start to suspect their relationship?

Suspicious (Mapi León x Reader)

You should have known better than to wear your girlfriend's sweater to the game.

But with the weather not being as good as expected and not being able to play after pulling a muscle, you had no choice but to put hers on when you don't want to be cold during the entire game.

Of course the fans would recognize the sweater, not just given the fact that your girlfriend wore it the day before but also with it being her favourite one.

People always had light suspicions that there might be something going on between you, but nothing was ever confirmed from either of you.

So when the fans spotted you in her sweater, they immediately took pictures and posted them on Twitter, which leads to you getting countless amounts of notifications from said platform.

But with the whistle being blown, announcing that the game starts, you put down your phone and start focusing on the game.

_________________________________

At half-time the score is already in favor of Barcelona with it being 2-0 against Real Madrid.

Deciding that staring at the field during the break would be too boring, you pull out your phone and dare to look at the notifications.

You immediately see amounts of pictures of you in her sweater, with fans wildly speculating and some now being 100% sure that you are dating.

"Salen al 100%"

"I take that as comfirmation that they are dating, thank you."

"¿Perdón?!?!?!?!"

Chuckling to yourself after reading some reactions, you turn off your phone again when you see the girls coming out of the tunnel again.

With your girlfriend being one of the last ones to enter the pitch again, she quickly looks over to you and throws you a wink, which again makes you let out a little chuckle.

_________________________________

You are sure your phone will explode with the amount of notifications you get after this game.

Mapi got in a beautiful placed header after a corner and while walking back to her position she points her finger at you, showing that her goal was for you.

This, of course, starts the second round of fans speculating.

_________________________________

After the full-time whistle was blown, you make your way down to the field to celebrate with your team.

Finding Mapi you give her a big hug, "You know, our fans are super busy speculating about us right now." You whisper in her ear.

"Oh really, how so?" She asks.

Pulling out of the hug, you answer, "Well given the fact that I'm wearing your sweater and you dedicating your goal to me, might be a reason to why."

Letting out a sound of acknowledging, she sees fans keeping a close eye on the interaction between you both, and some even pointing their cameras at you.

Deciding to have some fun with them, she leans in, making it seem like as if you are about to kiss just to turn her head and put a small peck on your cheek instead, starting laughing right after.

Knowing why she did it, you roll your eyes and let out a laugh too, "Tease" you whisper before you two make your way into the tunnel.

Laying later in bed, you both scroll through the notifications, laughing at the reactions from the interaction.

[redfish-blu]

An Open Letter to the Danger Days Tumblr Community:

Now that you’ve read that overdramatic title and are wondering who fucked up, I have something to say about the Danger Days Tumblr community: I Love You.

Danger Days was the first fandom I ever posted for on any site. All the way back in middle school (ho-ly shit). And let me tell you what I found out even way back when: this is not an easy fandom to be in.

For one, most people don’t even know it exists. For two, even less know it in the way it’s been cultivated on Tumblr. Almost every single person has such a niche interpretation of every little detail, that it’s impossible to draw a line through any two versions of the story. Which is a fact I personally love, but I also think it scares a lot of people away. You have to work to be in this fandom. Both as a passive and active fan. It requires patience and tolerance for disappointment.

But that’s exactly why I want to encourage everyone who creates and everyone who listens to Keep Doing That. Like I cannot stress this enough, that is what keeps this fandom and IP alive. Danger Days as a universe would be absolutely nothing without fan work (re: the California Comics), especially a decade later. Without fans who care about this story way more than it has warranted us to care, it would be six feet under. And sometimes I really think that’s what it deserves (and maybe the writers think that as well), but for the life of me I just can’t let that happen. I’ve tried to let this fucking thing go, believe me.

And funny enough, that exact feeling is evidenced by the community on this site too. Which has changed faces almost completely from what it was three years ago for better and less better in some cases. And it’s something I still struggle with adjusting to, but I look at the tag daily. I look everyone’s posts and blogs and art and effort. If you have posted even once in the dd tag my eyes have 100% seen it. So even if I still feel a little out of place, like a ghost of fandom’s past, at least I know everybody. And I know people feel the same way: No rest for the wicked.

When I reanimated from my fandom coma I was fully expecting to find that the community had gone extinct. Partially because all the blogs I used to frequent had straight up died in the three years I was gone. But I pulled up to the gates of the Danger Days tag like Rick Grimes outside of Alexandria, fully expecting to be devastated, only to find New People tilling the fucking field. And it didn’t matter that I now had no idea who any of you people were, it was The Most welcoming thing ever.

I’ll be the first to tell you this fandom bares almost no resemblance to the one I left, and I’m not going to lie and say it’s better now, but the foundation didn’t get blown away in the storm. That’s what I find uniquely profound. That everyone here still wants to try. And that makes me really want to try. And I’m sure everyone would agree that there is often little reward for the effort; but that’s precisely my point in saying all this shit. That even despite the not fun aspects, we all still clock in; and there’s a new post, headcanon, drawing, or fic every freaking day. It’s commendable, really.

If you’re lurking, or post sometimes but feel afraid to actually take a leap here because (the fandom is comparatively tiny to the greater MCR fandom) you’ll be way more out there, and the already established figureheads of the fandom will definitely see your stuff: post post post. This is my formal endorsement to Just Post That Shit. And Interact With That Shit. I spent a year gathering the courage to publish the tiniest thing while behind the scenes I literally wrote about 60+ works. You have to respect your own creativity and trust that other people will give it the time of day.

So do not feel crazy or discouraged about your ideas here! Like we literally need them to function, I would not be here if it wasn’t for all the people three years ago who just posted all their thoughts about Danger Days. About everything. Obscure or not. It’s truly a gift that this fandom has attracted people who are willing to work their brains because the original creators let it fall flat. I cannot tell you how much being in this fandom has actually helped me out in my writing and analysis skills.

So yeah. I fucking love this fandom, I love being in it and I love seeing that people are still stoking the flames. I wanted to say all this crap because I knew I’d be able to articulate it for the people who can relate but don’t want to be the first to say it. Which is okay, understandable. As I said earlier this fandom is like yelling your thoughts out into a very echoey room that only has a few people in it. So I’ll shout first and maybe it’ll make other people more comfortable to shout back.

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GMMTV randomized shipping wheel pt.2

here we go again, I had too much fun with part one & a few of you wanted a part 2! so like last time, I put the current gmmtv cast on a virtual spinning wheel, spun it 20 times to create 10 random couples & rated them!

OFF X FLUKE GAWIN

I SWEAR I DIDN'T FAKE THIS LMAO 😭 so um... I did write a seandan not me fic & simply adore both of these babes, so... yeah of course I'm into this lol. I think they did have great enemies to lovers chemistry in not me, and them being work out buddies irl was adorable! they're also kings of having chemistry with literally anyone so I know given the opportunity they would absolutely SLAY 😌 also they would be such an attractive couple lol, sorry I need to mention that since both of them are two of my absolute ultimate celebrity crushes 🥰 and lastly since I've always wanted to see off in a ship with a guy who's taller than him this would be *chef's kiss* 9/10

FORCE X POND

hmmmmm... I don't really see it but to be fair, I didn't see force & neo either and that didn't keep them from absolutely eating each other's faces in the only friends mock trailer 😂 and I ABSOLUTELY didn't see pond & nanon together and that didn't stop pond from being so good at flirting with him in dirty laundry! so all of that to say that both force & pond have very flirty energies and are good actors so while I wouldn't pair them together out of my own volition, if it were to happen, I'm certain they would 100% make it work! 6.5/10

LOOKJUN X ARM

so I love both of these babes individually and they're both the king & queen of ig imo, but together on-screen? I'm gonna be honest, I can't really see it :( I do think if it were to happen they'd make it work bc they're both great actors, but idk why I feel like their chemistry wouldn't be great. 3/10

JJ X AYE

I... ain't mad at this in concept, but also can't see it at all?? I think it might be bc I've literally never seen these two interact before & they feel like they are just part of two very different worlds, but as a side ship?? maybe. I mean jj was really cute paired with neen in my gear & your gown and that was pretty random, and aye literally has chemistry with everyone, so... 4/10

OHM PAWAT X WIN

lmaooooooo I know this is probably some people's wet dream, but for me I'm like 😶😶😶 the nepo baby & the homophobic bully together?? to be fair, the visuals, acting & chemistry would probably be great, and honestly these two do have a common point: they both disappointed me on different levels lol 😬 4/10

KHAOTUNG X BRIGHT

so fun fact I am posting these pairings in the order they were chosen lmaoooo, this timing truly reminds me of that one very good fanfic that put sarawat, tine and fong together :'))) so anyways, I love khaotung & think he's an excellent actor who has chemistry with everyone, but... I think even him couldn't pull it out of bright lol. like bless bright's soul but even in 2gether it was a struggle trying to see him portray a queer character, and imo he's just one of these straight actors who is just too straight... 3/10

PLUEM PUSIT X DUNK

girllllllll 💀 be fucking for real lmao, I love pluem a fucking lot, bless his heart, but it's clear he struggles to portray good chemistry with another guy, and even dunk's good chemistry couldn't save it 💀 also physically they would look a bit weird together, idk I don't see it at all, 1/10

LOVE X CIIZE

NOW we're getting somewhere!!! so love & ciize would be amazing together imo, even though obviously I love milklove more. first of all, both of them have had queer roles before, love in bb and the upcoming 23.5 & ciize in my tee and waterboyy, so I know they'd do great! and also physically I think they'd be an adorable couple bc they're both pocket sized but look quite different which is great for on-screen couples imo! overall I will give it an 8/10!

KRIST X FLUKE PUSIT

lmaooooo, krist be collecting the fluke's of gmmtv at this point 😭 so as many know I love fluke pusit so fucking much & think he's an excellent actor who has amazing chemistry with everyone, but... even he can't save this trainwreck 💀 2/10

PODD X FAH

now THIS??? random yet interesting 😌 love them both, think they're both way too underrated & deserve a lot more, and I seriously think they could do a good job together! I also think physically they complete each other well & would look good together, and I could see them in a push & pull, enemies to lovers type of show. I'm sold! 7/10

NEO X MARK PAKIN

this one is obviously a bonus pairing bc they're gonna be a ship in both cooking crush & only friends haha, atp the wheel is getting too smart 😭 I'll give them an 7.5/10 bc I liked them from the trailers but I also do deffo still prefer neolouis

part 1

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Gimme some of that Clone Wars AU pls! Stirring the Sky

Hoooo ohhh man, Abby! The origin story to this one is actually pretty funny…and I know I’ve blathered on to you about my fics…BUT for everyone else…so a few months ago, an anon asked me if I had any sort of fic prompt ideas floating around in my head, which you can find here. And what do I do ofc??? Why, write out 5k worth of prompt ideas because a bitch over here can never stfu. And ONE of those ideas…I honestly got really attached to it and I was like…well oh NO I am going to have to write this, aren’t I?? It’s from the “Canonverse Divergent” section, I thought of this Clone Wars AU, and this is the original prompt I wrote:

“Clone Wars AU where Cal and Jaro are assigned to try and recruit the Nightsisters to try and get the upper hand in the war with Dooku (lol I wouldn’t say exactly a Dark Disciple route but that’s up to you). Merrin is voluntold (the opposite of volunteered) by Mother Talzin to try and become allies with the Jedi (they could have their own shady Nightsister ulterior motive going on as well), and Merrin reluctantly goes with the Jedi. And oooooooOoOooo wow the shenanigans that can ensue from that. (Merrin also has to try really hard not to lose her shit over leaving Dathomir for the first time in her life). I’d imagine a lot of frustrations from both parties. The clones mercilessly make fun of Cal and his Nightsister gf (but they also have to tell him what’s up). He thinks she’s unreasonably obtuse and rude, and she thinks he’s frustratingly smug/arrogant. Merrin could prove to be a definite asset in battle. Cal probably thinks it’s hawt 😳 OH NO SHE’S HOT SEE LOOK HOW WE GOT HERE WE LIKE TO HAVE FUN HERE.

Now suddenly she’s mysterious and complex, and he’s frustrated that he wants to know more. He’s actually the sweetest person she’s ever seen and she’s angry about it. She constantly has to check in with her sisters and it’s getting harder and harder to go behind his back or deny that she maybe might not hate him anymore she maybe even may want to smooch him WOAH who knows. They bond over feeling used in this war. Come on. You got it from here right?”

Soooo, YEAH…I gots a little too overindulgent in my thoughts and started writing THIS…but I am so very excited because it’s just the two of them being endlessly frustrated yet hotted up for each other at all times. All the clones ship it HARD. Merrin starts to grow attached to some of the clones that are very welcoming to her…actually fun fact…if you’ve read my fic “what’s grown between (surgery scars)” when Cal told Merrin about his clone trauma…I literally pulled what he was saying from this WIP…HEH…

ALSO, I honestly just want to live my best life and push forward my personal HC that I have of if Cal were older during order 66 or it never happened, him and Jaro would 100% have Jake and Holt energy from Brooklyn 99 agenda.

And I am so very excited to explore a lot of these themes that I’ve brought into my Merrical writing in a setting like this. Cal contemplating his feelings, his so naturally compassionate and empathetic spirit that wants to take care of everyone else before himself, and then someone like MERRIN steps into his life??? OOF I am gonna have some fun with this and the psychometric Jedi and space witch of it all. GOODNESS I am so excited for it.

AND SO…here is a long ass preview because I honestly didn’t know where to cut it off…Cal is answering a comm from their commander, Zand, on his and Jaro’s ship and well he may have sensed a presence while doing so…😏😏😏

When there was nothing there still, he turned once again to his original direction, but as soon as he did, there was a flash of green light and smoke, and suddenly, there was a figure there before him.

“There is no need to brandish weapons or administer threats Jedi,” she stated with her voice laced in malice, which ironically enough did feel like a bit of a threat.

Cal severely balked at this sudden interaction, “Who are you?”

The woman crossed her arms with still a severe expression on her face, “Does it matter? We are all just—unsettling to you anyway.”

His eyes narrowed as he put the pieces together in his head, “Were you—spying on me?”

Her expression changed to that of incredulity as she raised an eyebrow, “You left the door to your ship open.”

It was a bit shocking, her audacity as he bristled all over again, “Are you seriously blaming me for you trespassing onto my ship and listening in on my private conversation?”

This woman, who Cal only now after processing the last several moments did he start to take in her appearance, did give off such an intense energy in the force. Cal felt her ire, her disdain so much so that it almost made him feel dizzy.

A short breath escaped him as he shut off his lightsaber, and all she did was continue to glare at him. She was short statured with light gray skin and intense brown eyes. Her soft features on her face were adorned with tattoos that lined her forehead, her cheeks. And it was all coming to a head, feeling her emotions, his emotions of frustration, accost, but now he was also flustered, bewildered, and definitely anxious.

He hated to think, though it was sad, but true, that he thought she was astoundingly beautiful.

His mind tried to do a complete turnaround because that was very much besides the point, and he did his best to keep his mental shields up, having no idea what she was capable of as she finally continued to speak.

“Though Mother Talzin invited you here Jedi,” she said again with such derision to her words, “do not hold the false notion that you are in any way welcome.”

Cal almost wanted to laugh at her statement, his own ire stacking up again in his mind, and he actually welcomed it as it was much easier to process in the moment than anything else he was currently grappling with.

An exhale escaped his nostrils harshly as he kept up his glare, “Believe me,” he stated with his own contempt, clipping his lightsaber to his belt again, “I would like to get off this force forsaken planet as soon as possible.”

She tilted her head at him, seeming to descry in her own way, which caused the fringe of her silver blonde hair to slightly cascade into her eyes as they scanned over him. It made him—exceedingly uncomfortable for a multitude of reasons he really couldn’t dwell on at the moment.

“That is at least something we can agree on Jedi,” she uttered in a flatter tone than she had before, but still possessed an air of intolerance.

“I have a name you know. Don’t know how I’d get around the confusion of actually just going by the moniker of Jedi,” he stated in what was a mockery of her sardonic tone of voice.

She stood there still for several moments as she raised an eyebrow at him, which to him translated into some form of her being through with his banthashit.

“Jedi…the Jedi?” The Nightsister questioned with a genuine air of perplexment to her voice.

Honestly, once she said it out loud, Cal really wasn’t sure what he was even trying to accomplish. Was he trying to make a joke? Was he trying to be a smartass? Was he trying to break the tension? If Jaro was asked, he’d probably claim that Cal would try and accomplish all of the above.

“What, are you attempting to be clever or snide?” She asked as she began to take careful steps circumventing him, “Or just insulting? You think you can come to my home and disrespect me in such a way?”

Cal crossed his arms as he scoffed, “You’re the one who snuck onto my ship first, Nightsister.”

If she was going to address him in such a way he’d do it right back. He was feeling that petty.

Though, he very much resented himself when his mind flashed with the title ‘Nightsister, the Nightsister,’ and he had to hold back a stupid smirk.

She was temporarily out of his view, though he still felt her, always felt her as she too laughed humorlessly, “You are extremely full of yourself, aren’t you Jedi?”

The way she said it this time seemed to give off the same amount of snark he was emanating.

Cal waited until she was there in his vision again as he slightly upturned his chin to her.

“I bet you’d like to think so, wouldn’t you? Profile me, put me in a box of whatever your false perceptions of Jedi are,” Cal almost barked at her. Force, he didn’t even remember the last time he’d been so irritated with a person.

“And you are not doing the same to me? Making your own assumptions and insulting something you don’t even understand.”

Another scoff was in his throat, “Yeah, and let’s still not forget how you acquired such information from me.”

Her glare was fierce again as the disparagement was almost palpable on her face now, “I only was scoping out the situation because I have my people’s interest in mind.”

Cal realized he was flexing his arms now as they were still crossed over his chest out of sheer frustration, “You could have just asked me you know; I would have been more than willing to speak with you about any such matters that occur with my order.”

“And how was I to know this? All I have heard about Jedi is that they are liars and selfish thieves!” She exclaimed.

Again. He was taken such aback again at the gull.

“And where in the hell did you hear that? A Separatist the people The Republic is trying to stand against?” He said, but then he already had another retort on his tongue, “And for that matter, we were the ones that were invited here and ever since we arrived, all we have gotten from you is blatant disdain when we hadn’t even done anything!”

“None of us wanted you here!”

“That’s not my problem! Don’t take your misplaced frustration out on me!”

His statement seemed to give her pause, and Cal hadn’t even realized that they’d somehow managed to step closer and closer to one another in this skirmish and were definitely in one another’s personal space.

Kriff, how did I end up here?

Her eyes were narrowed up at him as he still found that anger, but he also cornered something else in them that was not easy to place.

“You should have never come to Dathomir Jedi,” she admonished in a strained tone.

A short sigh fell out of his mouth.

“Cal.”

For the first time, he found actual confusion on her countenance, “What?”

“Cal, my name is Cal Kestis, not Jedi. Again, I don’t go by Jedi the Jedi.”

Honestly, he wasn’t exactly sure why he said it. At this point he recognized they were both being assholes to each other.

Her eyes were all over him again though as she leaned back to cross her arms, “Do you think you are exceedingly hilarious, Cal?”

He didn’t know what it was. The concept of his nomenclature was always simple, straightforward concept in his mind, but there was something in the way that she said it, the timbre of her voice, that drove him insane.

And that sort of insanity seemed to have many faces right now, many of which were irritation.

Still, he crossed his arms all the same, “I am starting up my own comedy tour, actually.”

And never in his life, as he was already trying to convince himself that it wasn’t true, had he ever been so…aroused by the utterance of his own name.

This…he needed to get himself out of this situation now.

Her eyes scanned him again, “I do not find your antics the least bit entertaining.”

“Well, I guess I won’t be reserving the cranky Nightsister a seat, now will I?”

A narrowed gaze in his direction now. And he wasn’t sure how he felt—about being under her scrutiny.

“You are extremely arrogant and insolent,” she declared, her eyes still fierce, “but it is not as if that really matters, Cal.”

He was very much resenting the shiver that was sent down his spine.

SOOO YEH, hope you guys are as excited for this one as I am!!! I literally think these two don't even have the ability to be around one another and NOT be super horni right off the bat for each other haha.

SHENANIGANSSSS